Thursday, March 31, 2005
Dodging with Strawberries
M-SB and I walked to the provigo. It was still really nice oout... the breeze was cold, though. We picked up some groceries and walked back just before the rain hit. Still doing laundry... ugh. No... did not tackle the closets.
I am eating strawberries and cream instead. MMMmmmmm.
They are a nice distraction from talking and cleaning. I know I will eventually have to face the inevitable.... I want to first see how this weekend goes.
Damn. I have to make that meditation space still. After M-SB finishes loading the basics onto my laptop... then I will fix that space for meditation.
I am eating strawberries and cream instead. MMMmmmmm.
They are a nice distraction from talking and cleaning. I know I will eventually have to face the inevitable.... I want to first see how this weekend goes.
Damn. I have to make that meditation space still. After M-SB finishes loading the basics onto my laptop... then I will fix that space for meditation.
update
Well... the locker got tidied. And the laundry started... 4 loads so far. I am out of change for any more loads. When M-SB gets home, we will walk over to the Provigo and get supper stuffs and change for more laundry.
I managed the blog for my SWG character.
But have not tackled the daunting hall closets yet. I am still low on energy. Maybe I should have grabbed a nap today. Oh well. I will try to maybe clear out one of them tonite and the other tomorrow.
Tonite for sure though... I must make a meditation spot. I promised the gods. I promised to devote meditation time to them once a day for all of April... for a favor. My time and energy for theirs. They came through... now I must.
I am almost dreading the craziness of the coming weekend and week.
Friday: day with M-SB and teach energy work (maybe a guest lecture too) to CMS-L2
Saturday: Vet, Meeting with Level 4's
Sunday: Outing with M-SB for Dim Sum (time booked... he put his foot down)
Monday: intensive store/CMS renovations (LONG long long hours)
Tuesday: repeat of Monday
Wednesday: work in the store
Thursday: get back to the other things I missed in the house (like tackle the bedroom & clothes)
I managed the blog for my SWG character.
But have not tackled the daunting hall closets yet. I am still low on energy. Maybe I should have grabbed a nap today. Oh well. I will try to maybe clear out one of them tonite and the other tomorrow.
Tonite for sure though... I must make a meditation spot. I promised the gods. I promised to devote meditation time to them once a day for all of April... for a favor. My time and energy for theirs. They came through... now I must.
I am almost dreading the craziness of the coming weekend and week.
Friday: day with M-SB and teach energy work (maybe a guest lecture too) to CMS-L2
Saturday: Vet, Meeting with Level 4's
Sunday: Outing with M-SB for Dim Sum (time booked... he put his foot down)
Monday: intensive store/CMS renovations (LONG long long hours)
Tuesday: repeat of Monday
Wednesday: work in the store
Thursday: get back to the other things I missed in the house (like tackle the bedroom & clothes)
Walking Outside and Errands
It is an absolutely GORGEOUS day out! I wore just my thick cotton hooded sweater. I played a little bit of make-believe. As I stepped out the door I pretended I was ... just me living alone on my daily errands. It was in incredible feeling of freedom. The sunshine, the fresh air...
The police cars, the firetrucks... !!! Down the road the depanneur and nearby building had burned down! The building that the fire started in was the one next to the depanneur... the very first apartment I lived away from home in. Wow. I knew it was a firetrap waiting to happen... but wow. I stood there amazed for a long time. Talk a little with the locals.
Then walked into Montreal West to deposit CMS funds. I stopped into the deli/patisserie for lunch. Still make-believing and loving the feeling. I sat and watched people, ate a sandwich and salad and drank earl grey tea. The sun dappled me through the window. When I was done I poked into the little shops around there and on the walk home. I tried on a pair of jeans... but they were not quite comfortable. Oh well. The walk back was equally blissful.
Played telephone tag with CAA... and finally reached them. We made an agreement for them to take their payment on Friday April 15th. I better make sure that $102 is on my visa for then. So at least I still have CAA coverage for my car. I did not have enough money in my account to pay the owed amount for my car insurance just yet. Next paycheck. I have another banking thing to sort out... but that should be easy. And tomorrow the auto payment for my student loan should come out of my account.
Now I am home and trying to not feel suffocated. GRRRRR!!! Stupid cordless phone... acting all stupid. I think it is dying. I plan on smashing it soon just for the satisfaction of it. Time to tackle some other things before it gets too late. Dishes first, then a 2 loads of laundry and the locker. I think I will purge some of the dirty clothes while I am at it.
*still feeling euphoric about the earlier make-believe*
The police cars, the firetrucks... !!! Down the road the depanneur and nearby building had burned down! The building that the fire started in was the one next to the depanneur... the very first apartment I lived away from home in. Wow. I knew it was a firetrap waiting to happen... but wow. I stood there amazed for a long time. Talk a little with the locals.
Then walked into Montreal West to deposit CMS funds. I stopped into the deli/patisserie for lunch. Still make-believing and loving the feeling. I sat and watched people, ate a sandwich and salad and drank earl grey tea. The sun dappled me through the window. When I was done I poked into the little shops around there and on the walk home. I tried on a pair of jeans... but they were not quite comfortable. Oh well. The walk back was equally blissful.
Played telephone tag with CAA... and finally reached them. We made an agreement for them to take their payment on Friday April 15th. I better make sure that $102 is on my visa for then. So at least I still have CAA coverage for my car. I did not have enough money in my account to pay the owed amount for my car insurance just yet. Next paycheck. I have another banking thing to sort out... but that should be easy. And tomorrow the auto payment for my student loan should come out of my account.
Now I am home and trying to not feel suffocated. GRRRRR!!! Stupid cordless phone... acting all stupid. I think it is dying. I plan on smashing it soon just for the satisfaction of it. Time to tackle some other things before it gets too late. Dishes first, then a 2 loads of laundry and the locker. I think I will purge some of the dirty clothes while I am at it.
*still feeling euphoric about the earlier make-believe*
DOH!!!
I slept like a ROCK last night. Then got a call from Mom. She was bugging me about life stuff. Then she reminded me about something I missed yesterday. My parents' 31st wedding anniversary. DOH!!! What to do?! What to do!? I looked online and found this website that says time pieces are modern gifts for 31st anniversaries. *sigh* I have an idea... but it will take a bit of searching.
Today's To Do: (the stuff i meant to do last week)
- dishes
- laundry
- locker
- hall closets
- SWG blog
- SWG chapter 2
- set up a meditation spot in the house somewhere
- walk to bank to deposit CMS money
- call CAA and see what they called abo0ut
- put money on Visa and pay owed car insurance
- supper
This seems like alot. Well... let's see what I can manage. Shut everyone else out and all the stresses. Focus. If I lived alone... what would I do? Tackle the finance stuff first and work my way through everything methodically saving the fun stuff for breaks and end of task rewards.
Ok... off to call CAA and then walk to the bank.
Today's To Do: (the stuff i meant to do last week)
- dishes
- laundry
- locker
- hall closets
- SWG blog
- SWG chapter 2
- set up a meditation spot in the house somewhere
- walk to bank to deposit CMS money
- call CAA and see what they called abo0ut
- put money on Visa and pay owed car insurance
- supper
This seems like alot. Well... let's see what I can manage. Shut everyone else out and all the stresses. Focus. If I lived alone... what would I do? Tackle the finance stuff first and work my way through everything methodically saving the fun stuff for breaks and end of task rewards.
Ok... off to call CAA and then walk to the bank.
Sore, Tired... Accomplished Nothing
Well, last nights horrible sleep (or lack thereos due to noise in the building all f-ing night) is catching up to me along with the wierd positions I stretched into to do some of the store renovations. I ache... bad. And I am tired and a bit grumpy.
I made supper. M-SB wiped my laptop. It took all evening. The ring talk started earlier in the day never continued. Maybe tomorrow (later today).
The laundry didn't get done... the machines were in use. And I never took that walk.
I did get into SWG for a change and connexted with another friend while M-SB was wiping the laptop.
Life feels a bit surreal.
I took some time to ground myself and meditate a bit so I can focus on CMS. I was looking at a book as potential recommendation for the Level 2's. But as it turns out... it is not what I want. *shrug*
After I wake up... I will get back into the swing of cleaning and purging, as well as laundry. I will also go for that walk and grab a tea somewhere. I also have to wrap up some gifts for a friend. Her birthday was just recently.
Time for bed... grumpy and sore and tired. And accomplished absolutely nothing useful today.
Cutting off all my hair into something short and stylish and so not me sounds like a good idea.
I made supper. M-SB wiped my laptop. It took all evening. The ring talk started earlier in the day never continued. Maybe tomorrow (later today).
The laundry didn't get done... the machines were in use. And I never took that walk.
I did get into SWG for a change and connexted with another friend while M-SB was wiping the laptop.
Life feels a bit surreal.
I took some time to ground myself and meditate a bit so I can focus on CMS. I was looking at a book as potential recommendation for the Level 2's. But as it turns out... it is not what I want. *shrug*
After I wake up... I will get back into the swing of cleaning and purging, as well as laundry. I will also go for that walk and grab a tea somewhere. I also have to wrap up some gifts for a friend. Her birthday was just recently.
Time for bed... grumpy and sore and tired. And accomplished absolutely nothing useful today.
Cutting off all my hair into something short and stylish and so not me sounds like a good idea.
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Stalling for a better moment...
I always seem to be having "one of those moments" ... the kind where you want to drop everything and change your life. The things I hoped for I no longer want. Well... I do... but not. How I feel about my goals are very different. What I want to do now is also very different.
How I want to express these feelings... is almost impossible.
Focuses:
- CMS stabilizing on the administrative level
- gain control of the finances
- purge from my environment everything that bugs me, interferes with life or holds me back
- work on my thesis
- apply to the Masters program
I want a new life.
1.5 years from now... I want to be married (the spiritual ceremony) and have kids and a home. Why this short timeframe? I will be 35 years old. I want a child while I can still safely have one. I do not want to nearly die like my sister-in-law almost did. And if I can't have that... I am in one of those moods where I want NOTHING at all.
*sigh*
There is never any good way to say the feelings. Hazy, frustrated, stressed... When have I been really happy lately? Believe it or not... when I have been completely alone. In a cafe, alone with a book or my journal, walking alone in the park, meditating... What does this all mean? What direction is my life insisting upon? I hope Mike is not too upset if I insist on alone time frequently while out visiting him.
What am I to do tonite?
Supper, maybe talk with M-SB, a load of launrdy, resort the locker maybe... go for a walk. Ya. later tonight... take a walk. Right now supper is cooking and M-SB is fixing my laptop.
How I want to express these feelings... is almost impossible.
Focuses:
- CMS stabilizing on the administrative level
- gain control of the finances
- purge from my environment everything that bugs me, interferes with life or holds me back
- work on my thesis
- apply to the Masters program
I want a new life.
1.5 years from now... I want to be married (the spiritual ceremony) and have kids and a home. Why this short timeframe? I will be 35 years old. I want a child while I can still safely have one. I do not want to nearly die like my sister-in-law almost did. And if I can't have that... I am in one of those moods where I want NOTHING at all.
*sigh*
There is never any good way to say the feelings. Hazy, frustrated, stressed... When have I been really happy lately? Believe it or not... when I have been completely alone. In a cafe, alone with a book or my journal, walking alone in the park, meditating... What does this all mean? What direction is my life insisting upon? I hope Mike is not too upset if I insist on alone time frequently while out visiting him.
What am I to do tonite?
Supper, maybe talk with M-SB, a load of launrdy, resort the locker maybe... go for a walk. Ya. later tonight... take a walk. Right now supper is cooking and M-SB is fixing my laptop.
*SIGH*
Well... the bank excursion was an act of double futility. First, they could not fill in the forms as needed as I was missing some information, then they told me they don't really handle it and gave me an address to send my forms to. THEN, when I tried to make the payment for the one that bounced, they told me I had to call a different # because they cannot process it! Grrrr!
*sigh*
I have been still in the haze and wanting badly to just... be left alone to handle my affairs.
*sigh*
On another front... Now having purged the wedding planning stuff, fed up of looking at it and figuring it won't happen... now I get asked about rings... just when i gave up completely on such a thing and no longer want to discuss it.
*sigh*
Guess this will be a long night... I think I will go to work early and get a tea in a cafe and just sit.
*sigh*
I have been still in the haze and wanting badly to just... be left alone to handle my affairs.
*sigh*
On another front... Now having purged the wedding planning stuff, fed up of looking at it and figuring it won't happen... now I get asked about rings... just when i gave up completely on such a thing and no longer want to discuss it.
*sigh*
Guess this will be a long night... I think I will go to work early and get a tea in a cafe and just sit.
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
Haze... *warning... this is long*
Ya... still in that. Last night poor Mike had a fitfull stressful last night of freedom. First he couldn't get his military packs to tie together as he was supposed to know how to do. Then his pay did not arrive and he could not dare get any other missing supplies... not even dinner. Nor could he get the plane tickets he was getting for me. Then he lost an important card that he would likely get into much trouble for losing. He was stressed. The night was full of stress, snaps and panic. I tried to assure him that everything would be fine. His pack were secure, not the way he was told to have them, but still secure. I assured him he would get his pay, likely just after midnight and all would sort out just fine and he would be able to get last minute supplies before going into the field for the month of training. Then I lit a candle and asked that the gods please have his superiors go easy on him for the loss of the card. The promise for this was a dedicated month of devoted attention and time at my altar. Now he is off. He will miss everyone.
Today... I was in such a haze. I managed to get up early due to a stupid nightmare. Something about being trapped in a house I could not get out of where all the people in it were dead and I was only just realizing this. I did not want to be one of those trapped dead people too. I wonder what that dream meant? Well I got up and found that my payments (yes there were 2) went into my visa at last and one came out on time. I immediately called an outstanding bill and paid it off with the visa. YAY! Another debt, though small, gone from the long list. I even washed some dishes and managed to make the fruit salad for the Highg Tea surprise birthday party I was helping with before heading out. I was still feeling kinda muzzy (yes, I think that is the technical term). I deposited my vet paycheck. I was planning on saving it... but I need to get a few things.
I stopped at a gym on the way to work at the store to see what it was like. Roo and I are considering being gym buddies. The gym is called Curves and is a women's gym for the psychotically busy woman. They were very small as gyms go. Mostly one room with 10-12 stations set in a circle. There is a specific routine for 30 minutes that you do about 3 times a week. On staff are personal trainers, health specialists, and nutritionists. The cost is very reasonable too! We got 2 free guest passes to check it out. We will go next week on Wednesday. If we like it, we will sign up and go Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday each week after work together on our way home. I want to get back into shape... maybe even lose some weight. I want to weigh 120lbs... that is only a loss of 16-20lbs... not too much to ask. More though... I want to be fit. It is a goal.
Once I got to work the hazy feeling really piqued. The store was dead... dead dead dead! Very few clients. I helped set up for the High Tea. That was fun. And after I helped with renovations by standin way high on a ladder (and really NOT looking down) while I put masking tape on edgings. That was fine. I was not feeling social. It allowed my mind to think more an other things that have been weighing on me over the month. One day I will discuss them... but not today nor here at the moment. Let's leave it at... I want change... I want to drop things and run away... I want ... well I will stop here for the moment. Changes are happening... but I need different changes. I wonder if the current changes are leading up to or making way for other changes? Who knows....
I paid off another small outstanding debt (a book... hehe). And ran a few more errands. The geckos get to eat tonight! M-SB is sick with a cough. I picked up some things for him. I arrived home to a call from CAA. *???* I don't really owe them anything. My card expired and I did not renew it. I wonder why they are calling me. I will contact them Thursday and find out. M-SB started supper and we ate at the table together. *quiet-like*
I missed a long distance phone call... I screen my calls and never answer the long distance telemarketers. I was just checking email and such when I got a pop-up message from Mike to buy the plane tickets! How did he get to a computer?! CRAP! The call was from him!!! Damn. Good thing he called back. *smile* I now have plane tickets to Tennessee... leaving Montreal at 7:00AM Sunday May 1st and coming back for 12:01AM Saturday May 7th. I will have to set aside taxi money, but YAY! He is doing fine. The packs remained secure. He found his phone. He did not get into ANY trouble for losing that card thing. He got paid. And the tickets are secure. I better clean up the meditation area and be ready to do daily devotional meditations this month as promised.
Now I am somewhere between in a disjointed haze and bouncy excited! If only the other stressful things and my muzzy thinking would come together and be settled. Well... if they don't by the time I leave for Tennessee... Mike will have to accept that I will occasionally need some alone time to think. Wow... what a strange day!
Tomorrow:
- 10:00AM Bank to sort out student loan stuff and deposit another paycheck.
- 12-5PM work at the store
- when I get home... set up meditaion space (April is devoted to the gods)
- oh... do some laundry
Today... I was in such a haze. I managed to get up early due to a stupid nightmare. Something about being trapped in a house I could not get out of where all the people in it were dead and I was only just realizing this. I did not want to be one of those trapped dead people too. I wonder what that dream meant? Well I got up and found that my payments (yes there were 2) went into my visa at last and one came out on time. I immediately called an outstanding bill and paid it off with the visa. YAY! Another debt, though small, gone from the long list. I even washed some dishes and managed to make the fruit salad for the Highg Tea surprise birthday party I was helping with before heading out. I was still feeling kinda muzzy (yes, I think that is the technical term). I deposited my vet paycheck. I was planning on saving it... but I need to get a few things.
I stopped at a gym on the way to work at the store to see what it was like. Roo and I are considering being gym buddies. The gym is called Curves and is a women's gym for the psychotically busy woman. They were very small as gyms go. Mostly one room with 10-12 stations set in a circle. There is a specific routine for 30 minutes that you do about 3 times a week. On staff are personal trainers, health specialists, and nutritionists. The cost is very reasonable too! We got 2 free guest passes to check it out. We will go next week on Wednesday. If we like it, we will sign up and go Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday each week after work together on our way home. I want to get back into shape... maybe even lose some weight. I want to weigh 120lbs... that is only a loss of 16-20lbs... not too much to ask. More though... I want to be fit. It is a goal.
Once I got to work the hazy feeling really piqued. The store was dead... dead dead dead! Very few clients. I helped set up for the High Tea. That was fun. And after I helped with renovations by standin way high on a ladder (and really NOT looking down) while I put masking tape on edgings. That was fine. I was not feeling social. It allowed my mind to think more an other things that have been weighing on me over the month. One day I will discuss them... but not today nor here at the moment. Let's leave it at... I want change... I want to drop things and run away... I want ... well I will stop here for the moment. Changes are happening... but I need different changes. I wonder if the current changes are leading up to or making way for other changes? Who knows....
I paid off another small outstanding debt (a book... hehe). And ran a few more errands. The geckos get to eat tonight! M-SB is sick with a cough. I picked up some things for him. I arrived home to a call from CAA. *???* I don't really owe them anything. My card expired and I did not renew it. I wonder why they are calling me. I will contact them Thursday and find out. M-SB started supper and we ate at the table together. *quiet-like*
I missed a long distance phone call... I screen my calls and never answer the long distance telemarketers. I was just checking email and such when I got a pop-up message from Mike to buy the plane tickets! How did he get to a computer?! CRAP! The call was from him!!! Damn. Good thing he called back. *smile* I now have plane tickets to Tennessee... leaving Montreal at 7:00AM Sunday May 1st and coming back for 12:01AM Saturday May 7th. I will have to set aside taxi money, but YAY! He is doing fine. The packs remained secure. He found his phone. He did not get into ANY trouble for losing that card thing. He got paid. And the tickets are secure. I better clean up the meditation area and be ready to do daily devotional meditations this month as promised.
Now I am somewhere between in a disjointed haze and bouncy excited! If only the other stressful things and my muzzy thinking would come together and be settled. Well... if they don't by the time I leave for Tennessee... Mike will have to accept that I will occasionally need some alone time to think. Wow... what a strange day!
Tomorrow:
- 10:00AM Bank to sort out student loan stuff and deposit another paycheck.
- 12-5PM work at the store
- when I get home... set up meditaion space (April is devoted to the gods)
- oh... do some laundry
Monday, March 28, 2005
Another busy day...
Sunday was very laid back. The bikes are upstairs. YAY! I will go biking this week i think. I chilled for the day and ropleplayed online. It was relaxing.
Today, my thumb and wrist are feeling a bit better. But I have a crazy day ahead of me. I have to go tend the animals at the kennel and hope that the woman who is supposed to bring in her dog arrives before I have to leave. Then I rush out to the store (Melange Magique) to work till 5pm. I have to remember to pick up a few things like cat litter, tea, crickets, mouse food... on my way home. Oh... and deposit my paycheck. Then I have to return to the kennel and do a final cleaning and caring of the animals.
I hope to squeeze in a last little bit of roleplaying. My friend leaves at 11:15 pm this evening for a military training thing for a month.
So what does the week look like?
Monday: work, work, work, roleplay
Tuesday: tidy kitchen, work, student-teacher meeting, sleep
Wednesday: tidy, work, tidy, SWG
Thursday: errands, clean locker, clean hall closets, student-teacher meeting, banking, laundry
Friday: sort hall shelving, laundry, teach Level 2
I am tired and intolerant of annoyances today. *sigh* time to get ready for work.
Today, my thumb and wrist are feeling a bit better. But I have a crazy day ahead of me. I have to go tend the animals at the kennel and hope that the woman who is supposed to bring in her dog arrives before I have to leave. Then I rush out to the store (Melange Magique) to work till 5pm. I have to remember to pick up a few things like cat litter, tea, crickets, mouse food... on my way home. Oh... and deposit my paycheck. Then I have to return to the kennel and do a final cleaning and caring of the animals.
I hope to squeeze in a last little bit of roleplaying. My friend leaves at 11:15 pm this evening for a military training thing for a month.
So what does the week look like?
Monday: work, work, work, roleplay
Tuesday: tidy kitchen, work, student-teacher meeting, sleep
Wednesday: tidy, work, tidy, SWG
Thursday: errands, clean locker, clean hall closets, student-teacher meeting, banking, laundry
Friday: sort hall shelving, laundry, teach Level 2
I am tired and intolerant of annoyances today. *sigh* time to get ready for work.
Saturday, March 26, 2005
Busy Day Today
The bikes never made it up yesterday. I will ask M-SB to bring them up today sometime. Tiday is very hectic. And after last night... I am tired too.
Last night the class went very well. The Level 4 studants had their last class and learned alot from their final practicum. It was very very exhausting. I am very very proud of them.
I then foolishly stayed up roleplaing with my friend till 3AM. Like I said... sucking up as much time with him before he is gone for a month. I do not regret it, even though I am tired today.
I have vet work today. Stupid. They had told everyone that we were closed and then the vet decided he wanted us open. So I have to go in. It will be dead and boring ALL DAY! Thank gods I get off at 1pm-ish. Then I have to be downtown to teach a class on Spirit Beings to the Level 3 students. I hope it becomes a good discussion. After that is coven... with an Ostara ritual. I will try to squeeze a nap in between these if I can. There will be no purging today. The day is busy enough.
And my f-ing thumb joint STILL F-ING hurts!
Last night the class went very well. The Level 4 studants had their last class and learned alot from their final practicum. It was very very exhausting. I am very very proud of them.
I then foolishly stayed up roleplaing with my friend till 3AM. Like I said... sucking up as much time with him before he is gone for a month. I do not regret it, even though I am tired today.
I have vet work today. Stupid. They had told everyone that we were closed and then the vet decided he wanted us open. So I have to go in. It will be dead and boring ALL DAY! Thank gods I get off at 1pm-ish. Then I have to be downtown to teach a class on Spirit Beings to the Level 3 students. I hope it becomes a good discussion. After that is coven... with an Ostara ritual. I will try to squeeze a nap in between these if I can. There will be no purging today. The day is busy enough.
And my f-ing thumb joint STILL F-ING hurts!
Friday, March 25, 2005
Slower than I wanted...
Well... the kitchen is clean and the recycle is out. I did a load of dishes and M-SB took out the recycle and did the second load. I planned this evening's class, so I am ready for that. I took a 2hr nap which was wonderful! And just now I finished typing my notes for tomorrow's lesson.
I am now about to take some stuff to my car and get M-SB to bring up the bikes.
My thumb is not hurting as much. It is however stiff and mostly immobile. I don't think I will be reorganizing the locker nor sorting the closets today. I really do not want to aggrivate it any more than I am through all the typing I am doing today.
I will, however, go clean the livingroom and do a furball check down the hall. The joys of cats!
Oh... got a knock on the door from the janitor handing out the request for lease renweal with a $15 increase in the rent starting July if we choose to renew our lease. That makes our rent $665. I guess we will renew. Sometimes I dream of living alone and what it would be like... and how I would manage... and what I would do.
I am now about to take some stuff to my car and get M-SB to bring up the bikes.
My thumb is not hurting as much. It is however stiff and mostly immobile. I don't think I will be reorganizing the locker nor sorting the closets today. I really do not want to aggrivate it any more than I am through all the typing I am doing today.
I will, however, go clean the livingroom and do a furball check down the hall. The joys of cats!
Oh... got a knock on the door from the janitor handing out the request for lease renweal with a $15 increase in the rent starting July if we choose to renew our lease. That makes our rent $665. I guess we will renew. Sometimes I dream of living alone and what it would be like... and how I would manage... and what I would do.
Painful steps?
I wonder how painful today will be. M-SB is home. I want certain things accomplished. He is making breakfast which is a relief. After that... i want the recycle taken out. Then I want to tackle the locker with him. I want him to bring my bike upstairs (and maybe his too) and then I will better organize the locker space.
Today I also have to work on material for my CMS Level 3 class this Saturday. Spirit Beings.
Somewhere in the rest of the time... I will purge the hall closets... I hope... before the students come over.
Today's biggest setback... wrist and thumb are killing me. It got so bad last night i sat from 1:30AM to 2:30am with ice on it. I currently have limited mobility and pain. This is REALLY frustrating. Every time i see a doc he says... "I don't know... it is swollen, put ice. If heat helps later alternate." and then sends me home. Waste of time. Maybe I will have Jen x-ray it at the vet clinic and see if there is arthritis in it.
Well... at least it is a holiday weekend. Hopefully no one can drop any MORE stress on me. *knocks on wood*
Today I also have to work on material for my CMS Level 3 class this Saturday. Spirit Beings.
Somewhere in the rest of the time... I will purge the hall closets... I hope... before the students come over.
Today's biggest setback... wrist and thumb are killing me. It got so bad last night i sat from 1:30AM to 2:30am with ice on it. I currently have limited mobility and pain. This is REALLY frustrating. Every time i see a doc he says... "I don't know... it is swollen, put ice. If heat helps later alternate." and then sends me home. Waste of time. Maybe I will have Jen x-ray it at the vet clinic and see if there is arthritis in it.
Well... at least it is a holiday weekend. Hopefully no one can drop any MORE stress on me. *knocks on wood*
Thursday, March 24, 2005
well.. that was futile...
I couldn't carry the recycle out. So I left it. I will insist that M-SB take it tomorrow. I walked to the bank. It was absolutely wonderful outside. Sun shining and just a bit cold but definately warm enough for a good walk. Deposited my check. and dumped money onto my visa to I can pay a small outstanding bill and make it go away ASAP (Tuesday after holidays).
As I was about to walk home... I passed the Chinese flourist. There were tons of spring bulbs blooming and sprouting in pots. I could not resist. I picked up Irises for M-SB because I know he likes them. I picked up a Hyacinth... can't wait till it blooms... i LOVE the scent! And I picked up a mystery batch... I think they are mini tulips... will find out when they bloom.
I walked home watching the near full moon already in the pale blue sky.
I got in still not feeling great... but at least not feeling like I will drown the mice, strangle the cats and murder the spouse.
M-SB is making little pita pizzas and we will watch a movie: Bourne Supremecy. While the pizza's cook, I went to the locker to see what needed purging. Not much. It is just badly organized. I will make it a group project tomorrow no matter how much fussing I get. Everything will come out and go back in in an orderly fashion of garbage! I just can't do it myself with the bikes there.
And more bills... grumble. I wish the bills would just kinda freeze for a while till I catch up. I will address it later. One step at a time.
As I was about to walk home... I passed the Chinese flourist. There were tons of spring bulbs blooming and sprouting in pots. I could not resist. I picked up Irises for M-SB because I know he likes them. I picked up a Hyacinth... can't wait till it blooms... i LOVE the scent! And I picked up a mystery batch... I think they are mini tulips... will find out when they bloom.
I walked home watching the near full moon already in the pale blue sky.
I got in still not feeling great... but at least not feeling like I will drown the mice, strangle the cats and murder the spouse.
M-SB is making little pita pizzas and we will watch a movie: Bourne Supremecy. While the pizza's cook, I went to the locker to see what needed purging. Not much. It is just badly organized. I will make it a group project tomorrow no matter how much fussing I get. Everything will come out and go back in in an orderly fashion of garbage! I just can't do it myself with the bikes there.
And more bills... grumble. I wish the bills would just kinda freeze for a while till I catch up. I will address it later. One step at a time.
*snarl... growl*
Remind me to unplug the phone when I choose to nap. One hour... all I wanted was one peaceful hour. NOooooooOooo... phone rings a few times and wakes me. Now I feel like crap! And I am cranky. I am rarely cranky. But I am cranky now. *cry*
I am going to go walk to the bank now.
:(
I am going to go walk to the bank now.
:(
Damn... where did the day go?
I was up with M-SB for that ride into work at 8AM and home by 9AM. I chatted a bit, researched for class, ate lunch and talked with a friend. I was going to walk to the bank and all but then realized I needed a book from my Shelf downtown and had to drop off a check... so I drove to cut time. Cut time? Where the hell did it go? I am tired and it is 3:30pm already! I missed getting the crickets and forgot my paycheck to deposit. So I will have to walk out later or tomorrow. I am trying to summon the fast waning energy to purge my daunting locker.
Maybe i need a nap? Ya... a nap sounds good. Just for an hour. Then I will haul out the f-ing recycle and purge the locker. I have no plans for supper. I am still stuffed on the pasta I had for lunch. Ya... recycle, locker, walk to bank... then supper? and hall closet number 1... tomorrow i will tackle more.
Damn. Master Card collection thingy called again. I just don't have the $$$. I don't know what to tell them. I don't have it. Not yet. I might have some on the weekend. I will see on Saturday. I have some other things to pay too. Rent for CMS. Hydro Quebec. damn... car insurance. I have to pay $956 for April 15ht for new car insurance. I can't do the monthly because sometimes it bounces with the way my pay is timed. *wills herself NOT to panic*
Ya... I need a nap.
Maybe i need a nap? Ya... a nap sounds good. Just for an hour. Then I will haul out the f-ing recycle and purge the locker. I have no plans for supper. I am still stuffed on the pasta I had for lunch. Ya... recycle, locker, walk to bank... then supper? and hall closet number 1... tomorrow i will tackle more.
Damn. Master Card collection thingy called again. I just don't have the $$$. I don't know what to tell them. I don't have it. Not yet. I might have some on the weekend. I will see on Saturday. I have some other things to pay too. Rent for CMS. Hydro Quebec. damn... car insurance. I have to pay $956 for April 15ht for new car insurance. I can't do the monthly because sometimes it bounces with the way my pay is timed. *wills herself NOT to panic*
Ya... I need a nap.
another step? is that what that was?
Well today was odd. Woke and smacked the alarm as usual... but it did not go off again. Mark was late thus and missed his train so I drove him into work. Now I am looking back on yesterday to see what never got done.
I am about to wash dishes and find breakfast. Nothing very interesting... eggs... lots of eggs. Hmm... I guess I will make a cheese omlette.
Yesterdays' chat with Roo was very ... helpful ... in helping me voice what was in my head snd see more clearly what is there, tho did not exactly provide any answers. I wasn't really looking for any, just needed a neutral sounding board. And WEEHEE!! She agreed to do Henna for me! I am so looking forward to a "henna day". Reiki I will ask again later.
My wrist is doing a bit better, tho the thumb feels like the tendon is pulled and the joint hurts still. So why am I still typing? I am stubborn.
Yesterday I sat and had tea and a sandwich for lunch in a cafe... alone. It was a wonderful experience. Just me. Just me alone sitting and enjoying the quiet. I think I will do this more often. I think I said that when I went to Ohio. How I so enjoyed sitting for tea in a cafe all alone and how I wanted to just do that regularly. I just kinda feel guilty doing it here for some reason. Oh well....
Today... what do I plan? Well, to do the things I didn't do yesterday...
- dishes
- banking & get toiletpaper
- get crickets for the lizards and mouse food
- take out the recycle (f-ing thing is F-ING heavy)
- rent a movie
- purge the locker
- purge the hall closets
- sort the last boxes in the hall
- sort the hall shelves
- supper
- watch the movie with M-SB
- roleplay till 1AM
Yes... I still feel out of sorts and kinda detached from the world... or at least some of the people in it. I still kinda feel like I want to drop everything and just start over. I am hoping that the purging will help. It is a nice day out. Maybe I will go for a walk today to rent the movie and do banking and get toilet paper. I have been taking up walking lately. When I get home or on a break or something, I just go out and walk alone. I have been enjoying it. Give me some space to think. Ya... been doing lots of that lately. Will likely be doing lots more for a while. I am ... very very dissatisfied with how my life is and am not sure what I want to do about it just yet. The talk with Roo helped some, the walks help some... but not enough.
Well... I guess I will go start cleaning.
I am about to wash dishes and find breakfast. Nothing very interesting... eggs... lots of eggs. Hmm... I guess I will make a cheese omlette.
Yesterdays' chat with Roo was very ... helpful ... in helping me voice what was in my head snd see more clearly what is there, tho did not exactly provide any answers. I wasn't really looking for any, just needed a neutral sounding board. And WEEHEE!! She agreed to do Henna for me! I am so looking forward to a "henna day". Reiki I will ask again later.
My wrist is doing a bit better, tho the thumb feels like the tendon is pulled and the joint hurts still. So why am I still typing? I am stubborn.
Yesterday I sat and had tea and a sandwich for lunch in a cafe... alone. It was a wonderful experience. Just me. Just me alone sitting and enjoying the quiet. I think I will do this more often. I think I said that when I went to Ohio. How I so enjoyed sitting for tea in a cafe all alone and how I wanted to just do that regularly. I just kinda feel guilty doing it here for some reason. Oh well....
Today... what do I plan? Well, to do the things I didn't do yesterday...
- dishes
- banking & get toiletpaper
- get crickets for the lizards and mouse food
- take out the recycle (f-ing thing is F-ING heavy)
- rent a movie
- purge the locker
- purge the hall closets
- sort the last boxes in the hall
- sort the hall shelves
- supper
- watch the movie with M-SB
- roleplay till 1AM
Yes... I still feel out of sorts and kinda detached from the world... or at least some of the people in it. I still kinda feel like I want to drop everything and just start over. I am hoping that the purging will help. It is a nice day out. Maybe I will go for a walk today to rent the movie and do banking and get toilet paper. I have been taking up walking lately. When I get home or on a break or something, I just go out and walk alone. I have been enjoying it. Give me some space to think. Ya... been doing lots of that lately. Will likely be doing lots more for a while. I am ... very very dissatisfied with how my life is and am not sure what I want to do about it just yet. The talk with Roo helped some, the walks help some... but not enough.
Well... I guess I will go start cleaning.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
another step
I am feeling a bit less schitzoid today... but damn do I hurt! It got cold last night and I woke in much pain in my wrist and thmb joint again. I never got to purge the locker last night. Too cold. I won't do it today either. I have to work and by the time I get home it will be cold again. So today's plan...
- pack lunch for work (done)
- tidy kitchen (done)
- work 12-5pm
- cunsultation ??? 5pm maybe
- coffee with Roo to talk about stuff and arrange for reiki... maybe that will help with the back, shoulder, wrist pain
- i think i want to watch a movie to just chill a bit (will pick one up for me and Mark to watch)
- then roleplay till 1 am (sucking up as much rp time with my friend before he is dumped into his 1-month military training next Monday)
I still feel out of sorts. I still want to purge the house and throw out SO MUCH STUFF. I will work on the locker and the hall closets on Thursday. I want the hall and living room done before class on Friday night. Then next week I will purge the clothing and work on the bedroom.
Today the store is doing painting. It started the renovations. I think I will bring a bandage to work because they have to open the windows to air out the paint fumes and it gets REAL cold. I don't want to be hurting and cranky all day.
Hugs to everyone. I am cranky... don't mind me... don't think that I hate you if I am being anti-social or snippity. I am trying hard not to just dump on people till I get myself sorted out. I still love you all. Just give me space please.
- pack lunch for work (done)
- tidy kitchen (done)
- call bank for an appointment regarding my student loan (done)
- sort the CMS finances (done)
- wash dishes- work 12-5pm
- cunsultation ??? 5pm maybe
- coffee with Roo to talk about stuff and arrange for reiki... maybe that will help with the back, shoulder, wrist pain
- banking
- take the recycle out- i think i want to watch a movie to just chill a bit (will pick one up for me and Mark to watch)
- then roleplay till 1 am (sucking up as much rp time with my friend before he is dumped into his 1-month military training next Monday)
I still feel out of sorts. I still want to purge the house and throw out SO MUCH STUFF. I will work on the locker and the hall closets on Thursday. I want the hall and living room done before class on Friday night. Then next week I will purge the clothing and work on the bedroom.
Today the store is doing painting. It started the renovations. I think I will bring a bandage to work because they have to open the windows to air out the paint fumes and it gets REAL cold. I don't want to be hurting and cranky all day.
Hugs to everyone. I am cranky... don't mind me... don't think that I hate you if I am being anti-social or snippity. I am trying hard not to just dump on people till I get myself sorted out. I still love you all. Just give me space please.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
One of THOSE days...
Ever have one of THOSE days? The kind where you want to just drop EVERYTHING from where you live to what your job is to even your relationship? The kind that make you trash all the stuff in your house during your purging? *no... i haven't exactly done that... much* The kind that make you want to cut off all your hair? *still considering that* Ya... "those"... I am having one of "those" months. Many of "those" days strung together. Is it just stress? Is it all the things hitting me? All the bills I cannot handle? All the changes that seem to need doing? Is it a message from Spirit that the choices I have made are wrong? Is this a midlife crisis? What is wrong with me? I want to see people grow and see my life balance and manifest my dreams... but...
oh... grrrrr......
No... today did not go badly. I am in a wierd headspace. Lots on my mind but not clear enough to know what to say to who, nor what decisions I want to make in my life that would be most beneficial to all.
Yup... I am having one of "THOSE" days... weeks... months...
I am going to go back to making supper, doing laundry and trashing majority of the locker space now. Maybe I will take up Roo's offer for coffee... tomorrow after work.
oh... grrrrr......
No... today did not go badly. I am in a wierd headspace. Lots on my mind but not clear enough to know what to say to who, nor what decisions I want to make in my life that would be most beneficial to all.
Yup... I am having one of "THOSE" days... weeks... months...
I am going to go back to making supper, doing laundry and trashing majority of the locker space now. Maybe I will take up Roo's offer for coffee... tomorrow after work.
2 steps back ... :(
Well... the morning was ok... woke on my own which is nice to do. gathered my gear for the day and the paperwork for the bank. Made my Gaz Met payment, car payment to mom and my Visa payment. Called the car insurance... and WHAM! *grumble* I have $42 to pay them... which is fine. But to renew my policy, I must pay the whole policy in one shot... $955.05. Crap. *sigh* Ok... not gonna pay a parking ticket.
Today's & Tonite's goals:
Today's & Tonite's goals:
- work @ store 12-5 (eat lunch)
- pasta for supper
- clean kitchen
- do a load of laundry
- purge the locker
- roleplay to 1AM
That is busy enough...
Monday, March 21, 2005
Taking a step forward
Well... work went smooth... was a typical Monday... slow and full of restocking. *saved some restocking for tomorrow* I had a 2 hour lunch where I chatted a bit with the new reader Samara. I really want a reading from her. I think I will go see her sometime this week. I need some advice from those who know nothing about me... something unbiased. And... she is such an interesting reader as she does psychometry, speaks directly to you and with her guides. Very nifty.
A co-worker stayed while I did my class. Only 3 of the 6 students were there. These three agreed that Friday nights will be the best time for the Level 2 class. So... that will be the new schedule.
Now to relax some as that problem is now out of the way. Tomorrow will be a tackle the next things. Oh... and pay another bill... oh... like an outstanding parking ticket.
A co-worker stayed while I did my class. Only 3 of the 6 students were there. These three agreed that Friday nights will be the best time for the Level 2 class. So... that will be the new schedule.
Now to relax some as that problem is now out of the way. Tomorrow will be a tackle the next things. Oh... and pay another bill... oh... like an outstanding parking ticket.
Delayed
The weekend was very busy. So I did not get many things done. On a good note, the weekend went smoothly at least. Vet work was boring, the student ritual was wonderful, and I roleplayed with a friend all night long. Sunday I got up to go help with inventory too early... oops... but then headed out for that. That went very smoothly from the sounds of things, as I had to part at noon. That is when I started setting up for divination and ensure the space was open for the public ritual. Help came and handled the divination while i went out to eat and then the ritual got way too crowded for me to stay. So i called a friend and chatted and acted as a door person at the lower level. It went smoothly too. And I slept well in the evening.
Today, though... has a slow start. And I did not get to address today's calls to the bank and my car insurance. I did get another bill paid, so that is good. I will tackle the calls tomorrow morning. Time for me to head out to work. I get a 2hr supper break before I teach tonite, since the new 3 day schedule maens I finish at 5pm and not 6pm.
:)
I really hope the students can agree to move to Friday or Sunday for class. Later all.
Today, though... has a slow start. And I did not get to address today's calls to the bank and my car insurance. I did get another bill paid, so that is good. I will tackle the calls tomorrow morning. Time for me to head out to work. I get a 2hr supper break before I teach tonite, since the new 3 day schedule maens I finish at 5pm and not 6pm.
:)
I really hope the students can agree to move to Friday or Sunday for class. Later all.
Friday, March 18, 2005
WHAM!!! AGAIN!!! Dammit.
As I am not full time staff, I will not have a key and code at the store. Very understandable. But I have just lost the person responsible for closing after my Monday night class and now have to pay someone to stay... which is not in the budget... and have to try to reschedule the class to a different night or day. *sigh*
Ok... today is more like 2 steps forward and 10 steps back.
Ok... today is more like 2 steps forward and 10 steps back.
stepping forward... and back again...
Ok... today so far... managed regular amintenance. And paid another bill. I am now broke again and waiting for further income. Opened yesterday's mail to be reminded that my student loan bounced and that I need to address this soon. Oh, but I found the school letters to request deferred payment. So... Monday morning I will contact the bank and arrange to see them on Thursday.
I got word from the store that they will need me for more work days. YAY!!! I was just considering looking for more work. Thank goodness. I wonder what the schedule will be like.
Ran my errand and got the pysanka kits for the Level 2's. Tried to return the old modem, but the post office on Westminster s no longer a full functioning post office. I did pick up the letter I had to sign for from there though. So... Monday I will have to return the old modem on my way to work. The letter... My car insurance policy is about to be cancelled as my payment bounced for it this month. Dammit! I have to make arrangements with them on Monday morning too. And i have to make another payment for the car which is late. My finances just don't come in as smoothly as I need them to. And just when I think I have a grip on things... WHAM! I have to be hit yet again!!! GGGrrrrrrrrr!
Well... *sigh* at least I start the new schedule immediately next week Monday through Wednesday 12-5pm. That is 15 hrs as opposed to 6 hrs. The extra 9 hrs will be most helpful financially. So... I will need to rework my routine a bit.
Next step today... purge the hallway... and I mean purge it. If it pisses me off it is gone!
I got word from the store that they will need me for more work days. YAY!!! I was just considering looking for more work. Thank goodness. I wonder what the schedule will be like.
Ran my errand and got the pysanka kits for the Level 2's. Tried to return the old modem, but the post office on Westminster s no longer a full functioning post office. I did pick up the letter I had to sign for from there though. So... Monday I will have to return the old modem on my way to work. The letter... My car insurance policy is about to be cancelled as my payment bounced for it this month. Dammit! I have to make arrangements with them on Monday morning too. And i have to make another payment for the car which is late. My finances just don't come in as smoothly as I need them to. And just when I think I have a grip on things... WHAM! I have to be hit yet again!!! GGGrrrrrrrrr!
Well... *sigh* at least I start the new schedule immediately next week Monday through Wednesday 12-5pm. That is 15 hrs as opposed to 6 hrs. The extra 9 hrs will be most helpful financially. So... I will need to rework my routine a bit.
Next step today... purge the hallway... and I mean purge it. If it pisses me off it is gone!
Steps...
Ok... reread the last blog. I have to clarify.
I think I am actually taking 2 steps forward and one step back. There IS progress.
Now I am going BACK to bed for anopther hour of sleep before tackling today. Hehe... I was up late last night listening to an audio version of a Star Wars comic series Crimson Empire I. It was awesome! It was 1hr32min of full cast audio drama. I went to bed late... hehe.
I think I am actually taking 2 steps forward and one step back. There IS progress.
Now I am going BACK to bed for anopther hour of sleep before tackling today. Hehe... I was up late last night listening to an audio version of a Star Wars comic series Crimson Empire I. It was awesome! It was 1hr32min of full cast audio drama. I went to bed late... hehe.
One Step Forward... Three Steps Back
Well... the kitchen is under control and managed with regular maintenance. The bathroom is done. The entry clean. My day did not go as smoothly as I hoped. I started sorting the laundry and then realized I had to rush out for the consultant appointment. I headed out to the car... but... it was... gone! Gone. 20 minutes to the appointment and no sign of my car. Stressing and trying to stay calm. I ran back in the house and called the store to let them know and to apologize to my client and let them know I will be there by 5pm if they can wait. I had to find out what was up with my car. I hopped the bus to Access Montreal hoping that they might know if I might have been towed. Gods... I hoped the car wasn't stolen. It sure isn't the kind anyone would want to steal. Access Montreal gave me the towing company number. I called them and to my relief the car had been moved. They moved it three blocks away. That is why I did not find it immediately. So I had a long cold walk back to the car. Luckily the transfer from the first bus ride was accepted and I only had to walk half way. I rushed to the store as quick as I safely could. But my client could not wait. I felt horrid. They took time out of their work. *sigh* My 5:30 pm appointment also cancelled, which was fine. I was no longer in a mood to deal with her. I will email the first and hope they will reschedule.
Well... I have yet to get the bedroom reigned in. I did some laundry in the late evening. But the bedroom.... will be more work than I anticipated. *groan* Tomorrow... (later today I guess) I will have to focus on the hallway. The bedroom will have to wait till next week. *grumble* I have to have things presentable for the level 4 class. Mice cleaning and feeding snakes are on the list. So is the errand of getting Pysanka kits for the Level 2 class. Why can't things go as smoothly as I need them to... for a change?
Change... is never quick, nor smooth. One step forward. Three steps back. Bills covered for the moment... many more to deal with. I vow to get my life rebalanced. I am tired of being stuck in struggling rutts. Step one... sort the house and purge things. Spring cleaning continues. Environ first. Second step... focus on education and then the school. Goals... goals... Every so often... I need a serious change... that time has come. Let the purge begin! By the full moon... I will be ready to work on my office/temple area. By April 1st, the house will have been physically purged. Then I will focus on such things as school, CMS, work... finances.
Now... if only there could be no more steps back for the ones I take forward.
Well... I have yet to get the bedroom reigned in. I did some laundry in the late evening. But the bedroom.... will be more work than I anticipated. *groan* Tomorrow... (later today I guess) I will have to focus on the hallway. The bedroom will have to wait till next week. *grumble* I have to have things presentable for the level 4 class. Mice cleaning and feeding snakes are on the list. So is the errand of getting Pysanka kits for the Level 2 class. Why can't things go as smoothly as I need them to... for a change?
Change... is never quick, nor smooth. One step forward. Three steps back. Bills covered for the moment... many more to deal with. I vow to get my life rebalanced. I am tired of being stuck in struggling rutts. Step one... sort the house and purge things. Spring cleaning continues. Environ first. Second step... focus on education and then the school. Goals... goals... Every so often... I need a serious change... that time has come. Let the purge begin! By the full moon... I will be ready to work on my office/temple area. By April 1st, the house will have been physically purged. Then I will focus on such things as school, CMS, work... finances.
Now... if only there could be no more steps back for the ones I take forward.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
Small Progress Report
The Kitchen and entry hall were seriously cleaned last week. With frustration I had to start over a bit as the kitchen seemed to get neglected over the weekend with me out working. But it is back under control. Yesterday I tackled the bathroom. All fricken day!!! Burning out my lungs with the cleaner. I have one last task in there to do... spray the shower curtain. Then I can say that is sone too!
After I eat I will begin on the bedroom. Sorting laundry (MUST wash a load of whites tonight...MUST) and culling the clothing there.
Today I have a consultancy appointment. Someone is inquiring about handfastings. I will meet with her and discuss her options and what she and her husband-to-be hope to have. I might be the one to do their handfasting, I might not. But at least we can hammer out their base desires are and help them understand the legal issues they are curious about. That will be at 4pm.
Then I hang out till the CMS Level 1's come in to make their payments. I do not want $600+ sitting in an envelope at the store till Monday. I hear the Level 1 class is going real well. I am so damned proud of my student, now being teachers. The real test of how well the class is doing is to see if all the students are still there come the first exam and homework pickup. :D Good luck!!
After I eat I will begin on the bedroom. Sorting laundry (MUST wash a load of whites tonight...MUST) and culling the clothing there.
Today I have a consultancy appointment. Someone is inquiring about handfastings. I will meet with her and discuss her options and what she and her husband-to-be hope to have. I might be the one to do their handfasting, I might not. But at least we can hammer out their base desires are and help them understand the legal issues they are curious about. That will be at 4pm.
Then I hang out till the CMS Level 1's come in to make their payments. I do not want $600+ sitting in an envelope at the store till Monday. I hear the Level 1 class is going real well. I am so damned proud of my student, now being teachers. The real test of how well the class is doing is to see if all the students are still there come the first exam and homework pickup. :D Good luck!!
Monday, March 14, 2005
Change on the Wind
I can smell it. Sense it. The sun is out when I wake and till later in the afternoon. the weather is warmer. Spring is definately coming and with it the world is changing. I feel these changes on many levels. I seek change in my life too. Some things have not changed for too too long. Time for them to be purged, cleaned, sorted, organized, moved or left behind. Spring cleaning.
I have done the kitchen and entry.
This week... the bathroom, bedroom, hallway (and closets), cull the clothing.
Next week... livingroom and office.
April will be Thesis work to finish it and apply for the Masters program.
Also really want to work an getting a grip on the finances as they are getting seriously out of hand.
Somewhere I will have to deal with the taxes. We need help with it because I have CMS registered. Time to go to H&R Block I guess.
I have goals in life I really want to see menifest. And I know somethings in my life will have to change for me to achieve this and somethings that will be very difficult challenges.
Change is on the wind.
Please Gods... show me the path more clearly or help me to clear it so I may see it for myself.
I have done the kitchen and entry.
This week... the bathroom, bedroom, hallway (and closets), cull the clothing.
Next week... livingroom and office.
April will be Thesis work to finish it and apply for the Masters program.
Also really want to work an getting a grip on the finances as they are getting seriously out of hand.
Somewhere I will have to deal with the taxes. We need help with it because I have CMS registered. Time to go to H&R Block I guess.
I have goals in life I really want to see menifest. And I know somethings in my life will have to change for me to achieve this and somethings that will be very difficult challenges.
Change is on the wind.
Please Gods... show me the path more clearly or help me to clear it so I may see it for myself.
Friday, March 04, 2005
Another strange but interesting weekend
I spent the weekend in New Orleans. Yes... in the state of Louisiana. I was visiting friends and helping one write reviews for his company on the casino, steakhouse, Earl Turner show... I also got to see Bourbon Street. it is a very bizarre place and one I doubt I will ever go visit again. It wasn't all bad... just very tacky and flashy. I got bored fast after the first time or two in that sector and didn't have the free cash available to do any of the great tours. Oh well. I did enjoy hanging out with friends. We had free rooms at the Sheraton, access to the Harrah's casino (i have discovered that there is no excitement for me in a casino... *shrug*), free brunch as an apology for messing up the schedule for the free impov show we didn't get to see, free dinner at their very fancy steakhouse and free tickets to a music show by Earl Turner.
Thanks to Max and David and Mike and all for a great time in New Orleans!
I did poke into some Voodoo shops. They were interesting, small and mostly kitchy. Shame. Our Montreal Pagan shop is SO MUCH BETTER!!! I tried to go visit the Vodun Spritiual Temple, but it was always closed. Oh well.
Thanks to Max and David and Mike and all for a great time in New Orleans!
I did poke into some Voodoo shops. They were interesting, small and mostly kitchy. Shame. Our Montreal Pagan shop is SO MUCH BETTER!!! I tried to go visit the Vodun Spritiual Temple, but it was always closed. Oh well.
