Wednesday, December 31, 2008
New Year's Eve
Happy New Year's everyone.
Be sure to open the back door and very seriously kick out the old you for being rude and overstaying his welcome. He was not a nice guest.
Then be sure to open your front door and welcome in the new year. Pray he will be a better guest.
Midnight can't come fast enough. This migraine is killing me... even after advil.
Be sure to open the back door and very seriously kick out the old you for being rude and overstaying his welcome. He was not a nice guest.
Then be sure to open your front door and welcome in the new year. Pray he will be a better guest.
Midnight can't come fast enough. This migraine is killing me... even after advil.
Monday, December 29, 2008
PRETTY!
So, I went to the store today after a good long nap. I dropped off my gift for Francois. I think he liked it.
Then I struggled through traffic and stupid people to get to Chapters. Even got rear-ended by the car behind me. No damage. Just a goodly BUMP. Thankfully on the center of my back bumper. Once parked I was immeasurable relieved. I headed right in for the agenda section and picked out the red leather agenda i wanted. It was 50% off so I roamed and roamed for something else. I found a Zen Art Box. It comes with two essays from two people whose writing I have studied on Zen and on Art. Inside was a little stand and a pile of large cards with images of Zen Art. The back of each card has commentary from each author on the work. I plaed it on the shelf in the stairwell to pretty it up. JOY!
The day was then smooth as I finished a chunk of ritual stuff and a section of my BOS. We had an early dinner and I had pie for dessert. So yummy! I love Roo's pie.
We never got to my Nanny's for breakfast. She cancelled. Again. I will try for New Year's day. failing that, I'll just mail her her Yule gifts.
Then I struggled through traffic and stupid people to get to Chapters. Even got rear-ended by the car behind me. No damage. Just a goodly BUMP. Thankfully on the center of my back bumper. Once parked I was immeasurable relieved. I headed right in for the agenda section and picked out the red leather agenda i wanted. It was 50% off so I roamed and roamed for something else. I found a Zen Art Box. It comes with two essays from two people whose writing I have studied on Zen and on Art. Inside was a little stand and a pile of large cards with images of Zen Art. The back of each card has commentary from each author on the work. I plaed it on the shelf in the stairwell to pretty it up. JOY!
The day was then smooth as I finished a chunk of ritual stuff and a section of my BOS. We had an early dinner and I had pie for dessert. So yummy! I love Roo's pie.
We never got to my Nanny's for breakfast. She cancelled. Again. I will try for New Year's day. failing that, I'll just mail her her Yule gifts.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
squee
So my staff stocking had cool stuffs in it. I gift card to chapters will be used tomorrow providing chapters has the agenda i want this time. There was a red leather one I liked. I might get it if it is still there in lieu of the one that is similar to the journal Autumn got me for Yule. Sam made me a beautiful satchel in orange doeskin and carnelian patterned fabric. AND... squee... it is the right size to carry my Pai Sho box of pieces.
My secret santa was stealthy and got me the scented soy candles I wanted and tea from a company I really like. She also got me a pretty tea mug that I added to my collection.
I was a DORK and left the gift I was supposed to give at home. I will deliver it tomorrow.
Food was amazing, everyone brought such yummy stuff! That pasta salad was to die for! The boss's house is so pretty. The kids were great and adorable. I am so sorry about scaring one about the tooth. The company was wonderful, relaxes and just chillin while watching Wall*E. I never saw it before. I watched in snippets here and there. I really think that maybe I should watch it for real right through now. And... apparently there is a many people gaming night for forlks planned at the Boss's later.
My secret santa was stealthy and got me the scented soy candles I wanted and tea from a company I really like. She also got me a pretty tea mug that I added to my collection.
I was a DORK and left the gift I was supposed to give at home. I will deliver it tomorrow.
Food was amazing, everyone brought such yummy stuff! That pasta salad was to die for! The boss's house is so pretty. The kids were great and adorable. I am so sorry about scaring one about the tooth. The company was wonderful, relaxes and just chillin while watching Wall*E. I never saw it before. I watched in snippets here and there. I really think that maybe I should watch it for real right through now. And... apparently there is a many people gaming night for forlks planned at the Boss's later.
Yule Continues...
Today after sleeping in LONG (which helped immeasurably with the monthly cramps of death), we went to Zellers to use the gift cards from my brother. Part of me feels very lame. We bought groceries... at Zellers. Because we seriously had nothing left here. The husband was supposed to get a Christmas bonus from work. But the reviews are not back yet and so he doesn't have his bonus yet.
So... groceries. And I wanted to buy something fun with it. Oh well.
We had a great brunch of cheese omelets, toast and bacon.
After brunch, we discusses coven stuff together, did laundry, and prepared our pot luck food for tonight's party.
The wind outside is so very bad that I was worried that the backyard neighbor's Pine tree was going to snap and crash into our yard. Weather has been ridiculously warm with rain and giant puddles and temps of almost 10 degrees Celsius! The temp will drop tonight and freeze everything SOLID. I will make sure that halt is scattered before we leave tonight, so we can actually safely walk up our stairs when we come home.
We have a Yule party for the store staff tonight! YAY! I am dying to open my stocking. At the store we put up stockings for all the staff members, even the cat! Then staff and friends and customers fill our stockings. SO FUN! Peeking was forbidden over the weeks, but I permitted squooshing. *GRIN*
Tomorrow, we drive up to my Nanny's for breakfast and gifts there. Usually we do this every Boxing Day, but I had to work this Boxing Day.
Some time after that is a Tea House double date for Yule and a last mini gathering with some friends. Maybe close to New Year's or on New Year's Day? Yes... Yule goes on like this for us. It is not one day. It makes Yule such a fun time of year as we get to see all kinds of people we often don't just sit with. Family and firends... we are so blessed.
So... groceries. And I wanted to buy something fun with it. Oh well.
We had a great brunch of cheese omelets, toast and bacon.
After brunch, we discusses coven stuff together, did laundry, and prepared our pot luck food for tonight's party.
The wind outside is so very bad that I was worried that the backyard neighbor's Pine tree was going to snap and crash into our yard. Weather has been ridiculously warm with rain and giant puddles and temps of almost 10 degrees Celsius! The temp will drop tonight and freeze everything SOLID. I will make sure that halt is scattered before we leave tonight, so we can actually safely walk up our stairs when we come home.
We have a Yule party for the store staff tonight! YAY! I am dying to open my stocking. At the store we put up stockings for all the staff members, even the cat! Then staff and friends and customers fill our stockings. SO FUN! Peeking was forbidden over the weeks, but I permitted squooshing. *GRIN*
Tomorrow, we drive up to my Nanny's for breakfast and gifts there. Usually we do this every Boxing Day, but I had to work this Boxing Day.
Some time after that is a Tea House double date for Yule and a last mini gathering with some friends. Maybe close to New Year's or on New Year's Day? Yes... Yule goes on like this for us. It is not one day. It makes Yule such a fun time of year as we get to see all kinds of people we often don't just sit with. Family and firends... we are so blessed.
Friday, December 26, 2008
First Time!
Since someone is soooo on vacation that not even dishes were washed, I got tyo christen the new cookware set! I am learning that my parents gave us the most awesome cookware set of pots. They are by EARTHchef which is an environmentally friendly company.
http://www.earthchef.ca/aboutEarthChef.html
It really is non-stick and there is no aftertaste. I never thought that my other pots left an aftertase. Now I do. I love this new set. And oh look! They are sold at HBC places and my brother gave us gift cards for HBC. I think I want a loaf pan to bake my own bread.
On my wishlist is a KichenAid, as I covet my mom's and now the neighbor's. I so0 need my own.
*sigh*
Well, enjoying being the FIRST to use the new pots. MUWAHAHAHAHAHA!
This was my reward for working the holidays. Today went well till work just died by 6pm. We closed at 7pm. Then went boxing day shopping with Roo. All the stores seemed empty. Also, all the really cool stuff was bought already. Guess that is why all the stores were empty. *shrug* Also, the sidewalks and roads were pure ICE.
This evening, I am "on vacation" thank you very much.
I have to work tomorrow. Bake cookies, and go to a party. At least the party is just downstairs. I can wander down at my liesure, stay however long is comfy and wander up again. I don't even have to put my shoes on!
Thank you powers that be for an awesome fun holidays thus far, one that is safe and full of the things most people take for granted.
http://www.earthchef.ca/aboutEarthChef.html
It really is non-stick and there is no aftertaste. I never thought that my other pots left an aftertase. Now I do. I love this new set. And oh look! They are sold at HBC places and my brother gave us gift cards for HBC. I think I want a loaf pan to bake my own bread.
On my wishlist is a KichenAid, as I covet my mom's and now the neighbor's. I so0 need my own.
*sigh*
Well, enjoying being the FIRST to use the new pots. MUWAHAHAHAHAHA!
This was my reward for working the holidays. Today went well till work just died by 6pm. We closed at 7pm. Then went boxing day shopping with Roo. All the stores seemed empty. Also, all the really cool stuff was bought already. Guess that is why all the stores were empty. *shrug* Also, the sidewalks and roads were pure ICE.
This evening, I am "on vacation" thank you very much.
I have to work tomorrow. Bake cookies, and go to a party. At least the party is just downstairs. I can wander down at my liesure, stay however long is comfy and wander up again. I don't even have to put my shoes on!
Thank you powers that be for an awesome fun holidays thus far, one that is safe and full of the things most people take for granted.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Awesomest dad ever!
Christmas at my parents' place was the most awesome this year! We have a labeler to label the herb and tea jars. We have an incredible cookware set. OMG... feeling grown up. I have REAL pots. Not the hand-me-downs thrice over. I received a pretty painted ceramic plaque with kanji on it from my niece. HBC gift cards from my brother's family. A backpack picnic set, like I have wanted for years, from my sister.
The best gift ever though... was the Avatar: the Last Airbender completes pai sho board AND box with TWO sets of playing tiles prepped and ready for me to add images. Below are pictures of my sweet gift all handmade by my dad! The board folds in half, on hinges, with handles to be carried. It is heavy by the way!
The best gift ever though... was the Avatar: the Last Airbender completes pai sho board AND box with TWO sets of playing tiles prepped and ready for me to add images. Below are pictures of my sweet gift all handmade by my dad! The board folds in half, on hinges, with handles to be carried. It is heavy by the way!
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
BUSY & In-laws
Work was BUSY and a bit crazy! All my staff were either out of town or deathly ill. I worked Christmas Eve at the store all by my lonesome! EGHADS! Not again. I managed, and everyone was at least very nice to me while I tried to serve the over 20 people in my store at once. I never got a break. I was STARVING!
I came home and relaxed a bit and nibble some rice. I wanted lunch so bad, but it was after 3pm and dinner was due at 5pm in Blainville with the in-laws.
I love my in-laws. They are such a wonderful family. We had a delicious dinner of lobster. Yes, I have discovered that I like lobster. We also had escargot and tiger shrimp. MMmmmMMmmm. Dessert was the husband's famous crepes.
We received a bunch more Best Buy gift certificates. YAY! We feel a teensy bit closer to the 46-inch Sharp Aquos we want. The hubby got a new pillow, I got a new sweater.
The drive home was bad, but not as bad as I thought it would be. The wind is just now picking up. Please, everyone, drive very carefully.
I have icing sugar... YAY! It was my missing (no longer) ingredient. Guess what I am going to do. I am going to bake my first, very very first, batch of shortbread cookies unsupervised by my mom.
I came home and relaxed a bit and nibble some rice. I wanted lunch so bad, but it was after 3pm and dinner was due at 5pm in Blainville with the in-laws.
I love my in-laws. They are such a wonderful family. We had a delicious dinner of lobster. Yes, I have discovered that I like lobster. We also had escargot and tiger shrimp. MMmmmMMmmm. Dessert was the husband's famous crepes.
We received a bunch more Best Buy gift certificates. YAY! We feel a teensy bit closer to the 46-inch Sharp Aquos we want. The hubby got a new pillow, I got a new sweater.
The drive home was bad, but not as bad as I thought it would be. The wind is just now picking up. Please, everyone, drive very carefully.
I have icing sugar... YAY! It was my missing (no longer) ingredient. Guess what I am going to do. I am going to bake my first, very very first, batch of shortbread cookies unsupervised by my mom.
Christmas Eve
This will be a busy busy day.
Last night I opened up the card received and *SQUEE!!* Thank you!! There was an addition to our TV fund. HUZZAH!
Yesterday I also finalized the purchase of 2 lovely bracelets from Roo.
Too broke now for the Ikea trip planned on Monday. *sigh* But I will have money for the Tea House Double Date Tuesday night.
Cloak, the hubby's polydactylic cat, was bad... AGAIN! The night before he turned over the empty garbage can MANY times throughout the night and early morning. Last night, he climbed up to the top of a difficult shelf to chew and knock a plant from that spot. The plant was ruined. Earth was (still is) everywhere. I got it all off the floor, and most out of each shelf, but a thorough shelf-by-shelf cleaning will have to happen. I wanted to kill that cat, I was so mad. He got dumped in the basement for the husband to deal with.
He has been more behaved so far since then. The cats even let me sleep in till I woke on my own this morning. I woke on my own for like a minute at 5am. However, I really woke on my own at 8am. The joints are hurting. I think we will have wet snow today. I looked outside to see why it was so dark... ya, snow clouds.
So, back to today's busy! It is Christmas Eve! I have to work at the store till 3pm. I have been debating what to wear. Pretty and non-functional? Pretty, functional, but fits funny? I have Christmas Eve plans with the husband's family this evening. We always dress up. Decided! I will go with the latter rather than the former. The former doesn't allow lounging and there is much lounging at this evening's event.
Last night I opened up the card received and *SQUEE!!* Thank you!! There was an addition to our TV fund. HUZZAH!
Yesterday I also finalized the purchase of 2 lovely bracelets from Roo.
Too broke now for the Ikea trip planned on Monday. *sigh* But I will have money for the Tea House Double Date Tuesday night.
Cloak, the hubby's polydactylic cat, was bad... AGAIN! The night before he turned over the empty garbage can MANY times throughout the night and early morning. Last night, he climbed up to the top of a difficult shelf to chew and knock a plant from that spot. The plant was ruined. Earth was (still is) everywhere. I got it all off the floor, and most out of each shelf, but a thorough shelf-by-shelf cleaning will have to happen. I wanted to kill that cat, I was so mad. He got dumped in the basement for the husband to deal with.
He has been more behaved so far since then. The cats even let me sleep in till I woke on my own this morning. I woke on my own for like a minute at 5am. However, I really woke on my own at 8am. The joints are hurting. I think we will have wet snow today. I looked outside to see why it was so dark... ya, snow clouds.
So, back to today's busy! It is Christmas Eve! I have to work at the store till 3pm. I have been debating what to wear. Pretty and non-functional? Pretty, functional, but fits funny? I have Christmas Eve plans with the husband's family this evening. We always dress up. Decided! I will go with the latter rather than the former. The former doesn't allow lounging and there is much lounging at this evening's event.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
death i am
I feel like death... death that was warm but shaken repeatedly, then frozen, then chilled for hours at an attempted room temperature, then frozen, the beaten, then warmed over again.
The day was hard. The very poor sleep ruined me. The day was BUSY when I started in the store alone today. I managed. People were spectacularly nice. The boss came in and though was also having a bad day was also spectacularly nice. It made the day at work much easier to bear today. I nibbled random bits of lunch while standing as the store got psycho busy till the late afternoon help arrived. Then it was quiet... and I crashed. Whatever I was living off of to manage working in the store fizzled out. I crashed hard. I couldn't even string a complete sentence together. I thank staff for letting me go home a couple hours early. I drove home with this desperate need to buy ketchup. Then had to shovel my way INTO my driveway. So I did. When I got home, I crashed asleep without even unpacking.
This deep exhaustion feels like I do just before my "moontime".
Well I am awake. I forgot take out the butter this morning for the shortbreads I have been craving and decided to just make myself. It is out now. I hope it softens in time for me to make them tonight.
Plans have changed. I'll eat dinner and work on the ritual stuff a bit. I will see how things go from there.
The day was hard. The very poor sleep ruined me. The day was BUSY when I started in the store alone today. I managed. People were spectacularly nice. The boss came in and though was also having a bad day was also spectacularly nice. It made the day at work much easier to bear today. I nibbled random bits of lunch while standing as the store got psycho busy till the late afternoon help arrived. Then it was quiet... and I crashed. Whatever I was living off of to manage working in the store fizzled out. I crashed hard. I couldn't even string a complete sentence together. I thank staff for letting me go home a couple hours early. I drove home with this desperate need to buy ketchup. Then had to shovel my way INTO my driveway. So I did. When I got home, I crashed asleep without even unpacking.
This deep exhaustion feels like I do just before my "moontime".
Well I am awake. I forgot take out the butter this morning for the shortbreads I have been craving and decided to just make myself. It is out now. I hope it softens in time for me to make them tonight.
Plans have changed. I'll eat dinner and work on the ritual stuff a bit. I will see how things go from there.
Tuesdays suck...
Well at least this one does. One of our cats decided to knock over the EMPTY garbage can, looking for chicken bits, at 5;30am, then again at 6:30am, and again at 7:00am. I was furious. I couldn't even box him in Kitty Jail as my cat carrier was in the car for a trip to the store today. By 7:30am, I gave up trying to sleep. The 3.5 hours I got will have to suffice.
Please... no one bother me or piss me off today. My fuse is VERY short.
Today's plan:
- work 10am-6pm
- dinner
- contact Nanny about breakfast on Friday morning
- meditation
- BOS writing
- Fanfic epilogue
- relax
Oh... and here comes the expected migraine. *groan* Guess i will take advil and get ready to leave now.
Please... no one bother me or piss me off today. My fuse is VERY short.
Today's plan:
- work 10am-6pm
- dinner
- contact Nanny about breakfast on Friday morning
- meditation
- BOS writing
- Fanfic epilogue
- relax
Oh... and here comes the expected migraine. *groan* Guess i will take advil and get ready to leave now.
Monday, December 22, 2008
Love Mondays
They are great for my productivity and spiritual well being. My morning was full of cleaning and writing.... after being rudely woken at 8am by yet another person calling IGA.
I finished the last bits of the CMS L2 first trimester teacher's manual and started on the second trimester manual! HUZZAH! Goal is to have it finished by January 1st, 2009.
The husband and I tried to do a bit of shopping, but it was too insane. So we visited the store, hugged people, picked up my paycheck and headed to the bank to deposit it.
Then we had a date!
I took him to the Tea House where we had amazing tea. He decided to take some of it home. We bought tea sets and a fancy pewter tin. $150 later we went home happy! We ate yumm chicken for dinner and shared wine.
Then I had my Monday meditation and worked more on my BOS.
All told, a great day.
I love Mondays like this!
I finished the last bits of the CMS L2 first trimester teacher's manual and started on the second trimester manual! HUZZAH! Goal is to have it finished by January 1st, 2009.
The husband and I tried to do a bit of shopping, but it was too insane. So we visited the store, hugged people, picked up my paycheck and headed to the bank to deposit it.
Then we had a date!
I took him to the Tea House where we had amazing tea. He decided to take some of it home. We bought tea sets and a fancy pewter tin. $150 later we went home happy! We ate yumm chicken for dinner and shared wine.
Then I had my Monday meditation and worked more on my BOS.
All told, a great day.
I love Mondays like this!
Today's Horoscope.... duh...
You may get a crazy idea today, like going on a diet when everyone else seems to be gearing up for big feasts. But you may not be in your typical party mode now because you are driven to clean up your act. It's not that you want to have less fun; it's just that you know you need to improve your health and are motivated to do something about it. Follow your instincts but don't forget to enjoy yourself along the way.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Serene Yule Gathering
I love when the "family" (as in the chosen family) gets together. We chat and relax over tea, share what we have been doing and what we hope to do, laugh and simply enjoy each other's company. Snax were awesome. Hmmm... my word of the month must be awesome. Sorry if I am using it alot.
We drove through a bad blizzard just fine. There were presents and tea awaiting... and yummy hot apple cider. We told hilarious Yule stories of things that happened in our families. This of course lead to the gift exchange proper. My many thanks for the nummies (yes I make this a word, someone add it to the Dictionary please) of banana bread and random treats in a tin. The hubby will nibble the chocolate ones. And especially the Best Buy gift certificate! That will go toward the greatly desired TV.
As a note, I need to mention the very amazing a also relaxing tea and presents I had at a dear friend's place on Yule Eve. I have the most lovely cat plaque. I was considering putting it on my hall door, but it needs a sturdier hook. So now the hunt goes on for a place for it. Maybe I will get a book stand and set it decoratively in the shelving among the books... where all cats ought to be or are usually found. I have a pet eggling too. She is Chrysanthimum. I look forward to growing her in the spring. I am currently having a bad plant year with constant plant casualties and lack of success. The house needs change. The energy says so through the plants. Change is coming. And a pretty new flowering eggling will help!
Back to this evening's Yule. Dinner was delicious spegetti should always have meatballs. I have decided this. The Yule ritual was short and sweet with wishes we asked for and wishes given to us my the gods. I wished for health and being fit, which was definately a common theme this evening for the coming year. I also asked for success in the pregnancy/child department. That was my major big wish. I had a little wish too, that was to finish my fanfic with the edits and pictures and print it before next Yule 2009. The gods wished upon me two things: Freedom & Prosperity. I thank them greatly.
Bright blessings to all. Have a safe drive to wherever you are going for parties. And merry YULE!
We drove through a bad blizzard just fine. There were presents and tea awaiting... and yummy hot apple cider. We told hilarious Yule stories of things that happened in our families. This of course lead to the gift exchange proper. My many thanks for the nummies (yes I make this a word, someone add it to the Dictionary please) of banana bread and random treats in a tin. The hubby will nibble the chocolate ones. And especially the Best Buy gift certificate! That will go toward the greatly desired TV.
As a note, I need to mention the very amazing a also relaxing tea and presents I had at a dear friend's place on Yule Eve. I have the most lovely cat plaque. I was considering putting it on my hall door, but it needs a sturdier hook. So now the hunt goes on for a place for it. Maybe I will get a book stand and set it decoratively in the shelving among the books... where all cats ought to be or are usually found. I have a pet eggling too. She is Chrysanthimum. I look forward to growing her in the spring. I am currently having a bad plant year with constant plant casualties and lack of success. The house needs change. The energy says so through the plants. Change is coming. And a pretty new flowering eggling will help!
Back to this evening's Yule. Dinner was delicious spegetti should always have meatballs. I have decided this. The Yule ritual was short and sweet with wishes we asked for and wishes given to us my the gods. I wished for health and being fit, which was definately a common theme this evening for the coming year. I also asked for success in the pregnancy/child department. That was my major big wish. I had a little wish too, that was to finish my fanfic with the edits and pictures and print it before next Yule 2009. The gods wished upon me two things: Freedom & Prosperity. I thank them greatly.
Bright blessings to all. Have a safe drive to wherever you are going for parties. And merry YULE!
More Husband Awesomeness!
In my stocking was ANOTHER Luis Royo Tarot. This time the Black Tarot. This is strictly a collecting tarot and never meant for reading as the cards are just his art stuck in random places. The other deck was designed by Luis Royo with the purpose of reading it in mind as he based it off his Hermetic practices. This one... pretty to look at.
http://www.aeclectic.net/tarot/black/
There you go... you can see examples there.
Yule was wonderful this morning. I could not manage the vigil. Yesterday's dinner was still not sitting well. I slept on and off waking about every hour. The hubby guarded the candle. At 5am, he started making his sticky breakfast buns of awesome goodness. They were ready by 9:30am when we trapsed downstairs, stockings in hand, for buns and waffles and sausages. In my stocking was the second Luis Royo tarot. From the neighbors came a cute tiny notepad, a tin in Hello Kitty shape containing Hello Kitty candy, and a gorgeous journal of the style I am considering for my agenda. PRETTY!
Now I am going to jion the hubby in a nap before we brave the snow storm to get to our next Yule party.
http://www.aeclectic.net/tarot/black/
There you go... you can see examples there.
Yule was wonderful this morning. I could not manage the vigil. Yesterday's dinner was still not sitting well. I slept on and off waking about every hour. The hubby guarded the candle. At 5am, he started making his sticky breakfast buns of awesome goodness. They were ready by 9:30am when we trapsed downstairs, stockings in hand, for buns and waffles and sausages. In my stocking was the second Luis Royo tarot. From the neighbors came a cute tiny notepad, a tin in Hello Kitty shape containing Hello Kitty candy, and a gorgeous journal of the style I am considering for my agenda. PRETTY!
Now I am going to jion the hubby in a nap before we brave the snow storm to get to our next Yule party.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
My Husband if full of incrdible awesomeness!!
My husband is like the only person who knows / remembers that I like Luis Royo. He got for me the hardbound book and accompanying tarot by my favorite artist!
http://www.aeclectic.net/tarot/cards/labyrinth/
That is where you can see some of the cards. So pretty, so laden with hermetic symbolism that I now need to buy a magnifying glass to find the hidden aspects of. This is not a deck I will likely ever read from. However, I like to collect certain decks. This... is a lovely additions to my eclectic collection.
*much squeeing*
http://www.aeclectic.net/tarot/cards/labyrinth/
That is where you can see some of the cards. So pretty, so laden with hermetic symbolism that I now need to buy a magnifying glass to find the hidden aspects of. This is not a deck I will likely ever read from. However, I like to collect certain decks. This... is a lovely additions to my eclectic collection.
*much squeeing*
Friday, December 19, 2008
Making Small Changes
When I get fed up with some things... I move furniture.
Today, I cleaned out the fish bowls and gave then completely different bowls. I also moved, put away, stored in the basement all the stuff by the front window. cleared away a chunk of the clutter! The livingroom feels way more open! Then I moved the exercise bike to the window. I am creating a little exercise space. I want to get an exercise mat next. I have some pretty (yes, i got girly) pretty weights for working out too.
Dreams (the more reasonable ones) this Yule... get a TV and DVD player, get a sofa, get an altar box.
Today, I cleaned out the fish bowls and gave then completely different bowls. I also moved, put away, stored in the basement all the stuff by the front window. cleared away a chunk of the clutter! The livingroom feels way more open! Then I moved the exercise bike to the window. I am creating a little exercise space. I want to get an exercise mat next. I have some pretty (yes, i got girly) pretty weights for working out too.
Dreams (the more reasonable ones) this Yule... get a TV and DVD player, get a sofa, get an altar box.
Inner Strength
Sleep, and I mean solid unbroken sleep, does wonders for the emotional state, the mental state and the spiritual state. I have not slept well all week.
Starting Monday I had some very severe muscle tension that caused excrutiating pain all down my back, across my shoulders and up my neck. Made standing, sitting, lying down, carrying, stirring, anything an experience of pain that advil didn't help. It also meant that absolutely no sleeping position was comfortable enough to be in for more that about 30 minutes. So I would get about 20 minutes of sleep at a time throughout the nights.
I nearly completely... no not nearly, I did completely lose my mind yesterday when I drove through traffic and fought for a parking spot east of work and roamed all over looking for stores that carried M-SB's Yule gift, then resolved that I would HAVE to hike up the ice covered hill to the store I knew had it. I was all ready to get it. But my bank acxcount said there was not as much money as I thought was in there. That is SO humiliating! They are being nice and will hold it for me till today. Then hiked back down the dangerous icy hill to the car. I drove through even worse traffic to get back to work to collect some money from my teaching that I forgot and should have brought with me the first time. By then, the shop I needed to get back to was closed. ARGH! I crawled back to LaSalle where I almost didn't make it to the gas station. SIGH! At least I did. Then deposited said student check in the bank and headed out to get another part of the husband's Yule gift. At least that one was easier to get. Picked up lizard food and and petted the pretty baby blue tongued skinks. By the time I got home, I was starved to death from not getting much more than wanton soup and veggie stirfry at 3pm. I came home to a HORRIBLE smell in the house and opened the windows to air out the house. That did wonders for my already downhill sliding mood. Clinched when I went to make food only to find I needed to wash the pots just to make food. I wanted comfort food dammit! Grumpily washed dishes and made food. Decompressed a bit after I ate said comfort meal and had some lychee tea.
I crashed to sleep by 11pm. I slept... solidly... till I was woken at 7am by some odd dream that seemed like a nightmare but in retrospect was just dumb. I was just drifting off when the husband's alarm went off. He snoozed it for another hour. I stared at the ceiling and assessed how I felt. I got up and fed cats and then lounged in bed till 8am. The assessment? I slept... and rather well. Most of the muscle tension was gone, I felt relatively refreshed, and contentedly awake. The cats came to cuddle with me and purr loud enough to wake the husband frtom slomer who joined a little cuddling before he had to drag himself out of bed for his last day of work. He will have 2 weeks off paid for Christmas holidays.
Good sleep = inner strength
I am ready to face today. My cleaning woman is due over at 10:30am. I want to get a few things done before she gets here though. It's some sorting stuff she can't really help with. Damn... I forgot to get some supplies needed for cleaning. Oh well. I am out of money for those. All funds are allocated. We'll make do. Then I drive out to that shop and get the gift I tried to get last night. Then drive back into downtown to work. I work till 9pm. Usually I co-teach a class in the evening. Tonight my co-teacher will have the class all to himself. Lucky guy. They are great. That's ok. I don't have to share my wonderful level 3's. *grin*
My weekend looks busy! YULE!
Pool playing and dinner with the husband's family tomorrow, then a Yule get-together with Roo. M-SB and I will be doing a Yule vigil. Avatar marathon! He is baking buns at 5am. MMmmmm... Sunday is Yule in the household with a gift exchange and opening the stockings. I have a tradition every year of putting stockings in the hall for the household. Sunday afternoon is Yule with the coven and a fine pot luck dinner.
I finished my fanfic, did I tell you all? I am working on editing it and adding in pictures now. I will also work on an epilogue of 100 shorts.
Other writing projects include researching history of Paganism for my thesis. wheteher I quit school or not, I want to write this thesis. Also, writing the second book to CMS Level 2. And coven writing that is ongoing.
Guess this post has gotten long enough.
Have a wonderful Yule weekend!
Starting Monday I had some very severe muscle tension that caused excrutiating pain all down my back, across my shoulders and up my neck. Made standing, sitting, lying down, carrying, stirring, anything an experience of pain that advil didn't help. It also meant that absolutely no sleeping position was comfortable enough to be in for more that about 30 minutes. So I would get about 20 minutes of sleep at a time throughout the nights.
I nearly completely... no not nearly, I did completely lose my mind yesterday when I drove through traffic and fought for a parking spot east of work and roamed all over looking for stores that carried M-SB's Yule gift, then resolved that I would HAVE to hike up the ice covered hill to the store I knew had it. I was all ready to get it. But my bank acxcount said there was not as much money as I thought was in there. That is SO humiliating! They are being nice and will hold it for me till today. Then hiked back down the dangerous icy hill to the car. I drove through even worse traffic to get back to work to collect some money from my teaching that I forgot and should have brought with me the first time. By then, the shop I needed to get back to was closed. ARGH! I crawled back to LaSalle where I almost didn't make it to the gas station. SIGH! At least I did. Then deposited said student check in the bank and headed out to get another part of the husband's Yule gift. At least that one was easier to get. Picked up lizard food and and petted the pretty baby blue tongued skinks. By the time I got home, I was starved to death from not getting much more than wanton soup and veggie stirfry at 3pm. I came home to a HORRIBLE smell in the house and opened the windows to air out the house. That did wonders for my already downhill sliding mood. Clinched when I went to make food only to find I needed to wash the pots just to make food. I wanted comfort food dammit! Grumpily washed dishes and made food. Decompressed a bit after I ate said comfort meal and had some lychee tea.
I crashed to sleep by 11pm. I slept... solidly... till I was woken at 7am by some odd dream that seemed like a nightmare but in retrospect was just dumb. I was just drifting off when the husband's alarm went off. He snoozed it for another hour. I stared at the ceiling and assessed how I felt. I got up and fed cats and then lounged in bed till 8am. The assessment? I slept... and rather well. Most of the muscle tension was gone, I felt relatively refreshed, and contentedly awake. The cats came to cuddle with me and purr loud enough to wake the husband frtom slomer who joined a little cuddling before he had to drag himself out of bed for his last day of work. He will have 2 weeks off paid for Christmas holidays.
Good sleep = inner strength
I am ready to face today. My cleaning woman is due over at 10:30am. I want to get a few things done before she gets here though. It's some sorting stuff she can't really help with. Damn... I forgot to get some supplies needed for cleaning. Oh well. I am out of money for those. All funds are allocated. We'll make do. Then I drive out to that shop and get the gift I tried to get last night. Then drive back into downtown to work. I work till 9pm. Usually I co-teach a class in the evening. Tonight my co-teacher will have the class all to himself. Lucky guy. They are great. That's ok. I don't have to share my wonderful level 3's. *grin*
My weekend looks busy! YULE!
Pool playing and dinner with the husband's family tomorrow, then a Yule get-together with Roo. M-SB and I will be doing a Yule vigil. Avatar marathon! He is baking buns at 5am. MMmmmm... Sunday is Yule in the household with a gift exchange and opening the stockings. I have a tradition every year of putting stockings in the hall for the household. Sunday afternoon is Yule with the coven and a fine pot luck dinner.
I finished my fanfic, did I tell you all? I am working on editing it and adding in pictures now. I will also work on an epilogue of 100 shorts.
Other writing projects include researching history of Paganism for my thesis. wheteher I quit school or not, I want to write this thesis. Also, writing the second book to CMS Level 2. And coven writing that is ongoing.
Guess this post has gotten long enough.
Have a wonderful Yule weekend!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Le Sigh...
My horoscope today... dead dead accurate...
"
You may run into an unexpected expense today that makes you realize the precariousness of your financial situation. Don't give up if you are having trouble balancing your incoming funds with your outgoing cash. The current constraints are temporary and although a long-term solution may take a while, the immediate problem should ease tomorrow."
"
You may run into an unexpected expense today that makes you realize the precariousness of your financial situation. Don't give up if you are having trouble balancing your incoming funds with your outgoing cash. The current constraints are temporary and although a long-term solution may take a while, the immediate problem should ease tomorrow."Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Up Early
I am teaching again today. YAY! Yay? Dear gods it is early.
I am teaching grade 3 for the morning then home for lunch then off to work at the store. I have three books that the kids can choose from for me to read in case the teacher left nothing.
Note! I finished my fanfic! *EEEEEEEEE*
Now I can work on editing it and getting pictures, making a cover... then PDF-ing it as a book for folks. Maybe even perfect binding it for a few folks that made incredible contributions to it. I am so excited and so odd feeling. I want to do an epilogue. I thought I would do a 100 shorts epilogue which is a set of 100 tiny self-contained stories that capture just key moments.
Coven work first and work work.
I looked at my schedule for the holidays and wondered what the hell I was thinking. It is jam packed! A financial windfall or three would come in handy by January 1st. An some extra miraculous days between like Mondays and Tuesdays too.
Where did the time go?!
I am teaching grade 3 for the morning then home for lunch then off to work at the store. I have three books that the kids can choose from for me to read in case the teacher left nothing.
Note! I finished my fanfic! *EEEEEEEEE*
Now I can work on editing it and getting pictures, making a cover... then PDF-ing it as a book for folks. Maybe even perfect binding it for a few folks that made incredible contributions to it. I am so excited and so odd feeling. I want to do an epilogue. I thought I would do a 100 shorts epilogue which is a set of 100 tiny self-contained stories that capture just key moments.
Coven work first and work work.
I looked at my schedule for the holidays and wondered what the hell I was thinking. It is jam packed! A financial windfall or three would come in handy by January 1st. An some extra miraculous days between like Mondays and Tuesdays too.
Where did the time go?!
Monday, December 15, 2008
Mondays or Moon Days, sacred to Luna and Sophia
This is why I like Mondays.
Normally, they are full of contemplation and doing things I want and need to spiritually. I try to at least squeeze in an hour for my spirituality on Mondays. When I have the day off, it is all about doing the things that move my spirit.
This morning I slept in to counter the grogginess of waking randomly every 2 hour for no reason through the night. I meditated for a bit. Then I cleaned the kitchen, made lunch, baked muffins, and now have made tea to relax in front of the computer with my fanfic. I am first going to read it through a bit to think about how I am going to write the concluding chapter. OMG! I am going to write its concluding chapter.
My afternoon is to be filled with review the CMS Level 1 reading pack so I can plan it better with Hobbes later this evening. Also, doing some coven work and tapping into the last lingering remnants of the full moon's energy to dedicate a couple personal tools.
I wanted to do some Yule shopping, but my funds are not yet transferred for me to do so. That means I have to try to steal some time during the week to do it. *groan*
Normally, they are full of contemplation and doing things I want and need to spiritually. I try to at least squeeze in an hour for my spirituality on Mondays. When I have the day off, it is all about doing the things that move my spirit.
This morning I slept in to counter the grogginess of waking randomly every 2 hour for no reason through the night. I meditated for a bit. Then I cleaned the kitchen, made lunch, baked muffins, and now have made tea to relax in front of the computer with my fanfic. I am first going to read it through a bit to think about how I am going to write the concluding chapter. OMG! I am going to write its concluding chapter.
My afternoon is to be filled with review the CMS Level 1 reading pack so I can plan it better with Hobbes later this evening. Also, doing some coven work and tapping into the last lingering remnants of the full moon's energy to dedicate a couple personal tools.
I wanted to do some Yule shopping, but my funds are not yet transferred for me to do so. That means I have to try to steal some time during the week to do it. *groan*
Friday, December 12, 2008
AARRGGHH!!
The gods do not want me to get my husband anything for Yule!
My first hope didn't happen as they didn't actually get ordered and so I didn't get to buy them from the store. DAMN!
My second hope was something beautiful from EBAY from a trusted seller. I even paid immediately to get my item as fast as possible. I just got informed that they are out of stock and refunded my paypal. Now I have $75 frozen from both my back AND my paypal and can't get him anything for a week! ARG!
ARGH! ARGH! ARGH!
My first hope didn't happen as they didn't actually get ordered and so I didn't get to buy them from the store. DAMN!
My second hope was something beautiful from EBAY from a trusted seller. I even paid immediately to get my item as fast as possible. I just got informed that they are out of stock and refunded my paypal. Now I have $75 frozen from both my back AND my paypal and can't get him anything for a week! ARG!
ARGH! ARGH! ARGH!
When Hell Freezes Over...
Well... HELL! Everything froze over. I am done with the optimistic winter wonderland thought. The car is buried, the roads are not cleared, there is a snow pile behind my car making it HARD to get out of the ice driveway. I have no winter boots and no shovel for the car. Both have to wait till later next week... I might just pilfer the CMS printing funds for next term and get boots and a shovel if I can. The no boots thing was ok until today's snow that is knee deep.
I think I prefer fire and brimstone to my hell rather than ice and snow.
I think I prefer fire and brimstone to my hell rather than ice and snow.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Winter
We have winter. It hit all of a sudden. Snow and ice and snow and more ice. I have been cold and wet and hating the weather some. My car isn't liking it either, however we are both surviving. I need winter boots.
I have not written as the sudden change in weather has made be sleep poorly, ache, and be migrainy... especially after the hard week last week at work and the busy weekend.
I have tomorrow afternoon and evening off. But that is focused on Ritual stuff I need to do.
I have Friday and Saturday off. But I need to clean the house and practice energy work. I also things to prepare and some gifts to wrap and such.
Despite being cold and dangerous driving and wet and chilly to the bone... the world looks rather beautiful. The ice has crystalized everything and the snow is fluffy and white. Looks like a Winter Wonderland out there.
I have not written as the sudden change in weather has made be sleep poorly, ache, and be migrainy... especially after the hard week last week at work and the busy weekend.
I have tomorrow afternoon and evening off. But that is focused on Ritual stuff I need to do.
I have Friday and Saturday off. But I need to clean the house and practice energy work. I also things to prepare and some gifts to wrap and such.
Despite being cold and dangerous driving and wet and chilly to the bone... the world looks rather beautiful. The ice has crystalized everything and the snow is fluffy and white. Looks like a Winter Wonderland out there.
Sunday, December 07, 2008
Happy Yule Fair Day
Today went so much better than yesterday, although seemed quieter throughout the day. I had slept some, although had VERY WEIRD dreams. I came into the fair and was ready to go. The morning slipped by faster than anticipated! I performed what I think was a great Japanese Tea Ceremony into. Everyone seemed really interested. I then attended a great Tao Chi class and was more impressed than I expected to be with the teacher. I was, however, hating my body something fierce for not being able to do something so simple as stand on one foot for even a second. Even though it hurt alot, I loved the challenge to my body. I want to do more. The next session starts in Dorval community center in January for $80. I am seriously considering it. I think I can lock my Thursday nights into that. Maybe the husband will do it with me? That would be really amazing!
So the morning was gone before I knew it. The day slipped by like this and was 4pm in a blink! I did make enough money to get some cat litter and basics (bread, milk, cheese, eggs). I also got the crow feather fan I wanted for coven stuff. There are some other really cool things, but I know those people are reading here, so I can't say anything. Come to think of it, I really hope my niece isn't reading!!! If she is... I hope she at least pretends to be surprised at Christmas. Sam traded me a pouch for a mini cloth mat. It is now sitting on the husband's cigar case with the crow feather fan displayed on top. I wonder how long it will take the husband to notice? Sam also gave me a lovely tea mat with coasters that I i was loving. It is in my tea cabinet with my fancy cups on display for all to see!
It was a mass clean up to get things organized for the ritual after. I moved tables and chairs and stuff and went up and down those stairs far far FAR too many times. The ritual was amazing! About 30 people turned out for it. CMS students in attendance and some faces of fiernds I hardly ever see... and wish I saw more often! There was hardly a feast after, but no one seemed to mind. Congrats on Raven and the Island Willow Protogrove for a fun and beautiful ritual. They had offered to clean up after the ritual. And if I was not in so much pain, I would have gladly provided the supplies for them to clean. But I was dying (still am) and still needed to get gas and get the last bits of groceries (the cat litter).
It went and got BITTER COLD out. Hate hate hate it. I am chilled through. I am going to try to soak in a hot hot shower in the hopes that it will ease the pains and get rid of the chill.
The coming week is very busy.
I want to send out some special thank yous to some folks for this weekend.
First of all Sam: she performed a miracle. She managed to get rid of the CRAP upstairs, clean it, and make it truly beautiful.
Second of all Volunteers: Kepa, Melanie, Lena, Vanessa, Karyn for helping out everywhere throughout the long weekedn events. You guys were AMAZING! Thank you so much for all your help.
Third of all Robyn: who helped me make it happen this weekend when I was so tired that I thought it couldn't. She had faith in me and was a great lecture moderator and time keeper.
Lastly Hobbes: for advertizing in the places I just had no energy to face... facebook.
The vendors did not make as much money as they had hoped, but some made more than they remotely expected. They enjoyed the company and diversity and feedback says the workshops were a great hit! We plan to do this again at the end of May.
And... thank you for the flowers of appreciation. They mean alot to me to have someone tell me thank you. Also... the apple. Now I am hooked on apples for a bit.
So the morning was gone before I knew it. The day slipped by like this and was 4pm in a blink! I did make enough money to get some cat litter and basics (bread, milk, cheese, eggs). I also got the crow feather fan I wanted for coven stuff. There are some other really cool things, but I know those people are reading here, so I can't say anything. Come to think of it, I really hope my niece isn't reading!!! If she is... I hope she at least pretends to be surprised at Christmas. Sam traded me a pouch for a mini cloth mat. It is now sitting on the husband's cigar case with the crow feather fan displayed on top. I wonder how long it will take the husband to notice? Sam also gave me a lovely tea mat with coasters that I i was loving. It is in my tea cabinet with my fancy cups on display for all to see!
It was a mass clean up to get things organized for the ritual after. I moved tables and chairs and stuff and went up and down those stairs far far FAR too many times. The ritual was amazing! About 30 people turned out for it. CMS students in attendance and some faces of fiernds I hardly ever see... and wish I saw more often! There was hardly a feast after, but no one seemed to mind. Congrats on Raven and the Island Willow Protogrove for a fun and beautiful ritual. They had offered to clean up after the ritual. And if I was not in so much pain, I would have gladly provided the supplies for them to clean. But I was dying (still am) and still needed to get gas and get the last bits of groceries (the cat litter).
It went and got BITTER COLD out. Hate hate hate it. I am chilled through. I am going to try to soak in a hot hot shower in the hopes that it will ease the pains and get rid of the chill.
The coming week is very busy.
I want to send out some special thank yous to some folks for this weekend.
First of all Sam: she performed a miracle. She managed to get rid of the CRAP upstairs, clean it, and make it truly beautiful.
Second of all Volunteers: Kepa, Melanie, Lena, Vanessa, Karyn for helping out everywhere throughout the long weekedn events. You guys were AMAZING! Thank you so much for all your help.
Third of all Robyn: who helped me make it happen this weekend when I was so tired that I thought it couldn't. She had faith in me and was a great lecture moderator and time keeper.
Lastly Hobbes: for advertizing in the places I just had no energy to face... facebook.
The vendors did not make as much money as they had hoped, but some made more than they remotely expected. They enjoyed the company and diversity and feedback says the workshops were a great hit! We plan to do this again at the end of May.
And... thank you for the flowers of appreciation. They mean alot to me to have someone tell me thank you. Also... the apple. Now I am hooked on apples for a bit.
Saturday, December 06, 2008
Remiss
I realize the hubby and I are remiss on actually sending out thank yous for our wedding. Life has been happening fast and furiously. He and I just haven't yet had decent solid time together to do so. Please know that you are all not forgotten. Thank yous will happen formally... just not likely till just after the holidays. My apologies for our tardiness.
I do want to post a quick thank you note to some:
- Roo for helping me organize the day and getting me to see her Aunt Gary for the beautiful overdress.
- Jess and Jeff for assistance and incredible photography
- Arin and Ron for leading our handfasting ritual
- All of M-SB's family for coming out to our special day
- My sister and cousin for helping make everything beautiful and for the very pretty gifts we gave out to attendees
- My niece for the music preparation
- Sarah & Hobbes for the transport of chairs and decor help
- The friends who made it out who made the day special
Thanks to all of you. The formal thank yous will come next month.
I do want to post a quick thank you note to some:
- Roo for helping me organize the day and getting me to see her Aunt Gary for the beautiful overdress.
- Jess and Jeff for assistance and incredible photography
- Arin and Ron for leading our handfasting ritual
- All of M-SB's family for coming out to our special day
- My sister and cousin for helping make everything beautiful and for the very pretty gifts we gave out to attendees
- My niece for the music preparation
- Sarah & Hobbes for the transport of chairs and decor help
- The friends who made it out who made the day special
Thanks to all of you. The formal thank yous will come next month.
rough... rough... day
I managed a great day Friday! Huzzah! Much was done and the CMS level 2's were wonderful as always.
However, I could not sleep, like at all, Friday night. I tossed and turned and was just uncomfortable for absolutely no reason. I was a complete mess for today. I hardly remember the day. I had forgotten my tea meditation supplies and was stressed it would not go well. I am so glad for Roo who helped make things work so well during the day. Once set up, I improvised with the store tea. As a side note, 2 Dove Silver Needle white tea with honeybush is absolutely LOVELY! It helped bring some came to fray morning nerves. My table looked great and I am so glad I brought music to give everyone some background.
I moved in and out of coherency, shakes, grumpiness, unfocused, naseuous, disoriented, frustrated, confusedm stressed, giddy, exhausted, pissed off, about every 5 minutes throughout the day. Being this tired really messed me up. I pray I was not too horrible with anyone and really apologize if I was.
I did manage to make some money today. I was able to buy cute crocheted mini squid cat toys (one for Tequilla and one my kitties) and a beautiful crochet (for me) belt from Owen, as well as a beautiful hand-sewn sachel from Sam (for my niece for Yule). I am coveting the gorgeous crow snudge fans that are made from feathers found in Nova Scotia. Crow is associated with the Morrigan, the main deity I work with in my coven. It would make a perfect coven tool for the initiation rituals we do that require such a thing. If I make enough money tomorrow, maybe I will buy one. If nothing else, I will get the woman's contact info and get one from her later on when I have more avaiable funds.
I want to thank WinterWolf for getting me lunch... and for the hot apple cider later after the fair. We had a great talk. I realized, we need to do this more regularly, just to chat about stuff more often. I wish I was more coherent.
I was barely able to drive home. When I got home I thought I was just going to die. I showed the husband the things I bought. I dragged myself through folding laundry and taking down whites to wash as I need some clean clothes for tomorrow. Then crashed for a nap. It was a desperately needed nap.
I am up now and have checked email and such. I feel less frayed and shaky and nauseous. I might try to find something to nibble for supper. I want to stay awake till about 11pm or midnight so I don't ruin my sleep schedule too badly. I have another long day tomorrow and a long week ahead of me.
Next week for CMS level 3, I am teaching protection magic. That is all about spellcrafting for cleansing, uncrossing, banishing and protecting one's self and one's space. For CMS level 2, we are reviewing energywork and teach another group shield and cones of power, practicing creating sacred space and circle casting and quarter calls and dismissals, as well as watching a film and performing a guided meditation. Oh... OOPS! Actually, not a film... I am teaching plant lore and the herbal grimoire! DOH! Ok... I can do that. The week after, they will get a film and a class on magic and science and religion by WinterWolf. That works.
Tonight, I have to pack the things I need for tomorrow's Japanese Tea Ceremony (in brief). Maybe I will work a bit more on my fanfic.
However, I could not sleep, like at all, Friday night. I tossed and turned and was just uncomfortable for absolutely no reason. I was a complete mess for today. I hardly remember the day. I had forgotten my tea meditation supplies and was stressed it would not go well. I am so glad for Roo who helped make things work so well during the day. Once set up, I improvised with the store tea. As a side note, 2 Dove Silver Needle white tea with honeybush is absolutely LOVELY! It helped bring some came to fray morning nerves. My table looked great and I am so glad I brought music to give everyone some background.
I moved in and out of coherency, shakes, grumpiness, unfocused, naseuous, disoriented, frustrated, confusedm stressed, giddy, exhausted, pissed off, about every 5 minutes throughout the day. Being this tired really messed me up. I pray I was not too horrible with anyone and really apologize if I was.
I did manage to make some money today. I was able to buy cute crocheted mini squid cat toys (one for Tequilla and one my kitties) and a beautiful crochet (for me) belt from Owen, as well as a beautiful hand-sewn sachel from Sam (for my niece for Yule). I am coveting the gorgeous crow snudge fans that are made from feathers found in Nova Scotia. Crow is associated with the Morrigan, the main deity I work with in my coven. It would make a perfect coven tool for the initiation rituals we do that require such a thing. If I make enough money tomorrow, maybe I will buy one. If nothing else, I will get the woman's contact info and get one from her later on when I have more avaiable funds.
I want to thank WinterWolf for getting me lunch... and for the hot apple cider later after the fair. We had a great talk. I realized, we need to do this more regularly, just to chat about stuff more often. I wish I was more coherent.
I was barely able to drive home. When I got home I thought I was just going to die. I showed the husband the things I bought. I dragged myself through folding laundry and taking down whites to wash as I need some clean clothes for tomorrow. Then crashed for a nap. It was a desperately needed nap.
I am up now and have checked email and such. I feel less frayed and shaky and nauseous. I might try to find something to nibble for supper. I want to stay awake till about 11pm or midnight so I don't ruin my sleep schedule too badly. I have another long day tomorrow and a long week ahead of me.
Next week for CMS level 3, I am teaching protection magic. That is all about spellcrafting for cleansing, uncrossing, banishing and protecting one's self and one's space. For CMS level 2, we are reviewing energywork and teach another group shield and cones of power, practicing creating sacred space and circle casting and quarter calls and dismissals, as well as watching a film and performing a guided meditation. Oh... OOPS! Actually, not a film... I am teaching plant lore and the herbal grimoire! DOH! Ok... I can do that. The week after, they will get a film and a class on magic and science and religion by WinterWolf. That works.
Tonight, I have to pack the things I need for tomorrow's Japanese Tea Ceremony (in brief). Maybe I will work a bit more on my fanfic.
Friday, December 05, 2008
The Plan
I am awake again and wish to the gods I were still asleep.
Today:
- pack ritual stuff for class tonight
- pack lunch AND supper for the day
- print BFC pamphlets
- deposit student check #1
- stop into Verdon City Hall and pay ticket agreement
- get to work for 10am and work till 6pm
--- park the car in the lot
--- turn on the heaters upstairs
--- make herbal resin blends so Roo can bottle them
--- make several hundred bottles of oil and label them
--- remember to have lunch and supper
--- final edits of Yule Fair program
--- print Yule Fair Program
- Co-Teach CMS L2
--- observe Kepa creating sacred space
--- quick review of energy work
--- quick review of creating sacred space and simple rituals
--- perform simple rituals for them to see
--- observe teaching of energy work
- go home to pack for Yule Fair
- do laundry
This is a super long day. It will be a super long weekend. I want to say THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU to those coming out to the Fair to help. You are saving my sanity.
Ok... I have lingered enough here waking up. Time to pack stuff.
Today:
- pack ritual stuff for class tonight
- pack lunch AND supper for the day
- print BFC pamphlets
- deposit student check #1
- stop into Verdon City Hall and pay ticket agreement
- get to work for 10am and work till 6pm
--- park the car in the lot
--- turn on the heaters upstairs
--- make herbal resin blends so Roo can bottle them
--- make several hundred bottles of oil and label them
--- remember to have lunch and supper
--- final edits of Yule Fair program
--- print Yule Fair Program
- Co-Teach CMS L2
--- observe Kepa creating sacred space
--- quick review of energy work
--- quick review of creating sacred space and simple rituals
--- perform simple rituals for them to see
--- observe teaching of energy work
- go home to pack for Yule Fair
- do laundry
This is a super long day. It will be a super long weekend. I want to say THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU to those coming out to the Fair to help. You are saving my sanity.
Ok... I have lingered enough here waking up. Time to pack stuff.
damn
I thought I would go to bed early since I have to be up early to run errands before work. I was so stupidly exhausted that I could hardly think straight. I cuddled with the hubby a bit and then curled up to sleep. Cats calling to each other to play annoyed me for about 20min till they finally quieted. I was comfortable. I was almost asleep. Then... I was just... awake. So... very... awake.
dammit......
dammit......
Thursday, December 04, 2008
Insanity?
Feel like instanity. Rushing through a day with many things on the plate, being double booked and trying to cancel things with people, cats being as destructive as they possibly can be...
ARRGH!
Went to the Fertility clinic today. Still don't like the cold fish doctor who doesn't really explain anything. Intra-uterine insemination is complicated and expensive. What about planned intercourse. People assume I know this and have been doing it. I have kinda tried, fumbling some, but I have a wonky cycle. There has got to be other things to try and maybe a suitable counselor to speak to before expensive drugs and procedures. I felt like a number today. I was too upset and stressed to really discuss it and needed to digest how I felt before I said anything to anyone. What we did learn so far is that both myself anf my husband are normal. We should have no problem getting pregnant, except we do. We apparently fall into the 15-20% of the population where there is no known reason form no conception. More sex. More often. Better timed.
*sigh*
Work is busy. Teaching is busy. Coven is busy.
Planning a Yule Fair is ... what the hell was I thinking? I hope it goes well.
ARRGH!
Went to the Fertility clinic today. Still don't like the cold fish doctor who doesn't really explain anything. Intra-uterine insemination is complicated and expensive. What about planned intercourse. People assume I know this and have been doing it. I have kinda tried, fumbling some, but I have a wonky cycle. There has got to be other things to try and maybe a suitable counselor to speak to before expensive drugs and procedures. I felt like a number today. I was too upset and stressed to really discuss it and needed to digest how I felt before I said anything to anyone. What we did learn so far is that both myself anf my husband are normal. We should have no problem getting pregnant, except we do. We apparently fall into the 15-20% of the population where there is no known reason form no conception. More sex. More often. Better timed.
*sigh*
Work is busy. Teaching is busy. Coven is busy.
Planning a Yule Fair is ... what the hell was I thinking? I hope it goes well.
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
small successes
I had a great class full of discussion. We talked about raising pagan children and about technology in Pagan practice and spirituality.
Oh... and yesterday when I couldn't sleep, I wrote a fanfic chapter. I am almost finished this epic novel. OMG!
So despite the chaos of the day and the day of not really eating... It turned out ok.
I wanted too kill everything by the time I got home. More so, I was in a foul mood till I managed to wash a pot and make some stray pasta. I feel more human now.
Tomorrow, the husband and I go to find out the results of our tests and discuss our options. I don't think I am stressing about the results or the potential options. Upon thinking more, I think I am distressed about the doctor. Something about him makes me just... uncomfortable. He had zero sympathy or compassion in his tone and body language. I might as well have been talking to some corporate bossman who really didn't want to hear that I have not been able to get pregnant yet. I want a fertility doctor, not this cold fish. I am trying to set aside this feeling and give him a second chance. However, if I still feel ooked out by him, I will ask for another doctor.
I think I will go distract myself with another fanfic chapter.
Oh... and yesterday when I couldn't sleep, I wrote a fanfic chapter. I am almost finished this epic novel. OMG!
So despite the chaos of the day and the day of not really eating... It turned out ok.
I wanted too kill everything by the time I got home. More so, I was in a foul mood till I managed to wash a pot and make some stray pasta. I feel more human now.
Tomorrow, the husband and I go to find out the results of our tests and discuss our options. I don't think I am stressing about the results or the potential options. Upon thinking more, I think I am distressed about the doctor. Something about him makes me just... uncomfortable. He had zero sympathy or compassion in his tone and body language. I might as well have been talking to some corporate bossman who really didn't want to hear that I have not been able to get pregnant yet. I want a fertility doctor, not this cold fish. I am trying to set aside this feeling and give him a second chance. However, if I still feel ooked out by him, I will ask for another doctor.
I think I will go distract myself with another fanfic chapter.
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
While I couldn't sleep...
Sunday I watched the movie: Bell, Book and Candle. I could easily see how Bewitched the TV show started from this film. It was hilarious what stereotypes about witches they chose to portray. It was a 1958 film that I found very progressive and bold for some of the themes in the film and yet so very it's time for others. It was worth watching for what it was.
Last night, very really this morning, I watched Twilight. It had some oddities. But it was not remotely as bad as some people have been masking it out to be. I actually enjoyed it alot.
Last night, very really this morning, I watched Twilight. It had some oddities. But it was not remotely as bad as some people have been masking it out to be. I actually enjoyed it alot.
