Tuesday, May 31, 2005
VICTORY!!!
I have conquered the closet!!! It is now all sorted with the clothes culled and even the big bins placed inside! I did not escaped unscathed though. It put up a good fight. It was an honourable battle. It threw things at me. It toppled me off my chair to twist my right ankle a bit. It exposed a spider nest! And it dropped a pile of attache cases on my head. But I am still victorious!
I piled the cushions from the meditation area onto the bed (need more) to make a cozy sitting area for reading.
And I pampered myself a little bit today with small rewards. I bought a McDonald's Happy Meal for lunch. And I rented a movie.
Now... I sit and savour some fine earl grey tea.
There is still some fine tuning to do and the other two rooms to tackle along with planning classes and workshops. But ... I deserve a break right now. These things can be done tomorrow and the next days.
I piled the cushions from the meditation area onto the bed (need more) to make a cozy sitting area for reading.
And I pampered myself a little bit today with small rewards. I bought a McDonald's Happy Meal for lunch. And I rented a movie.
Now... I sit and savour some fine earl grey tea.
There is still some fine tuning to do and the other two rooms to tackle along with planning classes and workshops. But ... I deserve a break right now. These things can be done tomorrow and the next days.
Closet Part 2
I have delved into it depths... gazed down the giant maw... and run sreaming for my life!!!
heehee.
Not really. I found some schoolbags and old old ritual robes, a treasure box and a basket of medieval stuff. I also found my canvases for when I dreamed of one day getting back into painting. I am currently sorting the crap in the bottom of the closet then will sort the clothes. This will take me time. I have an hour this morning from now. And I will have all evening. Goal: have this done tonight before I go to bed. Second goal: manage to fit the winter clothes box and the blankets box into the closet somehow and still have manouverability.
Need nourishment now before I continue. Mom made me a yummy GIANT muffin and it is now thawed. So I will have that and some juice. Then back to the closet!
heehee.
Not really. I found some schoolbags and old old ritual robes, a treasure box and a basket of medieval stuff. I also found my canvases for when I dreamed of one day getting back into painting. I am currently sorting the crap in the bottom of the closet then will sort the clothes. This will take me time. I have an hour this morning from now. And I will have all evening. Goal: have this done tonight before I go to bed. Second goal: manage to fit the winter clothes box and the blankets box into the closet somehow and still have manouverability.
Need nourishment now before I continue. Mom made me a yummy GIANT muffin and it is now thawed. So I will have that and some juice. Then back to the closet!
Monday, May 30, 2005
Closet
OY!! This will not be able to be completed this night... no matter how much energy I have. I sorted the top shelf and am now working on the second shelf. This thing is PACK from top to bottom. Ugh.... This will take a couple days. But I WILL conquer it!!
Thunderstorm!!
At last! There has been this frustrating build up of energy all week. Tension and lack of good food and much bad moods...
And today the sky opened up and dumped quarter and loonie sized raindrops in massive quantities with lightning and loud thunder. It was a release of tension and a relief!
Today was a great day! I had lots of protein last night for dinner and slept real well. Woke on my own and tackled the day. I did everything on my list except the closet. Work was busy and good. And peanutbutter sandwich for lunch was awesome! There was a bit of a rush home and i kinda missed dinner before teaching L2. They were very forgiving of my household chaos... and seem to be looking forward to perusing the library once it is set up.
M-SB took me out for Subway sandwiches. Mmmmm. Now I am all wired for the evening and in an awesome great mood!
I redid the L2 BOS test evaluations more neatly and will photocopy them later in the week so they can each have a copy. And now I am trying to decide what to tackle next. The closet maybe...
EEEEEEEEEEKKKKK!!!!! I opened the closet door!
And today the sky opened up and dumped quarter and loonie sized raindrops in massive quantities with lightning and loud thunder. It was a release of tension and a relief!
Today was a great day! I had lots of protein last night for dinner and slept real well. Woke on my own and tackled the day. I did everything on my list except the closet. Work was busy and good. And peanutbutter sandwich for lunch was awesome! There was a bit of a rush home and i kinda missed dinner before teaching L2. They were very forgiving of my household chaos... and seem to be looking forward to perusing the library once it is set up.
M-SB took me out for Subway sandwiches. Mmmmm. Now I am all wired for the evening and in an awesome great mood!
I redid the L2 BOS test evaluations more neatly and will photocopy them later in the week so they can each have a copy. And now I am trying to decide what to tackle next. The closet maybe...
EEEEEEEEEEKKKKK!!!!! I opened the closet door!
Second Night
Well, I was up till like 3AM. Then I did my stretches and laid back on the heating pad for my back and read some of the book Spiritual Mentoring by Judy Harrow. It is ok. The book is great! I meant the sleeping alone thing in my own room. The bed is annoying. I want to sleep in the middle but then I can reach anything on the side table. Cloak & Bagheera slept with me again. Salem opted for the black fur blankey on M-SB's futon. He now has his mattress.
I slept well and woke on my own around 8:30AM. Then I just kinda lay there... for an hour... at least till Cloak and Bagheera realized I was awake. Then it was "MOM! Mom is up! Great! We saw the bottom glass part of the food dish! It is too empty! Fill it please!" So I went downt he hall to check. The food was pushed all around the sides of the bowl with an empty spot the size of a quarter in the middle. So I shook the bowl to even out the food and set it down again.
I had planned to take the bike out today and tune it this morning. But LO! It is raining... again. Only when I want to take out my bike! I will try again tomorrow.
Time for the morning routine:
- send morning wishes to my online friends (done)
- blog (doing now)
- check email
- physio stretches
- clean me and dress and brush teeth and do my hair... and all that "girl in the bathroom" stuff
- make bed (yes... I actually do that)
- plan my day
- breakfast & vitamin
- plan tonight's class
- make lunch for work
- maybe start to sort the bedroom closet
The rest of the day is:
- stop by vet and drop off a paper that I printed for fun for them to laugh at reading
- work at the store
- Post Office to send out a small package
- inhale dinner
- teach CMS-L2 in my crammed livingroom
- finish sorting the bedroom closet
Assessment... the second night was decent. I feel ok. I need to deal with the little messes that annoy me.
I slept well and woke on my own around 8:30AM. Then I just kinda lay there... for an hour... at least till Cloak and Bagheera realized I was awake. Then it was "MOM! Mom is up! Great! We saw the bottom glass part of the food dish! It is too empty! Fill it please!" So I went downt he hall to check. The food was pushed all around the sides of the bowl with an empty spot the size of a quarter in the middle. So I shook the bowl to even out the food and set it down again.
I had planned to take the bike out today and tune it this morning. But LO! It is raining... again. Only when I want to take out my bike! I will try again tomorrow.
Time for the morning routine:
- send morning wishes to my online friends (done)
- blog (doing now)
- check email
- physio stretches
- clean me and dress and brush teeth and do my hair... and all that "girl in the bathroom" stuff
- make bed (yes... I actually do that)
- plan my day
- breakfast & vitamin
- plan tonight's class
- make lunch for work
- maybe start to sort the bedroom closet
The rest of the day is:
- stop by vet and drop off a paper that I printed for fun for them to laugh at reading
- work at the store
- Post Office to send out a small package
- inhale dinner
- teach CMS-L2 in my crammed livingroom
- finish sorting the bedroom closet
Assessment... the second night was decent. I feel ok. I need to deal with the little messes that annoy me.
More Star Wars Fun
Yes... I am still up. Got this emailed to me from a friend.
http://storewars.org/flash/index.html
Enjoy!
http://storewars.org/flash/index.html
Enjoy!
Lit from Within ... Lesson Set #4
Meditate
This is something I do every night before bed. I allow the day's mental clutter to fade. I do a small spiritual cleansing and then connect with divine for a few minutes. Then I plan my next day and go to sleep.
Drink tea in quiet (saver it)
This is tough. I mean the drinking of tea is easy. But I don't exactly have a comfey place to sit with it... YET. I still want that rocking thing... but it will not go in the bedroom where i had hoped. Maybe the library? Likely the balcony. Well... I can't afford it at the moment. SO... Drink tea, eh? And savor it?
Keep environment orderly and clean
This is the plan!! I am "reclaiming" my environment and getting rid of the clutter.
Learn to say NO.
Oh.... this is still so very very hard. I have definately gotten better. I need to be able to tell MYSELF "no".
Purify the body occasionally (fast... do without something and cleanse)
This is something I will begin to do each Dark Moon. I will do this with energy, herbs, and all. A full spiritual cleansing. LBR and Aura cleansing. Get into a ritual and spiritual habit.
Get a massage regularly
HAHAHAHA... with what money? And from whome for free!!?? I don't have a "sig. other" who will do this (not that M-SB did it very often anyways). Back rubs are nice now and then, more now with my back problems... but a real massage... now that would be REAL NICE! My funds are busy though with bills and physio. *sigh*
Sing
*shy* I will when no one is in the house and no one is listening. But that is almost NEVER these days.
Ease off the "processed" and "refined" foods.
I am doing that. Trying to eat more fruits and veggies. Being financially tight means you are forced to make foods more often and not buy fast processed stuff. I have lots of things I can make at home... they just require time to do so and that is what I kinda lack.
Dress like your TRUE self
sophisticated
rugged
simple not fancy
occasionally elegant when the mood so moves me
PURGE the clothes you don't wear
That is next on the list! Cull the closet. I culled the dresser a while back. Now I need to tackle the closet.
SUMMARY:
- Pamper self
- Savor tea regularly
- Purify self monthly
- Purge clothes
These are the next lessons to incorporate... with one I still have trouble with from the previous set. One step at a time.
This is something I do every night before bed. I allow the day's mental clutter to fade. I do a small spiritual cleansing and then connect with divine for a few minutes. Then I plan my next day and go to sleep.
Drink tea in quiet (saver it)
This is tough. I mean the drinking of tea is easy. But I don't exactly have a comfey place to sit with it... YET. I still want that rocking thing... but it will not go in the bedroom where i had hoped. Maybe the library? Likely the balcony. Well... I can't afford it at the moment. SO... Drink tea, eh? And savor it?
Keep environment orderly and clean
This is the plan!! I am "reclaiming" my environment and getting rid of the clutter.
Learn to say NO.
Oh.... this is still so very very hard. I have definately gotten better. I need to be able to tell MYSELF "no".
Purify the body occasionally (fast... do without something and cleanse)
This is something I will begin to do each Dark Moon. I will do this with energy, herbs, and all. A full spiritual cleansing. LBR and Aura cleansing. Get into a ritual and spiritual habit.
Get a massage regularly
HAHAHAHA... with what money? And from whome for free!!?? I don't have a "sig. other" who will do this (not that M-SB did it very often anyways). Back rubs are nice now and then, more now with my back problems... but a real massage... now that would be REAL NICE! My funds are busy though with bills and physio. *sigh*
Sing
*shy* I will when no one is in the house and no one is listening. But that is almost NEVER these days.
Ease off the "processed" and "refined" foods.
I am doing that. Trying to eat more fruits and veggies. Being financially tight means you are forced to make foods more often and not buy fast processed stuff. I have lots of things I can make at home... they just require time to do so and that is what I kinda lack.
Dress like your TRUE self
sophisticated
rugged
simple not fancy
occasionally elegant when the mood so moves me
PURGE the clothes you don't wear
That is next on the list! Cull the closet. I culled the dresser a while back. Now I need to tackle the closet.
SUMMARY:
- Pamper self
- Savor tea regularly
- Purify self monthly
- Purge clothes
These are the next lessons to incorporate... with one I still have trouble with from the previous set. One step at a time.
Sunday, May 29, 2005
I need a weekend or a day off
Damn. I need to find a day to make sacro-sanct again. This 7-days-a-week at one job or another is crazy.
Today I went to the gym alone and really pushed myself. I have missed so many days at the gym that I can feel the difference. Then I headed out for a coffee with myself while I planned the day's class. The class is going real well. Next week I have to have both weeks planned so they can have an ingredients list. We discussed stuff and reviewed the cultural forms of magic. They will have kick-ass BOS's. It is time I went about and spoke to a few people to mention that my students may be seeking a mentor for spellcrafting for 30 hrs.
I headed out to my mom's after class. Picked up laundry and ended up in a frustrating, aggravating, mood souring conversation with my mom. She did gave me a heating pad to help with my back. And has some furniture for me. I want to take it... but i just can't haul it myself... and i have no where yet to put the stuff till M-SB moves his things and I sort/reorganize this end of the apartment.
Ran a few errands and crashed asleep for a nap. It was one of those dead exhausted oblivious naps where you sleep because you are no longer functional but don't wake feeling rested. I am discovering there are all kinds of small things in my new room that are pet peevish and drive me crazy... but i can't do anything about them till the other rooms are sorted out. like stuff that needs filing and shelving, stuff that belongs on the altar, stuff for my shrine, CMS stuff... they take up space and make small irritating messes.
Now i am busily occupying... wasting(?)... time adding things or removing things from my various wishlists. I added stuff to my ThinkGeek wishlist and edited my Amazon.ca wish list. I found by book "Bell, Book & Murder". Jen had it. I have it back now.
A little update on how I am doing with the ideas from Lit From Within:
- I am taking a multivitamin every day
- I am actually HAVING breakfast every day (usually oatmeal or a banana)
- I meditate every evening before bed
- I do my physio stretches daily (usually before bed and definately when I am at the gym)
- the weather should be nice tomorrow, so out will come the bike... but I DO walk in the park
- most of the crap is purged from my personal space
- slowly purging debts (this will take me several months)
- I am failing miserably at the pamper myself (ok... i DO pamper myself a little with little rewards, like the vanilla coke I am currently drinking... but no I have not had a pampering bath as the bathtub is not to my satisfaction... and pampering the self often involves money which I am out of)
I should post the next set of Lit From Within lessons....
Today I went to the gym alone and really pushed myself. I have missed so many days at the gym that I can feel the difference. Then I headed out for a coffee with myself while I planned the day's class. The class is going real well. Next week I have to have both weeks planned so they can have an ingredients list. We discussed stuff and reviewed the cultural forms of magic. They will have kick-ass BOS's. It is time I went about and spoke to a few people to mention that my students may be seeking a mentor for spellcrafting for 30 hrs.
I headed out to my mom's after class. Picked up laundry and ended up in a frustrating, aggravating, mood souring conversation with my mom. She did gave me a heating pad to help with my back. And has some furniture for me. I want to take it... but i just can't haul it myself... and i have no where yet to put the stuff till M-SB moves his things and I sort/reorganize this end of the apartment.
Ran a few errands and crashed asleep for a nap. It was one of those dead exhausted oblivious naps where you sleep because you are no longer functional but don't wake feeling rested. I am discovering there are all kinds of small things in my new room that are pet peevish and drive me crazy... but i can't do anything about them till the other rooms are sorted out. like stuff that needs filing and shelving, stuff that belongs on the altar, stuff for my shrine, CMS stuff... they take up space and make small irritating messes.
Now i am busily occupying... wasting(?)... time adding things or removing things from my various wishlists. I added stuff to my ThinkGeek wishlist and edited my Amazon.ca wish list. I found by book "Bell, Book & Murder". Jen had it. I have it back now.
A little update on how I am doing with the ideas from Lit From Within:
- I am taking a multivitamin every day
- I am actually HAVING breakfast every day (usually oatmeal or a banana)
- I meditate every evening before bed
- I do my physio stretches daily (usually before bed and definately when I am at the gym)
- the weather should be nice tomorrow, so out will come the bike... but I DO walk in the park
- most of the crap is purged from my personal space
- slowly purging debts (this will take me several months)
- I am failing miserably at the pamper myself (ok... i DO pamper myself a little with little rewards, like the vanilla coke I am currently drinking... but no I have not had a pampering bath as the bathtub is not to my satisfaction... and pampering the self often involves money which I am out of)
I should post the next set of Lit From Within lessons....
First Night
Damn. First attempt at typing this out failed. Trying again.
Last night was FREEZING! The temperature outside dropped. Brrrrrrr. I had to shut down my computer because of the noise, but still heard some sort of high pitch whine. I think it came from the modem. Tonight I will try turning that off. It was wierd being the only one in the bed. The cats remedied that by 4AM. Bagheera slept on the bed the whole night for a change. Usually he gets booted off, or Salem does, or Cloak gets tossed. This time there was LOTS of room for all of them, especially since I don't move much in my sleep.
I felt bad for M-SB though. He asked me to blow up the air mattress for him to crash on after he returns from moving Jen. I brought the batteries from my CD player over but they were dead. I looked in the drawers for more batteries, but there were none. I looked for his flashlight that is usually in the bedroom with the sword so I can use the batteries in it, but it was AWOL. By 2AM I went to bed. I have no idea when he came home. Well, at least this morning he will be getting a real futon mattress with his mom. That will be way better.
I woke at 4AM freezing and to Cloak trying to eat my snakes through the bars of the tank top. Shooed him off and fell back to sleep. I need to get a digital clock I can see at night. It sets my internal clock off if I cannot double check it against a real clock should I stir in the night. And the ticking of my non-digital clock... is ... ANNOYING!!!
Well I am up now. Plannng on having breakfast as soon as I am done with this blog. Before I log off here, though... i poked onto BoingBoing and found this interesting link on Merriam-Websters Online Dictionary's top 10 favorite non-words. Then followed over to see what other non-words it had to this link.
Ok, time to dress, eat breakfast and plan for class today. I won't be home after the gym. I think I will go have coffee with myself and finish planning my class in a coffee shop. After class I need to get to my parents' place and pick up the laundry. M-SB will NEED his big furry wolf blanket if the nights continue to be chilly like this.
Last night was FREEZING! The temperature outside dropped. Brrrrrrr. I had to shut down my computer because of the noise, but still heard some sort of high pitch whine. I think it came from the modem. Tonight I will try turning that off. It was wierd being the only one in the bed. The cats remedied that by 4AM. Bagheera slept on the bed the whole night for a change. Usually he gets booted off, or Salem does, or Cloak gets tossed. This time there was LOTS of room for all of them, especially since I don't move much in my sleep.
I felt bad for M-SB though. He asked me to blow up the air mattress for him to crash on after he returns from moving Jen. I brought the batteries from my CD player over but they were dead. I looked in the drawers for more batteries, but there were none. I looked for his flashlight that is usually in the bedroom with the sword so I can use the batteries in it, but it was AWOL. By 2AM I went to bed. I have no idea when he came home. Well, at least this morning he will be getting a real futon mattress with his mom. That will be way better.
I woke at 4AM freezing and to Cloak trying to eat my snakes through the bars of the tank top. Shooed him off and fell back to sleep. I need to get a digital clock I can see at night. It sets my internal clock off if I cannot double check it against a real clock should I stir in the night. And the ticking of my non-digital clock... is ... ANNOYING!!!
Well I am up now. Plannng on having breakfast as soon as I am done with this blog. Before I log off here, though... i poked onto BoingBoing and found this interesting link on Merriam-Websters Online Dictionary's top 10 favorite non-words. Then followed over to see what other non-words it had to this link.
Ok, time to dress, eat breakfast and plan for class today. I won't be home after the gym. I think I will go have coffee with myself and finish planning my class in a coffee shop. After class I need to get to my parents' place and pick up the laundry. M-SB will NEED his big furry wolf blanket if the nights continue to be chilly like this.
Saturday, May 28, 2005
moved into new room
Well the day was tiring but went real well. M-SB rest the alarm clock wrong and lost me 15min of sleep. It took me a bit to sort my head out. I worked at the vet clinic with the vet today. It went real smoothly... for a change.
When I got home, M-SB was still out helping one set for freinds move. So, I started to move some of my stuff out of "our" bedroom and into my office/bedroom. Just a couple things. Then double checked my planning for the class today on TechnoPaganism and headed out.
I moved the class over to Second Cup for chat, notes and discussion as a crisis counselling session needed to be held in my classroom space and I felt I could more easily move my students. I hope that session went well. I forgot to leave hematite stones for the woman in need. The only ones I have are super tiny... and not that many left. I need to replenish my stock. Class was interesting at Second Cup. The music there was a bit too loud for me to hear well though. Frank had some really great challenging points. He also wrote an article for WynterGreene for the upcoming issue on TechnoPaganism. I wish it was out now for all the students. Ah well.
WW and Airea met up with me after class to come over and help me move the bed. I was surprised that M-SB was there. Poor him was sore and headachy from the first move and trying to recoup before moving our good friend from downstairs to her new place. He helped a bit to move the bed. WW and Airea and I finished off my new room... which looks great and is very functional! THANK YOU!!!!! It will be very strange sleeping alone in my own house. Something I haven't done in years. Lonely.
The new lamps from Mom make the room soft and warm looking. The room feels good. I wish I had someone to share it with. But this must be this way. It will take some getting used to. The cats are being bad about the wiring under the bed. Guess whose cat....
M-SB has gone out to move our friend now. It is real quiet in here. Kinda nice. Now if my pressure headache would just go away... stupid weather.
Tomorrow:
10AM - Gym with Roo
12PM - Spellcrafting Specialty class
3PM - drive out to Mom's and pick up laundry and ironing board... and a table? UGH!
- banking
- pay hydro bill (damn short $200 grrrrrr)
- plan Monday's L2 class
- relax
I have been hording $10 in a box. Why? To go see the new Star Wars movie. That is Tuesday night's plan... even if I am going all by myself.
When I got home, M-SB was still out helping one set for freinds move. So, I started to move some of my stuff out of "our" bedroom and into my office/bedroom. Just a couple things. Then double checked my planning for the class today on TechnoPaganism and headed out.
I moved the class over to Second Cup for chat, notes and discussion as a crisis counselling session needed to be held in my classroom space and I felt I could more easily move my students. I hope that session went well. I forgot to leave hematite stones for the woman in need. The only ones I have are super tiny... and not that many left. I need to replenish my stock. Class was interesting at Second Cup. The music there was a bit too loud for me to hear well though. Frank had some really great challenging points. He also wrote an article for WynterGreene for the upcoming issue on TechnoPaganism. I wish it was out now for all the students. Ah well.
WW and Airea met up with me after class to come over and help me move the bed. I was surprised that M-SB was there. Poor him was sore and headachy from the first move and trying to recoup before moving our good friend from downstairs to her new place. He helped a bit to move the bed. WW and Airea and I finished off my new room... which looks great and is very functional! THANK YOU!!!!! It will be very strange sleeping alone in my own house. Something I haven't done in years. Lonely.
The new lamps from Mom make the room soft and warm looking. The room feels good. I wish I had someone to share it with. But this must be this way. It will take some getting used to. The cats are being bad about the wiring under the bed. Guess whose cat....
M-SB has gone out to move our friend now. It is real quiet in here. Kinda nice. Now if my pressure headache would just go away... stupid weather.
Tomorrow:
10AM - Gym with Roo
12PM - Spellcrafting Specialty class
3PM - drive out to Mom's and pick up laundry and ironing board... and a table? UGH!
- banking
- pay hydro bill (damn short $200 grrrrrr)
- plan Monday's L2 class
- relax
I have been hording $10 in a box. Why? To go see the new Star Wars movie. That is Tuesday night's plan... even if I am going all by myself.
Friday, May 27, 2005
Here and back on track for the day
I made it to my Mom's... for 11AM. The laundry is started. The BOS test checklist is done. I am FREEZING!!!!! I had lunch. Mom told me all about her exciting news:
- her science/art lesson on worms got published in a book that the Green Teacher Magazine published
- her muffin recipe was accepted by the Gazette
- the Gazette is coming to her house on June 5th to do a whole photo shoot of her making these muffins (CRAZY!)
She is bouncing around like an excited child with an award! hehe
In light of the upcoming photoshoot in the house, my mom is purging! Thus, I am inheriting some things and she needs to find homes for some other things. Anyone want/need sturdy folding work tables? There are 3 in total and I am claiming 1.
Now to plan the TechnoPaganism class for tomorrow.
OH! I forgot my cell phone at home plugged into the wall. DOH! So don't try to call me on it. Sorry!
- her science/art lesson on worms got published in a book that the Green Teacher Magazine published
- her muffin recipe was accepted by the Gazette
- the Gazette is coming to her house on June 5th to do a whole photo shoot of her making these muffins (CRAZY!)
She is bouncing around like an excited child with an award! hehe
In light of the upcoming photoshoot in the house, my mom is purging! Thus, I am inheriting some things and she needs to find homes for some other things. Anyone want/need sturdy folding work tables? There are 3 in total and I am claiming 1.
Now to plan the TechnoPaganism class for tomorrow.
OH! I forgot my cell phone at home plugged into the wall. DOH! So don't try to call me on it. Sorry!
*grumble*
Well... the day is already not going as planned. It has a very late start. *yawn*
Friday Agenda
7AM - wake and dress
8AM - pack laundry for Mom's
9AM - start laundry at Mom's and make breakfast
9:30AM - log into chat and MSN and review my thesis
10AM - make a point-form list for my conclusion
12PM - fry veggie mushroom burger for lunch
1PM - make new CMS L2 BOS test checklist & plan TechnoPaganism class for L3
2PM - finish important laundry and ask Mom if she can finish whatever I leave behind
3PM - pack to head back into town and fight traffic along the way
4PM - gym
5:30PM - Physio
7PM - test CMS-L2 students
9PM - maybe go out with students after
right now... go to sleep... or at least try to
8AM - pack laundry for Mom's
9AM - start laundry at Mom's and make breakfast
9:30AM - log into chat and MSN and review my thesis
10AM - make a point-form list for my conclusion
12PM - fry veggie mushroom burger for lunch
1PM - make new CMS L2 BOS test checklist & plan TechnoPaganism class for L3
2PM - finish important laundry and ask Mom if she can finish whatever I leave behind
3PM - pack to head back into town and fight traffic along the way
4PM - gym
5:30PM - Physio
7PM - test CMS-L2 students
9PM - maybe go out with students after
right now... go to sleep... or at least try to
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Off kilter
Well this day really did not go as I hoped it would.
Worked and did my very exhausting consult. Should have charged her an hour not 30min for that. And have not done any of the things I needed to do at home.
And... not going to see Mike this weekend.
Everyone is having a shitty end of month.
Worked and did my very exhausting consult. Should have charged her an hour not 30min for that. And have not done any of the things I needed to do at home.
And... not going to see Mike this weekend.
Everyone is having a shitty end of month.
My Lightsaber
Your Lightsaber is Blue.
Blue is often associated with depth and stability.
It symbolizes trust, loyalty, wisdom,
confidence, and truth.
What Colored Lightsaber Would You Have?
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SWG Spoof
Check this! Try the link for WATCH (11megs) as the others do not seem to work.
And enjoy... it is very funny!
http://www.sequentialpictures.com/moviestarwarsepisode3.html
And enjoy... it is very funny!
http://www.sequentialpictures.com/moviestarwarsepisode3.html
Ugh... still awake
Well... today's stresses have actually caught up to me. I am nauseous. ANd moving the heavy shit into the office/bedroom space... did hurt. My back aches. I can't sleep. I am tired. No position is comfortable. It is very frustrating.
This is so not good for someone who plans on cycling into work for 1pm to be a "wise counsellor / spellcrafting specialist".
Too awake to sleep.
Too tired to focus on anything constructive.
This is so not good for someone who plans on cycling into work for 1pm to be a "wise counsellor / spellcrafting specialist".
Too awake to sleep.
Too tired to focus on anything constructive.
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Oh boy... what a day... and still unconquered!
Woke to my niece's dad doing stupid things and stressing her out. That took several hours to sort out. And to make a personal private plan of action. I was angry. Still am. Both about what he has done and the organization he will undermine in the process.
I got to work to a very slow day. Spent the day restocking stuff. Then I made a yummy oil blend I am now in love with wearing.
1p. pine
1p. spearmint
1p. violet
1p. vanilla
I also made a special blend of stuff to deal with the siuation I just mentioned.
Dare/Know/Will/Silence...
I will finish that later though.
I went to the gym and took things nice and easy with Roo. I felt great after. I got home to yummy fajita's from M-SB.
In other bad news, Mike will not be able to make it up this weekend. But he should be here for the Awakening Isis festival.
I finished sorting (condensing 2 into 1) shelves in the current office, vacuumed and mopped and removed the offending empty shelf. This evening I moved in the cornsnake tank and stand, as well as the f-ing heavy file cabinet. I got the cornsnake tank tidied too. Tomorrow I will finish the meditatin area and shrine, pack the blankets into the big box I claimed. and tune my bike.
I will bike into town for a consutation meeting at 1pm and hang out to collect the student payments then bike home.
Then... sort and pack laundry to go to Mom's on Friday. She is thankfully paying for my physio too. I LOVE YOU MOM! And she is going to lend me her second heating pad so I can do the twice a day heating of my back that I am supposed to be doing.
On the financial front... it still sucks royally... with what is coming in this week and what has to go out between now and Monday... I am short by $140. GRRRRRrrrr. And unfortunately the CMS funds are depleted for business bills already with nothing left. Things are going to be ... uncomfortable... for a month or so. I have big bills to catch up on over June.
Well. I can do it. I CAN DO IT! Rearrange thr rooms at home to accommodate the CMS upper classes and living space for both M-SB and I, clear the financial debts, plan the courses, finish my thesis and begin a new life. New challanges. And with that I am discovering humility and learning the lesson of swallowing my pride and asking/accpeting help from others. I am also discovering friends where I never expected them. And I am most grateful and thankful for them.
I have an unconquerable soul!
I got to work to a very slow day. Spent the day restocking stuff. Then I made a yummy oil blend I am now in love with wearing.
1p. pine
1p. spearmint
1p. violet
1p. vanilla
I also made a special blend of stuff to deal with the siuation I just mentioned.
Dare/Know/Will/Silence...
I will finish that later though.
I went to the gym and took things nice and easy with Roo. I felt great after. I got home to yummy fajita's from M-SB.
In other bad news, Mike will not be able to make it up this weekend. But he should be here for the Awakening Isis festival.
I finished sorting (condensing 2 into 1) shelves in the current office, vacuumed and mopped and removed the offending empty shelf. This evening I moved in the cornsnake tank and stand, as well as the f-ing heavy file cabinet. I got the cornsnake tank tidied too. Tomorrow I will finish the meditatin area and shrine, pack the blankets into the big box I claimed. and tune my bike.
I will bike into town for a consutation meeting at 1pm and hang out to collect the student payments then bike home.
Then... sort and pack laundry to go to Mom's on Friday. She is thankfully paying for my physio too. I LOVE YOU MOM! And she is going to lend me her second heating pad so I can do the twice a day heating of my back that I am supposed to be doing.
On the financial front... it still sucks royally... with what is coming in this week and what has to go out between now and Monday... I am short by $140. GRRRRRrrrr. And unfortunately the CMS funds are depleted for business bills already with nothing left. Things are going to be ... uncomfortable... for a month or so. I have big bills to catch up on over June.
Well. I can do it. I CAN DO IT! Rearrange thr rooms at home to accommodate the CMS upper classes and living space for both M-SB and I, clear the financial debts, plan the courses, finish my thesis and begin a new life. New challanges. And with that I am discovering humility and learning the lesson of swallowing my pride and asking/accpeting help from others. I am also discovering friends where I never expected them. And I am most grateful and thankful for them.
I have an unconquerable soul!
Monday, May 23, 2005
And Airea Inspires me yet again!
Airea did this on her blog. I feel kinda ... um.. shy doing it myself. It feels very... exposing of the self a bit. But I will give it a try. Please keep in mind that there is not real order to the numbers in each section.
Ten Random things about me:
1- i am passionate about my school
2- i hate the colour pink
3- my music choises are VERY eclectic and driven by my moods
4- i need an hour before eating in the morning
5- i will sacrifice much for my friends
6- i sacrifice too much for the world around me and my responsibilities
7- i work too hard
8- i have yet to learn to "play" and to "do nothing"
9- i need to be reminded I am beautiful (cuz i still don't believe it)
10- i need to know I am loved (so tell me)
Nine ways to win my heart:
1- make me feel beautiful (say wow)
2- remind me often that you love me
3- back rubs
4- cook for me
5- Hold me close and with meaning
6- look me in the eye lovingly... and don't let me look away
7- whisper in my ear
8- sing to me
9- make me laugh
Eight things I want to do before I die:
1- travel
2- marry
3- have a family
4- see my school flourish into a real collegium
5- own horses
6- get my PhD in Religion and Wicca
7- get published
8- keep learning
Seven things I believe in:
1- Everything you do comes back to you
2- everyone has a gift within them
3- love and you will be loved
4- myself
5- my students
6- my friends
7- that the world sucks... but attitude is choice and so is how we make the world out to be... so... if it sucks... CHANGE IT or CHANGE YOURSELF
Six things that get me angry:
1- ignoring me
2- hurting my friends
3- hurting my family
4- being rude
5- being a lazy oaf
6- lying
Five things I am afraid of:
1- that i will not live up to what is needed or expected of me
2- being truly alone
3- that i will not have a family
4- opening up to people and showing them who I really am
5- certain crawlie bug things
Four of my favorite items in my room:
1- a numbered print "the Greenman"
2- 2 painting I actually did
3- my familiar's ashes
4- my cougar stuff
Three things I do every day:
1- check email
2- review the classes i must teach
3- meditate (or something spiritual)
Two things I need to do right now:
1- finish sorting my damnable shelves *moooaaannn*
2- pick a new CD to listen to
One person I want to see right now:
1- Na Muirnin
Ten Random things about me:
1- i am passionate about my school
2- i hate the colour pink
3- my music choises are VERY eclectic and driven by my moods
4- i need an hour before eating in the morning
5- i will sacrifice much for my friends
6- i sacrifice too much for the world around me and my responsibilities
7- i work too hard
8- i have yet to learn to "play" and to "do nothing"
9- i need to be reminded I am beautiful (cuz i still don't believe it)
10- i need to know I am loved (so tell me)
Nine ways to win my heart:
1- make me feel beautiful (say wow)
2- remind me often that you love me
3- back rubs
4- cook for me
5- Hold me close and with meaning
6- look me in the eye lovingly... and don't let me look away
7- whisper in my ear
8- sing to me
9- make me laugh
Eight things I want to do before I die:
1- travel
2- marry
3- have a family
4- see my school flourish into a real collegium
5- own horses
6- get my PhD in Religion and Wicca
7- get published
8- keep learning
Seven things I believe in:
1- Everything you do comes back to you
2- everyone has a gift within them
3- love and you will be loved
4- myself
5- my students
6- my friends
7- that the world sucks... but attitude is choice and so is how we make the world out to be... so... if it sucks... CHANGE IT or CHANGE YOURSELF
Six things that get me angry:
1- ignoring me
2- hurting my friends
3- hurting my family
4- being rude
5- being a lazy oaf
6- lying
Five things I am afraid of:
1- that i will not live up to what is needed or expected of me
2- being truly alone
3- that i will not have a family
4- opening up to people and showing them who I really am
5- certain crawlie bug things
Four of my favorite items in my room:
1- a numbered print "the Greenman"
2- 2 painting I actually did
3- my familiar's ashes
4- my cougar stuff
Three things I do every day:
1- check email
2- review the classes i must teach
3- meditate (or something spiritual)
Two things I need to do right now:
1- finish sorting my damnable shelves *moooaaannn*
2- pick a new CD to listen to
One person I want to see right now:
1- Na Muirnin
Sunday, May 22, 2005
Invictus
by William Ernest Henley; 1849-1903
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate;
I am the captain of my soul.
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate;
I am the captain of my soul.
the day & other literature
I was up way late last night. I still f-ing hurt. Stupid damp chill weather. The back rub I got yesterday really helped, though. Thank you WW. My hip is another matter altogether.
I got like 3hrs sleep.
The day has gone well-ish so far though. Planned my class and taught it this morning. That went real well and fun. Reviewed spellcrafting componants. Got home and needed a nap. That was helpful. Still tired, but not too bad. Took care of Merlin, a big fluffy grey cat at the vet clinic. Now I am eating nachos & leftover chicken while I decide what to do in the evening. Too tired to sprt the shelves. Too tired to think creatively on either the SWG book Chapter 3 or my Thesis conclusion.
Tomorrow:
- breakfast
- sort shelves and clean
- tune bike
- banking & return movie
- bike to work
- work at store
- bike home set up meditation space in bedroom/office
- meditate
- hot soaking shower
OH!! Mom sent me searching some great reading:
for those who like the classics
http://www.underthesun.cc/Classics/Twain/
http://members.aol.com/ericblomqu/brownine.htm
http://www.cswnet.com/~erin/browning.htm
http://eserver.org/thoreau/thoreau.html
http://www.cs.indiana.edu/statecraft/civ.dis.html
http://www.bestclips.com/poem-invictus.html
http://www.whitmanarchive.org/
I got like 3hrs sleep.
The day has gone well-ish so far though. Planned my class and taught it this morning. That went real well and fun. Reviewed spellcrafting componants. Got home and needed a nap. That was helpful. Still tired, but not too bad. Took care of Merlin, a big fluffy grey cat at the vet clinic. Now I am eating nachos & leftover chicken while I decide what to do in the evening. Too tired to sprt the shelves. Too tired to think creatively on either the SWG book Chapter 3 or my Thesis conclusion.
Tomorrow:
- breakfast
- sort shelves and clean
- tune bike
- banking & return movie
- bike to work
- work at store
- bike home set up meditation space in bedroom/office
- meditate
- hot soaking shower
OH!! Mom sent me searching some great reading:
for those who like the classics
http://www.underthesun.cc/Classics/Twain/
http://members.aol.com/ericblomqu/brownine.htm
http://www.cswnet.com/~erin/browning.htm
http://eserver.org/thoreau/thoreau.html
http://www.cs.indiana.edu/statecraft/civ.dis.html
http://www.bestclips.com/poem-invictus.html
http://www.whitmanarchive.org/
Thank you from heart and soul
I want to say thanks to Northern Cougars coveners for a wonderful dinner pot luck. It was great to just eat and hang out. Thanks.
Saturday, May 21, 2005
I can endure... I have an unconquerable soul...
The hot shower did kinda sorta help. This will be a good day and I will smile... because...
Attitude is a CHOICE.
Attitude is a CHOICE.
tears and pain
I hurt so bad last night i cried right through my nightly meditation for an hour. It was well past 3AM before I got to sleep. Nothing I tried helped.
I will try a hot shower but that too has not been much help for long. This damp chilly weather right after physio...
Today... I have vet, teaching, and coven.
Oh... and the new keyboard works great. It is just noisy.
I will try a hot shower but that too has not been much help for long. This damp chilly weather right after physio...
Today... I have vet, teaching, and coven.
Oh... and the new keyboard works great. It is just noisy.
Friday, May 20, 2005
So much for today's plan!
LOL!!
Well, I went to bed REALLY early and slept well. I was up early and started right into the office. Scraped the candle wax off the floor, vaccuumed, mopped. I moved the shelving and the desk. I cleaned and sorted the desk. Still have to do that to the shelves. And now the desk in in its new/old place. I say old because this is where it was first placed when I first made this my office. This task took me almost ALL DAY!
I managed meditation before getting out of bed, and breakfast somewhere before mopping.
But I never got the chance to get the bike tuned. AND I was 15min late for physio. On the up side, I finally plugged in the new keyboard. YAY! no more rubbed out keys that I have to guess as I types.
I completely missed lunch. DOH! And didn't make it to the bank to deposit my pay in time to pay for physio. I used Mom's VISA. Then went to the bank and stopped into the grocery store for direly needed cat litter and something to eat. I got a sandwich... BLEH! Never getting another.
CMS-L2 was awesome. We discussed Magic/Science/Religion then watch the movie "The Craft" for discussion.
I collected the student funds and headed back to the bank to deposit it and pay some bills. It is right to the wire on the finances... but I should be able to survive through the week. The tough part will be driving to work and parking. TIGHT financial squeeze. Like i will have 3 cents in my bank till Wednesday's pay. Oy... I better take out the bike this weekend and get it tuned and bike to work. That will be fun. I just have to rememeber to give myself time for the trip... slow slow riding. I have not really ridden this new adult bike. Silly... I bought it for myself as a birthday gift a few years ago... and have not really taken it out since. Mostly because hauling it up and down the stairs is too damned awkward.
Well I am home now and kinda sore from the physio. I will chat and relax for a while. No more cleaning this evening. I will take that hot shower for my back and hip before bed.
Tomorrow is vet work, teaching level 3, and coven in the evening. Coven is a pot luck meal and movie social. They are all busy grinding through their lesson so I thought a chill time would be nice for us all. And besides, we have not done dinner together in a while. Shame M-SB won't be there. He is out with his mom.
By the way... Cloak (M-SB's cat) thinks the office is his new toy and comes in just to meow and hear the echo. This has to shange soon before i kill him.
Well, I went to bed REALLY early and slept well. I was up early and started right into the office. Scraped the candle wax off the floor, vaccuumed, mopped. I moved the shelving and the desk. I cleaned and sorted the desk. Still have to do that to the shelves. And now the desk in in its new/old place. I say old because this is where it was first placed when I first made this my office. This task took me almost ALL DAY!
I managed meditation before getting out of bed, and breakfast somewhere before mopping.
But I never got the chance to get the bike tuned. AND I was 15min late for physio. On the up side, I finally plugged in the new keyboard. YAY! no more rubbed out keys that I have to guess as I types.
I completely missed lunch. DOH! And didn't make it to the bank to deposit my pay in time to pay for physio. I used Mom's VISA. Then went to the bank and stopped into the grocery store for direly needed cat litter and something to eat. I got a sandwich... BLEH! Never getting another.
CMS-L2 was awesome. We discussed Magic/Science/Religion then watch the movie "The Craft" for discussion.
I collected the student funds and headed back to the bank to deposit it and pay some bills. It is right to the wire on the finances... but I should be able to survive through the week. The tough part will be driving to work and parking. TIGHT financial squeeze. Like i will have 3 cents in my bank till Wednesday's pay. Oy... I better take out the bike this weekend and get it tuned and bike to work. That will be fun. I just have to rememeber to give myself time for the trip... slow slow riding. I have not really ridden this new adult bike. Silly... I bought it for myself as a birthday gift a few years ago... and have not really taken it out since. Mostly because hauling it up and down the stairs is too damned awkward.
Well I am home now and kinda sore from the physio. I will chat and relax for a while. No more cleaning this evening. I will take that hot shower for my back and hip before bed.
Tomorrow is vet work, teaching level 3, and coven in the evening. Coven is a pot luck meal and movie social. They are all busy grinding through their lesson so I thought a chill time would be nice for us all. And besides, we have not done dinner together in a while. Shame M-SB won't be there. He is out with his mom.
By the way... Cloak (M-SB's cat) thinks the office is his new toy and comes in just to meow and hear the echo. This has to shange soon before i kill him.
Today's plan
Well, I am up and slept long last night. I am still sore and plan on a hot shower in a few minutes.
After...
- clean the near empty office
- place & sort the office furniture
- tune the bike
- move bedroom stuff in (well some of the smaller stuffs)
- EAT
- physio
- teach Level 2 & see a film
I will be betwixt and between this week till everything is moved into place... so I apologize for any moodiness. I hate when my stuff is all in the wrong places.
After...
- clean the near empty office
- place & sort the office furniture
- tune the bike
- move bedroom stuff in (well some of the smaller stuffs)
- EAT
- physio
- teach Level 2 & see a film
I will be betwixt and between this week till everything is moved into place... so I apologize for any moodiness. I hate when my stuff is all in the wrong places.
Airea tagged me on the "One Word Meme"
What is the one word you would use to describe your appearance?
Cute
Favorite body part?
Hair
Least favorite body part?
nose
Most often complimented on?
Hair
Most often criticized for?
Over-working
Your romantic relationship?
In Limbo
Your relationship to your parents?
Friendly
Your feelings about parenting?
Hopeful
Your hobbies?
Writing
Your favorite personality type for a friend?
Intelligent
Favorite personality type for a spouse or lover?
Fun yet responsible
Favorite type of movie?
Drama/Action/Sci-Fi
Favorite cuisine?
Asian
Favorite treat?
Hugs & Earl Grey Tea
Favorite gift?
Music
Most sensitive “unusual” erogenous zone?
Fingertips/palms/wrists
Favorite pet?
Cats
Subject of blogging post that got the most hits?
(shrug... dunno whoch one)
Feelings about memes?
Silly but fun
I tag WW, Owl, Hantra, & Roo.
Cute
Favorite body part?
Hair
Least favorite body part?
nose
Most often complimented on?
Hair
Most often criticized for?
Over-working
Your romantic relationship?
In Limbo
Your relationship to your parents?
Friendly
Your feelings about parenting?
Hopeful
Your hobbies?
Writing
Your favorite personality type for a friend?
Intelligent
Favorite personality type for a spouse or lover?
Fun yet responsible
Favorite type of movie?
Drama/Action/Sci-Fi
Favorite cuisine?
Asian
Favorite treat?
Hugs & Earl Grey Tea
Favorite gift?
Music
Most sensitive “unusual” erogenous zone?
Fingertips/palms/wrists
Favorite pet?
Cats
Subject of blogging post that got the most hits?
(shrug... dunno whoch one)
Feelings about memes?
Silly but fun
I tag WW, Owl, Hantra, & Roo.
Thursday, May 19, 2005
SAVE ME!
I am stuck at my parents' waiting for the laundry to be finished. I am bored and don't want to write my conclusion to my thesis. Mom lectured me about getting a "real" job again and about making sure to not depend on anyone in case I am alone. So... that is where I get that! And has now turned on the central airconditioning and is trying to freeze me to death.
Productive!
Wow ... I had a tough time getting out of bed. I was all jello-like yesterday, now i am exhausted and stiff and achy. I had a tough time getting going. But off I went just the same (later than anticipated).
I am now at my parents' place doing big blanket laundry. It is half done now. I will have to do this again with the next batch next week. And damn... damn damn damn their dog is FAT!!!
I brought my thesis along with me and lo! Lo and behold! I have FINISHED my edits!! Now I have to rewrite my conclusion. I wonder if I can manage that by Friday? So when Roo and I meet I will only need to edit it June 4th and get the official documents for my appendices. Actually, I can start looking for those official documents now. I am tired of looking at the thesis and need a break from the writing aspect.
Ohhhh... i am Soooooosooooo sore. I will need a hot bath or something when i get home.
I am now at my parents' place doing big blanket laundry. It is half done now. I will have to do this again with the next batch next week. And damn... damn damn damn their dog is FAT!!!
I brought my thesis along with me and lo! Lo and behold! I have FINISHED my edits!! Now I have to rewrite my conclusion. I wonder if I can manage that by Friday? So when Roo and I meet I will only need to edit it June 4th and get the official documents for my appendices. Actually, I can start looking for those official documents now. I am tired of looking at the thesis and need a break from the writing aspect.
Ohhhh... i am Soooooosooooo sore. I will need a hot bath or something when i get home.
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
good news
Well, I managed to finish the level 3 class notes and get out in time for my errands. The first batch of culled clothes are GONE ... gone gone gone... to the Sally Ann (Salvation Army). Been to the bank and paid a bill. And the post office for that nasty letter... which did not exist! Some dolt forgot to take the notice out of the system that I picked it up last week (and dealt with it then).
Work was ok. Roo has no voice. Poor her! I wish her well soon and wish her wellness for her camping weekend. Coworkers from both jobs are all curious about what is going on in my life with me and my relationship and new friends and new relationships. Reminder: I am divorcing AMICABLY. I have some great friends and some newish interests. But as for a serious committed relationship. Well... I am taking things one step at a time and I will see what the future holds for me. My standard are very high right now and all I want is the Fairy Tale or nothing. So I hope the next guy understands that. Any by the way. Personal life is just that... personal. If you want to know something, ask nicely and directly or not at all. I may or may not answer and that is MY choice. I have huge issues with trust and sharing. I am sorry for those I have failed as a result. It is very hard (if impossible) for me to ask for help or admit that I need it. Harder to place my life in the hands and care of another. Please have patience. Please don't give up on me either. That is where I stand. I have many things at the moment to resolve and myself to establish. And a couple of very dear friends to hug for their support. *emotional interlude over*
I remembered the storage boxes, so I will pack the office some and move it out tonite. I hope to have everything i want out of the office... out... tonight. That way when I get home tomorrow I can start to clean it.
The gym was good. I was already sore from pulling some muscles moving heavy crap from my office, so I took it easy for the first 2 rounds... then pushed myself in the last round because I felt guilty and lazy. Now my muscles feel like jello and I am sure I will ache bad once I recover.
I have been craving meat... MEAT... all week. I haven't really had much all week as it just wasn't in the budget. I am so glad I have emergency food stuffs that still provide the nutrient necessities. But DAMN... I have been craving meat. M-SB made the last of the hamburger today for dinner... mmmm... burgers.... I am most satisfied now. Thank you!
tonight I plan of finishing the emptying of the office and preparing the Spellcrafting Specialty class notes. Oh, and packing my thesis and some personal entertainment for when I am at my mom's tomorrow doing laundry.
PS... my cell should be working by the end of the week. Someone fucked up a notice and arrangement I made with them and cut my service. They have apologized and said it should all be sorted out by Friday. *rolls eyes*
Work was ok. Roo has no voice. Poor her! I wish her well soon and wish her wellness for her camping weekend. Coworkers from both jobs are all curious about what is going on in my life with me and my relationship and new friends and new relationships. Reminder: I am divorcing AMICABLY. I have some great friends and some newish interests. But as for a serious committed relationship. Well... I am taking things one step at a time and I will see what the future holds for me. My standard are very high right now and all I want is the Fairy Tale or nothing. So I hope the next guy understands that. Any by the way. Personal life is just that... personal. If you want to know something, ask nicely and directly or not at all. I may or may not answer and that is MY choice. I have huge issues with trust and sharing. I am sorry for those I have failed as a result. It is very hard (if impossible) for me to ask for help or admit that I need it. Harder to place my life in the hands and care of another. Please have patience. Please don't give up on me either. That is where I stand. I have many things at the moment to resolve and myself to establish. And a couple of very dear friends to hug for their support. *emotional interlude over*
I remembered the storage boxes, so I will pack the office some and move it out tonite. I hope to have everything i want out of the office... out... tonight. That way when I get home tomorrow I can start to clean it.
The gym was good. I was already sore from pulling some muscles moving heavy crap from my office, so I took it easy for the first 2 rounds... then pushed myself in the last round because I felt guilty and lazy. Now my muscles feel like jello and I am sure I will ache bad once I recover.
I have been craving meat... MEAT... all week. I haven't really had much all week as it just wasn't in the budget. I am so glad I have emergency food stuffs that still provide the nutrient necessities. But DAMN... I have been craving meat. M-SB made the last of the hamburger today for dinner... mmmm... burgers.... I am most satisfied now. Thank you!
tonight I plan of finishing the emptying of the office and preparing the Spellcrafting Specialty class notes. Oh, and packing my thesis and some personal entertainment for when I am at my mom's tomorrow doing laundry.
PS... my cell should be working by the end of the week. Someone fucked up a notice and arrangement I made with them and cut my service. They have apologized and said it should all be sorted out by Friday. *rolls eyes*
mild improvements
Rent will be paid as of Sunday.
Electricity has an acceptable arrangement.
And there is money in the bank for my Internet so I can continue research and work and the things that are fun that keep me sane.
Now to cover the other small things before Tuesday.
- Visa ($50)
- physio ($55)
- another bill ($173)
Hopefully funds come in on Friday or Monday at the latest. Otherwise I am out of a car and food. This is a challanging stretch. VERY challenging.
The gods tend to dump these on me if I am clinging to a situation I ought not to be.... Last time this happened it was because I was supposed to move the hell out of Montreal for a better job and I was stalling and in a bad relationship. But why this now? What is wrong with my job and relationship? Well, ok... the relationship is now over and that is easing but I am kinda stuck with the jobs. Nothing has opened up yet. Maybe that is what is about to happen? Something will open up? I hope it is something really good.
Ok... I am breathing easier now. I will go get breakfast. (one small better thing I promised myself I would do) OH! and the Gazette has stuff on Star Wars Episode III in section D : Arts & Life today. WOOHOO! I can hardly believe I promised someone I would WAIT till he got here to see it! I will wait, no fears... but that is asking alot! *hehe* We are both avid Star Wars fans and have been roleplaying it since the Fall 2004. I will wait. It will be worth it. People are saying that this is the last film to play in a 6-part series. But I thought it was a 9-part series. *???*
Time for breakfast and prep for the day. Gotta leave an hour early to run errands.
Electricity has an acceptable arrangement.
And there is money in the bank for my Internet so I can continue research and work and the things that are fun that keep me sane.
Now to cover the other small things before Tuesday.
- Visa ($50)
- physio ($55)
- another bill ($173)
Hopefully funds come in on Friday or Monday at the latest. Otherwise I am out of a car and food. This is a challanging stretch. VERY challenging.
The gods tend to dump these on me if I am clinging to a situation I ought not to be.... Last time this happened it was because I was supposed to move the hell out of Montreal for a better job and I was stalling and in a bad relationship. But why this now? What is wrong with my job and relationship? Well, ok... the relationship is now over and that is easing but I am kinda stuck with the jobs. Nothing has opened up yet. Maybe that is what is about to happen? Something will open up? I hope it is something really good.
Ok... I am breathing easier now. I will go get breakfast. (one small better thing I promised myself I would do) OH! and the Gazette has stuff on Star Wars Episode III in section D : Arts & Life today. WOOHOO! I can hardly believe I promised someone I would WAIT till he got here to see it! I will wait, no fears... but that is asking alot! *hehe* We are both avid Star Wars fans and have been roleplaying it since the Fall 2004. I will wait. It will be worth it. People are saying that this is the last film to play in a 6-part series. But I thought it was a 9-part series. *???*
Time for breakfast and prep for the day. Gotta leave an hour early to run errands.
*Groan*
It is very frustrating when your day starts off badly before you even wake up. Janiotr woke me again for rent I don't have yet. And in the mail are big bills I don't yet have the finances to pay. One I will call and see about making arrangements for as I will have money soonish and it has now become the priority to pay, thus the one I was going to pay gets shuffled down the priority list. This must be the year for cleaning the financial cobwebs or something. Either that or the year the gods decide to see if the can challenge me enough that they kill me. *toe-ing the line here* Good thing I had gone on vacation and had that break to recharge or this could be really bad and messy.
The day is bad. A Piano fell.
I wonder what other piano awaits at the post office. I got a final pick-up notice... but I was sure I had picked everything up. There were no other "earlier" notices.
The day is bad. A Piano fell.
I wonder what other piano awaits at the post office. I got a final pick-up notice... but I was sure I had picked everything up. There were no other "earlier" notices.
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
Of the first 3 lessons...
There are a few that are really REALLY hard to do... and some I just need to think about and act upon.
HARD: "be true to yourself"
HARD: celebrate yourself (how the hell do I do that?)
HARD: purge the draining things from my life (damn... most of those I just can't... grrrrr)
JUST DO: 1 or 2 better habits (eat breakfast and... and... ummm... daily meditations)
JUST DO: get out into nature ... like bike (I will take my bike down on Friday and tune it and take it for a spin then lock it downstairs and pray it doesn't get stolen)
JUST DO: bath and PAMPER myself (i don't like my bathtub so i only take showers... and feel REAL guilty about "pampering myself")
JUST DO: sleep (what is that?)
Ok I will focus on these as I do my other things this week.
Tomorrow's to do list:
- eat breakfast!
- plan Level 3's class for Saturday
- go to post office and get the nasty letter they think i still have there (thought i picked them up already)
- banking
- drop bags of clothes at the Sally Ann
- work at the store
- bring home the storage boxes
- go to the gym
- pack stuff and move it out of the office
- finish the Level 3 class planning
HARD: "be true to yourself"
HARD: celebrate yourself (how the hell do I do that?)
HARD: purge the draining things from my life (damn... most of those I just can't... grrrrr)
JUST DO: 1 or 2 better habits (eat breakfast and... and... ummm... daily meditations)
JUST DO: get out into nature ... like bike (I will take my bike down on Friday and tune it and take it for a spin then lock it downstairs and pray it doesn't get stolen)
JUST DO: bath and PAMPER myself (i don't like my bathtub so i only take showers... and feel REAL guilty about "pampering myself")
JUST DO: sleep (what is that?)
Ok I will focus on these as I do my other things this week.
Tomorrow's to do list:
- eat breakfast!
- plan Level 3's class for Saturday
- go to post office and get the nasty letter they think i still have there (thought i picked them up already)
- banking
- drop bags of clothes at the Sally Ann
- work at the store
- bring home the storage boxes
- go to the gym
- pack stuff and move it out of the office
- finish the Level 3 class planning
Thought I would dig this up
I went digging for my notes on "Lit from Within" from my October trip to Ohio. I figured it was time to relook at them and maybe try again to apply them.
Lesson #1 Set:
- "The first step to bringing out your inner beauty is to have only one goal for your physical self: that it be an accurate representation of your spiritual self."
- Be true to your word, true to your path, and true to yourself
- Celebrate yourself
- Think well of yourself, take care of yourself, don't compare yourself
- Positive self-messages with NO caveats (I am knowledgeable, confident, healthy and "glowy")
- I AM a good priestess!
- Stand your ground in the face of negative people (including family) and REAFFIRM
- Eat healthier (not "healthy"... just healthier)
- Do enjoyable exercise
- Focus on being happy, your body will follow
- Who and how do I want to be when I am 80?
- Purge the draining things in your life
Lesson #2 set:
- Adopt one or two better habits. (don't aim for perfrct or good... just better)
- Look good enough... minimal & fresh...
Lesson #3 set:
- Get Exercise: Get out into Nature (walk, hike, bike) and/or Do something I can and enjoy (Curves)
- Take a soaking bath: the caress of water is needed by the skin, our largest organ;
involve all 5 senses (hot bath, scented oils in a carrier or incense, candlelight, music, fruit to eat or good Sortilege to drink); PAMPER yourself; should be done once a week... but start slow till it can become routine (SIM, then BIM, then SIW)
- Sleep. Get adequate sleep.
Ok that is enough lessons. Lets see if I can manage these before I tackle any more. I already apply most but definately not all of these lessons.
Lesson #1 Set:
- "The first step to bringing out your inner beauty is to have only one goal for your physical self: that it be an accurate representation of your spiritual self."
- Be true to your word, true to your path, and true to yourself
- Celebrate yourself
- Think well of yourself, take care of yourself, don't compare yourself
- Positive self-messages with NO caveats (I am knowledgeable, confident, healthy and "glowy")
- I AM a good priestess!
- Stand your ground in the face of negative people (including family) and REAFFIRM
- Eat healthier (not "healthy"... just healthier)
- Do enjoyable exercise
- Focus on being happy, your body will follow
- Who and how do I want to be when I am 80?
- Purge the draining things in your life
Lesson #2 set:
- Adopt one or two better habits. (don't aim for perfrct or good... just better)
- Look good enough... minimal & fresh...
Lesson #3 set:
- Get Exercise: Get out into Nature (walk, hike, bike) and/or Do something I can and enjoy (Curves)
- Take a soaking bath: the caress of water is needed by the skin, our largest organ;
involve all 5 senses (hot bath, scented oils in a carrier or incense, candlelight, music, fruit to eat or good Sortilege to drink); PAMPER yourself; should be done once a week... but start slow till it can become routine (SIM, then BIM, then SIW)
- Sleep. Get adequate sleep.
Ok that is enough lessons. Lets see if I can manage these before I tackle any more. I already apply most but definately not all of these lessons.
Day still sux... but my mood is ok.
Work was ok with a few wierdos. I was glad it was over. No gym this evening. I missed most of my errands like going to the post office, banking, and dropping off Sally Ann clothes. Those will be on tomorrow's agenda.
This evening I was tired and sore and worried about rent (still worried). There was nothing really supper-like in the house which upset me more. I resigned myself to a can of cream of potato soup... which had gone bad in the can somehow. Grrr... So I had a can of cream of mushroom soup and made the ginger snap cookies from dough i had in the freezer. Placated with the food, I felt able to face the evening.
Folded the laundry. I was hoping there was stuff to cull in there, but there wasn't.
I translated stuff from English to Latin for Roo and her Templars. That was LOADS of FUN!!!
Then I moved more stuff from the office to the livingroom... and hurt my back some. *pout*
So... I went looking at websites. I went to Boing Boing for the first time. There is some cool and some very wierd stuff there. Like the Star Wars Last Supper desktop image. And a bizarre Family sculpture.
Now what?
Time to finish planning the Level 2 class.
This evening I was tired and sore and worried about rent (still worried). There was nothing really supper-like in the house which upset me more. I resigned myself to a can of cream of potato soup... which had gone bad in the can somehow. Grrr... So I had a can of cream of mushroom soup and made the ginger snap cookies from dough i had in the freezer. Placated with the food, I felt able to face the evening.
Folded the laundry. I was hoping there was stuff to cull in there, but there wasn't.
I translated stuff from English to Latin for Roo and her Templars. That was LOADS of FUN!!!
Then I moved more stuff from the office to the livingroom... and hurt my back some. *pout*
So... I went looking at websites. I went to Boing Boing for the first time. There is some cool and some very wierd stuff there. Like the Star Wars Last Supper desktop image. And a bizarre Family sculpture.
Now what?
Time to finish planning the Level 2 class.
Up Too Early
Why? WHY did I get up?
Well, the phone rang and I did not get to it in time. The janitor was calling for our late rent. Mark's job fucked up his pay and he does not have enough for rent. Had I known much much earlier that this would be a problem, I would have budgeted the missing amount ($150) into my budget. But I didn't so I didn't. So now... I am stressed. I hope Mark figures out something soon to pl;acate the landlady and janitor. Ugh... will next month be the same? *stressed*
I can't do anything about that. Not at the moment.
What am I doing? Something constructive. I am reworking the Level 2 class notes for Friday's class of Magic, Religion & Science.
The heat is off in the house at last and the temperatures outside are very very cool. So, the house is a bit chilly, but that is WAY better than roasting. I can always put on a sweater, but if it is hot... there is only so much I can take off.
M-SB is still asleep. I can't yet do any furniture moving. Nor can I fold the laundry as I need the bed to put the folded laundry on. I hope he gets up soon. To deal with the rent issue and so I can get to doing my other stuff.
Ok... now I am getting too cold. I am going to go get dressed and make some oatmeal for breakfast. Mmmmm... not the instant oatmeal either. I am determined to not let this day be unpleasant. It is all about attitude. Isn't it?
Well, the phone rang and I did not get to it in time. The janitor was calling for our late rent. Mark's job fucked up his pay and he does not have enough for rent. Had I known much much earlier that this would be a problem, I would have budgeted the missing amount ($150) into my budget. But I didn't so I didn't. So now... I am stressed. I hope Mark figures out something soon to pl;acate the landlady and janitor. Ugh... will next month be the same? *stressed*
I can't do anything about that. Not at the moment.
What am I doing? Something constructive. I am reworking the Level 2 class notes for Friday's class of Magic, Religion & Science.
The heat is off in the house at last and the temperatures outside are very very cool. So, the house is a bit chilly, but that is WAY better than roasting. I can always put on a sweater, but if it is hot... there is only so much I can take off.
M-SB is still asleep. I can't yet do any furniture moving. Nor can I fold the laundry as I need the bed to put the folded laundry on. I hope he gets up soon. To deal with the rent issue and so I can get to doing my other stuff.
Ok... now I am getting too cold. I am going to go get dressed and make some oatmeal for breakfast. Mmmmm... not the instant oatmeal either. I am determined to not let this day be unpleasant. It is all about attitude. Isn't it?
1972: What Happened In the World When I was Born?
In 1972 (the year you were born)
Richard Nixon is president of the US
President Nixon approves NASA's space shuttle, a reusable spacecraft, at a cost of $5.5 billion
Nixon arrives in China for an 8 day visit, which he calls a "journey for peace"
While campaigning for the presidency Alabama Governor George C. Wallace is shot and seriously wounded
Five men are arrested in the Watergate office complex in DC for breaking into the offices of the Democratic National Committee
Hurricane Agnes strikes the East Coast causing 117 deaths
First scientific hand-held calculator (HP-35) os introduced for $395
Shaquille O'Neal, Jennifer Garner, The Rock, The Notorious B.I.G., Cameron Diaz, Eminem, and Alyssa Milano are born
Oakland Athletics win the World Series
Dallas Cowboys win Superbowl VI
Boston Bruins win the Stanley Cup
The Godfather is the top grossing film
Pink Floyd debuts "The Dark Side of the Moon" during a performance at London's Rainbow Theater
"You've Got a Friend"by Carole King wins a Grammy for song of the year
The Price is Right premieres on CBS
Richard Nixon is president of the US
President Nixon approves NASA's space shuttle, a reusable spacecraft, at a cost of $5.5 billion
Nixon arrives in China for an 8 day visit, which he calls a "journey for peace"
While campaigning for the presidency Alabama Governor George C. Wallace is shot and seriously wounded
Five men are arrested in the Watergate office complex in DC for breaking into the offices of the Democratic National Committee
Hurricane Agnes strikes the East Coast causing 117 deaths
First scientific hand-held calculator (HP-35) os introduced for $395
Shaquille O'Neal, Jennifer Garner, The Rock, The Notorious B.I.G., Cameron Diaz, Eminem, and Alyssa Milano are born
Oakland Athletics win the World Series
Dallas Cowboys win Superbowl VI
Boston Bruins win the Stanley Cup
The Godfather is the top grossing film
Pink Floyd debuts "The Dark Side of the Moon" during a performance at London's Rainbow Theater
"You've Got a Friend"by Carole King wins a Grammy for song of the year
The Price is Right premieres on CBS
Oh well
I had yummy ice cream.
I corrected Level 4 student works.
But I did nothing else.
Tomorrow... ya... I will do it tomorrow.
Task for the morrow:
- sort and fold laundry
- move more things from the office to the livingroom
- return the movie and drop stuff at the Sally Ann
- work at the store
- plan the level 2 and 3 classes
- more office to livingroom stuff
- edit thesis
Relax.
Wednesday will be a bank day and a gym day after work. Thursday... i will get paint and do laundry at Mom's. Friday will finish the office to livingroom move. Saturday... maybe I will paint with the coven ... likely not. Painting for Sunday. This is a rough plan.
I corrected Level 4 student works.
But I did nothing else.
Tomorrow... ya... I will do it tomorrow.
Task for the morrow:
- sort and fold laundry
- move more things from the office to the livingroom
- return the movie and drop stuff at the Sally Ann
- work at the store
- plan the level 2 and 3 classes
- more office to livingroom stuff
- edit thesis
Relax.
Wednesday will be a bank day and a gym day after work. Thursday... i will get paint and do laundry at Mom's. Friday will finish the office to livingroom move. Saturday... maybe I will paint with the coven ... likely not. Painting for Sunday. This is a rough plan.
Monday, May 16, 2005
the day... was...
Frustrating.
The heat is STILL on in the apartment and it was hot so when I went to bed at midnight, i did not sleep till 2am. At least i slept well once i did sleep.
I woke to some breakfast from M-SB and a long hot shower. That helped any lingering aches. I cleaned the mice and fed the snakes (culled the mouse herd by 6). One f-ing mouse bit me. He got fed to a snake first.
The day at work was odd and awkward. And I didn't make it out in time to feed my meter and got another f-ing parking ticket. Went to the gym after. That was fun. I am much liking the gym. I am liking even more the results of me being there.
Got home ate yummy pasta with Mom's home-made pasta sauce. There is something incredibly comforting about having Mom's cooking. I then tackled the office. And moved out the file cabinet. DAMN it is heavy. DAMN it was supposed to STAY in the office. Grrrrr. well moved out a few other things and put stuff away. The big Altar unit got moved to the livingroom for the moment. and I found all kinds of aweful surprises under it. Kitten presents, dead cat toys, dead things... I swore. If anything moved on its own, I would scream and then promptly POUND THE HELL OUT OF IT!! Nothing moved. 1/5 of the office is now in the livingroom. I need abreak and a reward. I think I will step out and get me a little ice cream.
When I get back, I will corrent the Level 4 homework, print evaluation forms for the Level 2's and 3's, plan the Level 2 class, and do some edits on my thesis. THEN... I will work on some fun stuff... like chapter 3 of my Star Wars book. You can check out the first 2 chapters HERE. Maybe I will go ingame and rp a bit... or maybe i will rp in Yahoo chat with Mike. Something fun and not constructive... but very creative.
Ice cream first.
The heat is STILL on in the apartment and it was hot so when I went to bed at midnight, i did not sleep till 2am. At least i slept well once i did sleep.
I woke to some breakfast from M-SB and a long hot shower. That helped any lingering aches. I cleaned the mice and fed the snakes (culled the mouse herd by 6). One f-ing mouse bit me. He got fed to a snake first.
The day at work was odd and awkward. And I didn't make it out in time to feed my meter and got another f-ing parking ticket. Went to the gym after. That was fun. I am much liking the gym. I am liking even more the results of me being there.
Got home ate yummy pasta with Mom's home-made pasta sauce. There is something incredibly comforting about having Mom's cooking. I then tackled the office. And moved out the file cabinet. DAMN it is heavy. DAMN it was supposed to STAY in the office. Grrrrr. well moved out a few other things and put stuff away. The big Altar unit got moved to the livingroom for the moment. and I found all kinds of aweful surprises under it. Kitten presents, dead cat toys, dead things... I swore. If anything moved on its own, I would scream and then promptly POUND THE HELL OUT OF IT!! Nothing moved. 1/5 of the office is now in the livingroom. I need abreak and a reward. I think I will step out and get me a little ice cream.
When I get back, I will corrent the Level 4 homework, print evaluation forms for the Level 2's and 3's, plan the Level 2 class, and do some edits on my thesis. THEN... I will work on some fun stuff... like chapter 3 of my Star Wars book. You can check out the first 2 chapters HERE. Maybe I will go ingame and rp a bit... or maybe i will rp in Yahoo chat with Mike. Something fun and not constructive... but very creative.
Ice cream first.
Sunday... happened...
I was tired at the gym. That made the experience a bit hellish. When I was done I drove straight to the store and stopped in to La Croissanterie for a tiny breakfast. It was ok. The food helped me not feel like the day was going to be hellish.
I taught the first Spellcrafting Specialty class. I was expecting it to be only one hour long as I was just introducing things, but it took 2 hrs and was full of interesting questions.
I got home and napped for a couple hours then watched an awesome movie: National Treasure
I won't spoil any of it... but will say it was well worth the seeing and did not feel like a Disney flick (even though it was) till the very end.
Today, I have lots to do:
- laundry
- clean the mice (and cull the herd)
- feed snakes
- tidy the livingroom
- start to sort and clean my office (and move things into the livingroom)
- make a few more edits to my thesis
- and work at the store
- and go to the gym
The mice are first on the list actually. They are smelly. I like to pride myself on that my house does not smell like cat or mouse even though I own them.
As a side note, I am having some difficulty with my cell phone and it is temporarily cut while we sort out packaging and stuff. Stupid people got things all confused when I said I wanted a servoce change. Argh.
I taught the first Spellcrafting Specialty class. I was expecting it to be only one hour long as I was just introducing things, but it took 2 hrs and was full of interesting questions.
I got home and napped for a couple hours then watched an awesome movie: National Treasure
I won't spoil any of it... but will say it was well worth the seeing and did not feel like a Disney flick (even though it was) till the very end.
Today, I have lots to do:
- laundry
- clean the mice (and cull the herd)
- feed snakes
- tidy the livingroom
- start to sort and clean my office (and move things into the livingroom)
- make a few more edits to my thesis
- and work at the store
- and go to the gym
The mice are first on the list actually. They are smelly. I like to pride myself on that my house does not smell like cat or mouse even though I own them.
As a side note, I am having some difficulty with my cell phone and it is temporarily cut while we sort out packaging and stuff. Stupid people got things all confused when I said I wanted a servoce change. Argh.
Saturday, May 14, 2005
Blarg... grumble...
I was so tired when I got back that I dropped down for a nap. Intending on napping for just an hour... but I only just got up (3.5hrs later). Blarg... grumble...
At least my class went well. Codes are interesting. I feel like I should have given out some further information but didn't want to as the students were to be reading the book and I hate repeating information for them. They are a great group that work well and fast in a very focused manner (and very quietly). I sometimes forget this and the classes I plan always take 30min or less than I intend. Well next weeks will be very very full. Yay. We will be learning about Animal Magic, Familiars, Totems and I may add some about shapeshifting in there. They are almost done this level!!! WOW!!!
I am almost fully awake now. Guess I will go try to clean some more of the bedroom and clean the geckos. I didn't get their crickets. I want to clean them and then give them a day to settle before I feed them. I will tackle that now.
Then I need to pack stuff for tomorrow's new Spellcrafting Specialty course. I really hope the students remember that it is tomorrow at noon.
At least my class went well. Codes are interesting. I feel like I should have given out some further information but didn't want to as the students were to be reading the book and I hate repeating information for them. They are a great group that work well and fast in a very focused manner (and very quietly). I sometimes forget this and the classes I plan always take 30min or less than I intend. Well next weeks will be very very full. Yay. We will be learning about Animal Magic, Familiars, Totems and I may add some about shapeshifting in there. They are almost done this level!!! WOW!!!
I am almost fully awake now. Guess I will go try to clean some more of the bedroom and clean the geckos. I didn't get their crickets. I want to clean them and then give them a day to settle before I feed them. I will tackle that now.
Then I need to pack stuff for tomorrow's new Spellcrafting Specialty course. I really hope the students remember that it is tomorrow at noon.
So the gym is having an effect
Today i was REAL tired. My own fault for staying up so late. Worked at the vet where it was super busy!! A couple people said "Wow, you look great! Did you lose weight or something?"
Made me smile and feel a bit good about myself. Yay me! The gym is making a difference.
Dammit. It rained on my clothes out on the line.
I am now on my way out to teach a class on Magical Codes to Level 3.
When I come home... muwahahahaha... the bedroom gets cleaned and sorted. Cull the clothes! CULL THE CLOTHES! I must remember to bring home crickets too to feed the geckos after I clean their tank.
Made me smile and feel a bit good about myself. Yay me! The gym is making a difference.
Dammit. It rained on my clothes out on the line.
I am now on my way out to teach a class on Magical Codes to Level 3.
When I come home... muwahahahaha... the bedroom gets cleaned and sorted. Cull the clothes! CULL THE CLOTHES! I must remember to bring home crickets too to feed the geckos after I clean their tank.
Quick update
Yay me! The thesis writing jam was a success I think! I actually focused on my thesis without hating it. I got 8 pages edited. My goal for the next time we meet (June 3rd) is to have the editing of the 36 main pages done. Then I can work on rewriting the conclusion. One thing at a time.
Class of Plant Lore went well... as did the meditations. I would like to schedule a field trip maybe... hmmm... to help them with their grimoires. That would be fun I think. Ya. Maybe I will mention it. I am looking forward to the upcoming classes with level 2. The discussions and the religions of the world with their cultural crafts and guest speakers. Level 2 is always a "bumpy" class, but this year is going better than any other level 2. I feel confident that they will all graduate together.
The evening after than kinda went down hill... I missed M-SB at Hurley's, nearly ran out of gas trying to find parking, and discovered that my cell got cut off as their payment was not in by 6pm. *sigh* That will get fixed Wednesday.
I finished the laundry (at least that which got washed as I ran out of change). And I started to clean the bedroom. That I will finish tomorrow (later today).
Saturday plan:
- work at vet
- lunch
- teach Magical Codes to CMS Level 3
- supper
- clean/sort the bedroom
- prep and pack for Sunday's Spellcrafting Specialty class
- relax for the evening
Time for bed. I was up too late roleplaying... :)
Class of Plant Lore went well... as did the meditations. I would like to schedule a field trip maybe... hmmm... to help them with their grimoires. That would be fun I think. Ya. Maybe I will mention it. I am looking forward to the upcoming classes with level 2. The discussions and the religions of the world with their cultural crafts and guest speakers. Level 2 is always a "bumpy" class, but this year is going better than any other level 2. I feel confident that they will all graduate together.
The evening after than kinda went down hill... I missed M-SB at Hurley's, nearly ran out of gas trying to find parking, and discovered that my cell got cut off as their payment was not in by 6pm. *sigh* That will get fixed Wednesday.
I finished the laundry (at least that which got washed as I ran out of change). And I started to clean the bedroom. That I will finish tomorrow (later today).
Saturday plan:
- work at vet
- lunch
- teach Magical Codes to CMS Level 3
- supper
- clean/sort the bedroom
- prep and pack for Sunday's Spellcrafting Specialty class
- relax for the evening
Time for bed. I was up too late roleplaying... :)
Friday, May 13, 2005
Tired... but ok...
I was SOOOOOooooOOooo... tired from the gym and seem to have really pulled the shoulder. OWIE! No gym today. I stayed up latish... chatting with people. I did not want to go to bed too early. I crashed dead asleep at midnight. I woke at 6am... then again at 8am... then struggled to sleep in and got up at 10am.
I am still aching. But I feel ok.
I sorted some photos from my Ohio trip. DOH! I still have another film to develop from that. Damn.
Today I have to do the stuff I didn't do yesterday.
I am still aching. But I feel ok.
I sorted some photos from my Ohio trip. DOH! I still have another film to develop from that. Damn.
Today I have to do the stuff I didn't do yesterday.
- Pack my thesis work and CMS-L2 class stuff (Plant Lore)
- Tidy the kitchen... again... and do more dishes
- Ask M-SB to clean the fridge and scrub the mold out of the bathroom
- Clean the bedroom and sort my clothes (cull them severely)
- Laundry
- Clean the gecko tank
- Clean the mice tank and feed snakes if there is time (don't think there will be time today)
Tackling the office will start Saturday night and continue all next week till it is done.
Thursday, May 12, 2005
productivity failure
Well I crashed after the gym. I got back and was completely out of energy! I took like 30min to scrub my little fishy tank and then put away the laod of white laundry i neglected in the basket all week. But then I just had no energy left. So much for cleaning the bedroom and all the other stuff i wanted to do.
What did I manage?
I found a bunch of cool coyote stuff:
http://www.krittersinthemailbox.com/animals/coyote/index.htm
http://anwo.com/shopsite_sc/store/html/coyote.html
http://www.desertusa.com/june96/du_cycot.html
http://wolfs_moon.tripod.com/CoyoteTotem.html
http://www.bigbendrivertours.com/big_bend_info/bbanimals.htm
And lastly... I found a neat quote:
What did I manage?
I found a bunch of cool coyote stuff:
http://www.krittersinthemailbox.com/animals/coyote/index.htm
http://anwo.com/shopsite_sc/store/html/coyote.html
http://www.desertusa.com/june96/du_cycot.html
http://wolfs_moon.tripod.com/CoyoteTotem.html
http://www.bigbendrivertours.com/big_bend_info/bbanimals.htm
And lastly... I found a neat quote:
"Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive."
by Howard Thurman
And much was done...
Woke this morning from a restless sleep. I hate major weather shifts that go up and down and up and down and so on.
So, i got up and started to tackle the day. I tidies the house (though the kitchen needs it again now) and put away some books that were still in my backpack. I scrubbed the microwave and toaster oven but gave up on the fridge and freezer (maybe tomorrow). Called the new contact for divorce lawyer. He is a bit more reasonable and took the time to explain everything in words I understood.$1200 as opposed to the woman last night for $2000. He then suggested legal aid for us, but that would mean one of "their" lawyers. I have seen them at work with the custody battle regarding my niece. They made a mess and disrespected their clients. I wonder if I can find the $1200 and manage this nice lawyer guy. I then planned my Firday night class and Saturday afternoon class. AND made the 5 posters for the June workshops I am offering. AND I planned out the Sunday class. Lastly... I went to the gym with Roo.
Now I am tired. M-SB is out. I think he went to get his paperwork from work. They managed to fuck things up on him... again.
So, i got up and started to tackle the day. I tidies the house (though the kitchen needs it again now) and put away some books that were still in my backpack. I scrubbed the microwave and toaster oven but gave up on the fridge and freezer (maybe tomorrow). Called the new contact for divorce lawyer. He is a bit more reasonable and took the time to explain everything in words I understood.$1200 as opposed to the woman last night for $2000. He then suggested legal aid for us, but that would mean one of "their" lawyers. I have seen them at work with the custody battle regarding my niece. They made a mess and disrespected their clients. I wonder if I can find the $1200 and manage this nice lawyer guy. I then planned my Firday night class and Saturday afternoon class. AND made the 5 posters for the June workshops I am offering. AND I planned out the Sunday class. Lastly... I went to the gym with Roo.
Now I am tired. M-SB is out. I think he went to get his paperwork from work. They managed to fuck things up on him... again.
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
plans!!! weehee!!!
Wow, what a wierd day!!! Work was strange feeling all day. The store owner pulled me aside and offered me all kinds of helpful advice regarding divorce. Thank you! At the end we had a small mishap and someone burned sage to purify space nearly killing me! I am obviously still alive, but I had to leave the store as I could not breathe and did not want to end up in hospital from the allergic reaction.
The gym was a liesurely affair to destress from that panic of nearly sufffocating to death.
Came home and inhaled food and ran off to Head & Hands for an appointment with a divorce lawyer. OUCH! She is expensive. $2000 to do everything. I will keep "shopping" for a lawyer. I have a few leads. I will look into them tomorrow.
This evening... I was slammed with an exciting idea. My thesis! Both Roo and I are struggling with out theses. I then thought of the fun writing jams that i keep hearing other friends being part of and thought, well hey! Why not!? So now Roo and i will get together Fridays and thesis jam. What a way to get remotivated! She wants to be done by the end of July and I want to be done by the end of June. We can help each other out... even if it is only motivational help. I really want to register for the Masters program, but can't till the thesis is finished and cleaned up.
Woohoo!! The plan then:
Tomorrow:
- tidy the house
- clean and sort the bedroom
- check out other divorce lawyers and services
- plan a class
- make advertizing posters for workshops
- go to the gym
- dig up all the thesis research (weehee)
- start to sort and clean the office if I have any time left
I haven't felt this excited to work on my thesis since before I graduated!
The gym was a liesurely affair to destress from that panic of nearly sufffocating to death.
Came home and inhaled food and ran off to Head & Hands for an appointment with a divorce lawyer. OUCH! She is expensive. $2000 to do everything. I will keep "shopping" for a lawyer. I have a few leads. I will look into them tomorrow.
This evening... I was slammed with an exciting idea. My thesis! Both Roo and I are struggling with out theses. I then thought of the fun writing jams that i keep hearing other friends being part of and thought, well hey! Why not!? So now Roo and i will get together Fridays and thesis jam. What a way to get remotivated! She wants to be done by the end of July and I want to be done by the end of June. We can help each other out... even if it is only motivational help. I really want to register for the Masters program, but can't till the thesis is finished and cleaned up.
Woohoo!! The plan then:
Tomorrow:
- tidy the house
- clean and sort the bedroom
- check out other divorce lawyers and services
- plan a class
- make advertizing posters for workshops
- go to the gym
- dig up all the thesis research (weehee)
- start to sort and clean the office if I have any time left
I haven't felt this excited to work on my thesis since before I graduated!
busy day!
I was wired for some unknown reason and did not get to sleep till like 4am. In the wee hours of the morning i had all kinds of wierd and interesting dreams (but i think i will keep those to myself). The alarm went off at 6am for M-SB... and I still have no frickin idea why! I crawled out of bed at 8:30am to french toast then showered the aches away. Apparently the weather is doing funky stuff. Pressure and temperature in all over the place. It rain early this morning, now it is sunny and beautiful. It is supposed to thunder and rain and get hot then cold then hot then cold then sunny and rainy throughout the day and tomorrow. Ugh. I guess i won't be sleeping much.
I headed out to physio this morning and have two more appointments on the 20th and 27th. I forgot to ask him about regenerative medicine. I will ask the next time I am in. He gave me a new exercise to work with to try to loosen up the thorasic spinal region. and continue to do my hip exercise.
I headed out to pay my monthly for Curves and to pay a parking ticket. Clear out some smaller debts. I am glad I got some food last night after depositing my pay, cuz there ain't much left now.
I stopped into Head & Hands to confirm an appointment. They moved it up 30min. That is ok.
Got home to ... muwahahahaha... clip cat claws! I love the little velcro cat mask-muzzle. I was able to clip Salem (my old little black with the heart murmur who takes off your face if you try to manipulate her paws) and escape scratch free!!! Cloak (M-SB's polydactyl cat) was easy to clip... he was still asleep through most of it. and Bagheera (my big black lovable boy) came up to have his done voluntarily... cuz he knew he would get love. Now there are a bunch of claw tips all over the kitchen floor. I will vacuum before I split for work.
After work I will go to the gym with Roo and Faby.
Then off to the appoinment with the divorce lawyer.
Tomorrow? Sort and clean the bedroom and start on the office! Woohoo!
I headed out to physio this morning and have two more appointments on the 20th and 27th. I forgot to ask him about regenerative medicine. I will ask the next time I am in. He gave me a new exercise to work with to try to loosen up the thorasic spinal region. and continue to do my hip exercise.
I headed out to pay my monthly for Curves and to pay a parking ticket. Clear out some smaller debts. I am glad I got some food last night after depositing my pay, cuz there ain't much left now.
I stopped into Head & Hands to confirm an appointment. They moved it up 30min. That is ok.
Got home to ... muwahahahaha... clip cat claws! I love the little velcro cat mask-muzzle. I was able to clip Salem (my old little black with the heart murmur who takes off your face if you try to manipulate her paws) and escape scratch free!!! Cloak (M-SB's polydactyl cat) was easy to clip... he was still asleep through most of it. and Bagheera (my big black lovable boy) came up to have his done voluntarily... cuz he knew he would get love. Now there are a bunch of claw tips all over the kitchen floor. I will vacuum before I split for work.
After work I will go to the gym with Roo and Faby.
Then off to the appoinment with the divorce lawyer.
Tomorrow? Sort and clean the bedroom and start on the office! Woohoo!
copycat questions... cuz they are fun...
1. Name the two strangest items of food you have ever tasted:
-dried, ground into power flour beetle larvae mixed into bread (@ a bug food show)
-chocolate covered ants (@ the same show)
2. Name two items of food you would never eat:
-anything that looks back at me or still has its fur on (including peaches)
-liver
3. List the two most adventurous things you have done:
-fly
-other things would get me in so much trouble so i won't say them
4. List two things (that you consider adventurous) that you want to do in your lifetime:
-be a mom
-travel the world
5. Do you try "new things" because of peer pressure or because it is your nature to do so?
-oh it is so my nature!
-dried, ground into power flour beetle larvae mixed into bread (@ a bug food show)
-chocolate covered ants (@ the same show)
2. Name two items of food you would never eat:
-anything that looks back at me or still has its fur on (including peaches)
-liver
3. List the two most adventurous things you have done:
-fly
-other things would get me in so much trouble so i won't say them
4. List two things (that you consider adventurous) that you want to do in your lifetime:
-be a mom
-travel the world
5. Do you try "new things" because of peer pressure or because it is your nature to do so?
-oh it is so my nature!
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Nostalia!! Must see!!
The Dukes of Hazard Movie! Yeehaaaaw!!
Monday, May 09, 2005
you know you have a good vacation when...
- you wake up and WANT breakfast and feel good about the day
- you check the mail and discover a financial piano dropped on your front doorstep and you feel ok about it like it will work out in time (even though you have absolutely no idea how)
- you get to work and discover you have to work alone for the day when normally working requires 2 people... and you feel fine about this and confident you can handle it.
- you get home and find nothing in the fridge to drink and still manage to squeeze some change out of the bank for a bottle of cream soda
The vacation was good, I feel recharged and like I can handle the challenges before me. This is a nice feeling.
Tonight will be a mellow fun night. I plan to go ingame and try to sort out the new game system. Tomorrow I will hope the vacuuing and mopping got done by M-SB and I will start on the bedroom cleaning.
- you check the mail and discover a financial piano dropped on your front doorstep and you feel ok about it like it will work out in time (even though you have absolutely no idea how)
- you get to work and discover you have to work alone for the day when normally working requires 2 people... and you feel fine about this and confident you can handle it.
- you get home and find nothing in the fridge to drink and still manage to squeeze some change out of the bank for a bottle of cream soda
The vacation was good, I feel recharged and like I can handle the challenges before me. This is a nice feeling.
Tonight will be a mellow fun night. I plan to go ingame and try to sort out the new game system. Tomorrow I will hope the vacuuing and mopping got done by M-SB and I will start on the bedroom cleaning.
Sunday, May 08, 2005
movies... hmmm...
Kingdom of Heaven (for those who like the crusades, templars, Orlando Bloom, and the director of Gladiator) This is supposedly in theatres now.
Warriors of Heaven and Earth also looks good. This supposedly came out last November. Where was I?!
Another Batman movie?
Oh boy Oh boy!! Harry Potter Goblet of Fire!!!
Hmmm... XXX with a different guy. I liked Vin Diesel... but Ice Cube seems to be doing ok in the trailer.
LOL... Bewitched... heheheheheheheheeh...
Ooooo... creepy.... The Cave.....
War of the Worlds is neat!Reminds me a bit of Day After Tomorrow and damn... the soundtrack piece on the second trailer gave me goosebumbs.
Oh wow... New World (Virginia 1607)
Jet Li fans should like Unleashed.
Oh hey! The Fantastic Four... I had forgotten that was coming out.
Ok... i am done with the movie distractions....
Warriors of Heaven and Earth also looks good. This supposedly came out last November. Where was I?!
Another Batman movie?
Oh boy Oh boy!! Harry Potter Goblet of Fire!!!
Hmmm... XXX with a different guy. I liked Vin Diesel... but Ice Cube seems to be doing ok in the trailer.
LOL... Bewitched... heheheheheheheheeh...
Ooooo... creepy.... The Cave.....
War of the Worlds is neat!Reminds me a bit of Day After Tomorrow and damn... the soundtrack piece on the second trailer gave me goosebumbs.
Oh wow... New World (Virginia 1607)
Jet Li fans should like Unleashed.
Oh hey! The Fantastic Four... I had forgotten that was coming out.
Ok... i am done with the movie distractions....
Back to the Grind
At least I feel recharged....
Today I will be meeting Faby at the gym. It is my "weigh-in" day where they will check my weight, muscle mass, etc, etc. If I lost anything, I am sure I gained it back with all the food I was spoiled with last week... and my stupid hip keeping me from really working out. Yes, I am still doing my physio exercises. I have another physio appointment on Wednesday. Today, I am determined to work out... but I will be easy on the aches.
Then I have to check in on the vet clinic and see if there are any animals to take care of in the kennel. Then must deposit my paycheck and pay mom for the car.
My home plans:
CLEAN... I never seem to get it to stay that way. *grumble, growl, hiss hiss* I hope to get the house (excluding bedroom and office) clean once again. Then I need to tackle the bedroom.
Oh... I knew a piono would hit at some point. Need to manage to have $$ for a bill due Friday... and I have yet to pick up what I know will be some sort of nasty letter demanding $$. *sigh* I need our taxes to hurry up and get back to us. Well.... one thing at a time.
1- gym
2- bank
3- clean house
4- pay mom
5- sort/clean bedroom
6- laundry
7- wish mom Happy Mother's Day
I hope to get into game and roleplay a bit tonite too. And want to start updating the CMS website.
Today I will be meeting Faby at the gym. It is my "weigh-in" day where they will check my weight, muscle mass, etc, etc. If I lost anything, I am sure I gained it back with all the food I was spoiled with last week... and my stupid hip keeping me from really working out. Yes, I am still doing my physio exercises. I have another physio appointment on Wednesday. Today, I am determined to work out... but I will be easy on the aches.
Then I have to check in on the vet clinic and see if there are any animals to take care of in the kennel. Then must deposit my paycheck and pay mom for the car.
My home plans:
CLEAN... I never seem to get it to stay that way. *grumble, growl, hiss hiss* I hope to get the house (excluding bedroom and office) clean once again. Then I need to tackle the bedroom.
Oh... I knew a piono would hit at some point. Need to manage to have $$ for a bill due Friday... and I have yet to pick up what I know will be some sort of nasty letter demanding $$. *sigh* I need our taxes to hurry up and get back to us. Well.... one thing at a time.
1- gym
2- bank
3- clean house
4- pay mom
5- sort/clean bedroom
6- laundry
7- wish mom Happy Mother's Day
I hope to get into game and roleplay a bit tonite too. And want to start updating the CMS website.
Saturday, May 07, 2005
The photos at last
oops forgot
I forgot to mention a couple other nifty things we saw in Nashville. There was a fort... and OLD historic set-up where you can see how they lived way back in the early 1800's. It was called Fort Nashborough.
In the evening while we were looking for a coleche driver, we saw all these funky guitar statues. The city's theme this year was the guitar and they were all made by local artists. Each will be auctioned off for a local charity. There were buskers too on the corners of the streets and some of them were really really really good! If you like country music. One guy impressed me even though I do not like country music.
I am now working on uploading my pictures for you all to see. No, none were taken of my henna. I am too shy to get that bare for a picture of them. The dress I wore made me bare feeling enough. Yes, I got a couple of pictures of that. I will post the link to the pictures tonight.
In the evening while we were looking for a coleche driver, we saw all these funky guitar statues. The city's theme this year was the guitar and they were all made by local artists. Each will be auctioned off for a local charity. There were buskers too on the corners of the streets and some of them were really really really good! If you like country music. One guy impressed me even though I do not like country music.
I am now working on uploading my pictures for you all to see. No, none were taken of my henna. I am too shy to get that bare for a picture of them. The dress I wore made me bare feeling enough. Yes, I got a couple of pictures of that. I will post the link to the pictures tonight.
Home Again
The last few days... wow. Can I go back? PLEASE!!!
Thursday
We drove out the the Grand Opry Mills Mall and checked out a HUGE camping/hunting store and broused the mall. Mmmmm... I got apple butter out of this exploration... mmmmmm.... Then we checked out Magical Journey. It is a Pagan shop that was decently stocked with a wide variety of stuff. We found out that we missed a large Pagan festival the last weekend of April. Damn. It would have been a great way for Mike to get to know his pagan community.
We then proceded to get thoroughly LOST in downtown Nashville trying to fine the restaurant we were going to eat at and a hotel to stay in. For those who will understand... it was worse than "drunken Amish". The damned road were twisty and sometimes changed name and even direction (2 way to a one way, or one way one dir to the other dir) in the middle of the fricken road. Lots of construction really did not help. We eventually did fins our way and get a hotel with time to spare before dinner. And yes, the jaw dropped when I stepped out all dressed up. It is fun to dress up once in a while. Mike looked veru Fine too. The restaurant we went to was called the Stock-Yard Restaurant. The food was delicious. In the evening we took a Coleche ride with a wonderful woman who told us all about the sites in downtown Nashville, places we will return to for daytime pictures. By the end of the ride, though, I was cold. So we went back to the hotel. As a conclusion, i dislike the beds in Best Western hotels. They are VERY high, too bouncy, slightly smaller than a double bed so the fitted sheets come off when you roll over. I woke every 2 hours.
Friday
It rained around 6AM and the change in pressure or whatever rendered me in horrible hip pain. Woke me. ANd left Mike much worried. Stupid weather.... making joints hurt. That means we wouldn't be walking the big long walking bridge we had planned to after the tour coleche woman pointed it out to us. *sigh of frustration* I am now really thinking hard about something I read about in a magazine on the plane ride to Tennessee. Regenerative Medicine. When I go to physio on Wednesday, I will ask my therapist there what he thinks about it. We were slow to get moving about and out of the hotel... stupid hip. I took a long hot shower which helped the hip much. We missed breakfast, not that a Continental Breakfast is really any sort of breakfast... at least according to Mike. He took me to Joe's Crab Shack for lunch though. That was BIZARRE! Fun but bizarre. I tried a cheesy crab dip that was extremely yummy! Hushpuppies were little deep fried cornmeal balls that were not so yummy.
Next stop... the Parthenon. We drove out to Centennial Park to discover a huge artisan's fair! Wow.... We broused through some of it and decided to check out the Parthenon and come back. My camera batteries died. Dammit. It was neat to see. The outside architecture was way more spectacular than the inside. It was built in the 1800's!! I thought it was a recent thing! After the walkthrough of the parthenon, we went back to explore the fair. We saw crafted chairs by Jim McGie, beautiful pottery (oh... i saw such chalices... was SOOOOOo tempting), gorgeous wooden pens (mental note... Mike liked them alot... and I could so see others I know really liking them) by Al Wood (they would be a neat ritual tool!), bowed psaltries (wow... the sound was incredible... i SOO want one and want to learn to play it) 200-500$USD ... *dreamy sigh* I wish I had gotten the CD at least... oh well, and native flutes and drums that were incredible to listen to all made my a Native American named Mark Barfoot (Mike could have stayed there all day listening, I thought of Brenda when the guy played a mellow sounding purpleheart flute for us... another mental note) but they were also pricy in the 300-500$USD range, and last Mike picked up a lovely maple hairclip for me with a beautiful Celtic knot woodburned into it. This was a really amazing trip.
After, we drove way down to see the next Pagan shop called Goddess and the Moon. It was smaller than Magical Journey, but also in a house rather than a store. It was run by an older woman who was very sweet and extremely knowledgeable. She hadf all the herbs and oils and stuff we were looking for and knew exactly what we were talking about, while the other shop was moderately knowledgeable.
We drove around for a while after on our way to the airport and got some early dinner before my flight. I so did not want to leave. I loved it out there. And I really enjoyed my time there. I want to go back.
The flight home was ok. I sat next to a talkative woman with a cute 3-month old baby boy in her lap for my first flight. My second flight was schedule to board 4 minutes after the first landed and I had to bolt over to it only to find that it was just debarking. Then the pilot's seatbelt broke and we had to wait for it to be fixed before we took to the air. We took off very late... like an hour late. I slept the entire flight. We landed to a ghostly empty airport in Dorval at 12:30AM.
I am now home with the cats and M-SB. Part of me wants to just pack up and move right out to that beautiful and peaceful area. No... I am not going to... I have commitments to students and all. The house is as I left it and everything is alive and pestering me lots for love. The house is also so very stuffy. I have all the windows open. But maybe I am just so accostomed now to the sweet fresh woodsy air from where I was staying.
Today
I have to unpack and get ready to teach Sacred Places to Level 3, come home and do a quick tidy for coven this evening. Tomorrow... Cleaning... ugh... again... Get the stuff in all but the bedroom and my office clean again... really clean. I am grossed out by it already. Must make a cleaning roster or something to divvy up chores for me and M-SB. I also have to start cleaning and sorting my stuff out of the bedroom. M-SB is going to get rid of the Monolith (the big black wardrobe). During the week... I begin working on the office... just cleaning and sorting it. I still have some collassal other things to take care of before I start reaaranging furniture and room.
Ok... off to teach. I hope my car is ok. I had wedged it into a very tight spot behind the vet clinic.
See you all soon!!
Thursday
We drove out the the Grand Opry Mills Mall and checked out a HUGE camping/hunting store and broused the mall. Mmmmm... I got apple butter out of this exploration... mmmmmm.... Then we checked out Magical Journey. It is a Pagan shop that was decently stocked with a wide variety of stuff. We found out that we missed a large Pagan festival the last weekend of April. Damn. It would have been a great way for Mike to get to know his pagan community.
We then proceded to get thoroughly LOST in downtown Nashville trying to fine the restaurant we were going to eat at and a hotel to stay in. For those who will understand... it was worse than "drunken Amish". The damned road were twisty and sometimes changed name and even direction (2 way to a one way, or one way one dir to the other dir) in the middle of the fricken road. Lots of construction really did not help. We eventually did fins our way and get a hotel with time to spare before dinner. And yes, the jaw dropped when I stepped out all dressed up. It is fun to dress up once in a while. Mike looked veru Fine too. The restaurant we went to was called the Stock-Yard Restaurant. The food was delicious. In the evening we took a Coleche ride with a wonderful woman who told us all about the sites in downtown Nashville, places we will return to for daytime pictures. By the end of the ride, though, I was cold. So we went back to the hotel. As a conclusion, i dislike the beds in Best Western hotels. They are VERY high, too bouncy, slightly smaller than a double bed so the fitted sheets come off when you roll over. I woke every 2 hours.
Friday
It rained around 6AM and the change in pressure or whatever rendered me in horrible hip pain. Woke me. ANd left Mike much worried. Stupid weather.... making joints hurt. That means we wouldn't be walking the big long walking bridge we had planned to after the tour coleche woman pointed it out to us. *sigh of frustration* I am now really thinking hard about something I read about in a magazine on the plane ride to Tennessee. Regenerative Medicine. When I go to physio on Wednesday, I will ask my therapist there what he thinks about it. We were slow to get moving about and out of the hotel... stupid hip. I took a long hot shower which helped the hip much. We missed breakfast, not that a Continental Breakfast is really any sort of breakfast... at least according to Mike. He took me to Joe's Crab Shack for lunch though. That was BIZARRE! Fun but bizarre. I tried a cheesy crab dip that was extremely yummy! Hushpuppies were little deep fried cornmeal balls that were not so yummy.
Next stop... the Parthenon. We drove out to Centennial Park to discover a huge artisan's fair! Wow.... We broused through some of it and decided to check out the Parthenon and come back. My camera batteries died. Dammit. It was neat to see. The outside architecture was way more spectacular than the inside. It was built in the 1800's!! I thought it was a recent thing! After the walkthrough of the parthenon, we went back to explore the fair. We saw crafted chairs by Jim McGie, beautiful pottery (oh... i saw such chalices... was SOOOOOo tempting), gorgeous wooden pens (mental note... Mike liked them alot... and I could so see others I know really liking them) by Al Wood (they would be a neat ritual tool!), bowed psaltries (wow... the sound was incredible... i SOO want one and want to learn to play it) 200-500$USD ... *dreamy sigh* I wish I had gotten the CD at least... oh well, and native flutes and drums that were incredible to listen to all made my a Native American named Mark Barfoot (Mike could have stayed there all day listening, I thought of Brenda when the guy played a mellow sounding purpleheart flute for us... another mental note) but they were also pricy in the 300-500$USD range, and last Mike picked up a lovely maple hairclip for me with a beautiful Celtic knot woodburned into it. This was a really amazing trip.
After, we drove way down to see the next Pagan shop called Goddess and the Moon. It was smaller than Magical Journey, but also in a house rather than a store. It was run by an older woman who was very sweet and extremely knowledgeable. She hadf all the herbs and oils and stuff we were looking for and knew exactly what we were talking about, while the other shop was moderately knowledgeable.
We drove around for a while after on our way to the airport and got some early dinner before my flight. I so did not want to leave. I loved it out there. And I really enjoyed my time there. I want to go back.
The flight home was ok. I sat next to a talkative woman with a cute 3-month old baby boy in her lap for my first flight. My second flight was schedule to board 4 minutes after the first landed and I had to bolt over to it only to find that it was just debarking. Then the pilot's seatbelt broke and we had to wait for it to be fixed before we took to the air. We took off very late... like an hour late. I slept the entire flight. We landed to a ghostly empty airport in Dorval at 12:30AM.
I am now home with the cats and M-SB. Part of me wants to just pack up and move right out to that beautiful and peaceful area. No... I am not going to... I have commitments to students and all. The house is as I left it and everything is alive and pestering me lots for love. The house is also so very stuffy. I have all the windows open. But maybe I am just so accostomed now to the sweet fresh woodsy air from where I was staying.
Today
I have to unpack and get ready to teach Sacred Places to Level 3, come home and do a quick tidy for coven this evening. Tomorrow... Cleaning... ugh... again... Get the stuff in all but the bedroom and my office clean again... really clean. I am grossed out by it already. Must make a cleaning roster or something to divvy up chores for me and M-SB. I also have to start cleaning and sorting my stuff out of the bedroom. M-SB is going to get rid of the Monolith (the big black wardrobe). During the week... I begin working on the office... just cleaning and sorting it. I still have some collassal other things to take care of before I start reaaranging furniture and room.
Ok... off to teach. I hope my car is ok. I had wedged it into a very tight spot behind the vet clinic.
See you all soon!!
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Tested
Morning all. I actually slept in! This is exactly what I needed... a vacation.
In the spirit of CMS testing, Mike said he should not be the only one being tested on this trip and decided to test me.
Scarlet, My turn to test you. What have you learned about being here?
Well... this took thought. I learned that I REALLY needed this downtime. I discovered that it is really beautiful out here and that the pace is slower. The energy is so not "high-strung" like it is in other major cities. This place has all the conveniences of a big city and yet all the peacefulness of being in the country. No one rushes or pushes. I learned that It feels absolutely wonderful to be able to just focus on the things I want to ... like the school and my spirituality... and not be pulled 10 ways by 3-4 other jobs and other life needs.
I wish I could do this forever. Just take a step back and work on CMS stuff and research, teach and learn, worship and be. I would love to do just that and raise a family. One day maybe. One day.
Today we plan on heading into Nashville and over to the Parthenon. We will skip the cave hiking due to my hip and all. Then later we will have dinner. Weehee. Dressed all fancy... a fancy fun outing. Mike decided that we will get a hotel room and stay out there overnight as it is 1+ hr into Nashville and It is better to be close to the airport and not end up late.
I hope everything is still ok back home. I will give a call in when I think M-SB is awake.
I am not sure if I will get another chance to blog before I get on the plane tomorrow night. I will be home shortly after midnight on Saturday. I am not working at the vet on Saturday *relieved* but I will be in the Level 3 class to teach about Sacred Places Around the World.
Pssst... I could really get to like it out here. It is peaceful.
In the spirit of CMS testing, Mike said he should not be the only one being tested on this trip and decided to test me.
Scarlet, My turn to test you. What have you learned about being here?
Well... this took thought. I learned that I REALLY needed this downtime. I discovered that it is really beautiful out here and that the pace is slower. The energy is so not "high-strung" like it is in other major cities. This place has all the conveniences of a big city and yet all the peacefulness of being in the country. No one rushes or pushes. I learned that It feels absolutely wonderful to be able to just focus on the things I want to ... like the school and my spirituality... and not be pulled 10 ways by 3-4 other jobs and other life needs.
I wish I could do this forever. Just take a step back and work on CMS stuff and research, teach and learn, worship and be. I would love to do just that and raise a family. One day maybe. One day.
Today we plan on heading into Nashville and over to the Parthenon. We will skip the cave hiking due to my hip and all. Then later we will have dinner. Weehee. Dressed all fancy... a fancy fun outing. Mike decided that we will get a hotel room and stay out there overnight as it is 1+ hr into Nashville and It is better to be close to the airport and not end up late.
I hope everything is still ok back home. I will give a call in when I think M-SB is awake.
I am not sure if I will get another chance to blog before I get on the plane tomorrow night. I will be home shortly after midnight on Saturday. I am not working at the vet on Saturday *relieved* but I will be in the Level 3 class to teach about Sacred Places Around the World.
Pssst... I could really get to like it out here. It is peaceful.
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
Content... and vacationing
Well this has been awesome so far. Today we went back to the base where we saw the museum there and I took some pictures. Then we went back to the hiking location where I left some incense as an offering at the log where I had taken the toadstool from. I took pictures of the horses at the riding centre just outside the base too!
We ran a few errands and had some ice cream. I now have a new wallet too... at last. Then Mike finished his cooking project of cooking something he never cooked before. Banana Flambe. Mmmm ... it was nifty to see!! Oh... and successfully yummy. It was one of the recipes from his Epicurean Tarot.
I have been doing some last minute research for the Level 3 class this coming Saturday and listening to music. We also watched an old favorite movie: The Last Unicorn.
Now what? :)
Hehe... maybe henna? Hehe.
We ran a few errands and had some ice cream. I now have a new wallet too... at last. Then Mike finished his cooking project of cooking something he never cooked before. Banana Flambe. Mmmm ... it was nifty to see!! Oh... and successfully yummy. It was one of the recipes from his Epicurean Tarot.
I have been doing some last minute research for the Level 3 class this coming Saturday and listening to music. We also watched an old favorite movie: The Last Unicorn.
Now what? :)
Hehe... maybe henna? Hehe.
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Day 3
It is now Tuesday... wow.
Monday I slept in. I was the spoiled with breakfast of mushroom adn cheese omlets. Mike took me onto the Military Base for a short tour. my hip was hurting real bad though. Stupid thing. The base has a museum and stuff, but we will look when my hips eases up. I made him supper as a return favor for when he visited and made supper for M-SB and I. Asian stirfry with beef and noodles. The evening was busy with me reading Spiritial Mentoring by Judy Harrow while he reviewed his notes and we discussed much of his level 1 material (not the healing methods yet). He then was given the first exam. The Magic exam. He passed, just. *grin* Then we did some meditation. His meditation skills are much improved.
Today we went hiking a bit in the woods. Not too much...taking it easy on my hip. YES... I AM DOING MY PHYSIO EXERCISES! And look at that! They actually help! The woods were beautiful. I forgot my camera though. Sorry. And we had found all kinds of stuff: caterpillars, petals from flowers that fell from some tree, a butterfly wing that the forest reclaimed from me, poison oak (which we did not touch), a big spider, a toadstool (will come home with me) and a stone. The earth out here is RED... rich rusty red... I have some empty vials, I will fill one with that earth. But that will be later. We just finished doing some shopping for clothes for him for the Thursday dinner and then watched a movie: Sleeping Dictionary.
Tonight... we have planned:
-finish CMS L1 healing methods
-supper of mile high enchilada pie
-energywork
-lots of relaxing
Monday I slept in. I was the spoiled with breakfast of mushroom adn cheese omlets. Mike took me onto the Military Base for a short tour. my hip was hurting real bad though. Stupid thing. The base has a museum and stuff, but we will look when my hips eases up. I made him supper as a return favor for when he visited and made supper for M-SB and I. Asian stirfry with beef and noodles. The evening was busy with me reading Spiritial Mentoring by Judy Harrow while he reviewed his notes and we discussed much of his level 1 material (not the healing methods yet). He then was given the first exam. The Magic exam. He passed, just. *grin* Then we did some meditation. His meditation skills are much improved.
Today we went hiking a bit in the woods. Not too much...taking it easy on my hip. YES... I AM DOING MY PHYSIO EXERCISES! And look at that! They actually help! The woods were beautiful. I forgot my camera though. Sorry. And we had found all kinds of stuff: caterpillars, petals from flowers that fell from some tree, a butterfly wing that the forest reclaimed from me, poison oak (which we did not touch), a big spider, a toadstool (will come home with me) and a stone. The earth out here is RED... rich rusty red... I have some empty vials, I will fill one with that earth. But that will be later. We just finished doing some shopping for clothes for him for the Thursday dinner and then watched a movie: Sleeping Dictionary.
Tonight... we have planned:
-finish CMS L1 healing methods
-supper of mile high enchilada pie
-energywork
-lots of relaxing
Sunday, May 01, 2005
Arrived
The flight was one hell of a run to the 7AM flight... so much for "show up 45min in advance!!! Word of advice... show up 1.5 hrs in advance. I JUST made it onto the plane. *bounce bounce* Ate a muffin for breakfast. The first flight was supposed to be 2hrs, but it was only 1hr15min. I then sat for 2 hrs waiting for my second flight. It was 2hrs where i sipped iced tea that was WAY too expensive (bought it because I forgot all 3 of my drinks in the fridge...doh!) and nibbling my cookies and jerky. I know, not exactlty breakfast. I sorta snoozed but was too excited and had to watch out the windows when i could. The first flight had a neat window experience. There was the white lines you sometimes see when planes are flying. It was cool! The clouds were so think they looked like solid snowdrifts. The second flight we were WAY above the cloudline with a SMALL plane. *hate small planes* The last 40min of the flight we hit high winds and my stomach no longer knew which direction was up. I was so nautious when I landed. Poor Mike. I made him pull over the car so I could sit on solid unmoving ground for a bit. I felt much better after some real food was in me.
On the drive back to his place, I pulled out my camera and had the glorious opportunity to take a couple pictures of rock formations. Something I always love to do but never can because I am too busy actually driving and people get mad when you suddenly pull over on the highway just to take a picture of rocks. I like rocks. *shrug*
So now I am safe at Mikes double bachelor apartment. I say double bachelor because well... two military bachelors live here. *psst... you can tell*
I set up my altar on a little table Mike brought in for me and crashed for a nap. He loved the Epicurian Tarot I got him and has set the little cougar i gave him above his computer like I keep mine. A guardian to keep him safe... and feline guardian angel. He says thank you to the Level 3's for the charged bulb from the Ostara ritual. Rosanne? WHo? *hehe... * Yes, he says hi too.
At the moment, we are watching some Dark Angel, the Pilot episode, while he makes spegetti. Mmmmmm..... I can smell the meat cooking.... mmmmmm.... I love spegetti. And he loves to cook. I am so going to get spoiled. Yay.
Happy Beltain EVERYONE!
I will do a small ritual for it later tonight.
On the drive back to his place, I pulled out my camera and had the glorious opportunity to take a couple pictures of rock formations. Something I always love to do but never can because I am too busy actually driving and people get mad when you suddenly pull over on the highway just to take a picture of rocks. I like rocks. *shrug*
So now I am safe at Mikes double bachelor apartment. I say double bachelor because well... two military bachelors live here. *psst... you can tell*
I set up my altar on a little table Mike brought in for me and crashed for a nap. He loved the Epicurian Tarot I got him and has set the little cougar i gave him above his computer like I keep mine. A guardian to keep him safe... and feline guardian angel. He says thank you to the Level 3's for the charged bulb from the Ostara ritual. Rosanne? WHo? *hehe... * Yes, he says hi too.
At the moment, we are watching some Dark Angel, the Pilot episode, while he makes spegetti. Mmmmmm..... I can smell the meat cooking.... mmmmmm.... I love spegetti. And he loves to cook. I am so going to get spoiled. Yay.
Happy Beltain EVERYONE!
I will do a small ritual for it later tonight.
