Friday, September 30, 2005
Friday Plan
- wake and shower and all that morning stuff
- pack reading and firefly
- dress up
- drop boxes at vet
- stop at bank for $
- park in lot!
- work @ store till noon
- read homework
- harvest @ 3pm
- sit at theatre and meet folks
- read while in line and listening to firefly on DVD?
- Serenity movie @ 7:25pm
- dinner and talk at Hurley's
- plan Saturday classes
- pack reading and firefly
- dress up
- drop boxes at vet
- stop at bank for $
- park in lot!
- work @ store till noon
- read homework
- harvest @ 3pm
- sit at theatre and meet folks
- read while in line and listening to firefly on DVD?
- Serenity movie @ 7:25pm
- dinner and talk at Hurley's
- plan Saturday classes
burning out... freaking out...
Well... the day started out great. I got an email from my Tibet teacher approving my topic on Tara and the texts I chose. I discovered that I am not supposed to read 160 pages for methodology but about 60. So off I trundled to work and managed to get a spot in the lot... YAY!
Work went well. Still lots to do and not enough time to do it.
Paid my first school payment. $190. Not bad.
Had strange food for dinner and then off to a great class that I feel was more productive than any of the others.
After, met up with Hobbes and others at Second Cup, but snagged Hobbes to chat about the handfasting I am leading. He is doing the photography. I still have some work to do to prepare for it.
Home again... tired... and realized I only have $55 in my account. Shit. Harvest tomorrow will be SMALL!!! And good thing Rosanne and Rick are paying me back for the tickets.
I still have not done my readings nor that 2-pg response paper. Also, I have not yet planned Saturday classes. UGH! Still have a thesis to change to Chicago style. Still have 2 study grants to apply for.
I am trying desperately NOT to panic. But I am behind in homework. WAY behind. The paper will have to be emailed Sunday I think. I will read tomorrow. I will have to plan class early Saturday morning. Geez. Still have laundry to do.
*frozen*
Work went well. Still lots to do and not enough time to do it.
Paid my first school payment. $190. Not bad.
Had strange food for dinner and then off to a great class that I feel was more productive than any of the others.
After, met up with Hobbes and others at Second Cup, but snagged Hobbes to chat about the handfasting I am leading. He is doing the photography. I still have some work to do to prepare for it.
Home again... tired... and realized I only have $55 in my account. Shit. Harvest tomorrow will be SMALL!!! And good thing Rosanne and Rick are paying me back for the tickets.
I still have not done my readings nor that 2-pg response paper. Also, I have not yet planned Saturday classes. UGH! Still have a thesis to change to Chicago style. Still have 2 study grants to apply for.
I am trying desperately NOT to panic. But I am behind in homework. WAY behind. The paper will have to be emailed Sunday I think. I will read tomorrow. I will have to plan class early Saturday morning. Geez. Still have laundry to do.
*frozen*
Thursday, September 29, 2005
*groan*
2 pages read
0 pages retained
Migraine still there though tolerable with the 800mg advil in me
back still hurts
giving up and going to bed and the heating pad
0 pages retained
Migraine still there though tolerable with the 800mg advil in me
back still hurts
giving up and going to bed and the heating pad
Rough day... migraine lingering...
I read late last night after visiting with WW & Airea. Got up early with a headache and being tired and cranky. The work day was stressful with too much to do and not enough time to do it. Everyone was stressed from staff to clients to callers to email customers to even the poor cats!
Missed dinner.
Taught class. They are a good bunch. Thank you, Alison, for the Green Tomatoes. I will make chutney on the weekend.
Never got my reading done for the 2-pg paper. Just realized that 80 double-sided pages is actually 160 pages to read and had an anxiety attack.
Did get replies to my spazzed emails to my Tibetan teacher and they were relieving. I have a sacred text now for the class. I get it from the Library tomorrow: Cult of Tara by Stephan Beyer.
I am over busy folks. Please understand that if I am curt, I do not mean to be mean... I am just STRESSED! And trying to fit WAY TOO MUCH in the short bit of time I have to do so. I welcome any help that is offered... down to the any meal shoved under my nose because I forgot to plan that into the schedule.
Oh... ya... I am still up. Guess what I am doing...
Reading.
For that paper that is now LATE!
Missed dinner.
Taught class. They are a good bunch. Thank you, Alison, for the Green Tomatoes. I will make chutney on the weekend.
Never got my reading done for the 2-pg paper. Just realized that 80 double-sided pages is actually 160 pages to read and had an anxiety attack.
Did get replies to my spazzed emails to my Tibetan teacher and they were relieving. I have a sacred text now for the class. I get it from the Library tomorrow: Cult of Tara by Stephan Beyer.
I am over busy folks. Please understand that if I am curt, I do not mean to be mean... I am just STRESSED! And trying to fit WAY TOO MUCH in the short bit of time I have to do so. I welcome any help that is offered... down to the any meal shoved under my nose because I forgot to plan that into the schedule.
Oh... ya... I am still up. Guess what I am doing...
Reading.
For that paper that is now LATE!
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Posted on Serenity's Official site somewhere (and stolen from the e-list that sent it to me)
Posted: 27 Sep 2005 2:22 pm
Post subject: We few, we happy few...
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Well boys and girls and boys dressed as girls and girls dressed as
Kaylee, the time is almost upon us. This Friday we take that old rust-
bucket out of the shipyard and see if she can breach atmo. It's been
a long (to paraphrase a band I like) strange trip, and it'll be nice
finally to show everybody what it is we've been tinkering with all
this time. You already know you have my thanks, from the hardcore
fans to the softcore... fans.... let me try that again. From the
people manning the booths, buying DVD sets for their friends, getting
banners seen everywhere on Australian TV, raffling artwork for
ticketholders (Adam Hughes, take a bow), to the most casual fan who
just wants to see the flick and won't ever even read this. You guys
are the fuel in the engine, the Fire in the Fly, the weird green
stuff coming out of Serenity's butt. (Hmmm. Forget that last one. I'm
a little bit out of control here.)
Everyone needs something to keep them going. Mal has his ship. Zoe
has her integrity. Jayne has Vera. And I've got you guys.
So what now? There have been so many posts about seeing it, seeing it
again, the first weekend, the second weekend, being enthusiastic
without being obnoxious (and yes, it IS hard to see over the pom-pom
of a Jayne hat), buying tickets in advance, making a noise... I
honestly wouldn't know what to add. I can tell you this: the movie
will play in about 2200 hundred theaters, which is a good number. Too
many, and you get empty theaters with no energy -- not enough, and
you get, well, not enough. It may be hard to find in some areas but
it'll be out there. Leave no multiplex unturned! This is going to be
a ground war, peeps -- we have to hold the valley for a long while.
However it opens, it needs to HOLD. Instead of the Alliance we'll be
fighting viewer apathy, fear of something new, the urge to wait for
DVD, and Jessica Alba in a bikini. (Although I have it on good
authority that she spends 90% of the film in a huge wooly parka. Make
sure that gets out.)
The day this puppy opens, I'll be seeing it with my family (don't
worry, there's a lot of them, and they're all paying) and then I'm
off to Europe to learn the word 'Browncoats' in nine different
languages -- 'cause like I said, it's all about holding. I'll never
be far from a computer, though, so I can check in with y'all. Thanks
for every damn thing.
And remember, amidst all the urgency to make this an event, all the
work and the worry, to take two hours and just enjoy yourself. That
is, after all, what all this fighting's about.
-joss.
Post subject: We few, we happy few...
----------------------------------------------------------------------
Well boys and girls and boys dressed as girls and girls dressed as
Kaylee, the time is almost upon us. This Friday we take that old rust-
bucket out of the shipyard and see if she can breach atmo. It's been
a long (to paraphrase a band I like) strange trip, and it'll be nice
finally to show everybody what it is we've been tinkering with all
this time. You already know you have my thanks, from the hardcore
fans to the softcore... fans.... let me try that again. From the
people manning the booths, buying DVD sets for their friends, getting
banners seen everywhere on Australian TV, raffling artwork for
ticketholders (Adam Hughes, take a bow), to the most casual fan who
just wants to see the flick and won't ever even read this. You guys
are the fuel in the engine, the Fire in the Fly, the weird green
stuff coming out of Serenity's butt. (Hmmm. Forget that last one. I'm
a little bit out of control here.)
Everyone needs something to keep them going. Mal has his ship. Zoe
has her integrity. Jayne has Vera. And I've got you guys.
So what now? There have been so many posts about seeing it, seeing it
again, the first weekend, the second weekend, being enthusiastic
without being obnoxious (and yes, it IS hard to see over the pom-pom
of a Jayne hat), buying tickets in advance, making a noise... I
honestly wouldn't know what to add. I can tell you this: the movie
will play in about 2200 hundred theaters, which is a good number. Too
many, and you get empty theaters with no energy -- not enough, and
you get, well, not enough. It may be hard to find in some areas but
it'll be out there. Leave no multiplex unturned! This is going to be
a ground war, peeps -- we have to hold the valley for a long while.
However it opens, it needs to HOLD. Instead of the Alliance we'll be
fighting viewer apathy, fear of something new, the urge to wait for
DVD, and Jessica Alba in a bikini. (Although I have it on good
authority that she spends 90% of the film in a huge wooly parka. Make
sure that gets out.)
The day this puppy opens, I'll be seeing it with my family (don't
worry, there's a lot of them, and they're all paying) and then I'm
off to Europe to learn the word 'Browncoats' in nine different
languages -- 'cause like I said, it's all about holding. I'll never
be far from a computer, though, so I can check in with y'all. Thanks
for every damn thing.
And remember, amidst all the urgency to make this an event, all the
work and the worry, to take two hours and just enjoy yourself. That
is, after all, what all this fighting's about.
-joss.
Tweek
New toilet seat was installed earlier today by M-SB. And I made a tweek or two inside the toilet. I do not need to buy any new parts. Good. However, I cannot fix the bathtub/shower. I know what needs fixing and roughly how, but not well enough to do it myself. And M-SB doesn't know at all. If we did, we would just fix it ourselves right the first time. Instead if the shitty job the previous plumbers have done over the years. Yes... this is a recurring issue. Pisses me off. Why can;t they just do it right the first time? Then they would not need to do it over and over every couple years.
Lots to do...
I have decided to call a sick day from school. I have too much to do and am stressing now about it. Need to fix plumbing stuff. Need to do homework. Need to plan teaching stuffs.
I just finished updating my Methodology course blog. Now I will tackle some planning for CMS level 1 with Hobbes. Then off to get the toilet part. And more homework after that. Later tonight i will head to Airea's for a chat and some Firefly viewing.
I just finished updating my Methodology course blog. Now I will tackle some planning for CMS level 1 with Hobbes. Then off to get the toilet part. And more homework after that. Later tonight i will head to Airea's for a chat and some Firefly viewing.
Mad @ Janitor
Ya... I am pissed. We have been trying to get a plumber in our place to fix stuff in the bathroom, like a spraying leak inside the toilet that makes noise, the bathtub faucet constantly running (well it started at just dripping last month), and the shower giving out either scalding hot or ice cold water but never a mix. It was a spat between me and him today. The plumber came last month... well an apprentice who said he couldn't fix it and that a real plumber would need to come. Then a plumber was scheduled for yesterday but rescheduled for today, then now rescheduling for tomorrow. I was upset. I want a normal shower. The janitor said that our problem was not crutial and could wait. That if it was winter that maybe it would be considered more crutial. WTF!? So I asked if we would be better off getting our own plumber. He said I would have to contact the office on it and then be responsible for the costs. This made me REAL MAD! Maybe if our rent was paid on time then we could expect better service. Maybe if we got better service we would feel more inclined to pay our rent on time.
Cranky Scarlet is heading out to go get the proper things to fix the toilet herself.
Cranky Scarlet is heading out to go get the proper things to fix the toilet herself.
Spiffy!!! SHINY!
Hehe... I went clothing shopping today. Yes, instead of ticket paying. I need to wear other than jeans in life and just don't have anything presentable! It is getting embarrassing at school and work to be always outdressed. It was time to get some classy (though not fancy) clothes. So off I went this morning after I was woken at 9AM. The people hung up on my answering machine. But I slept ok so was not in a bad mood. And the heating pad on my back most of the night helped immensely! (THANKS MOM)
I bought... heehee... a brown coat!! Actually, I brown suede leather jacket. This is the first time I am owning a leather jacket. It is awesome and fits just right! I got some pants too but need to hem them. The curse of being only 5'2.5" tall. (yes that .5" is IMPORTANT)
I have energy and do not hurt quite so bad. SO... This is the plan:
- update methodology course blog
- read methodology notes
- take Dimitri's gift to Roo
- figure out what days I need off for the Oct. 12 deadline work
- write the 2-pg response on my readings
- laundry
- class (ya... I will go)
- head to Airea's? after class to talk and maybe watch an episode or 2 of Firefly
I bought... heehee... a brown coat!! Actually, I brown suede leather jacket. This is the first time I am owning a leather jacket. It is awesome and fits just right! I got some pants too but need to hem them. The curse of being only 5'2.5" tall. (yes that .5" is IMPORTANT)
I have energy and do not hurt quite so bad. SO... This is the plan:
- update methodology course blog
- read methodology notes
- take Dimitri's gift to Roo
- figure out what days I need off for the Oct. 12 deadline work
- write the 2-pg response on my readings
- laundry
- class (ya... I will go)
- head to Airea's? after class to talk and maybe watch an episode or 2 of Firefly
Monday, September 26, 2005
Giving up for the night
Too tired. Too bleh. Can't think straight... not even enough to enjoy Firefly. Was hoping to maybe do a bit of homework. But forget it. I am going to crawl into bed early. Rotten chill. Rotten moontime. Rotten damp weather. Gonna plug in the heating pad for my back. It needs a rub again. * pout *
Maybe if I get to sleep early and perhaps sleep in, I will recoup enough to be productive tomorrow.
Maybe if I get to sleep early and perhaps sleep in, I will recoup enough to be productive tomorrow.
"slow" day
My brain was on slow and stupid all day. This is part to me feeling like crap, part me aching, part a morning mishap. Mishap? M-SB rushed into my room waking me to get to work since it was 9:40am and I needed to be dressed and out by that time to be at work at 10am. EXCEPT... it was actually 7:40am He was off by 2 hrs. I could have slept in. I lay in bed feeling ill and cramped and crabby and out of sorts. Messed me for the day. Not really his fault. He made a mishap. But that is why I was on slow and stupid all day. My bleh feeling imrpoved over the day.
Bonus was more Serenity stuff arrived at the store. I kicked myself. I could have gotten a big poster for M-SB for free instead of $25 for the one I ordered for him. Ah well. He has a cool Serenity T-Shirt that he will wear to the Opening. I am dressing Inara-ish. I wanted to dress more like River, but my dress is too long. So I dress more like Inara with my fiery belly-dancing shawl over one schoulder. Serenity viewing... I am taking M-SB, Rosanne, and Rick (Mtl-Rick). We will be 4, I gave up the other 2 tickets.
I am home... and way tired. I warned work that I will need a day or so to get some homework stuffs done for the things due October 12th. Ugh... Well... better to lose the day of work and get it done. I am still way tired... and sore and tummy finicky. I am feeding it only its cravings. Even if those cravings mean I take 2 bites and put it in the fridge... like I did with my rice noodle soup. I am going to go eat and watch Firefly.
I got a cool book: Star Wars & Philosophy
OH! And one of my books got cancelled... AGAIN! dammit! 3rd time!! Thankfully I have a photocopy of this one already. One just arrived in the mail and one is yet to arrive.
This evening is a relax evening. I have lots to do tomorrow. Running around to pay tickets. Massive amounts of homework. I might stay home from school if I am burnt. I might go to Airea's to watch Firefly over tea... we will see how I feel. Crappy is how I feel at the moment. The current food craving is Italian Poutine and hot dog. This is what I have. Let's see if that is what I can eat. Then I will take drugs for the aches and pains. Evil chilly damp weather!
Bonus was more Serenity stuff arrived at the store. I kicked myself. I could have gotten a big poster for M-SB for free instead of $25 for the one I ordered for him. Ah well. He has a cool Serenity T-Shirt that he will wear to the Opening. I am dressing Inara-ish. I wanted to dress more like River, but my dress is too long. So I dress more like Inara with my fiery belly-dancing shawl over one schoulder. Serenity viewing... I am taking M-SB, Rosanne, and Rick (Mtl-Rick). We will be 4, I gave up the other 2 tickets.
I am home... and way tired. I warned work that I will need a day or so to get some homework stuffs done for the things due October 12th. Ugh... Well... better to lose the day of work and get it done. I am still way tired... and sore and tummy finicky. I am feeding it only its cravings. Even if those cravings mean I take 2 bites and put it in the fridge... like I did with my rice noodle soup. I am going to go eat and watch Firefly.
I got a cool book: Star Wars & Philosophy
OH! And one of my books got cancelled... AGAIN! dammit! 3rd time!! Thankfully I have a photocopy of this one already. One just arrived in the mail and one is yet to arrive.
This evening is a relax evening. I have lots to do tomorrow. Running around to pay tickets. Massive amounts of homework. I might stay home from school if I am burnt. I might go to Airea's to watch Firefly over tea... we will see how I feel. Crappy is how I feel at the moment. The current food craving is Italian Poutine and hot dog. This is what I have. Let's see if that is what I can eat. Then I will take drugs for the aches and pains. Evil chilly damp weather!
Sunday, September 25, 2005
Update on Serenity Screening
Of my 6 tickets, I have 1 available unless Airea refused to go without WinterWolf. Then I would have 2. WinterWolf has to work. Bummer. So does Roo. Double Bummer. Just means I go again to another planned outing!!!
;)
Septmebt 30th:
- me
- M-SB
- Rosanne
- Rick
- Airea? **edit: no Area... pooo... OK I have 2 tickets open!**
- ??
;)
Septmebt 30th:
- me
- M-SB
- Rosanne
- Rick
- Airea? **edit: no Area... pooo... OK I have 2 tickets open!**
- ??
Moontime
Exhausted... energy just sucked from me. I have struggled all day. I managed to teach a fine class, but was cramped and ill after. I took advil and napped while M-SB grabbed a shower. SUPER advils! I need more now... that was the last one. We then headed out to get my Firefly from Metro Video and check out HMV for other stuff. I almost bought some fresh music. But then had a responsible moment and left without any. I am still waiting for a couple payments to go through my bank account and still have to pay some tickets on Tuesday. Picked up yummy Subways for dinner and watched the first episode of Firefly while I ate and tried to read my homework. I hardly read and definately retained nothing of the little I did read. I also hardly watched. I am just fizzled out.
Surfed the net a bit while episode 2 played in the background. Tried to work on my school blog to no avail. Made some soup because I was feeling fussy and peckish, but not interested now after a couple mouthfuls. My back is aching and my tooth is aching again. Time for advil. Guess I will take 2 of the not super advils. Days like this... I should know better than to try to be productive.
See the moon
She be waning
Know thyself
Feel you fading
Rest and pream
Plan to heal
Recoup your energy
Then have a meal
Rise with dawn
As the exhaustion fades
Feel new strength
As the moontime wanes
Surfed the net a bit while episode 2 played in the background. Tried to work on my school blog to no avail. Made some soup because I was feeling fussy and peckish, but not interested now after a couple mouthfuls. My back is aching and my tooth is aching again. Time for advil. Guess I will take 2 of the not super advils. Days like this... I should know better than to try to be productive.
See the moon
She be waning
Know thyself
Feel you fading
Rest and pream
Plan to heal
Recoup your energy
Then have a meal
Rise with dawn
As the exhaustion fades
Feel new strength
As the moontime wanes
News on the Serenity screening
Of the 6 tickets I have reserved... I have only one left.
- me
- M-SB
- Airea
- WinterWolf
- Rosanne
- ?
Let me know.
- me
- M-SB
- Airea
- WinterWolf
- Rosanne
- ?
Let me know.
Followed the plan and then some!
OMG's... I did EVERYTHING on my day's list! Planning tomorrow's class happened partly during the Level 3A class while I watched the girls make tools out of clay. And HEY... M-SB joined in!! That was awesome! I did some more planning of tomorrow's class after coven and then was called to go over to a party. I was a party-pooper. I had to bring the work with me and finish it there. I warned them, they asked me to come anyways. I finished it there and got to socialize some too! YAY! I got to sit with friends I do not see too often. Was great! I almost never get out to party things... usually due to work and usually due to rude drunk people. But Hobbes' parties never have rude drunk people. I am real glad I went, and super pleased that I had some "normal" social time.
Tomorrow, I have to get up early and set up the marker boards for the class. Then I have to think about how I will cram all this information into the students' heads. IKES! I hope they do not hate me!!! I usually have a 3 hr class, but this class will be short as I want to try to give them an opportunity to get to the public ritual. I can't go to it after all. *pout* I have to pick up stuff from the CUPS (Concordia University Pagan Society) office that is to go over to the Main Concordia University Archives. Wow! That is feeling kinda prestigeous!
Then I am going over to get my Firefly DVD set. Or maybe I will hold off on it and save it as a reward for finishing homework? NAW! I will get it and still use viewing it as little rewards for accomplishing some stuff homeworkwise. Also, I have seen it enough already that I can do homework with it in the background.
Justr got back from the party. Tired. Back still hurts. *grumble* Stupid stressful week. At least the bills are paid. G'nite all!
Tomorrow, I have to get up early and set up the marker boards for the class. Then I have to think about how I will cram all this information into the students' heads. IKES! I hope they do not hate me!!! I usually have a 3 hr class, but this class will be short as I want to try to give them an opportunity to get to the public ritual. I can't go to it after all. *pout* I have to pick up stuff from the CUPS (Concordia University Pagan Society) office that is to go over to the Main Concordia University Archives. Wow! That is feeling kinda prestigeous!
Then I am going over to get my Firefly DVD set. Or maybe I will hold off on it and save it as a reward for finishing homework? NAW! I will get it and still use viewing it as little rewards for accomplishing some stuff homeworkwise. Also, I have seen it enough already that I can do homework with it in the background.
Justr got back from the party. Tired. Back still hurts. *grumble* Stupid stressful week. At least the bills are paid. G'nite all!
Saturday, September 24, 2005
Montreal Browncoats Event
EVENT 2: BIG DAMN PREMIERE!(See msg 291 for more details) Sept 30th, Paramount, downtown Montreal, 7:30 pm-8:00 pm, meet approx 6 -630 pm to be confirmed the week of the screening. Bring 11 bucks cash. there are 50 spots, vote in the poll to take a spot and +'s for friends etc, and vote for the concession discount. Will also have swag giveaway.
I have booked 6 spots (me, M-SB, and 4 ... Airea & WinterWolf? Roo? Let me know).
They have a list: http://tv.groups.yahoo.com/group/montrealbrowncoats/
I have booked 6 spots (me, M-SB, and 4 ... Airea & WinterWolf? Roo? Let me know).
They have a list: http://tv.groups.yahoo.com/group/montrealbrowncoats/
Firefly / Serenity
Well! My CD is awesome. It is only a promo though. I want to get the Firefly soundtrack... but have some other expenses to take care of first. Metro Video called me and they have my order for Firefly!! YAY!! I will go get it this week.
In other similar news:
http://canadianbrowncoats.com/
http://movies.groups.yahoo.com/group/canadianbrowncoats/
Some all round great stuff for the geeks out there.
In other similar news:
http://canadianbrowncoats.com/
http://movies.groups.yahoo.com/group/canadianbrowncoats/
Some all round great stuff for the geeks out there.
giant *SIGH* of relief
My student loan came through. All the bills got paid... mostly.
- car loan
- hydro
- bell
- gaz
- both cell phones (though not completely for one of them)
- mom's visa
- my visa
- my SWG
- $100 into savings (split between the easy access Royal savings and my ING account)
I am SOOOOOOoooOOoo relieved!
What is left?
- car tickets (ugh... Tuesday)
- school (will make payment arrangements with them)
- the vet
- MasterCard
Scarlet does a little dance for joy! I will tackle the car tickets on Tuesday and the school of Thursday. The vet and MasterCard will get dealt with in October. One last little bit of stuff... I promised myself a gift... FIREFLY!!! Oh... and go to the movie Serenity on opening night... this Friday!
Ok... now back to the regular stress of today. M-SB made breakfast and tidied the kitchen. I am off to buy clay, crickets, (frozen rodents if they have), and papertowels. I will ask M-SB to vacuum while I am out.
With the financial stress eased... I feel a bit more able to tackle other things. LATERS!
- car loan
- hydro
- bell
- gaz
- both cell phones (though not completely for one of them)
- mom's visa
- my visa
- my SWG
- $100 into savings (split between the easy access Royal savings and my ING account)
I am SOOOOOOoooOOoo relieved!
What is left?
- car tickets (ugh... Tuesday)
- school (will make payment arrangements with them)
- the vet
- MasterCard
Scarlet does a little dance for joy! I will tackle the car tickets on Tuesday and the school of Thursday. The vet and MasterCard will get dealt with in October. One last little bit of stuff... I promised myself a gift... FIREFLY!!! Oh... and go to the movie Serenity on opening night... this Friday!
Ok... now back to the regular stress of today. M-SB made breakfast and tidied the kitchen. I am off to buy clay, crickets, (frozen rodents if they have), and papertowels. I will ask M-SB to vacuum while I am out.
With the financial stress eased... I feel a bit more able to tackle other things. LATERS!
Saturday Plan
1- tidy house
2- scrub kitchen
3- scrub bathreoom
4- vacuum house
5- go get crickets and clay
6- water all living things in the house
7- get paper towels
8- eat
9- teach Level 3A: Making Clay Tools
10- plan teacher's course for tomorrow
11- plan coven
12- clean some of bedroom
13- eat
14- coven
Oy... lots for 2.5hrs before class. I will have to get M-SB to help me. Damn... homework is not in the day's plan.
2- scrub kitchen
3- scrub bathreoom
4- vacuum house
5- go get crickets and clay
6- water all living things in the house
7- get paper towels
8- eat
9- teach Level 3A: Making Clay Tools
10- plan teacher's course for tomorrow
11- plan coven
12- clean some of bedroom
13- eat
14- coven
Oy... lots for 2.5hrs before class. I will have to get M-SB to help me. Damn... homework is not in the day's plan.
Friday, September 23, 2005
Geek moment
I am loving my little promo CD of the Serenity Soundrack.
Rough week
Which gods did I piss off and how?
Work was LONG... oh gods LONG. Handling more than my fair share. I was glad to get the 10-20min food break while I disseminated information. But on an 11hr shift. Really... that is not enough. I am manager. I should have scheduled myself a break. Got another damnable ticket, but that one at least will be covered. And I completely missed going to get supplies for tomorrow morning's class. So guess what I have to do extra early tomorrow?!
I managed to get a small push on the bills till Tuesday. My loan better come through before then. Oh please gods... let it through!
Had a late lunch (like 3pm ish) and forgot the rest at work which was supposed to be my late dinner. I am eating eggos instead now.
Work went smooth and the scheduling for October looks good... except I need some major time off early October for some major school related project. I will have to talk to folks.
I have so much school stuff to do I feel like I am going to DIE! I have to read 80+ pages and write another 2-pg on them for Tuesday. I am supposed to read 3 books for my Tibet class (have a photocopy for one of them, the others are in the mail but not in my posession yet) and choose one specific sacred text that is mentioned in them, find a translated copy of it, read it and have a presentation on it for Thursday (YES, THIS Thursday)! Then by October 12th (so it arrives before the 15th) I have to have that thesis edited to the Chicago Manual of Style and sent to the Journal Publisher. And then I have two Award Study Grants to apply for (not the fill-in-a page applications but the fill in these 20 pages of application and provide research proposals and bibliographies and all kind of applications) by October 13th... and I have to have this ready at least a week before since I require the reference letter of at least 2 professors too for these applications.
And where in all that am I supposed to do mundane things like laundry, clean my bedroom, plan my CMS courses, eat and sleep? It is effecting my mood. I cringe when anyone asks me how I am doing. I am feeling seriously cuddle deprived and drained of all energy. And have way too many headaches to be healthy. Need to buy more advil.
I am open to suggestions. I am even open to help... not that I know exactly where anyone can help. It is all kinda stuff that only I can/should do. The only time I have to myself is when the rest 0f the world is asleep... 2am... and I am busy TRYING to get to sleep. Ya know, Gods, just because I survived 2 full time jobs and a part time job and full time studies and 2 personal projects and still managed to graduate with an honours degree... it did not mean you could see how much further I could be pushed this time round!!! I AM only HUMAN! *at least last I checked* There is not going to be much of me left soon. I am not asking for a break, last time I did that you practically hospitalized me with illness. I am asking for some relief in the stresses I am enduring, or some strength to endure them, or something.... How about good sleeps that let me wake refreshed. That would be a nice start.
Work was LONG... oh gods LONG. Handling more than my fair share. I was glad to get the 10-20min food break while I disseminated information. But on an 11hr shift. Really... that is not enough. I am manager. I should have scheduled myself a break. Got another damnable ticket, but that one at least will be covered. And I completely missed going to get supplies for tomorrow morning's class. So guess what I have to do extra early tomorrow?!
I managed to get a small push on the bills till Tuesday. My loan better come through before then. Oh please gods... let it through!
Had a late lunch (like 3pm ish) and forgot the rest at work which was supposed to be my late dinner. I am eating eggos instead now.
Work went smooth and the scheduling for October looks good... except I need some major time off early October for some major school related project. I will have to talk to folks.
I have so much school stuff to do I feel like I am going to DIE! I have to read 80+ pages and write another 2-pg on them for Tuesday. I am supposed to read 3 books for my Tibet class (have a photocopy for one of them, the others are in the mail but not in my posession yet) and choose one specific sacred text that is mentioned in them, find a translated copy of it, read it and have a presentation on it for Thursday (YES, THIS Thursday)! Then by October 12th (so it arrives before the 15th) I have to have that thesis edited to the Chicago Manual of Style and sent to the Journal Publisher. And then I have two Award Study Grants to apply for (not the fill-in-a page applications but the fill in these 20 pages of application and provide research proposals and bibliographies and all kind of applications) by October 13th... and I have to have this ready at least a week before since I require the reference letter of at least 2 professors too for these applications.
And where in all that am I supposed to do mundane things like laundry, clean my bedroom, plan my CMS courses, eat and sleep? It is effecting my mood. I cringe when anyone asks me how I am doing. I am feeling seriously cuddle deprived and drained of all energy. And have way too many headaches to be healthy. Need to buy more advil.
I am open to suggestions. I am even open to help... not that I know exactly where anyone can help. It is all kinda stuff that only I can/should do. The only time I have to myself is when the rest 0f the world is asleep... 2am... and I am busy TRYING to get to sleep. Ya know, Gods, just because I survived 2 full time jobs and a part time job and full time studies and 2 personal projects and still managed to graduate with an honours degree... it did not mean you could see how much further I could be pushed this time round!!! I AM only HUMAN! *at least last I checked* There is not going to be much of me left soon. I am not asking for a break, last time I did that you practically hospitalized me with illness. I am asking for some relief in the stresses I am enduring, or some strength to endure them, or something.... How about good sleeps that let me wake refreshed. That would be a nice start.
Grrrr... no news
Still have Hydro. Not been cut yet.
Still no student loan in my account. Supposedly it is coming.
Guess I make some calls and swallow my pride... whatever is left of it at this point.
Still no student loan in my account. Supposedly it is coming.
Guess I make some calls and swallow my pride... whatever is left of it at this point.
Thursday, September 22, 2005
horoscope
Ya... someone will snicker after the stern conversation I vaguely remember from this evening. Go ahead... snicker away!
This is the horoscope I came home to:
Tea and sympathy? Could be just what the stars ordered to soothe your troubled soul. You've got people in your life who are willing to listen, so why not give them a chance to help you out when you really need it? It might help to clarify whether you need advice or simply another pair of ears for your current dilemma. If social interaction is beyond you, get some solitude in a very comfortable place. A solution will show up when you need it.
Back off from that spotlight -- just a little bit. You usually command everyone's attention effortlessly, but your darling might be feeling a little bit chilly, since they're usually left in your shadow.
Take it easy through the day. Make sure you don't overextend yourself at any point, and try to make sure that those closest to you get enough face-time to keep them happy. Planning would be good.
Planning? There was NONE of that in today. ANd I wish I had read this before the day started.
This is the horoscope I came home to:
Tea and sympathy? Could be just what the stars ordered to soothe your troubled soul. You've got people in your life who are willing to listen, so why not give them a chance to help you out when you really need it? It might help to clarify whether you need advice or simply another pair of ears for your current dilemma. If social interaction is beyond you, get some solitude in a very comfortable place. A solution will show up when you need it.
Back off from that spotlight -- just a little bit. You usually command everyone's attention effortlessly, but your darling might be feeling a little bit chilly, since they're usually left in your shadow.
Take it easy through the day. Make sure you don't overextend yourself at any point, and try to make sure that those closest to you get enough face-time to keep them happy. Planning would be good.
Planning? There was NONE of that in today. ANd I wish I had read this before the day started.
long long loooooong day
So i was up early with the bank. Ugh.
Worked with the new guy. Wow. I be impressed. His retail experience really shows. I will give him my Employee Handbook (it needs updaying... but will do for now). He had a busy day as well... it was BUSY! Everyone did a great job. It was hectic and I didn't much of my stuff done. That I will tackle tomorrow. Just before the end of my shift, M-SB called to tell me the bank called to let me know they finished processing my file and everything is now in the governement's hands. I should have money as of midnight tonight or by Monday. *praying for midnight tonight*
My first meeting was late. But it was sorted out. I still have to find the nice ring blessings I wanted to use. And I want to schedule one last minute meeting to ensure all vows and blessings and supplies and all are ready.
I had to rush to the next meeting with the Religion Department. It was a workshop on how to apply for the awards competition for research and study grants. COOL! Ugh... more work.
And from there right into my Tibet class. Where I am expected to have already read the books we did not have availbale to us and one out of print. Now next week I have a presentation on a chosen sacred text! ARGH!!! My head is going to explode!!! I NEED NEED NEED more homework time!!!
I rushed back to work to lock up. I still had not really eaten and was way out of it by the time I got there. I am sure people talked to me and I am not sure who or for what and really hope it was important. I got a chicken dinner... it was decent.
Home now hoping the money appears in my account after midnight. I don't think I will stay awake for it though. My headache is too terrible.
Worked with the new guy. Wow. I be impressed. His retail experience really shows. I will give him my Employee Handbook (it needs updaying... but will do for now). He had a busy day as well... it was BUSY! Everyone did a great job. It was hectic and I didn't much of my stuff done. That I will tackle tomorrow. Just before the end of my shift, M-SB called to tell me the bank called to let me know they finished processing my file and everything is now in the governement's hands. I should have money as of midnight tonight or by Monday. *praying for midnight tonight*
My first meeting was late. But it was sorted out. I still have to find the nice ring blessings I wanted to use. And I want to schedule one last minute meeting to ensure all vows and blessings and supplies and all are ready.
I had to rush to the next meeting with the Religion Department. It was a workshop on how to apply for the awards competition for research and study grants. COOL! Ugh... more work.
And from there right into my Tibet class. Where I am expected to have already read the books we did not have availbale to us and one out of print. Now next week I have a presentation on a chosen sacred text! ARGH!!! My head is going to explode!!! I NEED NEED NEED more homework time!!!
I rushed back to work to lock up. I still had not really eaten and was way out of it by the time I got there. I am sure people talked to me and I am not sure who or for what and really hope it was important. I got a chicken dinner... it was decent.
Home now hoping the money appears in my account after midnight. I don't think I will stay awake for it though. My headache is too terrible.
The day's plan
Drop off letter to Roo. She will be happy. We had a good RP night. Interesting twists... Who IS Austin? Anyways...
I have work at the store and training of the new guy.
Then I have a meeting at 3pm with a couple whose handfasting I am leading. They missed the last meeting. Should I have charged them because I was waiting for them? Naw. I may need money... but this isn't a doctor's office. And it was something out of their control. Well, I see them today. The handfasting is mid-october. I will conform date and location and supplies and expenses.
After, I have a workshop about applying for a grant(?) or school award thingy. I hope I qualify, that would be real helpful.
And then I have class! Tibetan Religions. I am still waiting for my book in the mail. Maybe I will be lucky? Maybe it will be in my PO Box today?
I postponed my harvest by a week. I will be more able to get stuff then. I hate glitches like this. They are so very stressful. I know it will work out. But damn...
I have work at the store and training of the new guy.
Then I have a meeting at 3pm with a couple whose handfasting I am leading. They missed the last meeting. Should I have charged them because I was waiting for them? Naw. I may need money... but this isn't a doctor's office. And it was something out of their control. Well, I see them today. The handfasting is mid-october. I will conform date and location and supplies and expenses.
After, I have a workshop about applying for a grant(?) or school award thingy. I hope I qualify, that would be real helpful.
And then I have class! Tibetan Religions. I am still waiting for my book in the mail. Maybe I will be lucky? Maybe it will be in my PO Box today?
I postponed my harvest by a week. I will be more able to get stuff then. I hate glitches like this. They are so very stressful. I know it will work out. But damn...
The Bank Talk
8:20am
I called student loan office of Royal Bank. They are not open yet. They open at 8:30am.
8:31am
I call and stress out at the girl about being deregistered because they are taking their time about my laon and am panicking on the phone. I learn that my Guaruntee Certificate was received and processed Monday (which was way way better than 3weeks!) and now they need to process my previous loan to re-instate my payment exepmption status and send that to the Aide Financiere aux Etude Quebec. The woman was uncertain when that would be, but that they start this on Thursdays. She mentioned I might see funds maybe by next Friday. Needless to say I flipped a little. She said she would look into it and see what she could do and call me back.
8:45am
She called me back. She had my file moved to "next to be addressed today". So it will be fixed by today and sent to the government. I should see money in my account sometime from Friday this week (earliest) to latest Wednesday next week. She said it will like be midnight Friday but not to panic if it isn't.
Am I relieved? Sorta. What can I tell the bill people and school? Please be patient? Can they hold out one more week? I will see if I am lucky and have money tomorrow. If I don't, then I will call them and beg.
What an AWEFUL start to the day. But I guess it is better news than it could have been.
I called student loan office of Royal Bank. They are not open yet. They open at 8:30am.
8:31am
I call and stress out at the girl about being deregistered because they are taking their time about my laon and am panicking on the phone. I learn that my Guaruntee Certificate was received and processed Monday (which was way way better than 3weeks!) and now they need to process my previous loan to re-instate my payment exepmption status and send that to the Aide Financiere aux Etude Quebec. The woman was uncertain when that would be, but that they start this on Thursdays. She mentioned I might see funds maybe by next Friday. Needless to say I flipped a little. She said she would look into it and see what she could do and call me back.
8:45am
She called me back. She had my file moved to "next to be addressed today". So it will be fixed by today and sent to the government. I should see money in my account sometime from Friday this week (earliest) to latest Wednesday next week. She said it will like be midnight Friday but not to panic if it isn't.
Am I relieved? Sorta. What can I tell the bill people and school? Please be patient? Can they hold out one more week? I will see if I am lucky and have money tomorrow. If I don't, then I will call them and beg.
What an AWEFUL start to the day. But I guess it is better news than it could have been.
who do I kill?
Noted from Financial Aid:
- You will be receiving shortly a loan authorization in the amount of $ 1505. For additional information, consult "Summary" under "Full-time assessment".
- A decision regarding your financial assistance application for full-time studies was rendered on September 21, 2005.
- You have been awarded financial assistance for your full-time studies. However, your financial assistance cannot be paid out for the time being because your financial institution has not yet updated your banking information.
- You have been awarded financial assistance for your full-time studies. However, your financial assistance cannot be paid out for the time being because we are waiting for information from your financial institution in order to reinstate your full exemption period.
I winder what time my bank opens...
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
*panic*
Opened th mail. The bills were not happy with my part payments last week. Nor are they accepting them. I have till Friday. SHIT.
I NEED MY STUDENT LOANS & BURSARIES!!!!!! NOW!!!!!!!
I NEED MY STUDENT LOANS & BURSARIES!!!!!! NOW!!!!!!!
End Day
LONG day. It was a bit hectic as I tried to tackle orders and then interviews and all. Mona was beyond awesome today to handle so much on her own. Great job girl! Did interviews. DAMN It was a tough tough decision. A new guy starts tomorrow. That will relieve a ton or work stress. No more double shifts for anyone! YAY! I get homework days back!
I got lunch but not dinner and I am HUNGRY! My schoolbooks did not arrive in the mail yet. Poo! I need them!!!!!!! My student money has not arrived yet either! All the bills are screaming! I can stretch money but there is a limit. I am as stretched as I dare! Need to manage the weekend and pray finances come through soon. Please please let everyone and everything hold out till then. My cushion is gone now.
This evenings class went real well. Not on schedule in a variety of ways, but well just the same. I must remember that large classes take more time. I need to start working on a way to start more on time. And keep things a bit more in the timeframe. I also have to stop teaching so much and let Hobbes do it. Must remember to bring TAPE for my mouth.
Well... I am home and hungry. Off to make food... and then RP with Roo... YAY!!! Haven't in a while, but I have some time this evening.
I got lunch but not dinner and I am HUNGRY! My schoolbooks did not arrive in the mail yet. Poo! I need them!!!!!!! My student money has not arrived yet either! All the bills are screaming! I can stretch money but there is a limit. I am as stretched as I dare! Need to manage the weekend and pray finances come through soon. Please please let everyone and everything hold out till then. My cushion is gone now.
This evenings class went real well. Not on schedule in a variety of ways, but well just the same. I must remember that large classes take more time. I need to start working on a way to start more on time. And keep things a bit more in the timeframe. I also have to stop teaching so much and let Hobbes do it. Must remember to bring TAPE for my mouth.
Well... I am home and hungry. Off to make food... and then RP with Roo... YAY!!! Haven't in a while, but I have some time this evening.
BLEH!
I did NOT sleep well. I could not manage to get to sleep till about 2am despite trying. I had rotten dreams that kept waking me. I woke thirsty and hot at 4am. Drank some iced tea and opened the window. Woke stiff and sore ALL OVER at 6am. Closed the window. Woke at 7am with the alarm but was crabby and reset it for 8:30am. Semi-dosed and not very well till then. I am awake but tired and sore and stiff and cranky.
:(
The week had started out SOOO GOOD!!!!
:(
*Grumble* My bank account went into the negative too with an NSF. Geez! It couldn't wait 24hrs for my paycheck?!?! *AAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!* And still not gov. money for school. (3weeks they told me)
Today:
work at store
post office to mail out a gift for a friend (his b-day was Monday) and check for books
teach CMS-L1
:(
The week had started out SOOO GOOD!!!!
:(
*Grumble* My bank account went into the negative too with an NSF. Geez! It couldn't wait 24hrs for my paycheck?!?! *AAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!* And still not gov. money for school. (3weeks they told me)
Today:
work at store
post office to mail out a gift for a friend (his b-day was Monday) and check for books
teach CMS-L1
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Day done with time to spare!
I finished the reading for homework AND the paper (oops missed a few points, oh well). Drove out and luckily found free parking! YAY!! I had a good preliminary meeting with the readers and laid some ground work for a future meeting. I missed the MA student orientations. That was disappointing. Just managed to get to class in the Archived Office. We were discovering this resource for the first time. Interesting.
I asked about internal club activity as I was the founder of CUPS (Concordia University Pagan Society... the longest running pagan club in a school) in 1994. They mentioned that the initial archiving of clubs is at CSU but anything else would be in this archival office. They had nothing of this club and she was very interested in having it. So now I am waiting for news from the current club president to see if they mind me collecting the chaotic pile of stuff known as the club's personal archives and bringing them over to be saved for all time. I will also go to the CSU and request the initial registration binder for the club as it was IMPRESSIVE.
I never got dinner. *pout* But the day went nicely and now I am home with time on my hands. Well, not alot of time. Firends would say "Great Scarlet... now use that little bit of spare time to chill and relax instead of packing it full of work from home work!" Hmmm... hmmmm... hmm... Maybe I will go rent a movie. Ya. There were a few new anime series out I wanted to see. So, ya. I am going to chill and relax with anime and nibble something yummy. I had a very late lunch so I am not truly hungry yet.
I asked about internal club activity as I was the founder of CUPS (Concordia University Pagan Society... the longest running pagan club in a school) in 1994. They mentioned that the initial archiving of clubs is at CSU but anything else would be in this archival office. They had nothing of this club and she was very interested in having it. So now I am waiting for news from the current club president to see if they mind me collecting the chaotic pile of stuff known as the club's personal archives and bringing them over to be saved for all time. I will also go to the CSU and request the initial registration binder for the club as it was IMPRESSIVE.
I never got dinner. *pout* But the day went nicely and now I am home with time on my hands. Well, not alot of time. Firends would say "Great Scarlet... now use that little bit of spare time to chill and relax instead of packing it full of work from home work!" Hmmm... hmmmm... hmm... Maybe I will go rent a movie. Ya. There were a few new anime series out I wanted to see. So, ya. I am going to chill and relax with anime and nibble something yummy. I had a very late lunch so I am not truly hungry yet.
Homework Day
YAY! I have a homework day!!! Normally people would fret and cringe, whine and fuss, and generally be miserable about having a day full of homework. ME? I am rejoicing! I actually have a day! A day to do my homework! Whereas, before I had no day nor timeslots for homework and was panicking about where and when to fit in homework time into my busy schedule.
So, today I am reading the third article and will then write the 2-pg paper on the articles to be handed in at class this evening.
I have a meeting today with the diviners at the store and a Religion MA grad students orientation too (at eh same time... darn).
This is a less stressful day.
I can feel the energy of Harvest coming too. I want to stay home and cook stuff. I want to go to the market and buy stuff. Sigh... have to wait though. Friday will be harvesting and cooking. I will meet folks (or not meet anyone and just go alone) and buy stuff at the Market. Then I think I will bake some Celtic Soda Bread. Mmmmm... that will be nice for Saturday night's coven meeting. Need to think about what else to do... um... berry coolies, bacon & egg rice, stew, frozen veggies, maybe something pickled, perhaps a jam, and mmmm... pie filling so I can make quick pies over winter. When I am done homework, if I have time, I will make a list of things I need.
So, today I am reading the third article and will then write the 2-pg paper on the articles to be handed in at class this evening.
I have a meeting today with the diviners at the store and a Religion MA grad students orientation too (at eh same time... darn).
This is a less stressful day.
I can feel the energy of Harvest coming too. I want to stay home and cook stuff. I want to go to the market and buy stuff. Sigh... have to wait though. Friday will be harvesting and cooking. I will meet folks (or not meet anyone and just go alone) and buy stuff at the Market. Then I think I will bake some Celtic Soda Bread. Mmmmm... that will be nice for Saturday night's coven meeting. Need to think about what else to do... um... berry coolies, bacon & egg rice, stew, frozen veggies, maybe something pickled, perhaps a jam, and mmmm... pie filling so I can make quick pies over winter. When I am done homework, if I have time, I will make a list of things I need.
Monday, September 19, 2005
2 Down
Well, I managed to read through two articles. The first was... well... I choked through it. Like trying to swallow a wad of crumpled paper. *kaaacchhh... hhhchch* Brutal dry and no real beneficial substance. The second was a fascinating look at the evolution of ethnographies in the 20th century. I loved it. But now I am tired and just cannot face reading a third article. So... #3 will be tomorrow, as will the writing of the 2-pg paper on the 3 articles.
Smooth Day
Today went just fine... for a change. I happily filled my craving for pizza and watched a movie. Now i am off to cram read through my methodology articles.
Morning all !
I slept on and off all night, but more on then off for a change. Carrying my heavy backpack on the weekend and doing the physio stretches (that I have been neglecting) has made me achy like I have been working out. Hmmm... I have been working out I guess.
Today:
work at store
readings for methodology class
write 2-pg response on thos readings (doubt I will get to that this evening)
I am off to get breakfast (novelty!) and get ready to go. Have a good day all.
See... massages DO imrpove one's mood and emotional state!
Today:
work at store
readings for methodology class
write 2-pg response on thos readings (doubt I will get to that this evening)
I am off to get breakfast (novelty!) and get ready to go. Have a good day all.
See... massages DO imrpove one's mood and emotional state!
Sunday, September 18, 2005
Progress is Good
The massage last night was so helpful and relieved so much stress. The long afternoon nap was extremely refreshing for my mind allowing me to be able to focus on other things... like homework!
I have finished all the writing homework I needed to to, including my transcribing to my Methodology of the study of Religion Blog. Hmmm... going to place a link on the sidebar for this.
Next chunks of homework include transcribing Quantum Spirituality notes and reading the articles for my next Methodology class.
I feel like I can tackle and handle the coming week. This is a MUCH better feeling than I have had in MONTHS! Thank you Rick... You have no idea how grateful I am!
I have finished all the writing homework I needed to to, including my transcribing to my Methodology of the study of Religion Blog. Hmmm... going to place a link on the sidebar for this.
Next chunks of homework include transcribing Quantum Spirituality notes and reading the articles for my next Methodology class.
I feel like I can tackle and handle the coming week. This is a MUCH better feeling than I have had in MONTHS! Thank you Rick... You have no idea how grateful I am!
2-day vanish
Well, last I posted was Friday night and it is now Sunday.
Saturday, I taught yet another fantastic Level 3A class. I love seeing them capture the information and run with its applications! I was packed and ready to go shortly after. I had some errands to run with M-SB and thus left a bit late, but that was fine. I arrived at Whispering Pines aching BAD from the drive. I dropped off stuff and gave some hugs. Then promptly drove the rest of the way to see Rick. If I did not leave... the chill would have set in and I would not have been able to do another drive.
I was a mess by the time I arrived at about 6pm. On time. In pain. Stressed "au but". Rick was a great host. We chatted lots and I got the absolutle best massage I have ever gotten in my life. I wonder why he doesn't do this for a living! It helped IMMENSELY!!! That and not having any obligations for an overnight. We watched movies and chatted advanced Craft stuff to which was great! I don't usually get an opportunity, especially outside of Fests, to chat advanced Craft much with folks who have been at it for a LONG time. I promised another visit... but I have no idea when I will get that next opportunity with work and school and all.
I managed to get home in time to teach today's class. But I am so tired. We chatted till the wee hours in the morning and so I slept little, but I was well refreshed. Recommendation: get a massage... you would be amazed how much stress accumulates in your muscles and how easily relieved the stress is with relaxing the muscles with massage. ANd true to what an Owl said, you don't notice the build-up till it is unbearable. Anyways, I taught what I think was a good class on Teaching.
Now... nap time.
Then, supper and homework.
I hope that my fianaces for school come through this week. I have lots to pay that is due Thursday! Ugh. Well, I don't want to lose the benefits of that great massage just yet. Nap time!
Saturday, I taught yet another fantastic Level 3A class. I love seeing them capture the information and run with its applications! I was packed and ready to go shortly after. I had some errands to run with M-SB and thus left a bit late, but that was fine. I arrived at Whispering Pines aching BAD from the drive. I dropped off stuff and gave some hugs. Then promptly drove the rest of the way to see Rick. If I did not leave... the chill would have set in and I would not have been able to do another drive.
I was a mess by the time I arrived at about 6pm. On time. In pain. Stressed "au but". Rick was a great host. We chatted lots and I got the absolutle best massage I have ever gotten in my life. I wonder why he doesn't do this for a living! It helped IMMENSELY!!! That and not having any obligations for an overnight. We watched movies and chatted advanced Craft stuff to which was great! I don't usually get an opportunity, especially outside of Fests, to chat advanced Craft much with folks who have been at it for a LONG time. I promised another visit... but I have no idea when I will get that next opportunity with work and school and all.
I managed to get home in time to teach today's class. But I am so tired. We chatted till the wee hours in the morning and so I slept little, but I was well refreshed. Recommendation: get a massage... you would be amazed how much stress accumulates in your muscles and how easily relieved the stress is with relaxing the muscles with massage. ANd true to what an Owl said, you don't notice the build-up till it is unbearable. Anyways, I taught what I think was a good class on Teaching.
Now... nap time.
Then, supper and homework.
I hope that my fianaces for school come through this week. I have lots to pay that is due Thursday! Ugh. Well, I don't want to lose the benefits of that great massage just yet. Nap time!
Friday, September 16, 2005
mini progress
I am finally done planning the Teacher's course for Sunday.
I am really tired now too. I want to transcribe my Methodology notes... but cannot think like that anymore. I think I will crab a nummy of some sort if there are any in the house and a drink and flop in bed with a Star Wars book.
Tomorrow:
shower
pack for overnight
breakfast
go to M&M with M-SB
get gas
pick up mail from pharmacy
drive to Whispering Pines for a short visit (drop of stuff and get/give hugs)
drive to Ottawa for visit and healing
What will I pack?
jammies
star wars book
methodology textbook
notebook
meditation candle, holder, and incense
camera
thank you gift of some sort
CRAP! Forgot to mail out something for a friend whose b-day is MONDAY! Damn. Guess it will be a late gifty.
There is just never enough hours in the day nor days in the week nor energy to do all the things I need to do.
I am really tired now too. I want to transcribe my Methodology notes... but cannot think like that anymore. I think I will crab a nummy of some sort if there are any in the house and a drink and flop in bed with a Star Wars book.
Tomorrow:
shower
pack for overnight
breakfast
go to M&M with M-SB
get gas
pick up mail from pharmacy
drive to Whispering Pines for a short visit (drop of stuff and get/give hugs)
drive to Ottawa for visit and healing
What will I pack?
jammies
star wars book
methodology textbook
notebook
meditation candle, holder, and incense
camera
thank you gift of some sort
CRAP! Forgot to mail out something for a friend whose b-day is MONDAY! Damn. Guess it will be a late gifty.
There is just never enough hours in the day nor days in the week nor energy to do all the things I need to do.
Progress is better... on other things...
Well, I managed to get done with banking and out to get squaw corn. Mmmmm... discovered yummy cream honey with mixed fruit puree. I bought strawberry. Aslo picked up some second hand Star Wars books. Now I have LOTS to keep me busy when my mind needs a break.
I bought M-SB a gift today. Noir. It is an anime series that we really liked and 3 DVD's were on an amazing special. I thought he would like them. And I rented a new series called Samurai 7. OMGs. It is AMAZING! It went onto my Amazon wish list... along with a ton of Asian books on Bushido, Samurai, Chado, Zen, etc.
I finished planning tomorrow's Level 3 class and set up the marker boards in the Livingroom/classroom.
Now I am working on the Teaching Specialty class.
My printer is almost out of ink. Damn. I need that student loan in ASAP so I can get another cartridge. There is only so often you can take it out and shake it before it is truly empty.
My teacher emailed to let me know she got my Response Paper. YAY! And she let me know the research topic I was to choose: "Zen Art and Japanese Culture" however, she does not have any books to recommend. Well... it is a start.
Now to finish the Sunday Teaching Specialty class prep.
I bought M-SB a gift today. Noir. It is an anime series that we really liked and 3 DVD's were on an amazing special. I thought he would like them. And I rented a new series called Samurai 7. OMGs. It is AMAZING! It went onto my Amazon wish list... along with a ton of Asian books on Bushido, Samurai, Chado, Zen, etc.
I finished planning tomorrow's Level 3 class and set up the marker boards in the Livingroom/classroom.
Now I am working on the Teaching Specialty class.
My printer is almost out of ink. Damn. I need that student loan in ASAP so I can get another cartridge. There is only so often you can take it out and shake it before it is truly empty.
My teacher emailed to let me know she got my Response Paper. YAY! And she let me know the research topic I was to choose: "Zen Art and Japanese Culture" however, she does not have any books to recommend. Well... it is a start.
Now to finish the Sunday Teaching Specialty class prep.
Swiped from Ms. Carrotte's LJ
create your own visited states map
or check out these Google Hacks.
Funny! I seem to have skipped a couple states. I wasn't sure if I should have included the states I flew over so I didn't. These are the places I actually walked the land of.
paper done
YAY... the 2-page paper is done. Now to do the errands I had planned.
-market
-post office
-provigo downtown
-mom's
-M&M's for yummy meatballs
When I get home, I have lots of homework and course planning to do. I think I will also get a movie to watch and relax with. Need some semi relax time to give my brain a break.
-market
-post office
-provigo downtown
-mom's
-M&M's for yummy meatballs
When I get home, I have lots of homework and course planning to do. I think I will also get a movie to watch and relax with. Need some semi relax time to give my brain a break.
Progress on SLOW!
Work was ok... kinda rushed. I left at 12:30pm. Got to the bank and was seen by 1pm and filled out all the paperwork. Then was informed that there was a huge backlog of applicants and it might take as much as 3 weeks before i get money. THREE WEEKS!?! Argh!
Now I have to wait. And next Tuesday go make a payment plan with the school.
Then i get home to find out one of the books I ordered for school was cancelled (my visa refunded) and I have to order again from a different location. ARGH!!! I ordered it new from Amazon. It will be here in 2 business days.
Now I ma inhaling a frozen dinner and working on my paper.
Now I have to wait. And next Tuesday go make a payment plan with the school.
Then i get home to find out one of the books I ordered for school was cancelled (my visa refunded) and I have to order again from a different location. ARGH!!! I ordered it new from Amazon. It will be here in 2 business days.
Now I ma inhaling a frozen dinner and working on my paper.
Bleh
I feel bleh. Must be the hot chocolate with marshmellows I had last night. I was exhausted. Still am. Slept lots but it was all broken by kinda waking every couple hours. I need a few days OFF to just relax, recoup, and sleep.
And I just realized... I have not gotten back to my thesis that needs to be submitted before October 15th.
Nor have I had time to look at the notices that the Religion Grad department have sent me about Grants and Awards and stuff.
Today:
- work till noon when other girl arrives
- bank
- write 2-pg paper
- hand in paper
- pick up 5 squaw corns
- review Level 3A class and prep it
- go to get info from mom for Teachers Course Sunday
- plan Sunday's class
- transcribe Methodology notes into blog
- read methodology articles
- rework thesis into Chicago Manual of Style format
- LONG long LONG hot shower
- pack for overnight in Ottawa
And I just realized... I have not gotten back to my thesis that needs to be submitted before October 15th.
Nor have I had time to look at the notices that the Religion Grad department have sent me about Grants and Awards and stuff.
Today:
- work till noon when other girl arrives
- bank
- write 2-pg paper
- hand in paper
- pick up 5 squaw corns
- review Level 3A class and prep it
- go to get info from mom for Teachers Course Sunday
- plan Sunday's class
- transcribe Methodology notes into blog
- read methodology articles
- rework thesis into Chicago Manual of Style format
- LONG long LONG hot shower
- pack for overnight in Ottawa
Thursday, September 15, 2005
rough... and exhausted
I have the rough draft of the paper. All point form and hand-written scribblings. I am completely exhausted and no longer able to focus clearly. I think it is time to try to sleep. I will work on it more tomorrow. Maybe on the laptop, maybe at home if the banking goes fast. I will print and drop it off before 5pm for sure.
G'night all.
Wish me smooth going tomorrow.
G'night all.
Wish me smooth going tomorrow.
Improved Evening
I got my Guaruntee Certificate. I also found out that it is for my loan AND my bursaries. COOL! Now I just need to be able to get to my bank branch and get it finalized. *relieved* I grabbed a donut for some sugar energy before class. The students were all sitting on the department stairs discussing the trials and tribulations of getting books that are out of print for the course. I told them about www.bookfinder.com and wished them luck getting copies. I expect mine end of next week. The CSU (Concordia Student Union) was having a street bar/concert for the week. The have McKay all blocked off with bouncers on either end, a huge stage with bands playing, and beer being sold under a tarp tent thing. Great. Students will be in class with alcohol in their systems. Ugh.
The class went well. I think I am learning alot. There is a ton of information and his experience is invaluable! But I am still uncertain as to what is expected of me for a grade. Then got home to M-SB wanting to go get groceries and eat. YAY! He bought me dinner. *sweet* Good thing too... I was... hmmm... beyond spacy. Another hour and I would have passed out for sure. I could not even speak a clear sentence. It was frustrating.
Speaking of school and grades. I have to write that 2-pg response tonight.
And my back hurts. I am on super advils... and no help. I really hope Rick can work a small, even if it is only temporary, miracle with his healing technique. And of course, his and Danica's hugs will be wonderful and therapeutic.
Tomorrow, I will have to leave work early to handle the bank stuff. Must remember to drop of the response paper, get squaw corn for Danica's ritual from the market, and get yellow noodles from provigo. Once done with the bank, I have to go to my parents' place. Mom has some helpful books for my Teaching Specialty course I am giving. Then... as I am planning to be away overnight Saturday to Sunday... I will have to plan the Level 3A class and the Teachers' class Friday night. When that is done... transcribe my Methodology notes and start homework. I can finish the homework Sunday night or Monday night.
Ok... off to write 2 pages...
The class went well. I think I am learning alot. There is a ton of information and his experience is invaluable! But I am still uncertain as to what is expected of me for a grade. Then got home to M-SB wanting to go get groceries and eat. YAY! He bought me dinner. *sweet* Good thing too... I was... hmmm... beyond spacy. Another hour and I would have passed out for sure. I could not even speak a clear sentence. It was frustrating.
Speaking of school and grades. I have to write that 2-pg response tonight.
And my back hurts. I am on super advils... and no help. I really hope Rick can work a small, even if it is only temporary, miracle with his healing technique. And of course, his and Danica's hugs will be wonderful and therapeutic.
Tomorrow, I will have to leave work early to handle the bank stuff. Must remember to drop of the response paper, get squaw corn for Danica's ritual from the market, and get yellow noodles from provigo. Once done with the bank, I have to go to my parents' place. Mom has some helpful books for my Teaching Specialty course I am giving. Then... as I am planning to be away overnight Saturday to Sunday... I will have to plan the Level 3A class and the Teachers' class Friday night. When that is done... transcribe my Methodology notes and start homework. I can finish the homework Sunday night or Monday night.
Ok... off to write 2 pages...
Stress went up a notch...
Work was a bit frantic this morning. More so as I went after not managing to get through on Financial Aid Quebec. No news as to where my $1524 laon is... supposedly mailed out to the school as of September 6th. Then there was scheduling frustrations that I doubt will improve. But I am not feeling very forgiving this week. I hate feeling all stressed and I hate even more that I might accidentally dump on someone else, which is NOT in my nature, so i am stressing about that to... that I might. ARG! I got half the things done at work I wanted to do. *annoyed and frantic* I hardly got a chance to eat. I was supposed to have a meeting today, but the person felt it was not necessary or thought I was too stressed and frantic to talk to. That idea bothers me too. I want to be approachable. Something SOMEWHERE has to give!!! GODS!
I came home with the intension of relaxing a bit like I did Tuesday and eating beofre class. Instead I had to listen to my mom freak at me for money for the car. I am still waiting!!! We spat at each other a bit. The computer for Concordia finally showed that my Guarunee Certificate was in. GREAT! I get to pick it up. DAMN! I have to go stand in line and hope I make it to class. So off I went... without a meal. I missed the shuttle bus and took my car and drove and drove till I finally found parking.
So here I am at the computer in the University Financial Aid office waiting for my number to be called so I can get that certificate. Once I get it, I will have to take it to my bank branch. That will be... gods... when? Tomorrow? I will have to see about leaving work early just to sort that out.
Stressed and frantic and wow... back still hurts and I forgot to bring advil with me. I just wanna curl up and scream and cry. I still have homework to do to hand in TOMORROW and 2 classes to plan and prepare for. And more homework for Tuesday. I can hardly think straight!!
I came home with the intension of relaxing a bit like I did Tuesday and eating beofre class. Instead I had to listen to my mom freak at me for money for the car. I am still waiting!!! We spat at each other a bit. The computer for Concordia finally showed that my Guarunee Certificate was in. GREAT! I get to pick it up. DAMN! I have to go stand in line and hope I make it to class. So off I went... without a meal. I missed the shuttle bus and took my car and drove and drove till I finally found parking.
So here I am at the computer in the University Financial Aid office waiting for my number to be called so I can get that certificate. Once I get it, I will have to take it to my bank branch. That will be... gods... when? Tomorrow? I will have to see about leaving work early just to sort that out.
Stressed and frantic and wow... back still hurts and I forgot to bring advil with me. I just wanna curl up and scream and cry. I still have homework to do to hand in TOMORROW and 2 classes to plan and prepare for. And more homework for Tuesday. I can hardly think straight!!
*ow*
My back hurts. Aching from top to bottom and stabbing in various places. I will try a hot shower tonight to hopefully loosen the muscles.
I managed some sleep. Miracle of miracles. The sleep was a near solid 6 hrs. WOW! But I am still VERY tired!!
I deposited my pay yesterday, paid the photocopies for the student reading packs, purchased my 3 tough to get Tibet textbooks second hand online (they should arrive by the 24th YAY!), paid some little bills (Gaz, the cell phones, my visa). The big bills are still pending. I am thinking I will do the payment plan for the student fees at Concordia to allow my loan to pay off more bills.
Yesterday I was so wiped that I didn't do homework. I went to bed. Today bodes to be just as busy. I have work till 3pm, a meeting over coffee/tea, home to homework, off to class, home to more homework. Oh... and NO, my laon is NOT in yet. *stressed*
I managed some sleep. Miracle of miracles. The sleep was a near solid 6 hrs. WOW! But I am still VERY tired!!
I deposited my pay yesterday, paid the photocopies for the student reading packs, purchased my 3 tough to get Tibet textbooks second hand online (they should arrive by the 24th YAY!), paid some little bills (Gaz, the cell phones, my visa). The big bills are still pending. I am thinking I will do the payment plan for the student fees at Concordia to allow my loan to pay off more bills.
Yesterday I was so wiped that I didn't do homework. I went to bed. Today bodes to be just as busy. I have work till 3pm, a meeting over coffee/tea, home to homework, off to class, home to more homework. Oh... and NO, my laon is NOT in yet. *stressed*
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Soup note
Whole wheat crackers, especially ones that are unknown months old, in wonton chicken soup broth... is BLEH!
Busier than anticipated
I was practically scrambling all day! working out databasing, figuring out how to function in certain environments, handling some unnecissary tension, booking meetings, sorting out purchase ordering, fixing stuff, running errands... I ate a tiny soup and a croissant all day! ARG! ANd then I never got to tackle the training I wanted to do with the new girl, and never did the printing I wanted for her either. Damn. Then I had class to teach and STILL had not eaten!!!
Class was amazing. We have 2 more students. Big class of 7!! And all fantastic and dynamic and interesting and what a joy it is to teach with Hobbes!
Now I am home and feeling a bit stressed but at least not a basket-case. Hungry too. A bit spacy from working and teaching about energy and not eating. M-SB is fixing that. He is making wonton soup. In my current state, I might burn down the house trying to cook. It is safer that he does it.
After I get some food in me, I will tackle homework...
OOoooo... and pay some VISA so I can get my books!!! YAY!!!
Class was amazing. We have 2 more students. Big class of 7!! And all fantastic and dynamic and interesting and what a joy it is to teach with Hobbes!
Now I am home and feeling a bit stressed but at least not a basket-case. Hungry too. A bit spacy from working and teaching about energy and not eating. M-SB is fixing that. He is making wonton soup. In my current state, I might burn down the house trying to cook. It is safer that he does it.
After I get some food in me, I will tackle homework...
OOoooo... and pay some VISA so I can get my books!!! YAY!!!
Busy Day
Today I want to finish off training the new girl at work and post a help wanted sign. Need someone for Tuesdays and Thursdays and maybe one more day. I need those 2 days off... or at the very least Tuesdays off.
Then I teach CMS Level 1 with Hobbes. He starts off the class. I think he will do fantastically. I will help out for the histiry stuff and then just poke in to help now and again but essentially leave him to the class. He will do fine. I have to deposit my paycheck in the middle of the day and use it to buy the student reading packs.
When I get home I will work on that respnse paper I need to hand in. And maybe do some of the class's notes into the course blog. And pay a few bills with my paycheck... Though none of the big ones that need paying. Patience. My loan will come in. Just not today according to the online thingy at school.
Then I teach CMS Level 1 with Hobbes. He starts off the class. I think he will do fantastically. I will help out for the histiry stuff and then just poke in to help now and again but essentially leave him to the class. He will do fine. I have to deposit my paycheck in the middle of the day and use it to buy the student reading packs.
When I get home I will work on that respnse paper I need to hand in. And maybe do some of the class's notes into the course blog. And pay a few bills with my paycheck... Though none of the big ones that need paying. Patience. My loan will come in. Just not today according to the online thingy at school.
Ended ok...
After the nasty day, I had taken a small nibble of pasta and relaxed for 30min. It helped me focus and I managed to skim through the readings I needed for the class. I also managed one of the 2 assignments, though not the 2-pg response, thankfully I have till Friday for that. I will try to get it done for Thursday.
Class went fine. I was stressing that these people were more academic minded than I and that I was out of my league thus out of my mind for being there. But, I did fine. It definately is a different way of thinking and challenges me much. I left the class feeling a bit more confident.
I came home feeling not so freaked out. Had left-over pinapple chicken Thai rice for supper. Mmmm. Then just chatted for the evening. Also reviewed what will be taught today in the CMS Level 1 class. Hobbes is doing a great job.
So... the day ended ok. This is a rough week. I just need to hold out till Saturday.
Class went fine. I was stressing that these people were more academic minded than I and that I was out of my league thus out of my mind for being there. But, I did fine. It definately is a different way of thinking and challenges me much. I left the class feeling a bit more confident.
I came home feeling not so freaked out. Had left-over pinapple chicken Thai rice for supper. Mmmm. Then just chatted for the evening. Also reviewed what will be taught today in the CMS Level 1 class. Hobbes is doing a great job.
So... the day ended ok. This is a rough week. I just need to hold out till Saturday.
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Not progressing good...
After the morning, I managed to get into work a few minutes early ... like 3... to find it had already been opened... so I felt like I was late. Informed them I could not stay. Stuck around to do some special orders and order some books then off to school.
Stood in line at Financial Aid for 2 hrs and read about 6pgs of stuff while there. They told me my Guaruntee Certificate was NOT actually IN and I would have to come back when it was. The mail is being very slow and I can expect it like Thursday or Friday. That messes up ALL my finances like paying school on the Monday deadline. I asked what about that, because I did not want to be deregistered. They said they no longer give out deferrals for students awaiting loans and that they will have to just make a payment arrangement with the accounts office or be deregistered. WHAT!!!???!!! *see Scarlet get real hysterical inside* They sent me up to the office upstairs where I waited another hour. They could do nothing for me and sent me to the accounts office. I went and waited another 30min there and re-explained things for the 4th time or 5th time (as I had to explain this to multiple people in the same offices I had already waited in). She said wait till Monday to see if my loan comes in then make payment arrangements. They will not deregister me from my Fall courses, just my winter ones and those I can reregister for.
I accomplished NO focues homework whatsoever! So off I went a hysterical mess to my teacher to explain it all to her and that I will not have my 2-pg response for her this evening. SHe was understanding and reassuring. Told me to get what I can get done and hand it in by Friday. That will make me so behind for next week too. I will try to finish it up this evening and tomorrow evening.
I cannot do a damnable thing for my Tibet class homework. I cannot get the books till I get my loan. And I cannot borrow it from mom, I owe her stuff already.
I used some of my emergency $20 and picked up bread and eggs. Got home all out of sorts. I had not eaten all day. I just now nibbled some left-over pasta. I have no energy and feel completely fucked up. I don't even want to go to tonight's class. Tired, frustrated, stressed. I think i might lie down for a few minutes. Is this what having a nervous breakdown feels like?
Stood in line at Financial Aid for 2 hrs and read about 6pgs of stuff while there. They told me my Guaruntee Certificate was NOT actually IN and I would have to come back when it was. The mail is being very slow and I can expect it like Thursday or Friday. That messes up ALL my finances like paying school on the Monday deadline. I asked what about that, because I did not want to be deregistered. They said they no longer give out deferrals for students awaiting loans and that they will have to just make a payment arrangement with the accounts office or be deregistered. WHAT!!!???!!! *see Scarlet get real hysterical inside* They sent me up to the office upstairs where I waited another hour. They could do nothing for me and sent me to the accounts office. I went and waited another 30min there and re-explained things for the 4th time or 5th time (as I had to explain this to multiple people in the same offices I had already waited in). She said wait till Monday to see if my loan comes in then make payment arrangements. They will not deregister me from my Fall courses, just my winter ones and those I can reregister for.
I accomplished NO focues homework whatsoever! So off I went a hysterical mess to my teacher to explain it all to her and that I will not have my 2-pg response for her this evening. SHe was understanding and reassuring. Told me to get what I can get done and hand it in by Friday. That will make me so behind for next week too. I will try to finish it up this evening and tomorrow evening.
I cannot do a damnable thing for my Tibet class homework. I cannot get the books till I get my loan. And I cannot borrow it from mom, I owe her stuff already.
I used some of my emergency $20 and picked up bread and eggs. Got home all out of sorts. I had not eaten all day. I just now nibbled some left-over pasta. I have no energy and feel completely fucked up. I don't even want to go to tonight's class. Tired, frustrated, stressed. I think i might lie down for a few minutes. Is this what having a nervous breakdown feels like?
Not starting out good...
AK... I reread my Financial Aid notice.
A Guarantee Certificate has been issued for your full-time studies. The financial assistance office of your educational institution will give it to you on the date it has set according to your study situation. You can then have the certificate authenticated by your financial institution. Please note that we cannot pay out your financial assistance until your certificate has been authenticated.
SHIT!!! I have to go stand in that stupid line today and then get to my bank and then do homework and go to class. I HAVE to leave work early for this. DAMMIT!
And today I am cramping and feel crappy. Probably why I was an emotional basketcase last night. Maybe it is "that time of month? With being over stressed and overtired... Ugh.
*grumble* So I get no loan this week... until I do this stuff they ask me. Pending debts are getting frustrated. And I know my paycheck will not cover these... not the things due now and tomorrow. Mayb I will ask for my vacation in a pay and not take days off. That might give be an extra bit. I will ask the accountant at work today.
Pending payments:
School - $726.03 (due Sept 20th)
Mom (car) - $250 (due NOW now now)
Hydro - $250 (due Sept 14th)
Bell - $100 (due Sept 14th)
CMS printing - $100-150 (due Sept 14th)
QPB - $50 (due a while ago)
MC - $2400 (due whenever I can pay it... asap)
VISA - $75 (to cover stuffs by Sept 25th)
Sympatico - $54 (due September 20th)
A Guarantee Certificate has been issued for your full-time studies. The financial assistance office of your educational institution will give it to you on the date it has set according to your study situation. You can then have the certificate authenticated by your financial institution. Please note that we cannot pay out your financial assistance until your certificate has been authenticated.
SHIT!!! I have to go stand in that stupid line today and then get to my bank and then do homework and go to class. I HAVE to leave work early for this. DAMMIT!
And today I am cramping and feel crappy. Probably why I was an emotional basketcase last night. Maybe it is "that time of month? With being over stressed and overtired... Ugh.
*grumble* So I get no loan this week... until I do this stuff they ask me. Pending debts are getting frustrated. And I know my paycheck will not cover these... not the things due now and tomorrow. Mayb I will ask for my vacation in a pay and not take days off. That might give be an extra bit. I will ask the accountant at work today.
Pending payments:
School - $726.03 (due Sept 20th)
Mom (car) - $250 (due NOW now now)
Hydro - $250 (due Sept 14th)
Bell - $100 (due Sept 14th)
CMS printing - $100-150 (due Sept 14th)
QPB - $50 (due a while ago)
MC - $2400 (due whenever I can pay it... asap)
VISA - $75 (to cover stuffs by Sept 25th)
Sympatico - $54 (due September 20th)
Don't ask...
I tried to sleep. I really did. I was even tired. But going to bed early and not blidly exhausted means my mind and heart wanders. This was a BAD night emotionally. Excuse me while I feel unstable. Please don't ask the details.
I am so very stressed over so many things. Especially... what am I doing with this life of mine? I thought I knew. I am doing stuff... but am I doing the right things?
Feeling kinda freaky...
I wish I had not started the semester on empty...
With no ... nothing and no one to lean on.
If this is nonsense, which it likely is considering the hour and how frustrated and exhausted I am, then just ignore all this. Just Scarlet having a flippy moment. I'll recover and be normal by morning.
Some song lyrics running through my mind:
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into piecesCan't deny it, can't pretend
Broken up, deep inside
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Voices tell me I should carry on
I’m all out of faith, this is how I feel
I’m cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I’m wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
but still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
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I told you this was a bad night. Ugh... my back hurting does not help. *tears* Gotta go dry the cat. I knew that pain would come. More advil. Then bury myself under my blankets and pretend this night didn't happen and pray tomorrow I have the energy to get through the day. Thanks gods I bought 2 energy drinks. I am so going to need them.
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Don't look at me
Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, i saw debris
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed
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Ok... to bed with me... I am being completely STUPID!
I am so very stressed over so many things. Especially... what am I doing with this life of mine? I thought I knew. I am doing stuff... but am I doing the right things?
Feeling kinda freaky...
I wish I had not started the semester on empty...
With no ... nothing and no one to lean on.
If this is nonsense, which it likely is considering the hour and how frustrated and exhausted I am, then just ignore all this. Just Scarlet having a flippy moment. I'll recover and be normal by morning.
Some song lyrics running through my mind:
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into piecesCan't deny it, can't pretend
Broken up, deep inside
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Voices tell me I should carry on
I’m all out of faith, this is how I feel
I’m cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I’m wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
but still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone
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I told you this was a bad night. Ugh... my back hurting does not help. *tears* Gotta go dry the cat. I knew that pain would come. More advil. Then bury myself under my blankets and pretend this night didn't happen and pray tomorrow I have the energy to get through the day. Thanks gods I bought 2 energy drinks. I am so going to need them.
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Don't look at me
Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, i saw debris
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed
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Ok... to bed with me... I am being completely STUPID!
Monday, September 12, 2005
Pissy Day
The started out ok... then got well.. pissy. It was nice to see some folks drop in. It was frustrated to not see others I needed to see nor get things done that I needed to do. I never got to work on homework. And thus am FREAKING. AND I have to work tomorrow. I might "not work" and just "oversee" while I work on homework. School is WAY more my priority.
I got the spellcrafting students sorted out. Their BOS's look real good and I feel they are ready to take on an apprenticeship position. Now... the fledgelings have been kicked from the nest. Time to see them fly a bit on their own! YAY!
Got home to awesome pasta with M-SB's homemade sauce.
I need a de-stressor. My back has gone from hurting to patches of numbness. I know that mean worse than bad. It means nerve pinching. It means the moment things ease even a little the pain will be blinding. But I know that relax time is needed. So... I ate, will take drugs and relax in front of Harry Potter : Prisoner of Azkaban before I tackle homework.
Gods... homework.
Reading. Highlighting. Reading. Digesting what was read. Writing a 2-page response to the material. Planning noted for discussion based on what was read. All by 6pm tomorrow.
I can hold out. Till Saturday. I have a massage and evening of no obligations awaiting me. I will look forward to that and it will carry me through this week. I hope. (thank you Danica and Rick!)
I got the spellcrafting students sorted out. Their BOS's look real good and I feel they are ready to take on an apprenticeship position. Now... the fledgelings have been kicked from the nest. Time to see them fly a bit on their own! YAY!
Got home to awesome pasta with M-SB's homemade sauce.
I need a de-stressor. My back has gone from hurting to patches of numbness. I know that mean worse than bad. It means nerve pinching. It means the moment things ease even a little the pain will be blinding. But I know that relax time is needed. So... I ate, will take drugs and relax in front of Harry Potter : Prisoner of Azkaban before I tackle homework.
Gods... homework.
Reading. Highlighting. Reading. Digesting what was read. Writing a 2-page response to the material. Planning noted for discussion based on what was read. All by 6pm tomorrow.
I can hold out. Till Saturday. I have a massage and evening of no obligations awaiting me. I will look forward to that and it will carry me through this week. I hope. (thank you Danica and Rick!)
Woke tired
But a bit more alert. I was in bed by 1am. Early by my standard bedtimes of late. ANd the sleep was ok. I have work all day today. Then I an going over the Spellcrafting Specialty students' BOS's and discussing apprenticeship with them. When I get home... I have to read read read till I drop.
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Homework
YAY!!! I have finally updated my notes on the methodology blog. AT LAST! That is the notes. I have yet to do the readings and the 2-page paper on those readings. Ugh...
http://reli-methods.blogspot.com/
http://reli-methods.blogspot.com/
Great Class!
I would like to thank my students for an awesome class today. It was relaxed and full of rich dialogue and sharing. Excellent! See you all next week to discuss curriculum, class lesson plans and evaluation/assessment methods.
Now to pack my blankets and my homework and head out to my parents' place. I will be logged in there in MSN if anyone is trying to find me. (scarletcougar@hotmail.com) And by the way... NEVER email me at that address. I only ever check it like once a month... maybe.
Now to pack my blankets and my homework and head out to my parents' place. I will be logged in there in MSN if anyone is trying to find me. (scarletcougar@hotmail.com) And by the way... NEVER email me at that address. I only ever check it like once a month... maybe.
Alive
Well, I am alive. I slept some last night. So, I feel less like I will die today. I am still tired, but less moody. A little more alert and focused. Yesterday I had spent almost 3 hrs reworking course noted from my Methodology class into a great blog and then did something (dunno what, was too tired to know clearly) as I saved and loaded I lost most of it. I could have screamed lots last night. Resulted in me feeling much discouraged. So, today I will have to redo it.
For now, I have a new class. Teaching Specialty. One or two of the people who want to take it are out of town, but I will start with three student today. I think I have a plan I like. It will be a first run of this program. I am looking forward to it. It is interesting and fun to teach more advnaced stuff. Next semester I will open up the programs to the public for individual classes. Meaning... while say, Level 2 progresses and in class #2 of the program is Stone Lore, the 2hrs devoted to Stone Lore will be also open to the public to register for just that class. That way there is no trying to schedule the same classes at a different time for public registration. I would do that I think for levels 1 & 2. It is harder for 3 & 4 because that are at my apartment where I would rather the public was not. Once these teachers are ready though, I can get them started on teaching individual classes to the public so it is not always me.
I have also considered a free discussion day too. like the third Friday of every month at the MPRC. Something to stir interest in both the MPRC and the subject of the discussion/dialogue. I will think on that more... I have alot on my plate right now.
Today I teach the Teaching Specialty over brunch, then head out to my parents' to visit with my brother and his family. Must bring big blanket laundry and homework with me.
Danika is so right... I need a weekend with no demands/obligations. Just tp replenish a little.
Gods oh Gods... please help me carry on this semester.
For now, I have a new class. Teaching Specialty. One or two of the people who want to take it are out of town, but I will start with three student today. I think I have a plan I like. It will be a first run of this program. I am looking forward to it. It is interesting and fun to teach more advnaced stuff. Next semester I will open up the programs to the public for individual classes. Meaning... while say, Level 2 progresses and in class #2 of the program is Stone Lore, the 2hrs devoted to Stone Lore will be also open to the public to register for just that class. That way there is no trying to schedule the same classes at a different time for public registration. I would do that I think for levels 1 & 2. It is harder for 3 & 4 because that are at my apartment where I would rather the public was not. Once these teachers are ready though, I can get them started on teaching individual classes to the public so it is not always me.
I have also considered a free discussion day too. like the third Friday of every month at the MPRC. Something to stir interest in both the MPRC and the subject of the discussion/dialogue. I will think on that more... I have alot on my plate right now.
Today I teach the Teaching Specialty over brunch, then head out to my parents' to visit with my brother and his family. Must bring big blanket laundry and homework with me.
Danika is so right... I need a weekend with no demands/obligations. Just tp replenish a little.
Gods oh Gods... please help me carry on this semester.
Empty
Still running on empty. Empty of energy, patience, emotions, will... and gas and money at the moment too. Feeling very discouraged and not knowing how I will manage. Curling in a ball under the blankets alone is so not helping either.
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Saturday, September 10, 2005
out of my mind!!!
I must have been what I made that list of today's to do's. What happened? I am running on less that empty. But still running. Ugh. I had a terrible time waking and could hardly get focused to teach today. I was a bit moody over milk for oatmeal. *rolls eyes* I gave up.
Taught a good class though. Discussed discrimination and diplomacy. Introduced basics of spellcasting. It went smooth and then I left the students to have fun planning their first spell. They left around 1:30pm.
I napped, sorta. Hunted for schoolbooks online with little success. Then drove to a Tibetan Buddhist temple in Verdun for some info. They were closed. Phooey. Came hope and started working on the Teaching Specialty program. M-SB made supper, thankfully. Sometimes, I wonder what I would do without him! Starve likely. I worked out the first class for tomorrow and the first assignment. Then a rough plan for the following classes. My printer is almost out of ink. DAMN! That cartridge is like $140. I need my student loan ASAP. Hmmm... I might have a paycheck from the vet. I should go check. I think I will do that after I scribble down the last of the notes I will need for tomorrow.
Now I need a break. Hmmm... check for paycheck, return movie to videostore, get and watch a new movie, eat a millefeuille. Mmmmm... ya.
Then I will do homework. And blog it!!! I have so not had time to do that this week. *grumble* But I will tonight. I NEED to. Besides... that is FUN!
Taught a good class though. Discussed discrimination and diplomacy. Introduced basics of spellcasting. It went smooth and then I left the students to have fun planning their first spell. They left around 1:30pm.
I napped, sorta. Hunted for schoolbooks online with little success. Then drove to a Tibetan Buddhist temple in Verdun for some info. They were closed. Phooey. Came hope and started working on the Teaching Specialty program. M-SB made supper, thankfully. Sometimes, I wonder what I would do without him! Starve likely. I worked out the first class for tomorrow and the first assignment. Then a rough plan for the following classes. My printer is almost out of ink. DAMN! That cartridge is like $140. I need my student loan ASAP. Hmmm... I might have a paycheck from the vet. I should go check. I think I will do that after I scribble down the last of the notes I will need for tomorrow.
Now I need a break. Hmmm... check for paycheck, return movie to videostore, get and watch a new movie, eat a millefeuille. Mmmmm... ya.
Then I will do homework. And blog it!!! I have so not had time to do that this week. *grumble* But I will tonight. I NEED to. Besides... that is FUN!
Planning-mania
Today... well I slept ok with a couple breaks (not that I have ever really slept through the night). And it is bloody cold!!! Temps are dropping and it really feels like Fall now. Must dress warn and clean out the teapot and kettle to make it ready for coffee and tea for students.
Today I start the CMS Level 3A class.
When I am done:
- finish cleaning bedroom
- plan Teaching Specialty
- Methodology blog and homework
- Thesis to Chicago Manual of Style
- Ethnography of Montreal Pagan Community to article format
- sort student files
- sort hall shelving
- dig out useful and helpful old notes for Tibetan Buddhism class
- pray my loan for school arrives Monday
- sleep more
Tomorrow I teach the Teaching Specialty class and then go to my Partents' place to visit with my brother and his family as they are in town from British Columbia. I will bring my big blanket laundry with me and my homework. and sho off the journals that I am going to submit stuff for publication.
:D
GODS!!! There is SO MUCH reading!!!! I have no idea how I will survive this semester with all the work I have.
Ok... students will arrive in the hour. Need to get dressed and prepped.
Today I start the CMS Level 3A class.
When I am done:
- finish cleaning bedroom
- plan Teaching Specialty
- Methodology blog and homework
- Thesis to Chicago Manual of Style
- Ethnography of Montreal Pagan Community to article format
- sort student files
- sort hall shelving
- dig out useful and helpful old notes for Tibetan Buddhism class
- pray my loan for school arrives Monday
- sleep more
Tomorrow I teach the Teaching Specialty class and then go to my Partents' place to visit with my brother and his family as they are in town from British Columbia. I will bring my big blanket laundry with me and my homework. and sho off the journals that I am going to submit stuff for publication.
:D
GODS!!! There is SO MUCH reading!!!! I have no idea how I will survive this semester with all the work I have.
Ok... students will arrive in the hour. Need to get dressed and prepped.
Friday, September 09, 2005
Oh well...
I just finished eating. Now I am too tired to do ANYTHING. Guess I will go to bed early and figure out the class tomorrow morning. Setting alarm for um... 7am (so I can reset it for 8am). 2-3 hrs before the class should be enough time to review what I want to do and tidy a bit and... maybe consider breakfast.
Sleep well all.
Sleep well all.
All kinds of freaked out
Wondering if I am being scammed. Then wondering more why they even have my name and who gave it to them. Ok... I should back track on the day a bit.
Worked... worked worked worked. Worked LONG!!! But the main bulk of the work is done.
My back hurts. My hip hurts. My tooth aches.
The $5 I put into gas on the way home barely moved the reader dial over the empty line. *SAD*
Home. Meditated and sent some energy along for a magical working.
Now... tired. And all kinds of freaked out. In the mail was a US stamped envelope. Stamped from Records Division Fort Lauderdale. Then Stamped Fort Erie. And of all things... in the name of Scarlet Jory not T. Scarlet Jory. I don't want to read into this... but it sure makes me wonder... wonder about Mike. Anyways, upon opening, it turns out to be a ticket for a cruise vacation with a $1600 gift certifiacte for the vacation. And the spooky things is that it is to the places Mike and I discussed going on a cruise to. ALL KINDS OF FREAKED OUT and trying not to read into it... *hear me failing* It is one of those limited time things... "respond in 72 hrs" kind of deals. Looks a whole lot more official than any of the other "vacation" scams I have seen over the years.
So... what do I do? *see Scarlet set it aside too frwaked out to touch it*
I am going to go eat food. Then clean more bedroom. Then do more homework. Then plan a course. Then continue to be freaked out. Then maybe go to bed.
Worked... worked worked worked. Worked LONG!!! But the main bulk of the work is done.
My back hurts. My hip hurts. My tooth aches.
The $5 I put into gas on the way home barely moved the reader dial over the empty line. *SAD*
Home. Meditated and sent some energy along for a magical working.
Now... tired. And all kinds of freaked out. In the mail was a US stamped envelope. Stamped from Records Division Fort Lauderdale. Then Stamped Fort Erie. And of all things... in the name of Scarlet Jory not T. Scarlet Jory. I don't want to read into this... but it sure makes me wonder... wonder about Mike. Anyways, upon opening, it turns out to be a ticket for a cruise vacation with a $1600 gift certifiacte for the vacation. And the spooky things is that it is to the places Mike and I discussed going on a cruise to. ALL KINDS OF FREAKED OUT and trying not to read into it... *hear me failing* It is one of those limited time things... "respond in 72 hrs" kind of deals. Looks a whole lot more official than any of the other "vacation" scams I have seen over the years.
So... what do I do? *see Scarlet set it aside too frwaked out to touch it*
I am going to go eat food. Then clean more bedroom. Then do more homework. Then plan a course. Then continue to be freaked out. Then maybe go to bed.
*moan*
I am so so so sooooo tired. This has been a rough busy exhausting week. I was up till 2am trying to clean my room. I only got 1/3 of the way around the clounterclockwise round from the door. I tried to sleep after, but couldn't. I read some of a graphic novel I got yesterday in the mail... till 3:30am. Ugh.
I for got to burn CD's for Valerie. I am burning Chimera now for her. The other CD's are at work.
I found my Ethnography of the Montreal Pagan Community. I might make that also into an article for publication in the academic journals.
Today will be long and busy: get gas, work at store, work extra hours at store, homework, magic work for New Orleans, clean more bedroom, update course blog, plan weekend classes, CRASH
I for got to burn CD's for Valerie. I am burning Chimera now for her. The other CD's are at work.
I found my Ethnography of the Montreal Pagan Community. I might make that also into an article for publication in the academic journals.
Today will be long and busy: get gas, work at store, work extra hours at store, homework, magic work for New Orleans, clean more bedroom, update course blog, plan weekend classes, CRASH
Thursday, September 08, 2005
Oh gods...
I missed something. Wednesday was busy. A blur of a day. Hobbes started the class CMS-L1 without me as I was training a new girl on closing the store. I am so proud of him. He handled it so well. I think we made a decent team. The students were great! 5 are in the class, but 1 was absent. I lost the master copy for the reading pack, so I will have to make copies off my copy, which Hobbes has. OOPS! I had forgotten to get it from him... DAMMIT! We went out on an errand then to eat and dicuss how the class went and what to keep in mind for next class. I wish we can meet for 30min before the class and an hour after the class every time. But I doubt that we will ever get that luxory.
Got home late and was goining through MASSIVE amounts of email. GEEZ... where did it all come from?!?! Well a couple e-lists suddenly were discussing stuffs much! I ignored and deleted most as I had no time to read them and formulate an opinion and was just too tired to try. Roo called and came over. We rp'ed a bit and chatted and sat in the park which was fun, if a bit chilly.
I got to bed without updating ANYTHING, not blogs, not school noted, not readings, not CMS... nothing. Crashed. And slept through my alarm for the first time in my LIFE! I quickly dumped some money into hydro and bell (not what either of them want, but will have to do till i get another paycheck or my laon arrives). Rushed out to avoid being late for work. I am so glad my car sucks fumes real well. Went to work on no gas.
Work was. Well... it was. Busy!!! It was 3pm before I knew it... then it was 4pm (I was supposed to be done at 3pm). There is so much to do. I will stay extra time tomorrow to work on stuff while there are enough people working in the store to allow me to concentrate on the other stuff I need to do there. Tonight I will burn some CD's of Delerium for Valerie as she made copies of ERA for me. Weehee!
Then... I headed out to Concordia. I got to see the department head of the undergrad Religion program. YAY!!! At last!!! I let her know that I wanted to be a TA. To my surprise, my name seems to have been floating around the deprtment. Spooky. I might be TA for the east asian teacher for next semester! YIPPEEE!!! And I also know which journal to now send my thesis to. The first one with the October deadline. If they choose not to publish it then I send it after to the next journal with the later deadline. I headed from there to the Hall building to look through Imaginus. They go from school to school selling prints and posters. I was hoping to spot a Serenity poster. Oh well... guess it will be an Ebay hunt later. Last errand at Concordia was to the Library Building to get a new student ID. I get a yellow one now cause I am a grad student. I smiled funny. Stupid pic. Oh well.
Then off to my first class. Tibet Religions: Texts & Traditions. AWESOME!! And he is the teacher I might be the TA for for the undergrad courses. YAY! He gave me great advise for studying east-Asian religions. First I must learn Classical Chinese. Then Mandarin. Then Japanese. Wow. That will be alot. HEAVY study. But I want to do it. He wants to get a grant and take his Tibet students to Tibet for a study period! COOL!!! I will so go if there is an opportunity!
Now I am home and feel ill from the iced-cappaccino I drank during class. Damn. And tired too. There is SO much I want to do around here and just don't have the time or energy or money. Not yet. Soon... but not yet. I need a couple days to recoup and clean and think. I could really use a slave. Not that we use those anymore. I might give in and hire a maid service for once or twice a month. A friend gave me a reference. $100 a month (or $50 per session). Not bad. Certainly not for removing a stress from my plate. Then I need some more knowledgeable folks to help sort my library with me. Ugh... And I need to clean my bedroom (Saturday). I need to get space for meditation and for homework and for cms work. Damn. Just need a couple days to get sorted and going... and a couple days to just relax and chill with friends.
I need a massage. My back hurts again.
Ok... I think I am caught up here. Now to go to my course blog and work on my notes and homework. Ya ya... I know... I should eat something and just go to bed. I just feel like I am falling behind and I have hardly started! Hm... I will go grab the shower I missed this morning and then my carrots and sourcream to nibble while I work on homework and the course journal for the Methodology class. GEEZ... I haven't even folded my laundry from last week! Ugh... my bed is calling me............ NO... no... MUST RESIST!!!! Shower. Ya, that will wake me!
Got home late and was goining through MASSIVE amounts of email. GEEZ... where did it all come from?!?! Well a couple e-lists suddenly were discussing stuffs much! I ignored and deleted most as I had no time to read them and formulate an opinion and was just too tired to try. Roo called and came over. We rp'ed a bit and chatted and sat in the park which was fun, if a bit chilly.
I got to bed without updating ANYTHING, not blogs, not school noted, not readings, not CMS... nothing. Crashed. And slept through my alarm for the first time in my LIFE! I quickly dumped some money into hydro and bell (not what either of them want, but will have to do till i get another paycheck or my laon arrives). Rushed out to avoid being late for work. I am so glad my car sucks fumes real well. Went to work on no gas.
Work was. Well... it was. Busy!!! It was 3pm before I knew it... then it was 4pm (I was supposed to be done at 3pm). There is so much to do. I will stay extra time tomorrow to work on stuff while there are enough people working in the store to allow me to concentrate on the other stuff I need to do there. Tonight I will burn some CD's of Delerium for Valerie as she made copies of ERA for me. Weehee!
Then... I headed out to Concordia. I got to see the department head of the undergrad Religion program. YAY!!! At last!!! I let her know that I wanted to be a TA. To my surprise, my name seems to have been floating around the deprtment. Spooky. I might be TA for the east asian teacher for next semester! YIPPEEE!!! And I also know which journal to now send my thesis to. The first one with the October deadline. If they choose not to publish it then I send it after to the next journal with the later deadline. I headed from there to the Hall building to look through Imaginus. They go from school to school selling prints and posters. I was hoping to spot a Serenity poster. Oh well... guess it will be an Ebay hunt later. Last errand at Concordia was to the Library Building to get a new student ID. I get a yellow one now cause I am a grad student. I smiled funny. Stupid pic. Oh well.
Then off to my first class. Tibet Religions: Texts & Traditions. AWESOME!! And he is the teacher I might be the TA for for the undergrad courses. YAY! He gave me great advise for studying east-Asian religions. First I must learn Classical Chinese. Then Mandarin. Then Japanese. Wow. That will be alot. HEAVY study. But I want to do it. He wants to get a grant and take his Tibet students to Tibet for a study period! COOL!!! I will so go if there is an opportunity!
Now I am home and feel ill from the iced-cappaccino I drank during class. Damn. And tired too. There is SO much I want to do around here and just don't have the time or energy or money. Not yet. Soon... but not yet. I need a couple days to recoup and clean and think. I could really use a slave. Not that we use those anymore. I might give in and hire a maid service for once or twice a month. A friend gave me a reference. $100 a month (or $50 per session). Not bad. Certainly not for removing a stress from my plate. Then I need some more knowledgeable folks to help sort my library with me. Ugh... And I need to clean my bedroom (Saturday). I need to get space for meditation and for homework and for cms work. Damn. Just need a couple days to get sorted and going... and a couple days to just relax and chill with friends.
I need a massage. My back hurts again.
Ok... I think I am caught up here. Now to go to my course blog and work on my notes and homework. Ya ya... I know... I should eat something and just go to bed. I just feel like I am falling behind and I have hardly started! Hm... I will go grab the shower I missed this morning and then my carrots and sourcream to nibble while I work on homework and the course journal for the Methodology class. GEEZ... I haven't even folded my laundry from last week! Ugh... my bed is calling me............ NO... no... MUST RESIST!!!! Shower. Ya, that will wake me!
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
WOOHOO!!!!
I am getting financial aid!!! YAY!!! I still have to mail stuff in to them, but I am getting it yay!!! What a HUGE relief!
That was the good!
The bad...
I cannot find my master copy for the CMS Level 1 reading pack. I will have to get my copy back from Hobbes and make a new Master Copy off it. The students will get their readings one week late. I feel real bad about it. I tore apart my bedroom and the library looking for it. *sigh*
Today:
I work at the store all day. Must stop at the bank on my way out. Then I work from 10am - 6pm. And finally I teach with Hobbes, CMS Level 1, from 6-9pm I will try to set up the classroom some while on my breaks today.
Now to work on school notes and homework. Time to blog in the class blog!
That was the good!
The bad...
I cannot find my master copy for the CMS Level 1 reading pack. I will have to get my copy back from Hobbes and make a new Master Copy off it. The students will get their readings one week late. I feel real bad about it. I tore apart my bedroom and the library looking for it. *sigh*
Today:
I work at the store all day. Must stop at the bank on my way out. Then I work from 10am - 6pm. And finally I teach with Hobbes, CMS Level 1, from 6-9pm I will try to set up the classroom some while on my breaks today.
Now to work on school notes and homework. Time to blog in the class blog!
Good class!
I like my class. It will be tough but really interesting. Go here for all about it!
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Tuesday, September 06, 2005
So far... *grumble*
Ok. Sorted out the financial aid. They now need a form filled in that they did not previously provide me with. I now have it, and have filled it. I have to mail it out with my back money of $150.
I paid not one but 2 nasty tickets. There went too much money. More than I anticipated, but not nearly as much as it could have been. I don't have time to go to the SAAQ to sort out license stuff. That will be ... I don't know when.
Now, I need to have a shower. Then drop off a movie, go to the bank and the post office. Then... pay some bills. Eat dinner ....
And at last go to class. I did a bunch of reading while waiting in line today. So I am a little bit ahead, sorta.
Crap... never got to the car dealership either to see about the car. Grrrr. I need another DAY!and i don't get one till the 20th.
I paid not one but 2 nasty tickets. There went too much money. More than I anticipated, but not nearly as much as it could have been. I don't have time to go to the SAAQ to sort out license stuff. That will be ... I don't know when.
Now, I need to have a shower. Then drop off a movie, go to the bank and the post office. Then... pay some bills. Eat dinner ....
And at last go to class. I did a bunch of reading while waiting in line today. So I am a little bit ahead, sorta.
Crap... never got to the car dealership either to see about the car. Grrrr. I need another DAY!and i don't get one till the 20th.
trauma
GODS!!! This morning I check my financial aid yet again to see if they fixed the notice they sent me so I can see it. They did. It stated "File Closure". WHAT?!? Yes... file closure! I read through it. They closed my file for lack of response, for me not sending the document they requested. BUT BUT BUT!!! I DID!!! I sent the document, registered and requiring a signature. So I promptly went to tracking that bit of mail. The tracker stated it had been received with signature August 17th! ok... WTF!!!
So, guess where I am now. I am sitting at the Financial Aid office of Concordia University because I could not get through the phone to yell at someone. I stood in line from 10am to noon just to get into the door of the office. Now I am inside and blogging on their student access computer. They are at #A57. I am #A62. I hope to sort this out soon. I need to get to the bank and the post office and the courthouse for the ticket and the SAAQ to deal with my license and to see my teachers and go to class. I don't have time for this crap. I might have to take a morning off. Dammit.
Wish me luck. This is not a good day... but I ma trying to remain optimistic. I wish I had some sort of company and support with me. Oh well.
So, guess where I am now. I am sitting at the Financial Aid office of Concordia University because I could not get through the phone to yell at someone. I stood in line from 10am to noon just to get into the door of the office. Now I am inside and blogging on their student access computer. They are at #A57. I am #A62. I hope to sort this out soon. I need to get to the bank and the post office and the courthouse for the ticket and the SAAQ to deal with my license and to see my teachers and go to class. I don't have time for this crap. I might have to take a morning off. Dammit.
Wish me luck. This is not a good day... but I ma trying to remain optimistic. I wish I had some sort of company and support with me. Oh well.
some progress & no progress
This evening... I did NOTHING of what I had planned. I never worked on the classroom, nor the CMS site. I also have not done any reading of my Methodology stuff.
So, what did I do?
I watched a movie with M-SB.
I wrote more to my SWG ch. 3. I managed to write one of the 3 narratives I was stuck on.
I think I will get to sleep now as tomorrow will be nutty.
So, what did I do?
I watched a movie with M-SB.
I wrote more to my SWG ch. 3. I managed to write one of the 3 narratives I was stuck on.
I think I will get to sleep now as tomorrow will be nutty.
Monday, September 05, 2005
Busy day
What a busy day!! Sorting out stuff and cleaning stuff and training new folks. Now I am home... and about to do more of the same, minus the training part. More sorting and cleaning and setting up of the classroom space here. Some dinner. Left-over yummy meatloaf.
Last night i worked more on the student secret pages for CMS. I might do more tonight. Maybe I will get some RPing in too. And sleep.
Tomorrow will be CRAZY!
- call Financial Aid and find out WTF is up with my file
- banking
- pay ticket
- SAAQ for license stuffs
- post office to mail a package and a m/o for school
- car to dealership to estimate cost of repairs
- speak to Religion undergrad department head regarding TA position
- speak to Methodology teacher regarding an Anthropology course the times for her class
- Grad Orientation at 4pm
- Methodology class at either 4pm or 6pm
- buy Chicago Manual of Style so I can figure out with the Journals want for publication submission (yes, otherwise my thesis is ready to go as an article to be published WEEEHEEE!)
Life? What is that?! I think I gave that up today for i don't know how many months. I think I need a "keeper" to ensure the rest of living continues while I struggle through all this.
Last night i worked more on the student secret pages for CMS. I might do more tonight. Maybe I will get some RPing in too. And sleep.
Tomorrow will be CRAZY!
- call Financial Aid and find out WTF is up with my file
- banking
- pay ticket
- SAAQ for license stuffs
- post office to mail a package and a m/o for school
- car to dealership to estimate cost of repairs
- speak to Religion undergrad department head regarding TA position
- speak to Methodology teacher regarding an Anthropology course the times for her class
- Grad Orientation at 4pm
- Methodology class at either 4pm or 6pm
- buy Chicago Manual of Style so I can figure out with the Journals want for publication submission (yes, otherwise my thesis is ready to go as an article to be published WEEEHEEE!)
Life? What is that?! I think I gave that up today for i don't know how many months. I think I need a "keeper" to ensure the rest of living continues while I struggle through all this.
Another Quiz
You're the color blue. You have the three c's in
life--you're cool, caring and confident.
Trustworthy and honest, people are naturally
attracted to you. You're unusually optimistic,
but that makes life all the better. You're an
imaginative person who loves sleeping and
dreaming. Hard-working and determined, you
excell in school. You're everybody's favorite,
and this is because you have this undefined
richness in your personality and attitude.
Mild-tempered and stable. Not to mention very
intelligent. Along with the fact that you're
conservative, you're worried about the
environment. So basically, you're a generous,
dependable and devoted--just the kind of person
everybody needs. Wouldn't it be great if
everybody in the world were like you?
What color are you? (Amazingly detailed & accurate--with pics!)
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Quiz stolen from Airea who stole it from Rajura
You scored as Celtic Pantheonic Pagan. Your answers leaned very close to that of the Celtic Pantheon. Very popular now among pagans, the Celtic Gods seem to draw those who are sensitive and insightful, but also very passionate about their beliefs. Many Pagan Holidays are named for this pantheon and here is where you'll find many stories on Horned God, Green Man, and Druids. You likely either have been or want to visit Stonehenge one day. Many Arthurian legnds include references to the Celtic faith, as well.
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Sunday, September 04, 2005
classroom in my home
I am transforming my livingroom into a classroom. I moved the snake, tossed a tank and moved lots of furnitures about. I have several nasty bruises now. And my hip and back are killing me from trying to move the giant tank. The guys will have to tackle it Saturday. I will have the room finished by tomorrow night. I will also try to get my big table home, too. That way students can have a table if they need/want.
Timid seems very happy in his new home. He is exploring it. I have to remember to get crickets tomorrow for my gecko.
Oh hey! Tomorrow is Labour Day. Better pay for the day. I hope we close early so I can finish some things like cleaning at home and do homework.
My Quantum Spirituality homework is fun and interesting. My Methodology readings... well... I am still on page 3 of the first article. Ugh!
Timid seems very happy in his new home. He is exploring it. I have to remember to get crickets tomorrow for my gecko.
Oh hey! Tomorrow is Labour Day. Better pay for the day. I hope we close early so I can finish some things like cleaning at home and do homework.
My Quantum Spirituality homework is fun and interesting. My Methodology readings... well... I am still on page 3 of the first article. Ugh!
New Home
Timid, my timid ball python is finally moved into his new tank. now he has room to stretch out. And wow!!! He has like doubled in size! You never realize how big he is because he is always tightly hiding in a ball. Now to toss the two old yucky tanks and make room in the classroom.
not bad
I reread my whole thesis. Not half bad! I sure don't remember writing it. What head-space was I in?! Well I think it will do nicely. Now I need to get the Chicago Manual of Style for formatting stuff. The journals request it. Funny... since I have MLA and APA already. Oh well. I will pick it up on Tuesday.
Well phouie!
I have been soaking the snake tank bedding for 2 hrs and it STILL has not expanded! Stupid dehydrated stuff! I will leave it overnight and hope it is ready tomorrow.
I did edit my thesis into a more functional form for an article. But damn. It is WAY too long.It is 26 pages now, instead of 40. It needs to be between 15 and 20. I think. Give me a sec to verify.WOOHOO! 15-30pages!!! awesome!!! Now I just need to include the bibliography and clean up the format so it is what the submission guidlines want to see. Then I need to ask which of the two journals I should send it to, as I cannot send it to both. Oops... I need to know which journal to send it to first THEN modify the formatting as they want different formatting styles.
It has been very very quiet otherwise. Kinda lonely. I like doing this kind of stuff when I am multitasking or have some folks to chat with. But no one is around online... or anywhere else really. :( I guess I will take my Methodology reading pack to bed and read it.
Tomorrow is my one and ONLY day off. I have setting up for class to do and a visit to my parents to make for laundry (blankets) and visit my brother and his family who are in town this week from British Columbia.
I did edit my thesis into a more functional form for an article. But damn. It is WAY too long.It is 26 pages now, instead of 40. It needs to be between 15 and 20. I think. Give me a sec to verify.WOOHOO! 15-30pages!!! awesome!!! Now I just need to include the bibliography and clean up the format so it is what the submission guidlines want to see. Then I need to ask which of the two journals I should send it to, as I cannot send it to both. Oops... I need to know which journal to send it to first THEN modify the formatting as they want different formatting styles.
It has been very very quiet otherwise. Kinda lonely. I like doing this kind of stuff when I am multitasking or have some folks to chat with. But no one is around online... or anywhere else really. :( I guess I will take my Methodology reading pack to bed and read it.
Tomorrow is my one and ONLY day off. I have setting up for class to do and a visit to my parents to make for laundry (blankets) and visit my brother and his family who are in town this week from British Columbia.
Saturday, September 03, 2005
Today's groaning
I got sucked in. I worked at the vet clinic today. *GROAN* When I got home... I just crashed. And I mean crashed! I was passed out from 1:30 to 6:30pm. I wonder if I am going to end up wide awake all night. Well, I have lots to do. I need to fix up the snake tank and set up the livingroom as aclassroom.
I started my homeowrk:
-Quantum Physics & Spirituality
-Methodological Problems in the Study of Religion
Just reading right now and lots of it. The QP&S is way more interesting!!!
The long nap was good and needed. I have a TON of errands I need to run this week... kinda all reserved for Monday & Tuesday. I have no idea what I am going to do. I am triple booked on Tuesday. I have car stuff in the morning and early afternoon (SAAQ and dealership for inspection & estimate), work at the store and training a new girl, meeting with the religion undergrad department head of the university. in the afternoon I am double booked with working at the store and training the new girl, meeting with my Methodology teacher about a winter course I was considering, and the grad student orientation meeting. UGH!!!
This was supposed to be my recoup weekend. I wanted to visit freind far away either in Ohio (but the car won't survive that) or in Ontario (but I don't want to go alone, not sure of where I am going). *sigh*
I am grumbling about the weekend and next week. *groan* Priorities... what are they?
-set up for CMS
-school
-bills
-work
-sorting apartment
-cleaning (thinking of hiring someone to help)
-socialize with my few friends (socialize? who am i kidding?!? when will i have time?!?!!)
I started my homeowrk:
-Quantum Physics & Spirituality
-Methodological Problems in the Study of Religion
Just reading right now and lots of it. The QP&S is way more interesting!!!
The long nap was good and needed. I have a TON of errands I need to run this week... kinda all reserved for Monday & Tuesday. I have no idea what I am going to do. I am triple booked on Tuesday. I have car stuff in the morning and early afternoon (SAAQ and dealership for inspection & estimate), work at the store and training a new girl, meeting with the religion undergrad department head of the university. in the afternoon I am double booked with working at the store and training the new girl, meeting with my Methodology teacher about a winter course I was considering, and the grad student orientation meeting. UGH!!!
This was supposed to be my recoup weekend. I wanted to visit freind far away either in Ohio (but the car won't survive that) or in Ontario (but I don't want to go alone, not sure of where I am going). *sigh*
I am grumbling about the weekend and next week. *groan* Priorities... what are they?
-set up for CMS
-school
-bills
-work
-sorting apartment
-cleaning (thinking of hiring someone to help)
-socialize with my few friends (socialize? who am i kidding?!? when will i have time?!?!!)
Interesting!!
Saw the movie "What the Bleep Do We Know!?" and it was amazing! Much much food for thought. I will have to dig out my notes and readings from my Buddhism & Quantum Physics class. When I took that class, it was all just a bit too confusing on the scientific level and seemed very close to what Wicca was... but I know I missed something crutial in that course. Now, I think I gots an inkling. Here are some fascinating websites to keep folks busy.
http://www.whatthebleep.com/
http://www.fredalanwolf.com/
http://www.quantumconsciousness.org/
http://www.candacepert.com/
http://www.ramtha.com/
And the special favs of mine:
MASARU EMOTO and his HADO Project
http://www.masaru-emoto.net/english/entop.html
http://www.hado.net/
This is the water crystal for August from Emoto's site for "thanks & love"
http://www.whatthebleep.com/
http://www.fredalanwolf.com/
http://www.quantumconsciousness.org/
http://www.candacepert.com/
http://www.ramtha.com/
And the special favs of mine:
MASARU EMOTO and his HADO Project
http://www.masaru-emoto.net/english/entop.html
http://www.hado.net/
This is the water crystal for August from Emoto's site for "thanks & love"
Friday, September 02, 2005
Where to begin...
Thursday... another stressful day! Less so for me than everyone else. School's are so frustrating with their inconvenient scheduling. End of the day... I went to see the SERENITY premiere. MUST SEE AGAIN... and again... and again... WOW! I am so not telling any details. But I WILL stand in overnight line if I must for the opening night!!!!! Who is with me?!
Got home exhausted. I meant to tell you all I saw another rented movie this week: Castle in the Sky by the same guy who did Spirited Away. Mark Hamill plays the voice of a bad guy in it! Wierd. Well, it was a really good movie too. Must buy it and Kiki's Delivery Service. Wasn't that also done by the same guy?
I slept ok and woke tired. I never made it out to my errand. Instead I spent the morning on the phone with hydro, and financial aid. Sorted out Hydro. Did not wholey sort out my financial aid. I was almost late. Ran from the house forgetting breakfast, my money, my parking change, and my bank card. ARGH!
I never got to call the financial aid people back to try again to sort things out. OH... and I got stuck working the vet clinic this Saturday. I am such a suck! At least I get paid.
Airea took me for lunch after she cut her hair. She looks great... no grade 4 bangs. Thank gods. I already made that stupid mistake myself. Now I am trying to grow them out. Hers look fantastic. And she has well done highlights. I should go see her hairdresser! She met me again after work to go pick up my school reading pack. Ya, the one that cost me $120!!!! It better be worth it. I will start reading it tomorrow. We went to meet her friend Catherine to go to Metro DVD and pick up FireFly. DAMN. They are all sold out. I put my name down to be called as soon as they have copies in. It will cost me less to order them this way than to go through Amazon.ca.
Now I am home and REALLY bushed. I know my work schedule will change again. This instability is a bit frustrating... but normal in all the working in of the new staff and training. The new folks so far are working out well. Now I hope my school doesn't work me to death. It is a tight schedule. Work at store, teach CMS classes, take university grad classes... wish me luck. O got a cool fortune cookie message while at lunch. It was great for this crazy life that I am embarking on. I wish I could remember it. I left it at work tacked to the computer monitor as a mantra. Something about life and change and being able to meet the challenges and complete any task.
Ok, I am WAY tired. Taking a nap before my seminar on Quantum Physics and Sirituality at 7pm. That will be interesting.
Got home exhausted. I meant to tell you all I saw another rented movie this week: Castle in the Sky by the same guy who did Spirited Away. Mark Hamill plays the voice of a bad guy in it! Wierd. Well, it was a really good movie too. Must buy it and Kiki's Delivery Service. Wasn't that also done by the same guy?
I slept ok and woke tired. I never made it out to my errand. Instead I spent the morning on the phone with hydro, and financial aid. Sorted out Hydro. Did not wholey sort out my financial aid. I was almost late. Ran from the house forgetting breakfast, my money, my parking change, and my bank card. ARGH!
I never got to call the financial aid people back to try again to sort things out. OH... and I got stuck working the vet clinic this Saturday. I am such a suck! At least I get paid.
Airea took me for lunch after she cut her hair. She looks great... no grade 4 bangs. Thank gods. I already made that stupid mistake myself. Now I am trying to grow them out. Hers look fantastic. And she has well done highlights. I should go see her hairdresser! She met me again after work to go pick up my school reading pack. Ya, the one that cost me $120!!!! It better be worth it. I will start reading it tomorrow. We went to meet her friend Catherine to go to Metro DVD and pick up FireFly. DAMN. They are all sold out. I put my name down to be called as soon as they have copies in. It will cost me less to order them this way than to go through Amazon.ca.
Now I am home and REALLY bushed. I know my work schedule will change again. This instability is a bit frustrating... but normal in all the working in of the new staff and training. The new folks so far are working out well. Now I hope my school doesn't work me to death. It is a tight schedule. Work at store, teach CMS classes, take university grad classes... wish me luck. O got a cool fortune cookie message while at lunch. It was great for this crazy life that I am embarking on. I wish I could remember it. I left it at work tacked to the computer monitor as a mantra. Something about life and change and being able to meet the challenges and complete any task.
Ok, I am WAY tired. Taking a nap before my seminar on Quantum Physics and Sirituality at 7pm. That will be interesting.
Thursday, September 01, 2005
poem i snagged into the RP last night
My character is a bard... raw untrained talent that sometimes creates incredible things and sometimes gets out of hands to cause terrible things. One of the great things was a song:
The Ballad of the Sea
words and music by Gunn McKee
I walked alone in foggy dew
Just me and my memories
A voice out seaward beckons thru
A whistle of love for me, for me
A whistle of love for me.
T'was two moons 'go her father stole
My love away from me
Arranged to wed a soldier red
My love's gone 'cross the sea, the sea
My love's gone 'cross the sea.
For ten days long our love grew strong
She swore her "love to thee"
Each night up high on mountainside
She'd whistle her love for me, for me
She'd whistle her love for me.
Late one night, my fire alight
Awaiting for her to see
My wait was long, o' what could be wrong
Where could my true love be, love be
Where could my true love be
A light 'cross waters latern glow
Was all mine eyes could see
And from below noise drifted slow
Like a 'gull come back from sea, from sea
Like a 'gull come back from sea.
Her song it haunts me still this day
Notes of uncertainty
If heaven laughs at prayers of mine
Then it never was to be, to be
Then it never was to be.
The Ballad of the Sea
words and music by Gunn McKee
I walked alone in foggy dew
Just me and my memories
A voice out seaward beckons thru
A whistle of love for me, for me
A whistle of love for me.
T'was two moons 'go her father stole
My love away from me
Arranged to wed a soldier red
My love's gone 'cross the sea, the sea
My love's gone 'cross the sea.
For ten days long our love grew strong
She swore her "love to thee"
Each night up high on mountainside
She'd whistle her love for me, for me
She'd whistle her love for me.
Late one night, my fire alight
Awaiting for her to see
My wait was long, o' what could be wrong
Where could my true love be, love be
Where could my true love be
A light 'cross waters latern glow
Was all mine eyes could see
And from below noise drifted slow
Like a 'gull come back from sea, from sea
Like a 'gull come back from sea.
Her song it haunts me still this day
Notes of uncertainty
If heaven laughs at prayers of mine
Then it never was to be, to be
Then it never was to be.
loved it... will regret it soon
No... I did not have more chocolate. It is 6am and I am still not in bed. Roo will likely suffer as much as I. We were up ALL night rping. It was so fun. I am not very tired. And sure I will so regret this later. Hopefully not during Serenity.
