Thursday, June 30, 2005
Awakening Isis... woohoo... gone for 4 days
Ok all.. I am packed and ready to go. I leave to pick folks up at 6am. I will not be around to check email or blogs.
IN CASE OF EMERGENCY
My cell will be on and available should there be any.
Just call me.
I am 1.5-2.5 hrs away. Very drivable, but do keep that in mind.
IN CASE OF EMERGENCY
My cell will be on and available should there be any.
Just call me.
I am 1.5-2.5 hrs away. Very drivable, but do keep that in mind.
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
News...
GODS! IT IS HOT!!! I am melting!!!!
Mom got back safe from hospital and is doing just fine! Yay!
Mike... still no word if he got to California ok, lost contact somewhere in Nevada.
Trust, have faith, be patient... He should be fine.
We left work early again today. The temperature was above 40 C in the store today. GODS!! I learned some managerial stuff today. It is mostly common sense, but still there is alot to keep in mind. I am keeping a notebook... as if I am having a class... which I guesss I kinda am.
I got my laundry done... but not darks. I better not need my jeans this weekend. I will bring my sleep pants and my cargo pants. I also emptied most of the crap from the car. All that is left is to take out the winter survival gear and store it in the locker and put my camping gear into the trunk. But I am too hot to continue.
I am going to bathe tha cats soonish. Hmmm... actually, later. I want to go to the bank and then Provigo to get Camping food stuffs. And hmmm... if I bring help, as I am sure M-SB wants the A/C of Provigo, I can do the last of the major car stuff.
THEN... then when I am sure I will not go out again, I will bathe the cats... and likely myself in the process. Must remember to do the same for the poor cats in the store tomorrow too. I might bring some icecubes from home for them and put it in their water bowl.
Mom got back safe from hospital and is doing just fine! Yay!
Mike... still no word if he got to California ok, lost contact somewhere in Nevada.
Trust, have faith, be patient... He should be fine.
We left work early again today. The temperature was above 40 C in the store today. GODS!! I learned some managerial stuff today. It is mostly common sense, but still there is alot to keep in mind. I am keeping a notebook... as if I am having a class... which I guesss I kinda am.
I got my laundry done... but not darks. I better not need my jeans this weekend. I will bring my sleep pants and my cargo pants. I also emptied most of the crap from the car. All that is left is to take out the winter survival gear and store it in the locker and put my camping gear into the trunk. But I am too hot to continue.
I am going to bathe tha cats soonish. Hmmm... actually, later. I want to go to the bank and then Provigo to get Camping food stuffs. And hmmm... if I bring help, as I am sure M-SB wants the A/C of Provigo, I can do the last of the major car stuff.
THEN... then when I am sure I will not go out again, I will bathe the cats... and likely myself in the process. Must remember to do the same for the poor cats in the store tomorrow too. I might bring some icecubes from home for them and put it in their water bowl.
Twice stolen Meme
Fill in the blanks:
1. If I could just figure out how to be in 3 places at once, I'd be real happy.
2. I would be happy to hand over cleaning car to someone else.
3. One thing I try to do every day is meditate and thank divine for the people in my life.
4. Someone once told me that I was very *ummm... it would be inappropriate to say here (blush) but Beautiful would be a good sum-up .
5. Probably the one word/phrase I tend to overuse is probably CRAP! .
6. I need to work on my ability to trust others and have faith in them... to be patient and just let things happen .
7. When I'm cleaning house I like to listen to loud upbeat danceable music... but only when no one is in the house .
1. If I could just figure out how to be in 3 places at once, I'd be real happy.
2. I would be happy to hand over cleaning car to someone else.
3. One thing I try to do every day is meditate and thank divine for the people in my life.
4. Someone once told me that I was very *ummm... it would be inappropriate to say here (blush) but Beautiful would be a good sum-up .
5. Probably the one word/phrase I tend to overuse is probably CRAP! .
6. I need to work on my ability to trust others and have faith in them... to be patient and just let things happen .
7. When I'm cleaning house I like to listen to loud upbeat danceable music... but only when no one is in the house .
Monday, June 27, 2005
Damned Surreal
That was my day... Damned surreal from start to end.
I woke feeling like this was going to be a bizarre day and not knowing why. My shower was even wierd. Hot then cold then hot then cold... never warm. Packed some veggies and dip for lunch because it is too hot for a hot meal. Got to work to some arguments and tension. Not directly related to me nor involving me. Lunch tasted... wierd. So I tossed it. What a waste of $3. I will bring peanut butter and honey sandwiches tomorrow. The heat was aweful... but at least not unbreathably humid... that was a blessing. The day grew quiet in way of customers and we ended up closing early. The whole energy was surreal in the store. And more so as I left.
Roo and I went to the gym to work it off and talk some. We have been councellors to all kinds of people today and needed a destressor. The gym was perfect! Oh and airconditioned!!
I got home and set up for class. We planned on eating at Cafe Yi (takeout) sushi and dumplings and watching either Last Samurai or Firefly then doing Chinese bruch painting followed by Green Tea Japanese style. More surreal... lost power... like 4-6 blocks were out of power. Guess too many folks with a/c on overloaded the grid. We ate and chatted and shared Dragon Beard candy. Then I gave them some notes on Asian religions and we shared the tea. Then we had LIGHT! Too late for a movie. So, I showed them the basic technique of the brush painting.
Now everyone is gone and the night still feels surreal. Hot... and surreal. Maybe I will go watch Firefly again. I am SOOOOO tempted to go buy the book of Amazon... but damn my promise about being closish to my birthday. *sigh*
My mom DIDN'T actually go into surgery today. She goes in early tomorrow morning and should be home by 3pm.
I start work early tomorrow. There are some things I am helping take care of and other things I need to learn to take care of. PLUS... I will get to park in a lot instead of at a meter. If it gets quiet during the day, I might roam downtown for a few hrs and work some more in the afternoon. Hope to go to the gym in the evening again. I need to get back on track with that.
Oh... and I have to clean house tomorrow night and find the camping stuff... and do laundry! DOH! I so need a vacation. Awakening Isis festival is a working camping weekend... not a vacation. Maybe later in July... I hope to take a week there... over my birthday. Well... off for Firefly again. LATERS!
I woke feeling like this was going to be a bizarre day and not knowing why. My shower was even wierd. Hot then cold then hot then cold... never warm. Packed some veggies and dip for lunch because it is too hot for a hot meal. Got to work to some arguments and tension. Not directly related to me nor involving me. Lunch tasted... wierd. So I tossed it. What a waste of $3. I will bring peanut butter and honey sandwiches tomorrow. The heat was aweful... but at least not unbreathably humid... that was a blessing. The day grew quiet in way of customers and we ended up closing early. The whole energy was surreal in the store. And more so as I left.
Roo and I went to the gym to work it off and talk some. We have been councellors to all kinds of people today and needed a destressor. The gym was perfect! Oh and airconditioned!!
I got home and set up for class. We planned on eating at Cafe Yi (takeout) sushi and dumplings and watching either Last Samurai or Firefly then doing Chinese bruch painting followed by Green Tea Japanese style. More surreal... lost power... like 4-6 blocks were out of power. Guess too many folks with a/c on overloaded the grid. We ate and chatted and shared Dragon Beard candy. Then I gave them some notes on Asian religions and we shared the tea. Then we had LIGHT! Too late for a movie. So, I showed them the basic technique of the brush painting.
Now everyone is gone and the night still feels surreal. Hot... and surreal. Maybe I will go watch Firefly again. I am SOOOOO tempted to go buy the book of Amazon... but damn my promise about being closish to my birthday. *sigh*
My mom DIDN'T actually go into surgery today. She goes in early tomorrow morning and should be home by 3pm.
I start work early tomorrow. There are some things I am helping take care of and other things I need to learn to take care of. PLUS... I will get to park in a lot instead of at a meter. If it gets quiet during the day, I might roam downtown for a few hrs and work some more in the afternoon. Hope to go to the gym in the evening again. I need to get back on track with that.
Oh... and I have to clean house tomorrow night and find the camping stuff... and do laundry! DOH! I so need a vacation. Awakening Isis festival is a working camping weekend... not a vacation. Maybe later in July... I hope to take a week there... over my birthday. Well... off for Firefly again. LATERS!
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Free Association Meme
I say ... and you think ... ?
Useless:: how I feel this week regarding Mike and the stress he is under
Radiant:: the looks I got when I wore a certain nice black dress
W:: 5 W's who what when where why
Unpaid:: me for all the extra stuff i do and how grumpy it can make me feel
Geek: M-SB
Unfaithful:: full of doubt, betrayal, dejected feeling
Reboot:: what I wish I could do to my life for the month of June while knowing what I currently know (there are things I would SO change having done
No!:: what I yelled at the fucking cat that pissed on me this evening at the vet clinic
Squad:: military unit
Fetish:: Garou power item
Useless:: how I feel this week regarding Mike and the stress he is under
Radiant:: the looks I got when I wore a certain nice black dress
W:: 5 W's who what when where why
Unpaid:: me for all the extra stuff i do and how grumpy it can make me feel
Geek: M-SB
Unfaithful:: full of doubt, betrayal, dejected feeling
Reboot:: what I wish I could do to my life for the month of June while knowing what I currently know (there are things I would SO change having done
No!:: what I yelled at the fucking cat that pissed on me this evening at the vet clinic
Squad:: military unit
Fetish:: Garou power item
Sunday Daily Dirt Meme
Fire!! Fire!!
Fida
http://fidainc.com
1. Fire broke out at your workplace, what are the 3 things you will grab before evacuation?
The cats (2) and my wallet. The cats are not replaceable and dependant on us to care for them. My wallet... because all the stuff in it is valuable and a pain in the ass to replace.
2. What happened if it broke out at home?
I would grab the pets, my wallet, and my backup CD from the computer. But that is definately a tougher decision. I would not want to lose certain artworks, my poetry, nor my altar stuff. And I would be upset to lose any of the wood furniture that my dad made for me. Oh... I would also grab Mike's wings, Morrigan (that Autumn made for me), my digital camera, and the sword Mark gave me for Valentine's day.
3. Imagine you're trapped and surrounded by ferocious flames, what will you do?
Yell for help would be the first thing I would do. The next thing really depended on my environment and how thick the flames were. If I was near the exit, I would dash through the flames. If I was near the bathroom, I would dash through the flames and soak myself with water from the batheroom. If I was IN the bathroom, I would wrap myself in a sopping wet towel and run through the flames to safety. Beyond that... I really don't know. I think I would risk geting singed some in order to reach safety.
4. Will you save your mom or your grandma first?
I have to choose? Probably my grandma as I am certain my mom could save herself and my grandma would either panic or die.
5. Are you prepared in any case of fire?
I live on a low floor so jumping from the window or balcony won't do much harm. There is water at both ends of the house (kitchen/bathroom at one end... various spray bottles for bad cats at the other end). Beyond that... the detector needs a battery and we should have an extinguisher but don't.
Fida
http://fidainc.com
1. Fire broke out at your workplace, what are the 3 things you will grab before evacuation?
The cats (2) and my wallet. The cats are not replaceable and dependant on us to care for them. My wallet... because all the stuff in it is valuable and a pain in the ass to replace.
2. What happened if it broke out at home?
I would grab the pets, my wallet, and my backup CD from the computer. But that is definately a tougher decision. I would not want to lose certain artworks, my poetry, nor my altar stuff. And I would be upset to lose any of the wood furniture that my dad made for me. Oh... I would also grab Mike's wings, Morrigan (that Autumn made for me), my digital camera, and the sword Mark gave me for Valentine's day.
3. Imagine you're trapped and surrounded by ferocious flames, what will you do?
Yell for help would be the first thing I would do. The next thing really depended on my environment and how thick the flames were. If I was near the exit, I would dash through the flames. If I was near the bathroom, I would dash through the flames and soak myself with water from the batheroom. If I was IN the bathroom, I would wrap myself in a sopping wet towel and run through the flames to safety. Beyond that... I really don't know. I think I would risk geting singed some in order to reach safety.
4. Will you save your mom or your grandma first?
I have to choose? Probably my grandma as I am certain my mom could save herself and my grandma would either panic or die.
5. Are you prepared in any case of fire?
I live on a low floor so jumping from the window or balcony won't do much harm. There is water at both ends of the house (kitchen/bathroom at one end... various spray bottles for bad cats at the other end). Beyond that... the detector needs a battery and we should have an extinguisher but don't.
Updates...
Slow star but that is ok. The day went smoothly. I dealt with the animals at the vet then headed out to class. Class was great! Talked to folks after then went shopping. Not the usual sort of shopping. Shopping for crickets. Time to feed the geckos! (Oh... and I have no more mice as they were all fed to the snakes this week.) I stopped in the pet shop near the store. UK! It smelled of male cat urine... bad... still... And the service was beyond terrible. So I left. I went to Nature in LaSalle and got my criskets there. I was tempted to get fish and stuff too... but resisted. Now I have a fun Asian class to plan for tomorrow! Weehee!
Sushi, Aloe juice, some lecture notes on Asian religions, Chinese brush painting, Dragon Beard candy and Japanese tea.
I will relax tonight. Mike is still driving for those curious. He has not arrived in California. Boy is he going to be exhausted and HATE hate hate his car when he finally arrives.
Sushi, Aloe juice, some lecture notes on Asian religions, Chinese brush painting, Dragon Beard candy and Japanese tea.
I will relax tonight. Mike is still driving for those curious. He has not arrived in California. Boy is he going to be exhausted and HATE hate hate his car when he finally arrives.
Browncoat Salute
You can't stop the signal!
Here are links and articles. Just doing my part... getting the word out. Pass it along!
;)
http://www.weeklystandard.com/Content/Public/Articles/000/000/005/757fhfxg.asp?pg=1
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Firefly_(television_series)
http://browncoats.serenitymovie.com/serenity/index.html?fuseaction=forum.main
http://www.darkhorse.com/comics/upcoming.php (the first comic will be out soon... must go to Astro and order it)
http://serenitymovie.com/
http://www.scifispace.com/html/firefly.php
ENJOY!!!
Here are links and articles. Just doing my part... getting the word out. Pass it along!
;)
http://www.weeklystandard.com/Content/Public/Articles/000/000/005/757fhfxg.asp?pg=1
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Firefly_(television_series)
http://browncoats.serenitymovie.com/serenity/index.html?fuseaction=forum.main
http://www.darkhorse.com/comics/upcoming.php (the first comic will be out soon... must go to Astro and order it)
http://serenitymovie.com/
http://www.scifispace.com/html/firefly.php
ENJOY!!!
Saturday, June 25, 2005
Stuff done
Well the day was grumbly. I woke all tired from tending the animals the night before. I went in and dealt with the vet clinic and clients till 1pm. I missed breakfast and was STARVING to the point of crabby and bitchy. Then as I was going to make yummy cream mushroom crepes, but M-SB warned me that people were coming over in like 5 min. I was so hungry and crabby i could have killed him in that instance... but he was out of arm's reach. I tossed my stuff into the fridge and sliced a banana with some milk to tide me over.
The meeting went.. ok. Followthrough now to come.
Shortly after the meeting, before I could make food, i got a call. A woman accosted my coworkers friend and made him call her in Laval where she is moving to come in to give her her dog that was bording as she was late and was going to be leaving for Florida. I was then called to go over to do it. Growl. So I gave up on eating and crouchily went over to release the dog to her. Then dropped off my movie and picked up some things at the grocery store.
Got home and paid some bills. Just as M-SB started cooking food, I had to go over and take care of the animals at the clinic. STILL HUNGRY!!! AT least I got to eat when I got in. FINALLY! I ate and then flopped for a nap but was woken by another nightmare. Installed the fan back into my window and relaxed on the bed some more.
Prepared my class. It was nice to sprawl on the bed with Autumn's book and some other handy reference books to prepare tomorrow's class. *Oh Autumn, I tool a picture... there are orange sticky notes in your book now ~~ GRIN~~* Chatted with folks online for a while... perhaps too late. Mike tagged my text message. His drive was long (14hrs) so far. He is now grabbing a nap and then going to drive more. Damn. Poor guy. Such a long way to go to get to California. Knowing he is ok so far was very reassuring. I will sleep easier.
I have to get to bed now. I need to be up at like 6am and tend to the animals in the clinic by 7am as there is a cat that needs an insulin shot at that time. The lady vet better not yell at me this evening when she comes to get her cat. I will so quit if she does. I almost did yesterday morning when she yelled at me.
Well g'nite all!
The meeting went.. ok. Followthrough now to come.
Shortly after the meeting, before I could make food, i got a call. A woman accosted my coworkers friend and made him call her in Laval where she is moving to come in to give her her dog that was bording as she was late and was going to be leaving for Florida. I was then called to go over to do it. Growl. So I gave up on eating and crouchily went over to release the dog to her. Then dropped off my movie and picked up some things at the grocery store.
Got home and paid some bills. Just as M-SB started cooking food, I had to go over and take care of the animals at the clinic. STILL HUNGRY!!! AT least I got to eat when I got in. FINALLY! I ate and then flopped for a nap but was woken by another nightmare. Installed the fan back into my window and relaxed on the bed some more.
Prepared my class. It was nice to sprawl on the bed with Autumn's book and some other handy reference books to prepare tomorrow's class. *Oh Autumn, I tool a picture... there are orange sticky notes in your book now ~~ GRIN~~* Chatted with folks online for a while... perhaps too late. Mike tagged my text message. His drive was long (14hrs) so far. He is now grabbing a nap and then going to drive more. Damn. Poor guy. Such a long way to go to get to California. Knowing he is ok so far was very reassuring. I will sleep easier.
I have to get to bed now. I need to be up at like 6am and tend to the animals in the clinic by 7am as there is a cat that needs an insulin shot at that time. The lady vet better not yell at me this evening when she comes to get her cat. I will so quit if she does. I almost did yesterday morning when she yelled at me.
Well g'nite all!
Almost broke a rule...
I was roaming Amazon.ca and almost broke the rule of "Thou shalt not buy anything from your wish list if your birthday is within one month." Damn. *sigh*
Friday, June 24, 2005
Fun in Chinatown
Oh ya! Me and Airea and WW spent time in Chinatown today during St-Jean-Baptiste provincial holiday. (I refuse to call it a National Holiday as only Quebec celebrates it and not our whole nation.)
It was WAY crowded and amazing. All the store had stuff on the sidewalk. We ate great food and visited the tea shop called My Cup of Tea. Awesome!! Some wench tried to pickpocket me. Thanks to Airea nothing happened. And damn she looked so indignant for being caught! We then at at the buffet across from the dragon beard candy shop and 2 doors from the tea shop. it was YUMMY!!! I am STILL stuffed.
Sad news, though, the store closed early and I was supposed to teach a class. I am glad my students are very patient and accomodating. We rearranged for July 7th and I will push the Intermediate course down to the 14th and 21th (instead of the 7th and 14th). Day ended well.
I watched a movie: Coach Carter.
I really like watching these movies about teachers making a difference in kids' lives.
Well I have a busy weekend and week ahead of me.
Saturday:
Vet work (I so f-ing want to quit... I got yelled at again... fed up of being taken advantage of and yelled at for doing my best to accommodate), an important meeting in the afternoon, then some cycling (watch it rain again now that I have said it) and planning my Sunday class... oh... and vet work again (must remember to tack on a few extra hrs... there are a ton of animals).
Sunday: Vet work, teach class, cycle some more, return my movie, clean house, prepare for Monday's class, and vet work again.
Monday:
(mom goes in for surgery to remove her gall bladder) I work at the store for the day. THEN weehee.... CMS-L2 gets a fun Asian night of tea, sushi, desserts and brush painting.
Tuesday:
(mom comes home from hospital hopefully) I work at the store and go to the gym.
Wednesday:
I work at the store, go to the gym, and pack for Awakening Isis.
Thursday:
Pick up everyone and drive out to Awakening Isis. (My niece goes into hospital for another thyroid surgery... but she will have to stay there for 2 weeks.) Set up camp, have a security meeting, do my camp walk-about, then hide and try to relax. Oh, and make sure the first security team is doing ok on the overnight security (I will set myself as backup with an overnight radio).
Friday:
Sleep in... or try to. I might have to drive into town to check with family. I might have to drive into town to work at the vet. (grrr) Make sure CMS students are settled in, relax (if I can), do overnight security.
Saturday:
Sleep till lunch, teach a stone lore workshop at the camp, maybe drive in to check on family (hope I don't have to).
Sunday:
Sleep in, pack up, closing ritual, drop everyone off at their homes, work at the vet (groan), prepare the Monday CMS-L2 class.
And in all that... try NOT to worry about my mom, my niece, or Mike who is driving alone 36hrs to California and then back to see family and deal with a few crises... joy oh joy... it was supposed to be his vacation. And make sure my dad manages to take care of my mom AND himself (really worried there, he burns water).
Meditaions have revealed that I need to TRUST and HAVE FAITH. Everything will work out. Oh... and wait and learn... and learn to wait! In otherwords... patience. Oy! These are obviously this years set of lessons.
It was WAY crowded and amazing. All the store had stuff on the sidewalk. We ate great food and visited the tea shop called My Cup of Tea. Awesome!! Some wench tried to pickpocket me. Thanks to Airea nothing happened. And damn she looked so indignant for being caught! We then at at the buffet across from the dragon beard candy shop and 2 doors from the tea shop. it was YUMMY!!! I am STILL stuffed.
Sad news, though, the store closed early and I was supposed to teach a class. I am glad my students are very patient and accomodating. We rearranged for July 7th and I will push the Intermediate course down to the 14th and 21th (instead of the 7th and 14th). Day ended well.
I watched a movie: Coach Carter.
I really like watching these movies about teachers making a difference in kids' lives.
Well I have a busy weekend and week ahead of me.
Saturday:
Vet work (I so f-ing want to quit... I got yelled at again... fed up of being taken advantage of and yelled at for doing my best to accommodate), an important meeting in the afternoon, then some cycling (watch it rain again now that I have said it) and planning my Sunday class... oh... and vet work again (must remember to tack on a few extra hrs... there are a ton of animals).
Sunday: Vet work, teach class, cycle some more, return my movie, clean house, prepare for Monday's class, and vet work again.
Monday:
(mom goes in for surgery to remove her gall bladder) I work at the store for the day. THEN weehee.... CMS-L2 gets a fun Asian night of tea, sushi, desserts and brush painting.
Tuesday:
(mom comes home from hospital hopefully) I work at the store and go to the gym.
Wednesday:
I work at the store, go to the gym, and pack for Awakening Isis.
Thursday:
Pick up everyone and drive out to Awakening Isis. (My niece goes into hospital for another thyroid surgery... but she will have to stay there for 2 weeks.) Set up camp, have a security meeting, do my camp walk-about, then hide and try to relax. Oh, and make sure the first security team is doing ok on the overnight security (I will set myself as backup with an overnight radio).
Friday:
Sleep in... or try to. I might have to drive into town to check with family. I might have to drive into town to work at the vet. (grrr) Make sure CMS students are settled in, relax (if I can), do overnight security.
Saturday:
Sleep till lunch, teach a stone lore workshop at the camp, maybe drive in to check on family (hope I don't have to).
Sunday:
Sleep in, pack up, closing ritual, drop everyone off at their homes, work at the vet (groan), prepare the Monday CMS-L2 class.
And in all that... try NOT to worry about my mom, my niece, or Mike who is driving alone 36hrs to California and then back to see family and deal with a few crises... joy oh joy... it was supposed to be his vacation. And make sure my dad manages to take care of my mom AND himself (really worried there, he burns water).
Meditaions have revealed that I need to TRUST and HAVE FAITH. Everything will work out. Oh... and wait and learn... and learn to wait! In otherwords... patience. Oy! These are obviously this years set of lessons.
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Ok... i did accomplish some stuff
WOOHOO!!!
My car registration is paid for. SO IS MY CAR INSURANCE!!! It cost me $325 and not $950!! AND... my cell phone is back to working again.
So I did manage some things.
My car registration is paid for. SO IS MY CAR INSURANCE!!! It cost me $325 and not $950!! AND... my cell phone is back to working again.
So I did manage some things.
forfeit
Some days... some weeks... are just forfeit. No real point to have existed during them. I accomplished very little. And what I did was kinda miraculous. The gods are challenging me this week... trying to discover my breaking point.
I think they are discovering a very tough bitch. I don't give in so easily. I may walk away from things if I feel that will do more good. But I do not usually give up the fight of life... no matter what the gods are trying to kill me with.
One crisis at a time thanks! But hey... I am still here!
By the way... Mom goes into surgery Monday for her gall bladder. My niece goes in for her thyroid on June 30th. Mike's dad (with leucemia) is in for knee surgery now and stuck there for the next few weeks. ANd there are all kinds of other stressors around life and family and stuff. Calm energies are being asked for... energies for wise decisions that will help everyone and keep people close and together, supporting and caring no matter the stressors. *crosses fingers that all goes well on all the fronts* These next 2 weeks are kinda crutial to everyone. And poor Mike thought he was going to get a vacation home with the few family members he gets together with.
I hope to get down to see Mike in July around my birthday. A birthday present to myself. Since my birthday always sux these past couple years. A death on your birthday kinda does that.
Please excuse my moodiness as I know it will grow all the way till my birthday. I hope to get away then. I can get a break from everything and give Mike some support. Hmmm... hike in the woods while he works. Or go horseback riding just outside his base. Ya, that sounds real nice. *crosses fingers that i can go*
I think they are discovering a very tough bitch. I don't give in so easily. I may walk away from things if I feel that will do more good. But I do not usually give up the fight of life... no matter what the gods are trying to kill me with.
One crisis at a time thanks! But hey... I am still here!
By the way... Mom goes into surgery Monday for her gall bladder. My niece goes in for her thyroid on June 30th. Mike's dad (with leucemia) is in for knee surgery now and stuck there for the next few weeks. ANd there are all kinds of other stressors around life and family and stuff. Calm energies are being asked for... energies for wise decisions that will help everyone and keep people close and together, supporting and caring no matter the stressors. *crosses fingers that all goes well on all the fronts* These next 2 weeks are kinda crutial to everyone. And poor Mike thought he was going to get a vacation home with the few family members he gets together with.
I hope to get down to see Mike in July around my birthday. A birthday present to myself. Since my birthday always sux these past couple years. A death on your birthday kinda does that.
Please excuse my moodiness as I know it will grow all the way till my birthday. I hope to get away then. I can get a break from everything and give Mike some support. Hmmm... hike in the woods while he works. Or go horseback riding just outside his base. Ya, that sounds real nice. *crosses fingers that i can go*
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Firefyly.. Serenity
Damn!!!!! I ran out of episodes! DAMN! Now I have to wait till September for the movie.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Midsummer
Merry Solstice!
Addictions
I think I need to confess some addictions.
I am addicted to work. Yes. I am a workaholic. I just did a what? A.... 9am - 11pm work day. Am I stupid? No... I am addicted.
Oh... and I have a bew addiction to add to my Star Wars addiction... I am addicted to FireFly. I want to won the episodes. Must add them to my wish list.
Now I am goiung to bed for a wee bit of sleep.
Today I dropped off my Thesis and the forms for reference letters.
Tomorrow (later today) I return to give in my application for Masters and pay the applictaion fee... before I start work at the store. Then I have a full work day at the store... followed by either coffe with Jezzer for some magical inquiries or a stint at the gym.
I am planning a ritual too. Private ritual. This year the Full Moon falls on Midsummer.
I am addicted to work. Yes. I am a workaholic. I just did a what? A.... 9am - 11pm work day. Am I stupid? No... I am addicted.
Oh... and I have a bew addiction to add to my Star Wars addiction... I am addicted to FireFly. I want to won the episodes. Must add them to my wish list.
Now I am goiung to bed for a wee bit of sleep.
Today I dropped off my Thesis and the forms for reference letters.
Tomorrow (later today) I return to give in my application for Masters and pay the applictaion fee... before I start work at the store. Then I have a full work day at the store... followed by either coffe with Jezzer for some magical inquiries or a stint at the gym.
I am planning a ritual too. Private ritual. This year the Full Moon falls on Midsummer.
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Happy Father's Day
To Ash... a new Dad. *Grinning with pride*
And to my Daddy, to whom the poem in the previous post is dedicated.
Love you's all
And to my Daddy, to whom the poem in the previous post is dedicated.
Love you's all
Saturday, June 18, 2005
I Am From...
http://www.fragmentsfromfloyd.com/archives/2005_02.html#003144
I am from Raggedy Ann & Andy bedsheet
(that I used to sleep in when I got my first big kid's bed),
from Downey (that Mom always put in the laundry)
and hand sew clothes (that Mom made).
I am from the dusty grasses of a busy street full of loud kids playing in the street with bikes
or running in a game of hide and seek.
I am from the Marigolds that were always planted in the front yard,
their lovely golden orange puffs of flowers and the crinkly dried seed husks in the fall.
I am from howling at full moonlight and dancing in the thunderstorms carefree
and stubborn independant streaks and artistic hands and feet,
from Eldon and Jory and O'Hara.
I am from the music at Christmas as Grampa played the organ
and Irish Dancing till I was worn out.
From the warning to be kind to all of Nature's creatures
and to be careful of speaking of evil spirits.
I am from the sacredness of all life.
That this holds responsibility and
we are wholey responsible for our own actions.
What you do comes back to you.
I'm from Montreal, beef and mashed potatoes.
From Grampa Eldon who said he snuck into the army
under his 16-yr-old brother's name while he was 14
and many years later was shot in the foot while sleeping on duty with his feet propped on a chair,
Mom who with an eduring spirit raised us on nothing while I slept as a babe in the pulled out bottom drawer of the dresser (which is now MY dresser in my bedroom),
and Dad (Jory) who was my step dad till I was seven
when he honoured me with the maturity to decide if I wanted him to adopt me
and take his name...
I honoured him by saying yes with a huge smile and a loving hug.
Biology does not make a dad... unconditional love does.
I am from the scattered photo albums in the trunks in Mom and Nanny's house,
smelling of cedar and old crafting thread,
of the stuffed animals now passed down to my niece and nephew,
of the poem of Soldiers Feet that Grampa wrote while sitting in a WWII trench,
and of the strength of will and love that two people shared almost out of convenience
to make my family and my life wonderful.
I am from Raggedy Ann & Andy bedsheet
(that I used to sleep in when I got my first big kid's bed),
from Downey (that Mom always put in the laundry)
and hand sew clothes (that Mom made).
I am from the dusty grasses of a busy street full of loud kids playing in the street with bikes
or running in a game of hide and seek.
I am from the Marigolds that were always planted in the front yard,
their lovely golden orange puffs of flowers and the crinkly dried seed husks in the fall.
I am from howling at full moonlight and dancing in the thunderstorms carefree
and stubborn independant streaks and artistic hands and feet,
from Eldon and Jory and O'Hara.
I am from the music at Christmas as Grampa played the organ
and Irish Dancing till I was worn out.
From the warning to be kind to all of Nature's creatures
and to be careful of speaking of evil spirits.
I am from the sacredness of all life.
That this holds responsibility and
we are wholey responsible for our own actions.
What you do comes back to you.
I'm from Montreal, beef and mashed potatoes.
From Grampa Eldon who said he snuck into the army
under his 16-yr-old brother's name while he was 14
and many years later was shot in the foot while sleeping on duty with his feet propped on a chair,
Mom who with an eduring spirit raised us on nothing while I slept as a babe in the pulled out bottom drawer of the dresser (which is now MY dresser in my bedroom),
and Dad (Jory) who was my step dad till I was seven
when he honoured me with the maturity to decide if I wanted him to adopt me
and take his name...
I honoured him by saying yes with a huge smile and a loving hug.
Biology does not make a dad... unconditional love does.
I am from the scattered photo albums in the trunks in Mom and Nanny's house,
smelling of cedar and old crafting thread,
of the stuffed animals now passed down to my niece and nephew,
of the poem of Soldiers Feet that Grampa wrote while sitting in a WWII trench,
and of the strength of will and love that two people shared almost out of convenience
to make my family and my life wonderful.
Friday, June 17, 2005
Frustration conquers...
Well... I am upset with my hair. And stressed over Mike. He finds out today when he deploys. I will know when he calls me.
S0 to pass some of the time, I put together the wood shelf for my ancestral shrine. It was f-ing stupid and lame and annoying and a hundred unacceptable words in varying languages. Once figured out, I struggled to get it together. Holding the damned thing between my legs and hammering sideways with one hand while holding the beracket with the other. Then I learned it needed holes drilled. I don't own a drill. In my grrr-ness, I got my dremmel. Love... love love love ... my dremel! Did the trick nicely. Then found I was short 2 nails. Stupid package shelf! Found two nails in my toolbox. ANd nailed and screwed the shrlf together. I have a big ass set of blistered considering development on my right palm. And the bone bruise from falling on wet tiles today is starting to hurt too. Grrr.... Moved the HEAVY printer off my desk so I can stand on my desk. And went about mounting the shelf on the wall. And discovered they did not give me enough anchors (was short one). Grrr! Found a smaller one in my toolbox. It did fine. The shelf is now up and the room clean and the printer back on the desk (thank you M-SB) and the ancestral stuff in place upon the shelf. Looks good. Feels right.
Hand hurts and arm hurts. And all muscles now aching from gym.
Mike still has not called. I think he is on the phone with family. That worries me too. I hope everything is alright.
S0 to pass some of the time, I put together the wood shelf for my ancestral shrine. It was f-ing stupid and lame and annoying and a hundred unacceptable words in varying languages. Once figured out, I struggled to get it together. Holding the damned thing between my legs and hammering sideways with one hand while holding the beracket with the other. Then I learned it needed holes drilled. I don't own a drill. In my grrr-ness, I got my dremmel. Love... love love love ... my dremel! Did the trick nicely. Then found I was short 2 nails. Stupid package shelf! Found two nails in my toolbox. ANd nailed and screwed the shrlf together. I have a big ass set of blistered considering development on my right palm. And the bone bruise from falling on wet tiles today is starting to hurt too. Grrr.... Moved the HEAVY printer off my desk so I can stand on my desk. And went about mounting the shelf on the wall. And discovered they did not give me enough anchors (was short one). Grrr! Found a smaller one in my toolbox. It did fine. The shelf is now up and the room clean and the printer back on the desk (thank you M-SB) and the ancestral stuff in place upon the shelf. Looks good. Feels right.
Hand hurts and arm hurts. And all muscles now aching from gym.
Mike still has not called. I think he is on the phone with family. That worries me too. I hope everything is alright.
next time i want to cut my hair...
SOMEONE CLUB ME!!!
Or come with me. I obviously need a shaperone to the hairdresser so nothing stupid and horrible gets done to my hair.
*going to hide under blankets and cry now*
Or come with me. I obviously need a shaperone to the hairdresser so nothing stupid and horrible gets done to my hair.
*going to hide under blankets and cry now*
Today's To Do's
- Stop at store and pick stuff up from Roo.
- Gym (hopefully with Roo)
- make photocopies
- plan Spellcrafting themes for Sunday
- supper (of some sort)
- teach Tarot I part I
- try to get some sleep
The weekend bodes to be busy. With vet work, teaching, and coven on Saturday. And Teaching and Father's Day on Sunday. Followed by 3 much longer days of store work replacing Roo. Shit. I have to get out today to the Church of Latter Day Saints and ask if the Mormon's can come to my house for a discussion of their faith with my students Monday night. Dammit.
- ask Mormon's for visit Minday night
- email Level 2's about fees for Asian stuffs
*sigh*
Did I say I hate my bangs? I should not have cut my hair. *pout* Too late now. Thankfully my hair grows fast.
I have been feeling very insomniatic lately and don't know why. I so need a nap now... and can't have one :(
- Gym (hopefully with Roo)
- make photocopies
- plan Spellcrafting themes for Sunday
- supper (of some sort)
- teach Tarot I part I
- try to get some sleep
The weekend bodes to be busy. With vet work, teaching, and coven on Saturday. And Teaching and Father's Day on Sunday. Followed by 3 much longer days of store work replacing Roo. Shit. I have to get out today to the Church of Latter Day Saints and ask if the Mormon's can come to my house for a discussion of their faith with my students Monday night. Dammit.
- ask Mormon's for visit Minday night
- email Level 2's about fees for Asian stuffs
*sigh*
Did I say I hate my bangs? I should not have cut my hair. *pout* Too late now. Thankfully my hair grows fast.
I have been feeling very insomniatic lately and don't know why. I so need a nap now... and can't have one :(
hate it... hope it gets better
I cut my hair.
I have bangs.
Stupid cowlick....
I have bangs.
Stupid cowlick....
Thursday, June 16, 2005
Onword HO!
I am putting together my application now to grad school. My application form is filled in. Revised my Statement of Purpose a bit. Updated my CV. Printed my transcript. I need a copy of my Birth Certificate and 3 letters of reference. I can make a photocoy tomorrow of the Birth Certificate. Roo is writing me one letter of reference (THANK YOU!!!) and my Undergrad Honours Thesis Advisor is writing another one. But I still need a third. I am excited and nervous. I so want to start. Supposedly the courses required can be done in one year. I intend to do just that! Then in the summer or Fall 2006 write the Comprehensive Examination. And then I can work on my thesis from wherever! I am SO going to do this. OH SO GOING TO DO THIS!!
eeegads
Well I slept in... sorta. I woke at 5AM and was asleep again till Someone's Bethumbed Cat Decided I ought to be awake and bounced and meowed at me at 10AM. I slowly woke and was online to talk to Airea till errand running time.
I had to make photocopies (and dammit I forgot one of them) to add to my thesis. So now I hand in the thesis on Monday. Stopped in and picked up my candles, wallet, paycheck. Mailed off Mike's RAM. And got to talk to my thesis advisor. She is writing my a reference letter. Yay! I have to email her my "statement of purpose" for my grad application.
I had intended to go to the gym but still had errands to run. I headed to pay another bill, do some banking, stop in to the Korean grocer for some veggies for a stir fry tonight. I could not resist getting donuts across the street. I haven't had donuts for about 2 months. Mmmm... I will have one nowish and the other two for dessert after dinner. Made a pitstop at Blockbuster and picked up a few movies (including AVP). Then stopped into the newly almost finished renovated Provigo and got some groceries. WOW! My first bit of groceries in 2 month!! I hate being financially strapped. Good thing I know how to stretch a budget. I hope my students learn this for if they ever end up in a bind. I rpoudly walked out with 6 bags full of healthy nourishing food and some snacks (even "expensive" organic stuffs) and only paid $35. Go me!!
And hey... there is still money in my account! Not for long once the other bills go through. But hey! It is a nice feeling.
Now, I am exhausted.
Tonight I have to refine my application, email the statement of purpose to my advisor, and double check what I need for the application. I also have to plan my Tarot I class, my Protect Thyself Level 3 class, and my Spellcrafting Specialty: Theme: Protection/Banishing/Blessing class.
I spoiled myself and ordered some fun books to read from Amazon. Yes, I deleted them from my wish list. I know the 24th is coming fast. I know that as of June 24th I am not allowed to buy anything off my wish list till after my birthday. I still have a week to indulge when I can. I am also watching on EBAY to CDs (imports) by DJ Visage. Mike sent me a song called The Return by them and WOW... AWESOME. I tried to get it from Amazon... but as an import they do not have any. So off to Ebay I went. One auction will be up in 3 days and the other in 5 days. Hope I win.
OH... And by the way... ING bank is great, highly recommended for savings. Can you believe... I started saving money for once. I have some big expenses coming up that I need to save for. Mostly car stuff. But still. Car stuff, divorce stuff, school stuff, more car stuff. Wish me luck.
I had to make photocopies (and dammit I forgot one of them) to add to my thesis. So now I hand in the thesis on Monday. Stopped in and picked up my candles, wallet, paycheck. Mailed off Mike's RAM. And got to talk to my thesis advisor. She is writing my a reference letter. Yay! I have to email her my "statement of purpose" for my grad application.
I had intended to go to the gym but still had errands to run. I headed to pay another bill, do some banking, stop in to the Korean grocer for some veggies for a stir fry tonight. I could not resist getting donuts across the street. I haven't had donuts for about 2 months. Mmmm... I will have one nowish and the other two for dessert after dinner. Made a pitstop at Blockbuster and picked up a few movies (including AVP). Then stopped into the newly almost finished renovated Provigo and got some groceries. WOW! My first bit of groceries in 2 month!! I hate being financially strapped. Good thing I know how to stretch a budget. I hope my students learn this for if they ever end up in a bind. I rpoudly walked out with 6 bags full of healthy nourishing food and some snacks (even "expensive" organic stuffs) and only paid $35. Go me!!
And hey... there is still money in my account! Not for long once the other bills go through. But hey! It is a nice feeling.
Now, I am exhausted.
Tonight I have to refine my application, email the statement of purpose to my advisor, and double check what I need for the application. I also have to plan my Tarot I class, my Protect Thyself Level 3 class, and my Spellcrafting Specialty: Theme: Protection/Banishing/Blessing class.
I spoiled myself and ordered some fun books to read from Amazon. Yes, I deleted them from my wish list. I know the 24th is coming fast. I know that as of June 24th I am not allowed to buy anything off my wish list till after my birthday. I still have a week to indulge when I can. I am also watching on EBAY to CDs (imports) by DJ Visage. Mike sent me a song called The Return by them and WOW... AWESOME. I tried to get it from Amazon... but as an import they do not have any. So off to Ebay I went. One auction will be up in 3 days and the other in 5 days. Hope I win.
OH... And by the way... ING bank is great, highly recommended for savings. Can you believe... I started saving money for once. I have some big expenses coming up that I need to save for. Mostly car stuff. But still. Car stuff, divorce stuff, school stuff, more car stuff. Wish me luck.
A stolen Funny
From Rajura, one of my students.
Dear Goddess, Astrological Signs
Aries:
Dear Goddess, please give me patience...and could you do it right now?
Taurus:
Dear Goddess, help me accept change, but not too quick.
Gemini:
Dear Goddess! Who is Goddess? Where is Goddess? Why is Goddess?
Cancer:
DEAR GODDESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Leo:
Yes?
Virgo:
Dear Goddess, please make us perfect and don't mess it up like You did the last time!
Libra:
Dear Goddess, please help me to be decisive, but on the other hand, what do You think is best?
Scorpio:
Our Mother, an' it harm none, even though the bastards deserve it!
Sagittarius:
Dear Goddess, if I've told you once, I've told you a million times....help me stop exaggerating.
Capricorn:
Dear Goddess! I'd like to ask you to help me, but I learned a long time ago not to rely on anyone else!
Aquarius:
Dear Goddess, I know I like change, but this chaos is ridiculous!!
Pisces:
Dear Goddess, as long as I'm going to drink this fifth of Scotch tonight, please use the stimulation in Your honor.
Dear Goddess, Astrological Signs
Aries:
Dear Goddess, please give me patience...and could you do it right now?
Taurus:
Dear Goddess, help me accept change, but not too quick.
Gemini:
Dear Goddess! Who is Goddess? Where is Goddess? Why is Goddess?
Cancer:
DEAR GODDESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Leo:
Yes?
Virgo:
Dear Goddess, please make us perfect and don't mess it up like You did the last time!
Libra:
Dear Goddess, please help me to be decisive, but on the other hand, what do You think is best?
Scorpio:
Our Mother, an' it harm none, even though the bastards deserve it!
Sagittarius:
Dear Goddess, if I've told you once, I've told you a million times....help me stop exaggerating.
Capricorn:
Dear Goddess! I'd like to ask you to help me, but I learned a long time ago not to rely on anyone else!
Aquarius:
Dear Goddess, I know I like change, but this chaos is ridiculous!!
Pisces:
Dear Goddess, as long as I'm going to drink this fifth of Scotch tonight, please use the stimulation in Your honor.
still up
yup... I am... *sigh*
I am hungry too. But not in the mood for making something now. I should invest in little bedroom snax... like a box of flavoured crackers. Something to stop my tummy from growling at night.
I was meditating and when I looked up... damn several hours went by. So I sat and wrote in my diary, listened to some songs and finally here I am blogging. My candles are safe. My energy wanes with them. Freely given because I love them. Need to get some more candles now. Blue ones. I will look when I stop in the store tomorrow.
~~yawn~~
Oh good. I am getting tired. Good night... or rather morning now.
I am hungry too. But not in the mood for making something now. I should invest in little bedroom snax... like a box of flavoured crackers. Something to stop my tummy from growling at night.
I was meditating and when I looked up... damn several hours went by. So I sat and wrote in my diary, listened to some songs and finally here I am blogging. My candles are safe. My energy wanes with them. Freely given because I love them. Need to get some more candles now. Blue ones. I will look when I stop in the store tomorrow.
~~yawn~~
Oh good. I am getting tired. Good night... or rather morning now.
Feel like a NUT
ya... i kinda do. Maybe it is the weather. Maybe I am just tired from working so damned much lately. Maybe it is running around so much that I can't shift gears fast enough. Maybe it is that I am not eating enough in my rushing around. Whatever. I have a day off tomorrow. THANK GODS!
I will use the time to tidy up and plan classes. I have to make a dash downtown to photocopy stuff for my thesis, hand it is and request reference letters. I also left my wallent at the store. Then I will do the gym with Robyn. Oh... and a trip to the bank. Otherwise... I will strive to relax some during the day. Try to do "fun things". What do I do for fun? I... don't know. I... haven't done "fun things" since before Mark... earlier even.
I still think I will cut my hair. I have splitting ends... it is time. I won't do anything drastic. And the salon across the street that I usually go to is having a special. They are nice. They call me and wake me up if I am about to get a ticket on my car so I can move it. Bless them.
I am setting up my magical workings this evening now.
- healing candle for a new family (keep that great news coming!)
- support candle for my boss and her daughter (hang in there)
- love and support candle for Roo and her family
- joy incence to keep me sane
I will meditate first. I need some downtime and relax time. I am getting a bit stupid strung out and moody and rediculously emotional. I am so not usually this way. I prefer being in control of my emotions more than this. Time to detach and balance... let go... let things um... flow a bit. Watch the ebb and flow of the tide of the world. What goes out will come back. I just need to be more patient. (HEY... STOP LAUHING!)
I will use the time to tidy up and plan classes. I have to make a dash downtown to photocopy stuff for my thesis, hand it is and request reference letters. I also left my wallent at the store. Then I will do the gym with Robyn. Oh... and a trip to the bank. Otherwise... I will strive to relax some during the day. Try to do "fun things". What do I do for fun? I... don't know. I... haven't done "fun things" since before Mark... earlier even.
I still think I will cut my hair. I have splitting ends... it is time. I won't do anything drastic. And the salon across the street that I usually go to is having a special. They are nice. They call me and wake me up if I am about to get a ticket on my car so I can move it. Bless them.
I am setting up my magical workings this evening now.
- healing candle for a new family (keep that great news coming!)
- support candle for my boss and her daughter (hang in there)
- love and support candle for Roo and her family
- joy incence to keep me sane
I will meditate first. I need some downtime and relax time. I am getting a bit stupid strung out and moody and rediculously emotional. I am so not usually this way. I prefer being in control of my emotions more than this. Time to detach and balance... let go... let things um... flow a bit. Watch the ebb and flow of the tide of the world. What goes out will come back. I just need to be more patient. (HEY... STOP LAUHING!)
rollercoaster
My mood is up and down and up and down. Was happy last night, then sad in the morning, then ecstatic all day for several reasons (Autumn's baby news... and hearing from people I needed to hear from), then down as the evening was not what I wanted, then up as some more good news came to me... and crashed again.
I think I will go cut my hair.
I think I will go cut my hair.
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Happy
Today was an odd day. Mike tagged me and thus made my day. I dressed nice and got all kinds of compliments. The day at work progressed not perfect... but that didn't matter... my mood was great.
I did my "weigh-in" at the gym. I lost 2 pounds and a few inches all around since 5 weeks ago. I don't really care about the losing weight thing... but getting fit... now that i want to achieve. I want to feel like I look good even when I don't.
I did my "weigh-in" at the gym. I lost 2 pounds and a few inches all around since 5 weeks ago. I don't really care about the losing weight thing... but getting fit... now that i want to achieve. I want to feel like I look good even when I don't.
First Wednesday Meme
In the Memelist link I sent in the previous post... I looked at the wednesday list... as it is now Wednesday. And I chose the first on the list.
Are you more...
01) Green olives or black olives? black (mmmmm)
02) Decorative plates are a nice touch to a home or plates are for eating and pictures are for putting on the walls? plates are for eating, I would be nervous to eat off fancy plates all the time... but you know, once in a while... for a dinner party if i ever have one... fancy picture plates would be cool (there is a box of antique ones to go to me if I ever get married, it is at my mom's and the set used to belong to my paternal grandmother)
03) Wanting to visit Greece or wanting to visit France? What!? I have to choose?
04) One who understands what ALL the positions in North American football are or one who thinks a quarterback is what you get in change for a dollar? please... not that dumb... even *I* know a bit about football... so I would prefer one who can tell me about the game or one who chooses not to know... but one who tries to pretend they know annoys me (oh that should have gone into my pet peeves)
05) Striving to be wiser or striving to be happier? wise... a wise person is wise enough to know to be happy even with the simple pleasures of life
06) The good son or the bad seed? i would hope for a good son... but i know the best i can get is a relatively good son... please gods... not bad seeds
07) The calm before the storm or the calm after the storm? AFTER!!! the calm before would stress me to no end not knowing exactly when or what will hit
08) Likely to assume a blonde is attractive when all you can see is the hair or likely to not make such an assumption? to assume makes an ASS out of U and ME
09) One who must get their sleep every night or one who can get a few night's so-so sleep followed by an extra-good night's sleep? sleep? what is that?
10) Apt to feel comfortable amongst a crowd of strangers or apt to feel ill at east amongst a crowd of strangers? I always feel ill at ease if i am the center of attention... but most would never know it. Otherwise... I love to meet strangers... just don't like to be trapped among them.
Are you more...
01) Green olives or black olives? black (mmmmm)
02) Decorative plates are a nice touch to a home or plates are for eating and pictures are for putting on the walls? plates are for eating, I would be nervous to eat off fancy plates all the time... but you know, once in a while... for a dinner party if i ever have one... fancy picture plates would be cool (there is a box of antique ones to go to me if I ever get married, it is at my mom's and the set used to belong to my paternal grandmother)
03) Wanting to visit Greece or wanting to visit France? What!? I have to choose?
04) One who understands what ALL the positions in North American football are or one who thinks a quarterback is what you get in change for a dollar? please... not that dumb... even *I* know a bit about football... so I would prefer one who can tell me about the game or one who chooses not to know... but one who tries to pretend they know annoys me (oh that should have gone into my pet peeves)
05) Striving to be wiser or striving to be happier? wise... a wise person is wise enough to know to be happy even with the simple pleasures of life
06) The good son or the bad seed? i would hope for a good son... but i know the best i can get is a relatively good son... please gods... not bad seeds
07) The calm before the storm or the calm after the storm? AFTER!!! the calm before would stress me to no end not knowing exactly when or what will hit
08) Likely to assume a blonde is attractive when all you can see is the hair or likely to not make such an assumption? to assume makes an ASS out of U and ME
09) One who must get their sleep every night or one who can get a few night's so-so sleep followed by an extra-good night's sleep? sleep? what is that?
10) Apt to feel comfortable amongst a crowd of strangers or apt to feel ill at east amongst a crowd of strangers? I always feel ill at ease if i am the center of attention... but most would never know it. Otherwise... I love to meet strangers... just don't like to be trapped among them.
tri-haiku
night cool and darksome
magic in the moon to come
calling him to me
night cool and darksome
loneliness soured my mood
rain washed me clean
night cool and darksome
dreaming touching embracing
remembering love
magic in the moon to come
calling him to me
night cool and darksome
loneliness soured my mood
rain washed me clean
night cool and darksome
dreaming touching embracing
remembering love
Oooo... meme interesting stuff
I just came across a sight of interest... http://www.iampariah.com/memeslist/ if you scroll down it has a link to sidebar or pop-up meme list... and there are LOTS of nifty ideas.
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Peevish Meme
Just because I am feeling a bit peeved...
What pet peeves do you have about...
1- home life:
Um... dirty kitchen counters, cat puke left on the floor, shaving remains around the bathroom sink, the toothpaste tube squeezed in the middle and left... umm... umm... the to do list not at least attempted. (yes that means I can get peeved with myself sometimes)
2- work life:
people disrespecting each other, getting yelled at just because someone had a bad day (my lady vet does that to me EVERY time she menstruates), working when it is way too hot to work (thus risking heat stroke which i ALWAYS get), rude RUDE customers that don't leave after you tell them you are closed... for the umpteenth time
3- family:
hmmm... not sure I want to even start with this one.
4- telephones:
telemarketers, collection people, and especially people who hang up on my answering machine (LEAVE A MESSAGE OR DON'T CALL)... and... not getting called back when I leave a message... oh... and a phone ringing more than 5 times (either answer the damned thing or get an answering machine!)
5- driving:
tailgaters, people talking on the cell without a handsfree (thus not paying attention to what they are doing), being cut off, people who park badly not leaving enough room for another car to park, people honking at me to go when i am waiting for the pedestrians to cross before I go
6- computers:
hmmm... messenger programs not working smoothly, wires exposed and looking messy, not having a can of air to clean the computer with.... otherwise.. not much
7- email:
spam and flaming (it all comes down to respect)
8- social outings:
people showing disrespect or a lack of common curtesy... people with little to no common sense
(hey, open the door for the person behind you, say please and thank you, smile back, give up your seat to the elderly/pregnant/injured/with children/small child, don't invade personal space without an invitation... gods... this list can go on forever)
9- relationship:
again... respect and curtesy... if these are lacking... damn, um... and not talking to me... i can't handle being completely ignored... at least say hi to me once a day and I am content
10- *add your own category here* ... hmmm... memes:
Memes that don't help you learn about yourself or others. Memes should be fun and explorative.
Now pass it on and add one more category. (I think I could have broken some of those categories down) Hmmm... can you tell I can't sleep... I am going to look for another meme... something more positive maybe.
What pet peeves do you have about...
1- home life:
Um... dirty kitchen counters, cat puke left on the floor, shaving remains around the bathroom sink, the toothpaste tube squeezed in the middle and left... umm... umm... the to do list not at least attempted. (yes that means I can get peeved with myself sometimes)
2- work life:
people disrespecting each other, getting yelled at just because someone had a bad day (my lady vet does that to me EVERY time she menstruates), working when it is way too hot to work (thus risking heat stroke which i ALWAYS get), rude RUDE customers that don't leave after you tell them you are closed... for the umpteenth time
3- family:
hmmm... not sure I want to even start with this one.
4- telephones:
telemarketers, collection people, and especially people who hang up on my answering machine (LEAVE A MESSAGE OR DON'T CALL)... and... not getting called back when I leave a message... oh... and a phone ringing more than 5 times (either answer the damned thing or get an answering machine!)
5- driving:
tailgaters, people talking on the cell without a handsfree (thus not paying attention to what they are doing), being cut off, people who park badly not leaving enough room for another car to park, people honking at me to go when i am waiting for the pedestrians to cross before I go
6- computers:
hmmm... messenger programs not working smoothly, wires exposed and looking messy, not having a can of air to clean the computer with.... otherwise.. not much
7- email:
spam and flaming (it all comes down to respect)
8- social outings:
people showing disrespect or a lack of common curtesy... people with little to no common sense
(hey, open the door for the person behind you, say please and thank you, smile back, give up your seat to the elderly/pregnant/injured/with children/small child, don't invade personal space without an invitation... gods... this list can go on forever)
9- relationship:
again... respect and curtesy... if these are lacking... damn, um... and not talking to me... i can't handle being completely ignored... at least say hi to me once a day and I am content
10- *add your own category here* ... hmmm... memes:
Memes that don't help you learn about yourself or others. Memes should be fun and explorative.
Now pass it on and add one more category. (I think I could have broken some of those categories down) Hmmm... can you tell I can't sleep... I am going to look for another meme... something more positive maybe.
Doh... oh well...
I kinda dropped the ball on my lost today. Never got breakfast and almost didn't get lunch... still haven't had dinner. Bill got paid... actually a couple got paid. Yay me! Forgot the photocopies at home. Will bring them along with the package to mail out tomorrow. Worked at the store... and the heat broke... it was REAL nice out for a change and very reasonable in the store. Played in the Apothecary again with customers. WEEHEE!
Got home... and barely had time to unwind before the teachers meeting. That shlogged by slowly and not very focused as I would have hoped. I feel fried or something. So many things have changed I can hardly get a grip on things. With the space and stuff all different... we are having some planning difficulties. And with so many things in the air... grrr... planning is tough.
I need to do some serious cutting back to refocus. But... where?
I am about to fold laundry and tidy the bedroom. I am not sure whether I am in an anti-social mood or a mood where I want to be snuggled and loved. Maybe when I am done if I am still away I will take a walk outside ... like after midnight sometime. It is beautiful and cool out.
Got home... and barely had time to unwind before the teachers meeting. That shlogged by slowly and not very focused as I would have hoped. I feel fried or something. So many things have changed I can hardly get a grip on things. With the space and stuff all different... we are having some planning difficulties. And with so many things in the air... grrr... planning is tough.
I need to do some serious cutting back to refocus. But... where?
I am about to fold laundry and tidy the bedroom. I am not sure whether I am in an anti-social mood or a mood where I want to be snuggled and loved. Maybe when I am done if I am still away I will take a walk outside ... like after midnight sometime. It is beautiful and cool out.
RAIN!!! RAIN!!!
*does a happy dance!*
Finally!!
I fell asleep around oh... 3Am ish... and woke at 5AM to storming. Smiled, kicked the cats off the bed because they were going nuts all over me to let me know, and snuggled under blankets as I did not want to get up to turn the fans down. I slept again... ahhh... sleep... till 11am. No gym today. Guess it will be tomorrow. Heh... and once again... no bike outside. *sigh*
Well, al least we got the Monday night thunderstorm... despite the betrayal of the weather network yesterday. So now... we are supposed to have rain and cool temperatures ALL WEEK!!! YAY!!! *does another happy dance*
So now I have to modify my daily agenda:
- breakfast
- pay bill (master card)
- photocopies
- work at the store
- CMS teachers meeting
- fold laundry
- tidy bedroom and livingroom
Finally!!
I fell asleep around oh... 3Am ish... and woke at 5AM to storming. Smiled, kicked the cats off the bed because they were going nuts all over me to let me know, and snuggled under blankets as I did not want to get up to turn the fans down. I slept again... ahhh... sleep... till 11am. No gym today. Guess it will be tomorrow. Heh... and once again... no bike outside. *sigh*
Well, al least we got the Monday night thunderstorm... despite the betrayal of the weather network yesterday. So now... we are supposed to have rain and cool temperatures ALL WEEK!!! YAY!!! *does another happy dance*
So now I have to modify my daily agenda:
- breakfast
- pay bill (master card)
- photocopies
- work at the store
- CMS teachers meeting
- fold laundry
- tidy bedroom and livingroom
Cause Airea has cool Memes
1) My uncle once:
had to be called to help get my brother out of a strange and dangerous jam. My brother was a teen and fixing his little motorcycle and got his fingers caught in some part of the engine and nearly lost them. No one was home and I had to call my uncle to come save him.
2) Never in my life:
Will I EVER work as a computer tech writer again... EVER!!!
3) When I was five:
I hated my neighbor for pinching my cheeks every time she said hello.
4) High school was:
mostly lonely as I was a bit of an outcast for my strange *spiritual* beliefs that were not Christian (i was in a convent)... but I was very focused and got great grades!
5) I will never forget:
/half asleep embrace (if you don't get it... well... you are not meant to)
6) I once met:
David Copperfield
7) There's this girl I know who:
just gave birth to a wonderful baby boy named William Alexander (Liam).
8) Once at a bar:
two guys got pissed off at me and the friends I was withh and tried to run me off the road when we drove home.
9) By noon I'm usually:
scrambling to get to work.
10) Last night:
I managed to get to sleep despite the heat and humidity (better than I am doing now)
11) If only I had:
another $5000 to clear some outstanding finances, then I can do some things I really need/want to do for my own personal sanity
12) Next time I go to church:
it will likely be a LONG time from now...
13) Terry Schiavo:
is a name I had to look up
http://civilliberty.about.com/cs/humaneuthinasia/a/bgTerry.htm
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Terri_Schiavo
14) I have a confession to make:
I am much more shy and uncertain than I will ever let anyone see.
15) When I turn my head left:
I see a large tank with my 2 corn snakes (OH! one shed her skin)
16) When I turn my head right:
I see my little meditation shrine, my bed and a large tapestry.
17) You know when I'm lying when:
I try not to... (three-fold promise to before the gods: be true to your word, true to your path, and true to yourself... and ugh... the last is very very hard).
18) Everyday I think about:
Mike and how he is doing out in Tennessee.
19) If I were a character written by Shakespeare I'd be:
Hmmm... don't know...
20) By this time next year:
I hope to have all my smaller debts paid off, have most of the way through my Masters degree, and have CMS in a smooth state where it can be moved to any location (hopefully its very own).
21) A better name for me would be:
Not telling here on this blog. Some names are private.
22) I have a hard time understanding:
Why people have to hurt each other when they break up.
23) If I ever go back to school I'll:
plow through it with as much focus and drive as I did the last time.
24) You know I like you when:
I will actually give you a hug (thus include you in my personal space... and that is a HUGE compliment and offer of trust)
25) If I won an award the first person I'd thank is:
My mom! She inspired this drive in me and this belief that I can accomplish anything I choose to set my mind to. Thanks Mom!
26) Darwin, Mozart, Slim Pickens & Geraldine Ferraro:
Uhhhh..... oh... nevermind (too hot to think of why these names are together)
27) Take my advice, always:
love them completely, without reservations...people don't change...either you can live with them how they are, or you can't. Part of loving someone is loving every aspect of them, even when they drive you nuts! And if you can't live with them, separate before you become embittered and hate each other. It is much better being friends than enemies.
28) My ideal breakfast is:
oatmeal and honey if it is cold outside or scrambles eggs and cheese... or a banana milkshake done the way Mommy taught me
29) A song I love, but do not have is:
one that I know the chorus lyrics for but cannot find the song of for the life of me. I jotted down the lyrics the very second I heard them on the radio (making people honk at me as I was still stopped in my car and the light was green)... if you recognize these lyrics and know the name of the song and/or artist... LET ME KNOW PLEASE!!!!
(female singer)
"I will take care of you
The very best that I can
With all of the love here in my heart
And all of the strength in my hand"
30) If you visit my hometown, I suggest:
Eating at the Thai restaurant downtown or checking out Le Melange Magique at 1928 St. Catherine West (they are across the street from each other)
31) Tulips, character flaws, microchips & track stars:
See response for #26
32) Why won't anyone:
Fix/upgrade the damned electricity/fuses in this apartment building so we can have normal functions... like an air conditioner!
33) If you spend the night at my house:
at the moment you will melt from the hot humidity or be slept on my the big black cat (Bagheera)... or... at this point... likely both.
34) I'd stop my wedding for:
hmmm...depends on the situation... only some kind of emergency
35) The world could do without:
over-pollution causing such global warming and fucked up weather patterns and nasty humidity.
36) I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than:
either "spit or swallow"... ( and if you don't understand that, then you are likely too young and I won't explain it to you)
37) My favorite blonde is:
Hmmm... I don't really know any. (students don't count and neither to film stars)
38) Paper clips are more useful than:
many things and less useful than many other things.
39) If I do anything well:
it is, I hope, teach.
40) And by the way:
I realize I really need a day... just one day... for me... oh... and a one week vacation every 3 months
41) The last time I was drunk:
Ummm... I have never been drunk. Tipsy a few times (like 5 times in my entire life). But never drunk.
had to be called to help get my brother out of a strange and dangerous jam. My brother was a teen and fixing his little motorcycle and got his fingers caught in some part of the engine and nearly lost them. No one was home and I had to call my uncle to come save him.
2) Never in my life:
Will I EVER work as a computer tech writer again... EVER!!!
3) When I was five:
I hated my neighbor for pinching my cheeks every time she said hello.
4) High school was:
mostly lonely as I was a bit of an outcast for my strange *spiritual* beliefs that were not Christian (i was in a convent)... but I was very focused and got great grades!
5) I will never forget:
/half asleep embrace (if you don't get it... well... you are not meant to)
6) I once met:
David Copperfield
7) There's this girl I know who:
just gave birth to a wonderful baby boy named William Alexander (Liam).
8) Once at a bar:
two guys got pissed off at me and the friends I was withh and tried to run me off the road when we drove home.
9) By noon I'm usually:
scrambling to get to work.
10) Last night:
I managed to get to sleep despite the heat and humidity (better than I am doing now)
11) If only I had:
another $5000 to clear some outstanding finances, then I can do some things I really need/want to do for my own personal sanity
12) Next time I go to church:
it will likely be a LONG time from now...
13) Terry Schiavo:
is a name I had to look up
http://civilliberty.about.com/cs/humaneuthinasia/a/bgTerry.htm
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Terri_Schiavo
14) I have a confession to make:
I am much more shy and uncertain than I will ever let anyone see.
15) When I turn my head left:
I see a large tank with my 2 corn snakes (OH! one shed her skin)
16) When I turn my head right:
I see my little meditation shrine, my bed and a large tapestry.
17) You know when I'm lying when:
I try not to... (three-fold promise to before the gods: be true to your word, true to your path, and true to yourself... and ugh... the last is very very hard).
18) Everyday I think about:
Mike and how he is doing out in Tennessee.
19) If I were a character written by Shakespeare I'd be:
Hmmm... don't know...
20) By this time next year:
I hope to have all my smaller debts paid off, have most of the way through my Masters degree, and have CMS in a smooth state where it can be moved to any location (hopefully its very own).
21) A better name for me would be:
Not telling here on this blog. Some names are private.
22) I have a hard time understanding:
Why people have to hurt each other when they break up.
23) If I ever go back to school I'll:
plow through it with as much focus and drive as I did the last time.
24) You know I like you when:
I will actually give you a hug (thus include you in my personal space... and that is a HUGE compliment and offer of trust)
25) If I won an award the first person I'd thank is:
My mom! She inspired this drive in me and this belief that I can accomplish anything I choose to set my mind to. Thanks Mom!
26) Darwin, Mozart, Slim Pickens & Geraldine Ferraro:
Uhhhh..... oh... nevermind (too hot to think of why these names are together)
27) Take my advice, always:
love them completely, without reservations...people don't change...either you can live with them how they are, or you can't. Part of loving someone is loving every aspect of them, even when they drive you nuts! And if you can't live with them, separate before you become embittered and hate each other. It is much better being friends than enemies.
28) My ideal breakfast is:
oatmeal and honey if it is cold outside or scrambles eggs and cheese... or a banana milkshake done the way Mommy taught me
29) A song I love, but do not have is:
one that I know the chorus lyrics for but cannot find the song of for the life of me. I jotted down the lyrics the very second I heard them on the radio (making people honk at me as I was still stopped in my car and the light was green)... if you recognize these lyrics and know the name of the song and/or artist... LET ME KNOW PLEASE!!!!
(female singer)
"I will take care of you
The very best that I can
With all of the love here in my heart
And all of the strength in my hand"
30) If you visit my hometown, I suggest:
Eating at the Thai restaurant downtown or checking out Le Melange Magique at 1928 St. Catherine West (they are across the street from each other)
31) Tulips, character flaws, microchips & track stars:
See response for #26
32) Why won't anyone:
Fix/upgrade the damned electricity/fuses in this apartment building so we can have normal functions... like an air conditioner!
33) If you spend the night at my house:
at the moment you will melt from the hot humidity or be slept on my the big black cat (Bagheera)... or... at this point... likely both.
34) I'd stop my wedding for:
hmmm...depends on the situation... only some kind of emergency
35) The world could do without:
over-pollution causing such global warming and fucked up weather patterns and nasty humidity.
36) I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than:
either "spit or swallow"... ( and if you don't understand that, then you are likely too young and I won't explain it to you)
37) My favorite blonde is:
Hmmm... I don't really know any. (students don't count and neither to film stars)
38) Paper clips are more useful than:
many things and less useful than many other things.
39) If I do anything well:
it is, I hope, teach.
40) And by the way:
I realize I really need a day... just one day... for me... oh... and a one week vacation every 3 months
41) The last time I was drunk:
Ummm... I have never been drunk. Tipsy a few times (like 5 times in my entire life). But never drunk.
Vile Humidity
It is still TERRIBLE! I did not get up early to do stuff. I just barely made it to work. Work at the store was good, despite the heat. I got to play in the Apothecary today for a couple clients. Rushed home to teach class.
Level 2. I am not sure it went as well as I planned. They do not have their readings, so don't have the sections read in advance, thus cannot have a discussion. So I do some of the crafts and gloss over the religious highlights. NOT the way I like to run this part of the course... but no choice. I am concerned that perhaps this version of level 2 is TOO intensive for the students. Most of them are WAY behind in their homework. I fear they will not be done in time for graduation. The flow of the class (in-class feel) seems much much better than previous classes. Maybe I need to modify the homework load. This is the really tough part of being the curriculum coordinator. Finding the right balance. Took me 5 years to get level 1 balanced. I am in year 7 of level 2. *sigh* Level 3 seems to be working out real well. And level 4 went remarkable well! I wonder why Level 2 is such a struggle to balance out.
Well... everyone was hot and ucky during class. There was little improvement after class. I tidied up just enough to allow for the teachers meeting tomorrow night. I almost forgot about it. Thank you Faby for reminding me!
This evening... I...
- did my laundry (will go collect it from the dryers in a minute)
- paid some bills
- made the ad posters for the July workshops
- planned the teachers meeting
- corrected the rest of the student homework
- left a voice message for Mike (who is likely at a friend's to avoid killing his roommate)
- chatted with John on MSN (that was fun)
- And got to chat with Max on Yahoo (yay! he is now moved to his new home in Ohio from Texas)
I never got my damned bike out. Maybe i can get WW to help me after the teachers meeting. I really really want to get to the gym. Maybe I will try to do that before I go to work tomorrow.
I so need a dehumidifyier. But will likely blow the single fuse the whole apartment is on... just like the A/C did (which is why it is in the locker and not cooling my apartment). *pouts* Ok... gots to get the laundry and try to sleep with the fans.
Tomorrow's plan:
- breakfast (missed that today... all week actually)
- pay a bill (master card $250)
- gym
- work at store
- dinner
- teachers meeting
- get bike working
- sleep ( i hope)
Level 2. I am not sure it went as well as I planned. They do not have their readings, so don't have the sections read in advance, thus cannot have a discussion. So I do some of the crafts and gloss over the religious highlights. NOT the way I like to run this part of the course... but no choice. I am concerned that perhaps this version of level 2 is TOO intensive for the students. Most of them are WAY behind in their homework. I fear they will not be done in time for graduation. The flow of the class (in-class feel) seems much much better than previous classes. Maybe I need to modify the homework load. This is the really tough part of being the curriculum coordinator. Finding the right balance. Took me 5 years to get level 1 balanced. I am in year 7 of level 2. *sigh* Level 3 seems to be working out real well. And level 4 went remarkable well! I wonder why Level 2 is such a struggle to balance out.
Well... everyone was hot and ucky during class. There was little improvement after class. I tidied up just enough to allow for the teachers meeting tomorrow night. I almost forgot about it. Thank you Faby for reminding me!
This evening... I...
- did my laundry (will go collect it from the dryers in a minute)
- paid some bills
- made the ad posters for the July workshops
- planned the teachers meeting
- corrected the rest of the student homework
- left a voice message for Mike (who is likely at a friend's to avoid killing his roommate)
- chatted with John on MSN (that was fun)
- And got to chat with Max on Yahoo (yay! he is now moved to his new home in Ohio from Texas)
I never got my damned bike out. Maybe i can get WW to help me after the teachers meeting. I really really want to get to the gym. Maybe I will try to do that before I go to work tomorrow.
I so need a dehumidifyier. But will likely blow the single fuse the whole apartment is on... just like the A/C did (which is why it is in the locker and not cooling my apartment). *pouts* Ok... gots to get the laundry and try to sleep with the fans.
Tomorrow's plan:
- breakfast (missed that today... all week actually)
- pay a bill (master card $250)
- gym
- work at store
- dinner
- teachers meeting
- get bike working
- sleep ( i hope)
Monday, June 13, 2005
Suffocating and Melting
Gods... this is disgusting this weather. I am going to f-ing die. I have no idea how any of us are going to work tomorrow... nor have class tomorrow.
I have to get up early enough to correct the students' work before I got o work... and to go to the bank. Thank gods... the taxes came in.
Now is a time for balancing... and release of tension... and peace... and hopefully cooler air. It seems everyone is suffering this nasty weather. Mike in Tennessee has it bad too... as do my friends in Ohio. I feel bad for Wendy and the coming triplets. I hope she has A/C. Chloe in California is not much better off.
Wow... I am so hot and ucky feeling... I don't know if any of this post is coherent.
According to the weather network... this wave should be breaking sometime tomorrow. Let us all work for that thunderstorm to break it... it is supposed to hit Monday night. "Bring it on!!!"
Ok... I am going to bed. I watched my movie. I touched base with the closests, nearests and dearests today. Peppermint oil is helping cool me... as is my blessed window fan.
Good night world.
I have to get up early enough to correct the students' work before I got o work... and to go to the bank. Thank gods... the taxes came in.
Now is a time for balancing... and release of tension... and peace... and hopefully cooler air. It seems everyone is suffering this nasty weather. Mike in Tennessee has it bad too... as do my friends in Ohio. I feel bad for Wendy and the coming triplets. I hope she has A/C. Chloe in California is not much better off.
Wow... I am so hot and ucky feeling... I don't know if any of this post is coherent.
According to the weather network... this wave should be breaking sometime tomorrow. Let us all work for that thunderstorm to break it... it is supposed to hit Monday night. "Bring it on!!!"
Ok... I am going to bed. I watched my movie. I touched base with the closests, nearests and dearests today. Peppermint oil is helping cool me... as is my blessed window fan.
Good night world.
Sunday, June 12, 2005
Another ucky humid day
Yick.
I wanted to go to the gym, but I am too ucky feeling. This humidity is killing me. Today boasts to being 26 C but feeling like 34 C with the humidity at 70%. That is better than yesterday's 42 C and 85% humidity. But still ucky. We never got those thundershowers that were needed to break the humidity. Some weather witches wanted no rain at camping. Hmmm...
Today I hunted up my Masters Program application information for the proposal letter. Found it... YAY! I will have it all finished and ready to submit by the end of the week. I hope I have letters of reference by then. I intend to be Full Time at Concordia in the Masters Religion program. I need to find out what that exactly means course-wise. Then I need to apply for loans and bursaries.
Gotta leave in a minute. I have 2 classes to teach today. I pray that is will be decent in the classroom and not suffocating like yesterday. I can't take these 2 classes out to a cafe like I took yesterday's class. When I come home, I will grab some dinner and head out to visit a freind in the hospital.
Then I work... again. This time at the vet clinic, just tidying and doing the laundry there. There are no animals in the kennel this weekend. AND I have to plan tomorrow night's level 2 class. I might take out my bike too. That way I can get air in the tires in the cooler weather of the night and lock it outside ... get the damned thing OUT of my kitchen.
Today I pray for the health of a few babies in the family... and a good thunderstorm for later this afternoon or this evening to break our humidity.
I wanted to go to the gym, but I am too ucky feeling. This humidity is killing me. Today boasts to being 26 C but feeling like 34 C with the humidity at 70%. That is better than yesterday's 42 C and 85% humidity. But still ucky. We never got those thundershowers that were needed to break the humidity. Some weather witches wanted no rain at camping. Hmmm...
Today I hunted up my Masters Program application information for the proposal letter. Found it... YAY! I will have it all finished and ready to submit by the end of the week. I hope I have letters of reference by then. I intend to be Full Time at Concordia in the Masters Religion program. I need to find out what that exactly means course-wise. Then I need to apply for loans and bursaries.
Gotta leave in a minute. I have 2 classes to teach today. I pray that is will be decent in the classroom and not suffocating like yesterday. I can't take these 2 classes out to a cafe like I took yesterday's class. When I come home, I will grab some dinner and head out to visit a freind in the hospital.
Then I work... again. This time at the vet clinic, just tidying and doing the laundry there. There are no animals in the kennel this weekend. AND I have to plan tomorrow night's level 2 class. I might take out my bike too. That way I can get air in the tires in the cooler weather of the night and lock it outside ... get the damned thing OUT of my kitchen.
Today I pray for the health of a few babies in the family... and a good thunderstorm for later this afternoon or this evening to break our humidity.
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Concert
Saw friends play in their very own concert!
Random Colour (all girls band with Ceri & Autumn and several other girls)
*Autumn was not in concert with her "amped" cello. She was away with very special news. More to come on that later in the week.*
AND
Invisible (the guys: Taras, Marc & Marc, Scott and ... Philip)
They were amazing!! I am so proud of their accomplishment! Way to go all!! I look forward to the next concert. (hehe... Invisible should open for Random Colour next)
Random Colour (all girls band with Ceri & Autumn and several other girls)
*Autumn was not in concert with her "amped" cello. She was away with very special news. More to come on that later in the week.*
AND
Invisible (the guys: Taras, Marc & Marc, Scott and ... Philip)
They were amazing!! I am so proud of their accomplishment! Way to go all!! I look forward to the next concert. (hehe... Invisible should open for Random Colour next)
F-ing humidity.......
Hot... yucky.... sticky... annoyed... mildly headachy. I was sleeping so soundly and peacefully and cooly with my fans. But I had to wake. I have to work at the vet. I so don't want to do this job anymore.
Why am I killing myself working 7 days a week?
Oh ya. There are important things I need/want to do and need the money to do them.
*grumble groan*
Why am I killing myself working 7 days a week?
Oh ya. There are important things I need/want to do and need the money to do them.
*grumble groan*
Oh gods... at LAST!
I got home and started printing my stuff for the appendices of the Thesis. I started at 10pm. I just finished now...
UGH!!!
Got nothing else done.
:(
At least I have an idea in my head for the spellcrafting class. And the stuff to photocopy for the Thesis are set aside. Everything else gets pushed till... um... late tomorrow night or Sudnay morning.
Tomorrow:
- vet work
- teach level 3 (discussions)
- go see friends play in a concert (Invisibles & Random Colour)
UGH!!!
Got nothing else done.
:(
At least I have an idea in my head for the spellcrafting class. And the stuff to photocopy for the Thesis are set aside. Everything else gets pushed till... um... late tomorrow night or Sudnay morning.
Tomorrow:
- vet work
- teach level 3 (discussions)
- go see friends play in a concert (Invisibles & Random Colour)
Friday, June 10, 2005
Headache & Humidity
I hate this nasty pair pressure, humidity and heat. I am tired, nauseous, and have a headache. I was planning on the gym today. But not like this. I even cancelled my physio appointment. Mind you, I did not have the $$$ to pay for the session anyways.
I worked out tonight's energy class.
I planned tomorrow's discussion on Pagans & Parenting.
I set aside my things for Sunday's stone lore class.
I even filled in my application forms for the Masters Program at Concordia.
Tonight when I get back from teaching, and when it is hopefully cooler, I will:
- finish printing what I can for the Thesis
- set aside the things that I need to photocopy for the Thesis
- plan the Spellcrafting class more clearly
- correct student works thus far
- push the distance students a bit to do their work
- contact people to give me reference letters for my school application
- list what I need to complete the application
I feel like I have managed to accomplish stuff today despite how crappy I feel in this humidity. Yay me! Now to nap for an hour and then make supper of some sort before I head out to teach in sweltering, un- a/c-ed space. BLECK!
I worked out tonight's energy class.
I planned tomorrow's discussion on Pagans & Parenting.
I set aside my things for Sunday's stone lore class.
I even filled in my application forms for the Masters Program at Concordia.
Tonight when I get back from teaching, and when it is hopefully cooler, I will:
- finish printing what I can for the Thesis
- set aside the things that I need to photocopy for the Thesis
- plan the Spellcrafting class more clearly
- correct student works thus far
- push the distance students a bit to do their work
- contact people to give me reference letters for my school application
- list what I need to complete the application
- call Mike
- and take a very cool shower (stupid humidity)I feel like I have managed to accomplish stuff today despite how crappy I feel in this humidity. Yay me! Now to nap for an hour and then make supper of some sort before I head out to teach in sweltering, un- a/c-ed space. BLECK!
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Thesis
WOOHOO!!! I have finished the thesis! The conclusion draft was written... and edited... and re-edited. It isn't exactly 2 pages... but it is way more than one paragraph. YAY ME!!! Now to prep a nice version with appendices for my teacher.
I am going to take a break and sleep some.
I am going to take a break and sleep some.
And the day starts early
I was woken by a family emergency. I am now working healing magic for it. While that spell runs its course, I tackled some phone calls and bills. I am about to grab some breakfast in a minute... like right after this blog.
When the spell is complete, I will go run my errands. Out to fix a mess with my license. Then to a Bell shop to get a telephone with a working display. And to a petshop for mouse food. Then home again to work on correcting homework, emailing student updates, planning classes... OH! And working on the draft for my Thesis conclusion. And putting a more specific spell into action for that healing.
When the spell is complete, I will go run my errands. Out to fix a mess with my license. Then to a Bell shop to get a telephone with a working display. And to a petshop for mouse food. Then home again to work on correcting homework, emailing student updates, planning classes... OH! And working on the draft for my Thesis conclusion. And putting a more specific spell into action for that healing.
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
hectic day... head still spinning
I was up but not prepared to do the gym. I got to work and it was nice and cool compared to yesterday. Autumn's book is out!! YAY! that was the first excitement. The day was just a regular day full of labeling oil bottles and filling orders. Then there was the visits! Rick... who just made my day with his wonderful flattery. Autumn & Ash to see the book. Some students. M-SB. And me closing up to rush over to meet the coven for Star Wars movie outing.
It was GREAT! Some bad dialog. Some great horrific scenes. Some incredible moments. I will pick it all apart after I see it a couple more times.
And for those already having fits about how could she not know she was carrying twins with their medical advancements... well, she was trying to hide the fact that she was pregnant and likely never saw medical personel.
EDIT: OH! I even wrote a rough draft of my Thesis conclusion during lunch.
It was GREAT! Some bad dialog. Some great horrific scenes. Some incredible moments. I will pick it all apart after I see it a couple more times.
And for those already having fits about how could she not know she was carrying twins with their medical advancements... well, she was trying to hide the fact that she was pregnant and likely never saw medical personel.
EDIT: OH! I even wrote a rough draft of my Thesis conclusion during lunch.
Ohio pictures!!
I have some of the photos (not all yet) from my trip to Ohio last October. There are pictures of the wolves from Wolf Timbers. Check out the pictures:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/23903639@N00/sets/426294/
Wolf Timbers: http://www.wolftimbers.org/
As soon as I actually REMEMBER to take my film in to develop, I will post the other pictures. Hmmm... I can drop it off for developing on my way to the movie tonight!
http://www.flickr.com/photos/23903639@N00/sets/426294/
Wolf Timbers: http://www.wolftimbers.org/
As soon as I actually REMEMBER to take my film in to develop, I will post the other pictures. Hmmm... I can drop it off for developing on my way to the movie tonight!
Oh well
I had fully intended to go to the gym... but with the up and down weather, my joints ache and I do not want to "push" things today. Not after yesterday. Bleh. So today will be a leisure day.
My package supposedly got to Mike's address yesterday. I hope it is at the post office for him. I send out another package to another military friend on Thursday or Friday. Man... it is expensive! I might bring it in today and get an estimated delivery cost.
The weather finally broke with all the storming last night. THANK GODS!
I can now tackle 2 more bills. Small ones, but still. Slow progression. I need a small financial windfall to get caught up. grr. Well... one step at a time.
Today will be a less humid day. I will wear a dress. And go see Star Wars. YAY!
My package supposedly got to Mike's address yesterday. I hope it is at the post office for him. I send out another package to another military friend on Thursday or Friday. Man... it is expensive! I might bring it in today and get an estimated delivery cost.
The weather finally broke with all the storming last night. THANK GODS!
I can now tackle 2 more bills. Small ones, but still. Slow progression. I need a small financial windfall to get caught up. grr. Well... one step at a time.
Today will be a less humid day. I will wear a dress. And go see Star Wars. YAY!
Progress and the end of a crazy weekend
Well the weekend craziness is over... I think. I can breathe again. I did not complete all I wanted to night... but that is... ok. Not stressing about it. I did tidy the class and write that section in the CMS-L2 Life Lessons book and start working on my Thesis conclusion.
Tomorrow I will try to get up early for the gym, home for a quick shower, off to work at the store and then meet coven for a movie outing to see Star Wars Episode 3. If I should have any energy left after that, I will work more on my Thesis conclusion. It needs to be 2+ pages. I want it finished (edited good copy) by Midsummer.
Well, I am off to bed. Sleep well world. The rain is cool this evening. Remember to close and cover your windows tomorrow to avoid the nasty hot humidity invading your home.
I think I will do something I RARELY ever do... I will wear a dress tomorrow. It will be cooler.
Tomorrow I will try to get up early for the gym, home for a quick shower, off to work at the store and then meet coven for a movie outing to see Star Wars Episode 3. If I should have any energy left after that, I will work more on my Thesis conclusion. It needs to be 2+ pages. I want it finished (edited good copy) by Midsummer.
Well, I am off to bed. Sleep well world. The rain is cool this evening. Remember to close and cover your windows tomorrow to avoid the nasty hot humidity invading your home.
I think I will do something I RARELY ever do... I will wear a dress tomorrow. It will be cooler.
Monday, June 06, 2005
Recovered
Damn... I hate mothly suffering. Thankfully it did not last too long. Drugs and an hour of sleep by the fans helped.
The class this evening went well save for the fact that only half the class showed up. Ceri did a great job and the students were attentive. I expect they will do just fine with their reports. We talked a little bit about ancient religions and then I dove into the making of cartouches. They will finish them at home. Next week they make Codecies (pl. for codex) and we talk about Celtic/Norse/Slavic religions. This will be an hour of lecture and 2 hrs of arts. The following classes will be more discussion based on their reading texts. They have 6 weeks left till they are done class. Level 1 will be finished in a week or 2 as will Level 3. The specialty class on Spellcrafting is going real well... with only mild difficulties.
This evening I am very gung-ho on working on the level 2 textbooks for the distance students. I know I will have some of those (at least one) come the Fall. And I need to consider having the books for teachers too. That means also working on Level 3 and 4 books eventually.
Tonight's tasks:
- finish Book Binding in Level 2 Life Lesson's book
- outline conclusion for my Thesis
- tidy the classroom
- take a cool shower (nasty yucky humidity)
- add some narration to SWG chapter 3
Yes, I feel like having a creative night. Tomorrow I will remember to wear cooler clothes. I plan on going to the gym in the morning... early-ish... so I can clean up before work at the store. OH OH OH!!! I am also supposed to go see the Star Wars Episode 3 tomorrow night. YIPPEE!!!
The class this evening went well save for the fact that only half the class showed up. Ceri did a great job and the students were attentive. I expect they will do just fine with their reports. We talked a little bit about ancient religions and then I dove into the making of cartouches. They will finish them at home. Next week they make Codecies (pl. for codex) and we talk about Celtic/Norse/Slavic religions. This will be an hour of lecture and 2 hrs of arts. The following classes will be more discussion based on their reading texts. They have 6 weeks left till they are done class. Level 1 will be finished in a week or 2 as will Level 3. The specialty class on Spellcrafting is going real well... with only mild difficulties.
This evening I am very gung-ho on working on the level 2 textbooks for the distance students. I know I will have some of those (at least one) come the Fall. And I need to consider having the books for teachers too. That means also working on Level 3 and 4 books eventually.
Tonight's tasks:
- finish Book Binding in Level 2 Life Lesson's book
- outline conclusion for my Thesis
- tidy the classroom
- take a cool shower (nasty yucky humidity)
- add some narration to SWG chapter 3
Yes, I feel like having a creative night. Tomorrow I will remember to wear cooler clothes. I plan on going to the gym in the morning... early-ish... so I can clean up before work at the store. OH OH OH!!! I am also supposed to go see the Star Wars Episode 3 tomorrow night. YIPPEE!!!
Suffering
Life is suffering... so they say... Well this is worse than the usual. I woke feeling fine and headed to work. The heat and humidity were suffocating. I began to cramp again and it settled into my hip. I got sent home early. Thank you Dimitri! I am curling fetally in bed now praying for this to go away in the next hour so I can clean up the new classroom space in my livingroom, plan my class and teach.
This is bad. The worst I have had all year (not the worst I have had in my lifetime... but still).
This is bad. The worst I have had all year (not the worst I have had in my lifetime... but still).
Sunday, June 05, 2005
Crazy weekend #4 Moving
I have begun to move shelving into the Library. It will be Library and class storeroom for the moment. I am moving shelf after shelf. It is slowish. It will not be pretty, but things will be accessible and the livingroom will be functional again. Making both pretty will take further time.
My bike... well... it relegated to the bottom of the list. One more hour of moving stuff then I go to the vet to take care of things there. Then back to moving things.
I will so ache... I know it.
I am grateful to all the students who are being extremely patient with all this rearranging. Thank you.
My bike... well... it relegated to the bottom of the list. One more hour of moving stuff then I go to the vet to take care of things there. Then back to moving things.
I will so ache... I know it.
I am grateful to all the students who are being extremely patient with all this rearranging. Thank you.
Crazy weekend part 3
I am up and getting ready. And grrr... cramping. Stupid monthly.
I am in the process of packing for my 2 classes today. I have to head over to the vet and take care of the animals in the kennel and the kitty in hospital. I better not forget my vet paycheck... I have for 3 days so far already. DOH! Then I nibble cheese bread as I drive over to the store for my classes. I teach at noon (and yes, I am ready for it now with notes and plans) and at 3pm (currently packing herbs to take along). Then home to supper.
After supper I start on the Library room, take out my bike for a tuning, take in the laundry, and return to the vet for the kitty in hospital.
Oh... and at some point before I work tomorrow, I need to thoroughly plan tomorrow's Religions class. Woohoo! First hour of class is a guest speaker.
By the way, yesterday's wounds are healing nicely. Back and hip are doing quite ok. We will see how well things are after I go to the gym Tuesday. Woohoo! That is "weigh in" day. I will see what progress I have made since I started. I doubt much since the last weigh in since I have been out of the gym for my back and hip much of the time the past 4 weeks. But who knows. I don't care too much about if I lost weight... but I want to lose volume... and be "fit".... I do have a future goal here. Be fit and healthier than I have been.
I am in the process of packing for my 2 classes today. I have to head over to the vet and take care of the animals in the kennel and the kitty in hospital. I better not forget my vet paycheck... I have for 3 days so far already. DOH! Then I nibble cheese bread as I drive over to the store for my classes. I teach at noon (and yes, I am ready for it now with notes and plans) and at 3pm (currently packing herbs to take along). Then home to supper.
After supper I start on the Library room, take out my bike for a tuning, take in the laundry, and return to the vet for the kitty in hospital.
Oh... and at some point before I work tomorrow, I need to thoroughly plan tomorrow's Religions class. Woohoo! First hour of class is a guest speaker.
By the way, yesterday's wounds are healing nicely. Back and hip are doing quite ok. We will see how well things are after I go to the gym Tuesday. Woohoo! That is "weigh in" day. I will see what progress I have made since I started. I doubt much since the last weigh in since I have been out of the gym for my back and hip much of the time the past 4 weeks. But who knows. I don't care too much about if I lost weight... but I want to lose volume... and be "fit".... I do have a future goal here. Be fit and healthier than I have been.
Saturday, June 04, 2005
Wounded on day 2 of the crazy weekend
Well.. kinda wounded. Slept real well, though really wanted more sleep. Shucks. Off I headed to the vet to work. There I discovered a tiny little adult cat nearly wasted to death! Poor thing. I had to medicate her and slowly force feed her and give her lots of attention. The cat in the cage below her was freaked out by the IV Fluid machine. When I opened his cage to feed and clean him... he layed open the back of my fingers. *sigh* The hazards of working here.
Breakfast was a vitamin and 3 sliced of cheese bread. Lunch? Didn't really have time for that as my focus was more on touching base via telephone with a dear friend. Michael is doing well, but will miss Awakening Isis festival. He needs to drive the 32+ hrs to california to visit "home" and his dad before he deploys this fall to Iraq. Hopefully he will make it up here to visit everyone in early July but no exact date is set yet.
I gathered my things for a L3 class on Charms & Talismans. As I arrived in the sweltering heat of the classroom... I re-evaluated what I was going to teach. I shorted the class to the CORE info and left the students to research on their own. This way, I shortened the clas to about an hour and sent everyone home to cooler environs. We will meet next week to have discussions in a cafe with air conditioning.
Picked up the new issue of WynterGreene. AWESOME! It will be a great source for the next time I teach TechnoPaganism.
As I got home early, I was able to tackle some more hand washing and see that the house was clean for our coven meeting. I also set up a fan and got it running in the livingroom.
Now... need to start planning tomorrow's 2 classes. Obsure ingredients and substitution in Spellcrafting AND Plant Lore. I will still be working on this AFTER coven leaves tonight. I also hope to take out my bike tonight and tune it, then lock it to the fence. I also have to take care of the kitty at the vet again tonight before I sleep.
Tomorrow... vet work, teach Spellcrafting Specialty, teach Plant Lore, clean the library, finish the hand washing, plan the L2 class for Monday night, maybe start to more in the Library to its new room. OH! And get to the bank! Got stuff to pay on Monday.
I am feeling real good today and much reassured. The finances still suck, but I no longer feel WAY overwhelmed, just manageably overwhelmed. I even feel... creative... Hmmm... Maybe I will go back to my SWG story and work on chapter 3. For those who have not yet read the earlier, stuff HERE is the link. ENJOY!!
Breakfast was a vitamin and 3 sliced of cheese bread. Lunch? Didn't really have time for that as my focus was more on touching base via telephone with a dear friend. Michael is doing well, but will miss Awakening Isis festival. He needs to drive the 32+ hrs to california to visit "home" and his dad before he deploys this fall to Iraq. Hopefully he will make it up here to visit everyone in early July but no exact date is set yet.
I gathered my things for a L3 class on Charms & Talismans. As I arrived in the sweltering heat of the classroom... I re-evaluated what I was going to teach. I shorted the class to the CORE info and left the students to research on their own. This way, I shortened the clas to about an hour and sent everyone home to cooler environs. We will meet next week to have discussions in a cafe with air conditioning.
Picked up the new issue of WynterGreene. AWESOME! It will be a great source for the next time I teach TechnoPaganism.
As I got home early, I was able to tackle some more hand washing and see that the house was clean for our coven meeting. I also set up a fan and got it running in the livingroom.
Now... need to start planning tomorrow's 2 classes. Obsure ingredients and substitution in Spellcrafting AND Plant Lore. I will still be working on this AFTER coven leaves tonight. I also hope to take out my bike tonight and tune it, then lock it to the fence. I also have to take care of the kitty at the vet again tonight before I sleep.
Tomorrow... vet work, teach Spellcrafting Specialty, teach Plant Lore, clean the library, finish the hand washing, plan the L2 class for Monday night, maybe start to more in the Library to its new room. OH! And get to the bank! Got stuff to pay on Monday.
I am feeling real good today and much reassured. The finances still suck, but I no longer feel WAY overwhelmed, just manageably overwhelmed. I even feel... creative... Hmmm... Maybe I will go back to my SWG story and work on chapter 3. For those who have not yet read the earlier, stuff HERE is the link. ENJOY!!
Friday, June 03, 2005
Crazy day... beginning of a crazy weekend
I got like 2 hrs sleep and woke at 6am with the alarm. Attempted to reset it for 7am. Failed as I woke on my own at 7:10 and bolted to get ready and out in 10min. Made a peanutbutter sandwich and grabbed my drum and off I drove to teach music to grades 2, 3, and 5. It went REAL WELL! I had a blast! And so did the kids! I love the younger grades. They are so full of wonder.
Exhaustion claimed me on the drive back. I nearly fell asleep at the wheel. Made it home and set the alarm for 4pm... grabbing a 30min nap. I crashed hard. I was so not in the mood to try to write thesis. I could barely think straight. Met Roo at about 4:30 and we just chatted about life instead for about 40min then I headed home again to try to grab another power nap before the class.
Couldn't. I stared at the ceiling. So, I read some more of "Shackle and Sword" to put myself in a state of rest. Then tried to find food at 6pm. That failed. Rushed off to teach my class buying a loaf of cheese bread to nibble before the class started.
Class went real well too! Two awesome students! The third was AWOL, so i lost her $40... but gained her $20 deposit. Shame. She needed the class. These two however... are making this a wonderful interesting class. I look forward to see them in CMS.
Now I am home... and I still can't go to bed and sleep. I need some sort of food in me. Making ramen... or trying to. I nearly burned the water already. I need food. Then I have to plan tomorrow's class as I will not have time to do so tomorrow. Gods... I am so tired.
Exhaustion claimed me on the drive back. I nearly fell asleep at the wheel. Made it home and set the alarm for 4pm... grabbing a 30min nap. I crashed hard. I was so not in the mood to try to write thesis. I could barely think straight. Met Roo at about 4:30 and we just chatted about life instead for about 40min then I headed home again to try to grab another power nap before the class.
Couldn't. I stared at the ceiling. So, I read some more of "Shackle and Sword" to put myself in a state of rest. Then tried to find food at 6pm. That failed. Rushed off to teach my class buying a loaf of cheese bread to nibble before the class started.
Class went real well too! Two awesome students! The third was AWOL, so i lost her $40... but gained her $20 deposit. Shame. She needed the class. These two however... are making this a wonderful interesting class. I look forward to see them in CMS.
Now I am home... and I still can't go to bed and sleep. I need some sort of food in me. Making ramen... or trying to. I nearly burned the water already. I need food. Then I have to plan tomorrow's class as I will not have time to do so tomorrow. Gods... I am so tired.
Meme
1. What's the first word that comes to mind when you think of me?
2. Go to http://images.google.com/ and search for that word.
3. Reply to this post with one of the pictures on the first page of results (don't tell me the word).
4. Put this in your own blog so that I can do the same.
:)
2. Go to http://images.google.com/ and search for that word.
3. Reply to this post with one of the pictures on the first page of results (don't tell me the word).
4. Put this in your own blog so that I can do the same.
:)
grrr... stupidness
I can't sleep. Of all nights... this one I NEED to be alseep for. *sigh*
progress in the planning
Ok... half the hand washing got done, ran out of both line and pegs. The bike never made it out. I was not in the mood to risk further injury, even though I really wanted to go to the gym, too. The muscles are still too stiff. Wish I did not HATE HATE HATE my bathtub. I would so love to soak in a bath with scented healing bath salts, oils and herb. *pout*
I watched Star Wars Episode II. I think the guy who plays Anikan sucks at acting. Oh well.
I mounted the CD shelf and put some things on it. I couldn't manage the second shelf. I wasn't sure how it went up. It will have to be mounted when I have more patience.
I planned what to do with grades 2 and 3 for music. I will teach them sound and rhythm basics. My mom has a "music bingo" game for the grade 5's. Music is the worst thing anyone can ask me to sub for... I know NOTHING about music. Not that I don't WANT to know... just never learned any and thus have no repertoire to draw from to teach the kids with. I was about to stress as I flopped on the bed and closed my eyes. I let the stress go and calmed my mind... letting things flow... very zen or Force-like. I do this when I have NO CLUE what to teach. ANd as always, I am open for inspiration for it. Thus I saw the kids in small groups in my mind doing different sound and movement actions to a 4-beat count that when put all together sounded kinda cool. SO that is what I will teach them. I gathered my 2 drums too as fun rewards for them to listen too as they always beg me to play the Bodrhan for them when I come.
Then I printed the Practical Magic workshop booklets and reviewed them. And set them aside with my thesis to be packed.
I then watched the animated Clone Wars volume I. It was good! Is there a volume II? OH! That reminds me... I should stop in to Astro sometime and see if I have any comics on reserve for me.
What is left to do before I sleep? Get a rough plan of the level 3 class for Saturday. I can fine tune it tomorrow night.
Tomorrow's Agenda:
6:00am - wake
7:00am - leave for Pierrfond
8:00am - start teaching in the elementary school
2:30pm - drive through traffic home
4:00pm - meet Roo for a thesis jam (must have rough of conclusion written in that session)
6:00pm - get some dinner
7:00pm - teach Practical Magic
9:30pm - home to finish planning and prepping for CMS-L3 class
then...
- clean the library room
- sweep the house
- set up my meditation shrine
I watched Star Wars Episode II. I think the guy who plays Anikan sucks at acting. Oh well.
I mounted the CD shelf and put some things on it. I couldn't manage the second shelf. I wasn't sure how it went up. It will have to be mounted when I have more patience.
I planned what to do with grades 2 and 3 for music. I will teach them sound and rhythm basics. My mom has a "music bingo" game for the grade 5's. Music is the worst thing anyone can ask me to sub for... I know NOTHING about music. Not that I don't WANT to know... just never learned any and thus have no repertoire to draw from to teach the kids with. I was about to stress as I flopped on the bed and closed my eyes. I let the stress go and calmed my mind... letting things flow... very zen or Force-like. I do this when I have NO CLUE what to teach. ANd as always, I am open for inspiration for it. Thus I saw the kids in small groups in my mind doing different sound and movement actions to a 4-beat count that when put all together sounded kinda cool. SO that is what I will teach them. I gathered my 2 drums too as fun rewards for them to listen too as they always beg me to play the Bodrhan for them when I come.
Then I printed the Practical Magic workshop booklets and reviewed them. And set them aside with my thesis to be packed.
I then watched the animated Clone Wars volume I. It was good! Is there a volume II? OH! That reminds me... I should stop in to Astro sometime and see if I have any comics on reserve for me.
What is left to do before I sleep? Get a rough plan of the level 3 class for Saturday. I can fine tune it tomorrow night.
Tomorrow's Agenda:
6:00am - wake
7:00am - leave for Pierrfond
8:00am - start teaching in the elementary school
2:30pm - drive through traffic home
4:00pm - meet Roo for a thesis jam (must have rough of conclusion written in that session)
6:00pm - get some dinner
7:00pm - teach Practical Magic
9:30pm - home to finish planning and prepping for CMS-L3 class
then...
- clean the library room
- sweep the house
- set up my meditation shrine
Thursday, June 02, 2005
Need called... I answer... I hope the reward outways the cost
I have been asked to teach Elementary School. I am teaching, of all things, music. Something I know almost nothing about. But it was a bit of an emergency. The school asked for my mom, but she is already replacing someone. They need a teacher, a creative one. I need the $180 I will get paid for the day. But that means... no day of rest. Again.... as I take on yet another job.
The pay for an elementary teacher substitute is better than any I have been paid. I cannot afford to say no. I will also be taking on more shifts at the vet clinic. I have yet to find out what shifts, it is kinda chaotic there right now. I will give up time and energy to focus on clearing some debts. I hope I have the stamina to maintain this throughout the summer.
Today I ran an errand out to the Nature Pet Centre for crickets for my geckos, and M-SB needed to replace the interior of his fish tank... including some fish. We picked up Manzo's... Mmmmmmm. I also stopped at Future Shop and got SW Episode II and the animated Clone Wars volume I. Just finished eating and watching Episode II. Now to do that hand washing. Then mount the shelves. Then relax with the cartoons for a bit.
My hip is still kinda aching. Very annoying... but tolerable.
Before bed, I MUST plan tomorrow's music lessons for grades 2 and 3. AND prep for the thesis jam AND the Practical Magic workshop. AND plan the Level 3 class... AND the specialty class. Damn... all tonight. Best get started. This will be a VERY busy weekend. I am SOOoooo sleeping in on Tuesday.
The pay for an elementary teacher substitute is better than any I have been paid. I cannot afford to say no. I will also be taking on more shifts at the vet clinic. I have yet to find out what shifts, it is kinda chaotic there right now. I will give up time and energy to focus on clearing some debts. I hope I have the stamina to maintain this throughout the summer.
Today I ran an errand out to the Nature Pet Centre for crickets for my geckos, and M-SB needed to replace the interior of his fish tank... including some fish. We picked up Manzo's... Mmmmmmm. I also stopped at Future Shop and got SW Episode II and the animated Clone Wars volume I. Just finished eating and watching Episode II. Now to do that hand washing. Then mount the shelves. Then relax with the cartoons for a bit.
My hip is still kinda aching. Very annoying... but tolerable.
Before bed, I MUST plan tomorrow's music lessons for grades 2 and 3. AND prep for the thesis jam AND the Practical Magic workshop. AND plan the Level 3 class... AND the specialty class. Damn... all tonight. Best get started. This will be a VERY busy weekend. I am SOOoooo sleeping in on Tuesday.
Slept and doing better
I am mildly nauseous from the ice cream... but I deserve that.
I slept a couple hours woke for 10min and slept some more. I no longer hurt as I did. THANK GODS!!! But I am very stiff. I have all of yesterday's tasks to do today along with a trip to mom's to get a couple things and a trip to the gym (not sure yet if I will dare it... but I think this is like a hang-over: to cure what ails you is is the hair of the dog that bit you the night before... so more working out will mean it will get easier). The tough part is not the muscle sore I get but the joint pain that tries to kill me like last night. I am actually doing remarkably well at the moment. I will decide about the gym when Roo calls me.
Right now, a hot shower for the stiff muscles is in order. Then I need to speak witht he vet clinic regarding new hours. All other tasks will follow those two.
- hand washing
- take out bike (maybe)
- mount shelf and CD rack
- return movie
- review energy workshop notes
- plan CMS-L3 class
- research for Sunday Specialty class
- go get table and stuff from mom's (maybe tomorrow)
PS... thank you deities for easing the excrutiating pain I had throughout the night.
I slept a couple hours woke for 10min and slept some more. I no longer hurt as I did. THANK GODS!!! But I am very stiff. I have all of yesterday's tasks to do today along with a trip to mom's to get a couple things and a trip to the gym (not sure yet if I will dare it... but I think this is like a hang-over: to cure what ails you is is the hair of the dog that bit you the night before... so more working out will mean it will get easier). The tough part is not the muscle sore I get but the joint pain that tries to kill me like last night. I am actually doing remarkably well at the moment. I will decide about the gym when Roo calls me.
Right now, a hot shower for the stiff muscles is in order. Then I need to speak witht he vet clinic regarding new hours. All other tasks will follow those two.
- hand washing
- take out bike (maybe)
- mount shelf and CD rack
- return movie
- review energy workshop notes
- plan CMS-L3 class
- research for Sunday Specialty class
- go get table and stuff from mom's (maybe tomorrow)
PS... thank you deities for easing the excrutiating pain I had throughout the night.
Still.... up....
Sun is now up. So am I. I am halfway through the book. Drugs helped a bit for my back. Someone shoot me. Nevermind... the pain in my hip will kill me anyways.
Exhausted.
Gonna try sleeping now.
EDIT: 6:00AM Pain in hip... still awake. Very little equals this pain. This stupid f-ing unreachable pain. Consider any meeting plans today canceled. I am very sorry if I planned to meet anyone. Gods please... please gods... make it stop hurting.
Exhausted.
Gonna try sleeping now.
EDIT: 6:00AM Pain in hip... still awake. Very little equals this pain. This stupid f-ing unreachable pain. Consider any meeting plans today canceled. I am very sorry if I planned to meet anyone. Gods please... please gods... make it stop hurting.
still up...
Yes, I am awake. Yes... it is an ungodly hour. I am feeling the pain from the gym now. My back and hip are killing me.
I am trying to distract myself with reading Shackle & Sword.
More drugs are needed... and more reading... until exhaustion finally claims me. I pray it claims me soon.
I am trying to distract myself with reading Shackle & Sword.
More drugs are needed... and more reading... until exhaustion finally claims me. I pray it claims me soon.
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Apothecary...
Lesson from the morning... Some care product I am VERY allergic to. Not giving details... embarrassed enough by it all already.
The day went well. I got to the bank and stopped into the Chinese grocer and bought some more grape tomatoes... mmmmm... traded 1/2 the box for a drink at work. Such sweet bribery and fun! I also got my shelf from Reno. The day at work was VERY busy... has been for the whole week!! When we finally got a lull... we had fun in the Apothecary. We made a few mixtures for various purposes to show and sell as a way to let people know what we do there... and to have fun for the end of the day. Wich we could do this for all sorts of things as opposed to so much prepackaged stuff. Ah well. It was a fun end to the work day.
We went to the gym and pushed ourselves. I was easy on my ankle. I am not sore yet... but I bet I will be tomorrow.
Stopped at home to put stuff in the fridge, then was off to WW's. Had yummy burger and salad. We also watch the first part of Ivanhoe. AWESOME! My growing craving for ice cream overcame me as was my need to get back and start researching for upcoming classes and my thesis... So I left around 11pm and got a yummy blizzard from Dairy Queen. I am sure I will pay for that... iced milk stuff with some crispy crunch chocolate bar in it... mmmmm... so good... I will be so sick... but oh so gooood!
Now down to research.... or maybe just bed. Hmmm... ya... bed.
The day went well. I got to the bank and stopped into the Chinese grocer and bought some more grape tomatoes... mmmmm... traded 1/2 the box for a drink at work. Such sweet bribery and fun! I also got my shelf from Reno. The day at work was VERY busy... has been for the whole week!! When we finally got a lull... we had fun in the Apothecary. We made a few mixtures for various purposes to show and sell as a way to let people know what we do there... and to have fun for the end of the day. Wich we could do this for all sorts of things as opposed to so much prepackaged stuff. Ah well. It was a fun end to the work day.
We went to the gym and pushed ourselves. I was easy on my ankle. I am not sore yet... but I bet I will be tomorrow.
Stopped at home to put stuff in the fridge, then was off to WW's. Had yummy burger and salad. We also watch the first part of Ivanhoe. AWESOME! My growing craving for ice cream overcame me as was my need to get back and start researching for upcoming classes and my thesis... So I left around 11pm and got a yummy blizzard from Dairy Queen. I am sure I will pay for that... iced milk stuff with some crispy crunch chocolate bar in it... mmmmm... so good... I will be so sick... but oh so gooood!
Now down to research.... or maybe just bed. Hmmm... ya... bed.
Self Pampering
Hehe. That was a great personal self pampering, therapeutic shower and persoanl spa stuffs. But that took longer than anticipated. I guess most of the stuff on the agenda will get shuffled to tomorrow. Good thing I have nothing planned for tomorrow excpet a trip to mom's to get a couple things.
Time for Breakfast.
Then out to run the errands:
- bank
- Reno Depot
- Sally Ann (rid the culled things before I get any second thoughts)
Time for Breakfast.
Then out to run the errands:
- bank
- Reno Depot
- Sally Ann (rid the culled things before I get any second thoughts)
New Room Discoveries
So I have been sleeping in this new bedroom/office space for 4 nights. I have discovered that I need (and can tolerate the sound of) my computer on to drown out the subtle high pitched whine (which I cannot tolerate) of the modem. However, I have to turn off the monitor because the light bothers me.
I am sleeping much better and waking remarkably refreshed. I do wake at like 4-6am for about 20min. I did that when I was in Tennessee too. Good sleep, but waking in the early morning for a short bit. I could stay awake or go back to sleep for another couple hours and still feel refreshed when I get up the second time.
The cushioned reading space is never disturbed by my sleeping in the bed. The bed is so big and little me doesn't move around much. Making the bed in the morning is much easier too with only a little corner to tuck in.
I introduced Salem to the heating pad. She slept there all night purring. Her poor old bones. I use it for my back for 20min then she gets it for the night. I woke this morning to her purring more on the heating pad, Bagheera curled over my feet, and Cloak sprawled in the EXACT center of the bed. (I wonder if he can measure.)
The mirror has not freaked me out. But then, I had painted grey wolf paw prints on it as a connection to Wolf to guard it from unpleasantries. It had even dropped on the way from the hiding place to the new room and miraculously did not break. It is too high to really be "useful". I want to get a standing mirror to put on the INSIDE of my closet door to check out dress and stuff. That way I can hide it in the closet when I am done. That will be an Ikea purchase. I want the nifty curvy one they have.
Today's agenda:
- shower (long therapeutic kind... not the usual quickie before work)
- hand wash the things that need it and put them out on the line
- take out the bike and tune it, fill the tires with air
- clean the new Library room
- mount the CD shelf on my wall
- go to the bank
- stop in Reno Depot and pick up some small wall mountable shelves (ancestor shrine & cat safe deity shrine)
- work at the store
- go to the gym
- out to visit WW (maybe try to get my bike there for him to look at) for a burger and a chat
- review energy workshop notes
- physio exercises and heating for 20min
- meditation
- tea and read (my pampering)
I am sleeping much better and waking remarkably refreshed. I do wake at like 4-6am for about 20min. I did that when I was in Tennessee too. Good sleep, but waking in the early morning for a short bit. I could stay awake or go back to sleep for another couple hours and still feel refreshed when I get up the second time.
The cushioned reading space is never disturbed by my sleeping in the bed. The bed is so big and little me doesn't move around much. Making the bed in the morning is much easier too with only a little corner to tuck in.
I introduced Salem to the heating pad. She slept there all night purring. Her poor old bones. I use it for my back for 20min then she gets it for the night. I woke this morning to her purring more on the heating pad, Bagheera curled over my feet, and Cloak sprawled in the EXACT center of the bed. (I wonder if he can measure.)
The mirror has not freaked me out. But then, I had painted grey wolf paw prints on it as a connection to Wolf to guard it from unpleasantries. It had even dropped on the way from the hiding place to the new room and miraculously did not break. It is too high to really be "useful". I want to get a standing mirror to put on the INSIDE of my closet door to check out dress and stuff. That way I can hide it in the closet when I am done. That will be an Ikea purchase. I want the nifty curvy one they have.
Today's agenda:
- shower (long therapeutic kind... not the usual quickie before work)
- hand wash the things that need it and put them out on the line
- take out the bike and tune it, fill the tires with air
- clean the new Library room
- mount the CD shelf on my wall
- go to the bank
- stop in Reno Depot and pick up some small wall mountable shelves (ancestor shrine & cat safe deity shrine)
- work at the store
- go to the gym
- out to visit WW (maybe try to get my bike there for him to look at) for a burger and a chat
- review energy workshop notes
- physio exercises and heating for 20min
- meditation
- tea and read (my pampering)
