Friday, January 29, 2010
Wastednesses
What a waste of a day!!!
All morning I packed and prepped for the open house. I fought to narrow down the stuff to the bare bones so I could carry it all.
I ended up late to my meeting... and found out i was one of three people there... and NOT the coordinator present. He emailed 10min before the meeting (when people would be en route already) to cancel cuz he mixed up the day. I really could have used that time better if I didn't have to be there stressing about stuff. We had a mini meeting anyways.
As we got off early, I set up for the Open House without having to freak out about not having time to do so before work. Hobbes showed up early to set up. THANK YOU! I was glad to see him. If I had only been getting out of the meeting then his early time for setting up would have been direly needed. Unfortunately... no one showed for the Open House due to the FRIGID weather. I thought I lived on Earth.... but somehow... I was transported to Hoth!
Work was dead dead dead this evening. I am finally home having my first meal. It is warm where I am now.
Thanks to John WW and Hobbes for braving the world for the Open House for me.
All morning I packed and prepped for the open house. I fought to narrow down the stuff to the bare bones so I could carry it all.
I ended up late to my meeting... and found out i was one of three people there... and NOT the coordinator present. He emailed 10min before the meeting (when people would be en route already) to cancel cuz he mixed up the day. I really could have used that time better if I didn't have to be there stressing about stuff. We had a mini meeting anyways.
As we got off early, I set up for the Open House without having to freak out about not having time to do so before work. Hobbes showed up early to set up. THANK YOU! I was glad to see him. If I had only been getting out of the meeting then his early time for setting up would have been direly needed. Unfortunately... no one showed for the Open House due to the FRIGID weather. I thought I lived on Earth.... but somehow... I was transported to Hoth!
Work was dead dead dead this evening. I am finally home having my first meal. It is warm where I am now.
Thanks to John WW and Hobbes for braving the world for the Open House for me.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Temporarily swallowed ...
Temporarily swallowed by life and just got spat back out today when I gave up fighting.
Stress and struggling with homework reading and project planning, going to meetings and doing interviews, working... and all while i was sick and cramping too. That was my week.
Monday...
was a waste of MANY hours. I went out for a meeting and interview to discover I was off by a day.
Tuesday...
slept poorly from being sick, sore, and cramping so I missed a morning meeting, but made it to the properly timed interview. I managed to get the readings for class done in time so the class that day actually went well. Came home to be more cramped and sore and ill and sleep bad again, if at all.
Wednesday...
almost no sleep, cramping and sore... but the sick had eased finally. I barely managed to get to work on time. I remember like ZERO of work. I hope it went well. Taught a class till late. Got home to the pain and cramping and stuff finally letting up and thus leaving me WIRED! So I got to bed late.
Thursday (today)...
Something went BEEP every 30 minutes throughout the night last night. I have NO IDEA what it was. I ransacked the house every time it beeped. So... more no sleep. Sleep deprivation made for a fucked up day. A phone call at 9:30 nearly got the guy on the other end cursed into oblivion. The neighbor accidentally ringing the doorbell an hour later near got the same reaction. Then I was high energy for a short bit and considered doing reading... the energy plummeted after I talked to the husband on the phone. I felt like I was insane and hallucinating. I went to bed and napped till past the time I had to be on a bus to go to class. I emailed the teacher to let her know I would not make it. The nap was good... solid... I feel more normal-ish. The snow squalls outside are bad might have contributed to my weird energy day. I am grateful for the neighbor giving me a lift to the grocery store this evening.
I am not sure how I will manage tomorrow. I have not been able to do the RA work I needed to this week. I missed some things I had to manage for finances too. So now my budget will be off by $100. *growl* My meeting tomorrow will suck since I won't have the stuff I need to hand in. I hope they can be patient a week. Then I have to set up for CMS Open House. There is NO WAY I will be able to carry the stuff I need from home into the store for this. I don't have a car this time round. AND... I work at 5pm till 9pm.
Saturday will also be crazy with a MAJOR double ritual happening that I have barely gotten planned.
I am functioning day by day. Literally.
Stress and struggling with homework reading and project planning, going to meetings and doing interviews, working... and all while i was sick and cramping too. That was my week.
Monday...
was a waste of MANY hours. I went out for a meeting and interview to discover I was off by a day.
Tuesday...
slept poorly from being sick, sore, and cramping so I missed a morning meeting, but made it to the properly timed interview. I managed to get the readings for class done in time so the class that day actually went well. Came home to be more cramped and sore and ill and sleep bad again, if at all.
Wednesday...
almost no sleep, cramping and sore... but the sick had eased finally. I barely managed to get to work on time. I remember like ZERO of work. I hope it went well. Taught a class till late. Got home to the pain and cramping and stuff finally letting up and thus leaving me WIRED! So I got to bed late.
Thursday (today)...
Something went BEEP every 30 minutes throughout the night last night. I have NO IDEA what it was. I ransacked the house every time it beeped. So... more no sleep. Sleep deprivation made for a fucked up day. A phone call at 9:30 nearly got the guy on the other end cursed into oblivion. The neighbor accidentally ringing the doorbell an hour later near got the same reaction. Then I was high energy for a short bit and considered doing reading... the energy plummeted after I talked to the husband on the phone. I felt like I was insane and hallucinating. I went to bed and napped till past the time I had to be on a bus to go to class. I emailed the teacher to let her know I would not make it. The nap was good... solid... I feel more normal-ish. The snow squalls outside are bad might have contributed to my weird energy day. I am grateful for the neighbor giving me a lift to the grocery store this evening.
I am not sure how I will manage tomorrow. I have not been able to do the RA work I needed to this week. I missed some things I had to manage for finances too. So now my budget will be off by $100. *growl* My meeting tomorrow will suck since I won't have the stuff I need to hand in. I hope they can be patient a week. Then I have to set up for CMS Open House. There is NO WAY I will be able to carry the stuff I need from home into the store for this. I don't have a car this time round. AND... I work at 5pm till 9pm.
Saturday will also be crazy with a MAJOR double ritual happening that I have barely gotten planned.
I am functioning day by day. Literally.
Friday, January 22, 2010
Drowning
The homework piles up like water flooding a sealed room. I am drowning and I do not yet see a way out. OMGs... there is so much.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Stupid Cold
It isn't making me necessarily ill, but it is slowing me down and making me uncomfortable and complaintive.
Still working on RA stuff and homework.
All I want is cookies, tea, movies, and fleecy. Also, warm kitties and love... And no obligations.
Oh well... meeting tomorrow at 2pm.
Still working on RA stuff and homework.
All I want is cookies, tea, movies, and fleecy. Also, warm kitties and love... And no obligations.
Oh well... meeting tomorrow at 2pm.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Feel the Hate
Someone, some really rude person, telephoned at 9:30am today. They let it ring no less that 12 times. The home line has no answering machine. They did not bother to call either cell phone to reach us or leave a message. And they have an unknown/unlisted number. How do I know? I dialed *69 to find out so I could yell at them.
Feel the hate crazy person. You woke us up. *snarl!*
Feel the hate crazy person. You woke us up. *snarl!*
Friday, January 15, 2010
In which she groans...
*scowls at timestamp*
Yup... almost 3am.
Guess what... I am insomniatic this night/morning. Too tired to do homework, too awake to sleep.
Excedrin, energy drink, and tiger balm have done the painful shoulder wonders. Fever gone too. Mild congestion is lingering sniffliness. I'll live.
Now if I could just get to sleep.
Yup... almost 3am.
Guess what... I am insomniatic this night/morning. Too tired to do homework, too awake to sleep.
Excedrin, energy drink, and tiger balm have done the painful shoulder wonders. Fever gone too. Mild congestion is lingering sniffliness. I'll live.
Now if I could just get to sleep.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Another Bad Morning Update
Well... the pain has ebbed to a very dull discomfort that is just annoying. I know it will likely be gone if I am careful over the next couple days. I am apparently though getting ill. Very mild congestion... but lovely annoying fever that I endured all through my class.
I am very behind now in all my classes. *SIGH*
If I have plans with you currently, i will honor them. If you want to make plans with me beyond what I am already committed to? Sorry, no can do. Wait till end of April.
I am very behind now in all my classes. *SIGH*
If I have plans with you currently, i will honor them. If you want to make plans with me beyond what I am already committed to? Sorry, no can do. Wait till end of April.
Bad Morning Update
Took Excedrin x 2 and it is easing the pain. I still have pain, but I can move now. I am taking it slow and careful. Relaxing. I will sit on the new couch and read my homework. If it flares later this afternoon, then I will go to the clinic. I just had too much to carry with me because of homework to dare it this morning and could not leave it behind if I was going to end up in class later.
Maybe some careful R&R and a chill day on the sofa will be just what I need.
Trying not to feel pissed off that I am an invalid today...
Maybe some careful R&R and a chill day on the sofa will be just what I need.
Trying not to feel pissed off that I am an invalid today...
Bad Morning
food poising sick 4-7am
somehow pulled shoulder in weird way while sleeping 8-10am... agony... so much agony
not cleaning today
not typing transcriptions
want to cry
packing stuff to endure day out
going to clinic early then just... hanging around till class starts
will be a wasted painful day
*pout*
somehow pulled shoulder in weird way while sleeping 8-10am... agony... so much agony
not cleaning today
not typing transcriptions
want to cry
packing stuff to endure day out
going to clinic early then just... hanging around till class starts
will be a wasted painful day
*pout*
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
School Week 2
... And already behind. But that is not entirely my fault as my teacher of Zen just added a new book to the list. Both my courses look amazing and interesting. Both will need lots of reading. Not sure where my RA work and everything else will fit in.
I will have to develop a routine.... if only to survive!
Hmmm... Mondays remain sacrosanct for ME... for my own sanity. So does 11pm - 2am for writing and roleplaying. The rest of the week will have to be divvied up for stuff.
Tuesdays - Zen all day
Wednesdays - work and CMS-L3
Thursdays - Anth & Reli all day
Fridays - RA and work
Saturdays - cleaning and homework and planning the week to come
Sundays - Coven
That seems ok... ish... till papers and stuff are due. Let's see how well this works out.
This Friday I see an optometrist. Hoping that by fixing my glasses I will also relieve much of the constant headaches I am enduring.
And the plus! My debts are starting to get managed! Weird since I am working less now. The monthly utilities (not Hydro) are all at normal levels. The credit card is almost below limit. The license will be paid next month and thus a car is in the very near future. Personal IOU's will be cleared this month. And I will get new classes (if i find frames I like), failing that, I will just replace the lenses in my current nice frames.
Future plans: Pay school's new fees, pay new car fees and get rear shocks, many many dentist visits, clear visa, clear hydro, clear remaining outstanding debts, see about a new computer.
What am I doing now? Reading my far too many Zen chapters and continuing to edit my fanfic.
Tomorrow will be full of catching up on the RA work and preparing for my Anth/Reli class.
I wonder if sleep is in this night's plan. I wonder if I can buy stock in Buzz Green Tea or order it in bulk! Survival food.
I will have to develop a routine.... if only to survive!
Hmmm... Mondays remain sacrosanct for ME... for my own sanity. So does 11pm - 2am for writing and roleplaying. The rest of the week will have to be divvied up for stuff.
Tuesdays - Zen all day
Wednesdays - work and CMS-L3
Thursdays - Anth & Reli all day
Fridays - RA and work
Saturdays - cleaning and homework and planning the week to come
Sundays - Coven
That seems ok... ish... till papers and stuff are due. Let's see how well this works out.
This Friday I see an optometrist. Hoping that by fixing my glasses I will also relieve much of the constant headaches I am enduring.
And the plus! My debts are starting to get managed! Weird since I am working less now. The monthly utilities (not Hydro) are all at normal levels. The credit card is almost below limit. The license will be paid next month and thus a car is in the very near future. Personal IOU's will be cleared this month. And I will get new classes (if i find frames I like), failing that, I will just replace the lenses in my current nice frames.
Future plans: Pay school's new fees, pay new car fees and get rear shocks, many many dentist visits, clear visa, clear hydro, clear remaining outstanding debts, see about a new computer.
What am I doing now? Reading my far too many Zen chapters and continuing to edit my fanfic.
Tomorrow will be full of catching up on the RA work and preparing for my Anth/Reli class.
I wonder if sleep is in this night's plan. I wonder if I can buy stock in Buzz Green Tea or order it in bulk! Survival food.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
January so far
Thought I would try a little end of week update.
This was a VERY busy week. The stress of the previous week was sorted out by Wednesday. Thank the gods. And thank you to those who either helped or were patient and comforting enough to either listen or give me space.
Tuesday was an exercise in futility. I traveled an hour by bus downtown to a 10am class that turned out to be an undergrad class I cannot take. I ran around trying to get registration and wifi stuffs handled and could not because my payments with the school had not yet gone through in their system. The teacher for my afternoon class was not yet in town. I got the course outline though. My Zen Buddhism class will be one of those very frustrating, too much reading to be human, historical and religious overviews of Chan and Sen Buddhism in East Asia. The assignments seem better laid out than this teacher ever usually does, so this is promising despite the stupid amount of expected reading. I opted to hang out with a friend and roleplay and get in some time with someone I hadn't really seen in a while.
Wednesday was an early day out to see my Thesis adviser and arrange a date to meet with him to look over my Thesis intro and to obtain some course outlines for my RA work. Soooo bloody early! It was followed by working all day, which was followed by teaching a class in Aura Cleansing in a room that was insanely cold! Heaters are badly needed upstairs! OMG!!!
Thursday I made an oops and realized I was meeting the new CUPS (Concordia University Pagan Society) president at Loyola at 1pm and not at 3pm. There was a swift rush to get out there in time. We had a small fiasco obtaining permission for entry into the club room. Then we had a second fiasco when the lock turned out to be broken by attempted thieves. three four security men and janitors later, they busted into our office and replaced sections of wall and door and obviously the lock. Her and I did a quick exploration of the club room, lamenting at the state of it since it had not been used in over a year... maybe even two years. (ew to the croissant in the drawer I found and the milk in the fridge) We packed a box of things to use for the Friday Club Fair and were off again. I made an appointment to meet my new grad adviser for Friday. I managed to get my dinosaur of a laptop to have functional wifi at school with the help of their techical aid department way on the 9th floor of the Hall building. And finally I had an amazing class in Anthropology & Religion about writing ethnographies and planning grant proposals. That will be my Thursday evening class... which runs MUCH later than expected. Ugh...
Friday was supposed to include other errands in the morning, but those did not happen. I trekked to Melange for club supplies and out to the Club Fair to help CUPS for the day. I met with my adviser and got registered into my classes. YAY!!! And OMG... SQUEEEE! I can do a pagan thesis AND a Pagan comp exam! I was block by the other adviser, but not by this one. HUZZAH!! The Club Fair went very well. I got to work after and home late.
Saturday was a sorting kind of day. Did some homework, cleaned a little, planned stuff. The evening was a hike out to Hurley's Irish Pub for CUPS' first Pub Moot event. I stayed for an hour. I drank my glass of alcohol too fast. I wish I was a person who got that giddy happy... or even drunk state. I didn't. I got briefly chatty, then just headachy. It was like insta hang-over. Thus I am reminded why I do not drink. The night was horrible. I woke every hour for more water or juice. I slept so bad.
Made for a rotten groggy morning today. I slowly recovered though. And we got a replacement sofa! Thanks WinterWolf!! We LOVE it! Love it love it love it! I made pancakes for breakfast. Then we lounged on the new sofa. The hubby played Resident Evil (dunno which one) on his new Xbox. He was playing Assassins Creed (oh oh oh soooo pretty graphically) but he loaned it to his brother. I read History of Zen Buddhism for homework on the husband's orders. Now... on break from homework, I am doing some creative writing.editing... and blogging.
This was a VERY busy week. The stress of the previous week was sorted out by Wednesday. Thank the gods. And thank you to those who either helped or were patient and comforting enough to either listen or give me space.
Tuesday was an exercise in futility. I traveled an hour by bus downtown to a 10am class that turned out to be an undergrad class I cannot take. I ran around trying to get registration and wifi stuffs handled and could not because my payments with the school had not yet gone through in their system. The teacher for my afternoon class was not yet in town. I got the course outline though. My Zen Buddhism class will be one of those very frustrating, too much reading to be human, historical and religious overviews of Chan and Sen Buddhism in East Asia. The assignments seem better laid out than this teacher ever usually does, so this is promising despite the stupid amount of expected reading. I opted to hang out with a friend and roleplay and get in some time with someone I hadn't really seen in a while.
Wednesday was an early day out to see my Thesis adviser and arrange a date to meet with him to look over my Thesis intro and to obtain some course outlines for my RA work. Soooo bloody early! It was followed by working all day, which was followed by teaching a class in Aura Cleansing in a room that was insanely cold! Heaters are badly needed upstairs! OMG!!!
Thursday I made an oops and realized I was meeting the new CUPS (Concordia University Pagan Society) president at Loyola at 1pm and not at 3pm. There was a swift rush to get out there in time. We had a small fiasco obtaining permission for entry into the club room. Then we had a second fiasco when the lock turned out to be broken by attempted thieves. three four security men and janitors later, they busted into our office and replaced sections of wall and door and obviously the lock. Her and I did a quick exploration of the club room, lamenting at the state of it since it had not been used in over a year... maybe even two years. (ew to the croissant in the drawer I found and the milk in the fridge) We packed a box of things to use for the Friday Club Fair and were off again. I made an appointment to meet my new grad adviser for Friday. I managed to get my dinosaur of a laptop to have functional wifi at school with the help of their techical aid department way on the 9th floor of the Hall building. And finally I had an amazing class in Anthropology & Religion about writing ethnographies and planning grant proposals. That will be my Thursday evening class... which runs MUCH later than expected. Ugh...
Friday was supposed to include other errands in the morning, but those did not happen. I trekked to Melange for club supplies and out to the Club Fair to help CUPS for the day. I met with my adviser and got registered into my classes. YAY!!! And OMG... SQUEEEE! I can do a pagan thesis AND a Pagan comp exam! I was block by the other adviser, but not by this one. HUZZAH!! The Club Fair went very well. I got to work after and home late.
Saturday was a sorting kind of day. Did some homework, cleaned a little, planned stuff. The evening was a hike out to Hurley's Irish Pub for CUPS' first Pub Moot event. I stayed for an hour. I drank my glass of alcohol too fast. I wish I was a person who got that giddy happy... or even drunk state. I didn't. I got briefly chatty, then just headachy. It was like insta hang-over. Thus I am reminded why I do not drink. The night was horrible. I woke every hour for more water or juice. I slept so bad.
Made for a rotten groggy morning today. I slowly recovered though. And we got a replacement sofa! Thanks WinterWolf!! We LOVE it! Love it love it love it! I made pancakes for breakfast. Then we lounged on the new sofa. The hubby played Resident Evil (dunno which one) on his new Xbox. He was playing Assassins Creed (oh oh oh soooo pretty graphically) but he loaned it to his brother. I read History of Zen Buddhism for homework on the husband's orders. Now... on break from homework, I am doing some creative writing.editing... and blogging.
Friday, January 08, 2010
Back to School
The week has been insane! I have been so bloody busy. I know folks have emailed me and asked me stuff. I know some people still contact me on facebook (I really should just delete that account and be done with it). I know people are waiting for me to get back to them. It will happen on the weekend. This week is just way too packed. I am also still trying to sort out some of last week's panic.
So far, I have two classes on Tuesday and Wednesday. I work on my RA stuff randomly as best I can. I work at the store Wednesdays and Fridays. I teach Wednesday nights. Coven is every second Sunday. It is tight. Doable, but tight. There is no room for social stuff really. Not until the papers for class are in at the end of April.
Crap, gotta go. I meet my academic advisor / new head of Religion grads (yay) today about registration. BYE! Wish me luck!
So far, I have two classes on Tuesday and Wednesday. I work on my RA stuff randomly as best I can. I work at the store Wednesdays and Fridays. I teach Wednesday nights. Coven is every second Sunday. It is tight. Doable, but tight. There is no room for social stuff really. Not until the papers for class are in at the end of April.
Crap, gotta go. I meet my academic advisor / new head of Religion grads (yay) today about registration. BYE! Wish me luck!
