Thursday, August 31, 2006
Forgot!
I forgot to mention! I got 3 new stylish shirts! I managed to pay $10 for all three at the Sally Ann. I feel all proud... and pretty! I feel like the queen if inexpensive clothes. Hehe. Sometimes there are really good finds there. But I usually HATE sifting through it all. Today I was stuck with 30min of NOTHING but wait for M-SB to get off work... so why not?! I have pretty new tops. I think I will wear one tomorrow.
more done and gone
Ahhh... more stuff paid! But not the license and registration, nor insurance. I forgot the phone numbers at home... and the registration place was... gone! It no longer exists in the place I though it did! So now I have to go on Saturday to handle that. I will try to call the insurance place tomorrow morning. Whatever is left from the license and registration will go towards my curves registration. The tax returns sucked this year and were applied to moving so M-SB could not get my membership. Muwahahaha! I escape having to wear tight latex/leathery stuffs!
This weekend I want to spend some quality time with M-SB. I plan on us going to see the Japanese expo at the History Museum and the Bonsai display at the Botanical Gardens. I also hope to do some walking along the riverside. We haven't done that since the first year we were together.
OH!!! Found my cleaning lady! Thank you Alison! I would so rather pay you than a stanger.
And this weekend I will also update my CV so next week I can go visit the schools and remind them of who I am and that on occasion they can call me for a Monday or Friday.
Ok... off to watch some episodes of The Meduim that I rented, while I wait for chicken to arrive. Then we will watch a movie together.
OH OH OH! AND! and AND... this year, dispite the fact that this wasa the QUIETEST summer CMS Open House, this is one of the most ... um... what is the word? Well, there are LOTS of people registering for the Level 1... more than I have seen in 3 years! This is great news!! This makes me all excited to start revamping things like the levels 2 & 3 and the website.
OOOPS! dinner is here!
This weekend I want to spend some quality time with M-SB. I plan on us going to see the Japanese expo at the History Museum and the Bonsai display at the Botanical Gardens. I also hope to do some walking along the riverside. We haven't done that since the first year we were together.
OH!!! Found my cleaning lady! Thank you Alison! I would so rather pay you than a stanger.
And this weekend I will also update my CV so next week I can go visit the schools and remind them of who I am and that on occasion they can call me for a Monday or Friday.
Ok... off to watch some episodes of The Meduim that I rented, while I wait for chicken to arrive. Then we will watch a movie together.
OH OH OH! AND! and AND... this year, dispite the fact that this wasa the QUIETEST summer CMS Open House, this is one of the most ... um... what is the word? Well, there are LOTS of people registering for the Level 1... more than I have seen in 3 years! This is great news!! This makes me all excited to start revamping things like the levels 2 & 3 and the website.
OOOPS! dinner is here!
Painful... yet relieving...
My student loan came in...and I paid a ton of things with it:
-the last of the old Gaz bill
-the Hydro for here
-the last of the summer payment for Concordia
-my cell (now to reinstate it)
-Bell got a chunk
-the old Hydro got a chunk
-my Visa
-the Retreat money I need is set aside in a different account
Now I have to deal with the car registration and my license. Whatever is left goes to some other debts. Next week's pay goes to my Mom for the loan. And my car insurance is yet to be dealt with. I am annoyed with them though. They were supposed to mail me a bill with the new quote so I can pay it. They didn't. A month later then send me a nasty letter saying I have not paid my insurance. I might switch companies.
Well, I guess I will head out early and see if I can get the car stuff dealt with before work. After work I will go to Concordia and see if I can get M-SB onto my insurance. Tomorrow morning will be more running around to settle other things. Now to get dressed and out, and to call Telus and fix my cell and maybe call the new insurance place that Concordia offered me for auto & home. Ya... that mature growing up thing of considering home insurance.
It was GREAT to get the student loan in. It was painful to pay everything off. And yet... immeasuably relieving to pay so much off.
-the last of the old Gaz bill
-the Hydro for here
-the last of the summer payment for Concordia
-my cell (now to reinstate it)
-Bell got a chunk
-the old Hydro got a chunk
-my Visa
-the Retreat money I need is set aside in a different account
Now I have to deal with the car registration and my license. Whatever is left goes to some other debts. Next week's pay goes to my Mom for the loan. And my car insurance is yet to be dealt with. I am annoyed with them though. They were supposed to mail me a bill with the new quote so I can pay it. They didn't. A month later then send me a nasty letter saying I have not paid my insurance. I might switch companies.
Well, I guess I will head out early and see if I can get the car stuff dealt with before work. After work I will go to Concordia and see if I can get M-SB onto my insurance. Tomorrow morning will be more running around to settle other things. Now to get dressed and out, and to call Telus and fix my cell and maybe call the new insurance place that Concordia offered me for auto & home. Ya... that mature growing up thing of considering home insurance.
It was GREAT to get the student loan in. It was painful to pay everything off. And yet... immeasuably relieving to pay so much off.
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Wraith
Wraith is no more.
Some would say "she was only a $20 lizard, so what?"
But she was interesting and had her own personailty.
Spot, my big female leopard gecko ate her tail right up to the hip 2.5 months ago.
I have been trying to nurse her back to health.
I thought we were on the mend when she started growing back the tail.
But she just was not eating enough.
Today she perished.
Blessed Mother take her to you.
Some would say "she was only a $20 lizard, so what?"
But she was interesting and had her own personailty.
Spot, my big female leopard gecko ate her tail right up to the hip 2.5 months ago.
I have been trying to nurse her back to health.
I thought we were on the mend when she started growing back the tail.
But she just was not eating enough.
Today she perished.
Blessed Mother take her to you.
NOOOO! Don't WANNA!!!
I don't wanna fold the laundry! I don't wanna do any more cleaning. I done enough!
But...
:(
I am bored.
Oh... my wierd snow stuff is still solid-ish snow stuff and STILL cold!
Still feeling bored. I wish I had games on my computer.Ohhhhhhh......
Maybe the new laptop can have the games. Then I can play in the livingroom where the sofa is comfy.
**EDIT 5 min later**
ARRGGHH! There is no plug for the new laptop. And the battery is dead. *cry*
But...
:(
I am bored.
Oh... my wierd snow stuff is still solid-ish snow stuff and STILL cold!
Still feeling bored. I wish I had games on my computer.Ohhhhhhh......
Maybe the new laptop can have the games. Then I can play in the livingroom where the sofa is comfy.
**EDIT 5 min later**
ARRGGHH! There is no plug for the new laptop. And the battery is dead. *cry*
Less grumbly
Well, the kitchen is cleaned, including the floor and the mat and the counters and the 6 loads of dishes. The fridge is cleaned out too. I even set up the little stereo to play Mix 96! Two loads of white laundry are cleaned. The bedroom floor is cleaned and the bed stripped and fabreezed. The hand-washing is also done and is on the line drying. I have a clean kitchen and bedroom. I am also almost done reading the first of two reading sets for next week's Tao class. Also, Tsuki is neutered. I picked up my Avon order and visited with Liam and Elspeth. Then picked up M-SB from work and picked up Tsuki from the vet. Also got food for the cats, bus tickets and a few groceries.
I have named my female marbled gecko who looks so very thin and ill: Wraith.
I have no name for the male marbled gecko nor the new sweet-tempered male leopard gecko.
Suggestion so far that I nixed: Draco, Geico, Eric, Rax...
Supper is served. M-SB made cheese burgers on his grill.
Tsuki inhaled 1.5 cans of wet food. He cried for about 20min as he roamed the house noting the changes I made to the kitchen. I tried to play with him a bit with his dangly toy... but he is still a bit too uncoordinated from the surgery. His poor little bum is sore. He should heal fast.
I still need to fold the laundry. I will do that after I eat.
There is still so much to do. I will try to tackle some of it tomorrow after work.
I have named my female marbled gecko who looks so very thin and ill: Wraith.
I have no name for the male marbled gecko nor the new sweet-tempered male leopard gecko.
Suggestion so far that I nixed: Draco, Geico, Eric, Rax...
Supper is served. M-SB made cheese burgers on his grill.
Tsuki inhaled 1.5 cans of wet food. He cried for about 20min as he roamed the house noting the changes I made to the kitchen. I tried to play with him a bit with his dangly toy... but he is still a bit too uncoordinated from the surgery. His poor little bum is sore. He should heal fast.
I still need to fold the laundry. I will do that after I eat.
There is still so much to do. I will try to tackle some of it tomorrow after work.
Grumble
Today was a slow start. I was exhausted! Yesterday I spent my day at the Montreal Gift Show looking for cool new stock for the store. There was definately some success there! I brought home a packet of wierd snow stuff. It was neat. Added water to this tiny pack os sparkly scented powder and stirred. Voila! Instant cool snow that does not melt. WIERD! They come in teeny packets with messages. I made it at home and 24hrs later it is still looking good and WIERD! it is COLD! I have it by my computer now to play with to destress.
Today I took Tsuki to the vet to be neutered.
I got home and was about to make breakfast when I was just overcome with disgust! There was bits of litter and cat food on the floor. There was little messes everywhere. There were things I wanted done a month ago... I was about to lose it. This is my day off. I am supposed to somewhat enjoy it. What pissed me off the most is the fact that M-SB sucks at cleaning. Maybe he is just blind. I know his eyesight is poor. The edges of the walls are always neglected. So where the floor meets the wall... everything seems to just have been pushed there and not cleaned away. There were collections of fur and litter and stuff and stuff. I cannot handle dirt and mess. I am fair fed up with it. SO...
So... if someone has a reference or recommendation, I would like to hire a cleaning service to come once a week or once every 2 weeks to dust, wipe and do floors. I would rather pay someone with the patience to do this than me be crabby for days while it waiting for enough time to do it myself (or have M-SB do an inadequate job) and then be angry ALL DAY as I do it and then crabby for the days after because other stuff I needed to do during that time did not get done because I was doing this. *sigh*
Excuse me while I lose my WHOLE FUCKING DAY doing the thorough cleaning the place needs. I cannot relax in any singler room because they all need cleaning and sorting . I am VEXED! So... um... Don't ask me to do anything. I have enough. I might be very nasty and you won't know why. You have been warned.
I just rearranged the kitchen table and moved it into the corner where Tsuki's cage was. His cage is packed away. He is a big boy and can now focus on eating without needing a time-out beforehand. I tucked the litterbox under the table in a way I hope reduces scattered litter (something that can piss me off in a second and leave me cranky all day... stepping on cat litter around the kitchen) though if that does not work, I have a few other ideas. I am going to go make a milkshake for breakfast and then clean the kitchen THOROUGHLY.
Today I took Tsuki to the vet to be neutered.
I got home and was about to make breakfast when I was just overcome with disgust! There was bits of litter and cat food on the floor. There was little messes everywhere. There were things I wanted done a month ago... I was about to lose it. This is my day off. I am supposed to somewhat enjoy it. What pissed me off the most is the fact that M-SB sucks at cleaning. Maybe he is just blind. I know his eyesight is poor. The edges of the walls are always neglected. So where the floor meets the wall... everything seems to just have been pushed there and not cleaned away. There were collections of fur and litter and stuff and stuff. I cannot handle dirt and mess. I am fair fed up with it. SO...
So... if someone has a reference or recommendation, I would like to hire a cleaning service to come once a week or once every 2 weeks to dust, wipe and do floors. I would rather pay someone with the patience to do this than me be crabby for days while it waiting for enough time to do it myself (or have M-SB do an inadequate job) and then be angry ALL DAY as I do it and then crabby for the days after because other stuff I needed to do during that time did not get done because I was doing this. *sigh*
Excuse me while I lose my WHOLE FUCKING DAY doing the thorough cleaning the place needs. I cannot relax in any singler room because they all need cleaning and sorting . I am VEXED! So... um... Don't ask me to do anything. I have enough. I might be very nasty and you won't know why. You have been warned.
I just rearranged the kitchen table and moved it into the corner where Tsuki's cage was. His cage is packed away. He is a big boy and can now focus on eating without needing a time-out beforehand. I tucked the litterbox under the table in a way I hope reduces scattered litter (something that can piss me off in a second and leave me cranky all day... stepping on cat litter around the kitchen) though if that does not work, I have a few other ideas. I am going to go make a milkshake for breakfast and then clean the kitchen THOROUGHLY.
Monday, August 28, 2006
Moody
Today I was fair moody and I apologize to everyone who had to endure me. I spent the day struggling with how to manage finances and school and work and homework and home and expenses and life and coven and CMS and oh... living. None of it was adding up. Me not getting a bursary this year means my budget took a hit of $600 per month. OUCH!!! I was in the process of trying to get into a second class. Zen. It is a prerequisite for the Japanese religions course I wanted in the winter. But I just can't manage it. Not if I want to eat and live. I would have to drop work in order to have enough time to do the work adequately for both classes. But then I will have $0 income. *sigh* There was alot of mulling and moodiness while I fought with myself and my priorities trying to make it all work. In the end, I cried and unregistered from the Zen class. Part of me is relieved and part of me is crying that I just added another 1-2 years to my length of study.
On the plus side, I have a few things to mention. The first was that my hip is doing much better. Heat apparently helped immensely! Some warmth on the back of my hip and back and I was feeling MUCH MUCH better. I slept on the sofa too last night for a couple hours. I was so burnt I was incoherent for both time M-SB tried to wake me for dinner. I did finally get up and eat. And then the heat after ... was wonderful. Today was a bit tougher of a morning in that I did not want to get up. The next really positive things is that I love my new shoes. They are SO comfy!!! I need to get more of them. They are unfortunately not in the budget. *pout* At least not till the end of the week. I hope there will be some left by then. I have terrible luck with shoes. I either never find something I can wear or when I do and want a second pair, they are all sold out. The last good thing... I started my Tao readings for class. WOW! This is so interesting! I am not sure what topic I want to work on as a research paper for the course. It needs to be a narrow topic. That is sometimes very hard for me. I am so used to doing general exposes that I have great difficulty narrowing down. I was considering: Evidence of Ancestral Worship in Taoism. But I am not even sure I can do that. There is just SO MUCH information...... Hmmm..... Maybe Women in Taoism: the Role of the Feminine or maybe Female rites and ritual in Taoism? Hmmm...
On the plus side, I have a few things to mention. The first was that my hip is doing much better. Heat apparently helped immensely! Some warmth on the back of my hip and back and I was feeling MUCH MUCH better. I slept on the sofa too last night for a couple hours. I was so burnt I was incoherent for both time M-SB tried to wake me for dinner. I did finally get up and eat. And then the heat after ... was wonderful. Today was a bit tougher of a morning in that I did not want to get up. The next really positive things is that I love my new shoes. They are SO comfy!!! I need to get more of them. They are unfortunately not in the budget. *pout* At least not till the end of the week. I hope there will be some left by then. I have terrible luck with shoes. I either never find something I can wear or when I do and want a second pair, they are all sold out. The last good thing... I started my Tao readings for class. WOW! This is so interesting! I am not sure what topic I want to work on as a research paper for the course. It needs to be a narrow topic. That is sometimes very hard for me. I am so used to doing general exposes that I have great difficulty narrowing down. I was considering: Evidence of Ancestral Worship in Taoism. But I am not even sure I can do that. There is just SO MUCH information...... Hmmm..... Maybe Women in Taoism: the Role of the Feminine or maybe Female rites and ritual in Taoism? Hmmm...
Sunday, August 27, 2006
In which I wake to pain.
I slept alright... I guess. All of the doing stuff yesterday took its toll on me. I ached despite advil last night and then woke at 6am. I managed to get back to a rough semblance of sleep. M-SB woke me at 9am to get ready for breakfast with the neighbors. I was starting to really ache and just wanted more sleep. Ash came up to let us know that breakfast will be around 10:30am and not 9:30am. BLESSINGS! I went back to bed. But... the dull ache, realizing I am awake, decided to hurt in full force. If this still hurts this bad by Wednesday, I will go see a doctor.
Tsuki is being exceptionally bad climbing things and knocking things over. If this keeps up, he will spent breakfast time in Kitty Jail.
The new male gecko seems to be getting along just fine now with the girls. They are curled up together.
I am now preparing my old laptop to loan to Aurora.
I tried to do the switch the thinks on my desk to put my gecko tanks there... but it won't work. So now I am uncertain what to do in here. Purging is definatelty in order, but the rearranging ... hmmm... This requires more thought.
I slept alright... I guess. All of the doing stuff yesterday took its toll on me. I ached despite advil last night and then woke at 6am. I managed to get back to a rough semblance of sleep. M-SB woke me at 9am to get ready for breakfast with the neighbors. I was starting to really ache and just wanted more sleep. Ash came up to let us know that breakfast will be around 10:30am and not 9:30am. BLESSINGS! I went back to bed. But... the dull ache, realizing I am awake, decided to hurt in full force. If this still hurts this bad by Wednesday, I will go see a doctor.
Tsuki is being exceptionally bad climbing things and knocking things over. If this keeps up, he will spent breakfast time in Kitty Jail.
The new male gecko seems to be getting along just fine now with the girls. They are curled up together.
I am now preparing my old laptop to loan to Aurora.
I tried to do the switch the thinks on my desk to put my gecko tanks there... but it won't work. So now I am uncertain what to do in here. Purging is definatelty in order, but the rearranging ... hmmm... This requires more thought.
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Done, Not Done, To do...
Had to run out to the store... Got waylaid by staff and people there and came home... without the CDs!!! ARRRGH! So guess what I have to do tomorrow after breakfast and before coven... Ugh...
Picked up some cat food and juice and the YUMMY iced cream that Rajura got me hooked on. By the time I got out and home, it was time for dinner. Ate the left over rice from yesterday. Meh. I also found 3 potential Earth prary/invocations for the ritual. That took time. I have a great book called Earth Prayers from Around the World. It is very helpful.
I then began to sort laundry and clean the kitchen. M-SB had to take the laundry down and start it because I am a stupid invalid and cannot carry or bend. Did I tell you I hate this and am VERY frustrated! I cleaned everything in the kitchen that did not require me bending or carrying. M-SB will pack up the big cage and store it "somewhere" in the garage. Yes, Tsuki has graduated from the big cage. I think he can eat his food on the opposite side of the kitchen without needing to be in a cage. He is a big boy. Big enough that Wednesday he loses his nards! He weighs 9lbs now and is 6 months old. Anyways, the dishes are all done, too.
However, that is all that got done today. *pout* I am sore.
Tomorrow after Breakfast, we tackle my office and the livingroom. Then while I am at the store picking up CDs on try #2, M-SB will wipe the bathroom and vacoom the floors and put away the big cage.
Now, I am off to take some drugs and grab that rest I did not get earlier. I will read and eat iced creat from the container. MMmmmmm..... Drugs first. AAAADDDDVVVVIIIILLLL..........
Picked up some cat food and juice and the YUMMY iced cream that Rajura got me hooked on. By the time I got out and home, it was time for dinner. Ate the left over rice from yesterday. Meh. I also found 3 potential Earth prary/invocations for the ritual. That took time. I have a great book called Earth Prayers from Around the World. It is very helpful.
I then began to sort laundry and clean the kitchen. M-SB had to take the laundry down and start it because I am a stupid invalid and cannot carry or bend. Did I tell you I hate this and am VERY frustrated! I cleaned everything in the kitchen that did not require me bending or carrying. M-SB will pack up the big cage and store it "somewhere" in the garage. Yes, Tsuki has graduated from the big cage. I think he can eat his food on the opposite side of the kitchen without needing to be in a cage. He is a big boy. Big enough that Wednesday he loses his nards! He weighs 9lbs now and is 6 months old. Anyways, the dishes are all done, too.
However, that is all that got done today. *pout* I am sore.
Tomorrow after Breakfast, we tackle my office and the livingroom. Then while I am at the store picking up CDs on try #2, M-SB will wipe the bathroom and vacoom the floors and put away the big cage.
Now, I am off to take some drugs and grab that rest I did not get earlier. I will read and eat iced creat from the container. MMmmmmm..... Drugs first. AAAADDDDVVVVIIIILLLL..........
New weehee!
We slept in today. This is a first in a long long while! We spet in TOGETHER! *sigh of relief* What eventually woke us? Various babies (and I mean more than just Liam) having baby meltdowns and screaming fits over who knows what AND the cats... of course. We eventually gave up around 10:30am.
After the usual morning routine stuffs, we headed out for lunch at Angrignon Mall. We spent some time just wandering around. I got shoes... ya shoes... at Ardene. Thue are black corderoy converse looking things for $20 and will fit both socks and orthotics. WOOHOO! We roamed and I drooled over some clothes but did not buy any. We stopped into EB Games where M-SB got some cable thingy for his new monitor and a new game. Then off to poke around the new additions to the mall across the road. The new SAQ suck. It is tiny. I was hoping to get Sortilege or Iced Wine or a yummy Iced Cider. They had rediculously expensive iced wine and only ONE bottle of it. No Sortilege. A couple of overpriced Iced Ciders. So we walked on. There is now a Curves, but they were closed. Saw nice boots in the new Yellow, but no current budget of $50+ for more footware. Popped into L'Equippeur. I wanted to price clothes for M-SB as he seriously needs some new things. L'Equippeur is the best place to get tough sturdy practical clothing, especially for working men. We will return when the budget is a bit more open.
On our way home, got gas and bugs for the lizards. Oh... and got a new addition to the family. Someone dropped off an adult male gecko. My friend Rob, the manager, was there and they were not certain they could sell him, so he asked me for an offer and accepted it. This big male leopard gecko is such a sweety! He is sweet and gently like my old fat-tailed gecko was. I walked around the house with him on my shoulder for a while as I fed the other lizards and cleaned cages. He was so very good. Now I need a name for him. He is in with the other two leopard geckos. The girls are ignoring him. Poor guy is uncertain of them. Well, he now has his own personal heram. *grin* Once he settles, I am sure he will be happy. I might try my hand at breeding. But I must first fatten up the girls.
Now after all that walking around, the hip is hurting. I was doing really well this morning. I did not have advil and the aching was only dull. I have been trying to be very careful not to strain it. Thanks to several great people at work, CMS and coven who helped ensure that. Perhaps I will heal. If anyone is working healing magic for me... thank you too! Time to grab an advil and rest.
CRAP! I have to drive to the store... I forgot the CDs there! *grumble*
The plan after the rest:
-clean the kitchen
-sort the things in the office
-move the scanner and printer and gecko tank
-get rid of big clunky file cabinet
-move boxes from livingroom out of way for coven tomorrow
-laundry
-find an earth elemental invokation or write one
-dinner should be somewhere in there
After the usual morning routine stuffs, we headed out for lunch at Angrignon Mall. We spent some time just wandering around. I got shoes... ya shoes... at Ardene. Thue are black corderoy converse looking things for $20 and will fit both socks and orthotics. WOOHOO! We roamed and I drooled over some clothes but did not buy any. We stopped into EB Games where M-SB got some cable thingy for his new monitor and a new game. Then off to poke around the new additions to the mall across the road. The new SAQ suck. It is tiny. I was hoping to get Sortilege or Iced Wine or a yummy Iced Cider. They had rediculously expensive iced wine and only ONE bottle of it. No Sortilege. A couple of overpriced Iced Ciders. So we walked on. There is now a Curves, but they were closed. Saw nice boots in the new Yellow, but no current budget of $50+ for more footware. Popped into L'Equippeur. I wanted to price clothes for M-SB as he seriously needs some new things. L'Equippeur is the best place to get tough sturdy practical clothing, especially for working men. We will return when the budget is a bit more open.
On our way home, got gas and bugs for the lizards. Oh... and got a new addition to the family. Someone dropped off an adult male gecko. My friend Rob, the manager, was there and they were not certain they could sell him, so he asked me for an offer and accepted it. This big male leopard gecko is such a sweety! He is sweet and gently like my old fat-tailed gecko was. I walked around the house with him on my shoulder for a while as I fed the other lizards and cleaned cages. He was so very good. Now I need a name for him. He is in with the other two leopard geckos. The girls are ignoring him. Poor guy is uncertain of them. Well, he now has his own personal heram. *grin* Once he settles, I am sure he will be happy. I might try my hand at breeding. But I must first fatten up the girls.
Now after all that walking around, the hip is hurting. I was doing really well this morning. I did not have advil and the aching was only dull. I have been trying to be very careful not to strain it. Thanks to several great people at work, CMS and coven who helped ensure that. Perhaps I will heal. If anyone is working healing magic for me... thank you too! Time to grab an advil and rest.
CRAP! I have to drive to the store... I forgot the CDs there! *grumble*
The plan after the rest:
-clean the kitchen
-sort the things in the office
-move the scanner and printer and gecko tank
-get rid of big clunky file cabinet
-move boxes from livingroom out of way for coven tomorrow
-laundry
-find an earth elemental invokation or write one
-dinner should be somewhere in there
My Gods!!! Long Day!!!
I had a hard time getting up this morning. .. Friday Morning. Since I pulled my back and hip... everything hurt. I did some careful stretches and laid flat on my back most of the night. That means at least the back is roughly aligned and has stopped spasming and hurting. But the hip... that is a whole other story. Waking was rough. Work was LONG! It is the 11 hr shift and me hurting. I was frequently frustrated cuase I could not do many of the things I would have done because I hurt. That made me irritable. That and I still had little of the display stuff from CMS students for the Open House and was worried there would be no Open House.
In the end, people showed up in time with stuff and helped set up. It was quiet, but seemed successful. The DVD that Frank did was incredible! I am so proud of the students. I look forward to the next session's groups.
Afterward... ya... my day did not end there... ugh...
Afterward, there was clean-up and explaining about dismantling to staff. I had to have help carrying everything to be car and stuff. I felt stupidly useless. Puts me in a bit of a foul grumpy mood. The long slow walk to Hurley's was good though. I was hoping to drop in for Kirk's memorial as I could not stay when I popped in on my break during the day. Unfortunately it was over. So me and my covener sat for a drink and talked elevation stuff. It was not one of those excited congradulatory talks, but one of those serious talks. I hate those. Not that the news was bad... just that it was serious work on this kind of talk. I can't say more. I needed food after, so we stopped at a cheap pizza place. I really wanted Hurley's baked brie... but their kitchen was closed by the time we arrived... so cheap pizza was the fare after a drink and before driving. Not that I drink much nor often. I kinda nurse drinks over time... especially is noisy places like Hurley's.
Dropped him off at his place cause it was late and he has to be up at a stupid hour tomorrow. So now I am home. AND OH MY GODS THE MESS! Worse... I cannot bend over to clean up. I wanted to SCREAM! The cats decided the garlic cloves drying were the next favorite toy. I am still missing a piece. I sniffed the cats... none smell like they ate it. But still... ARGH! What a mess. The kitchen looks like I never cleaned it despite the fact that I did several times thins week... and so did M-SB. There is cat litter everywhere. I swept it back towards the little box. Cat food scattered helter skelter. And just ARGH! messy. And I hurt! I have been on my feet ALL DAY! I am tired and sore. My hip is killing me.
Drugs and bed.
In the end, people showed up in time with stuff and helped set up. It was quiet, but seemed successful. The DVD that Frank did was incredible! I am so proud of the students. I look forward to the next session's groups.
Afterward... ya... my day did not end there... ugh...
Afterward, there was clean-up and explaining about dismantling to staff. I had to have help carrying everything to be car and stuff. I felt stupidly useless. Puts me in a bit of a foul grumpy mood. The long slow walk to Hurley's was good though. I was hoping to drop in for Kirk's memorial as I could not stay when I popped in on my break during the day. Unfortunately it was over. So me and my covener sat for a drink and talked elevation stuff. It was not one of those excited congradulatory talks, but one of those serious talks. I hate those. Not that the news was bad... just that it was serious work on this kind of talk. I can't say more. I needed food after, so we stopped at a cheap pizza place. I really wanted Hurley's baked brie... but their kitchen was closed by the time we arrived... so cheap pizza was the fare after a drink and before driving. Not that I drink much nor often. I kinda nurse drinks over time... especially is noisy places like Hurley's.
Dropped him off at his place cause it was late and he has to be up at a stupid hour tomorrow. So now I am home. AND OH MY GODS THE MESS! Worse... I cannot bend over to clean up. I wanted to SCREAM! The cats decided the garlic cloves drying were the next favorite toy. I am still missing a piece. I sniffed the cats... none smell like they ate it. But still... ARGH! What a mess. The kitchen looks like I never cleaned it despite the fact that I did several times thins week... and so did M-SB. There is cat litter everywhere. I swept it back towards the little box. Cat food scattered helter skelter. And just ARGH! messy. And I hurt! I have been on my feet ALL DAY! I am tired and sore. My hip is killing me.
Drugs and bed.
Thursday, August 24, 2006
ARGH!!! *griping blog... beware*
Today was a decent day at work. I got stuff done and managed 1/2 a thorough meeting. I hop to have the other half tomorrow.
Afterwards, I was scrubbing and cleaning the classroom. I sorted out all the non-essentials. Packed them up and rearranged the furniture. I moved the TV to scrub the floor behind it and POP! I felt like I was stabbed in the lowerback and the back of my left hip. Fire and Lightening. I tried to continue, but just couldn't get much more done. I could not bend. I could hardly walk. It hurt to sit. And gods help me if I tried to carry something. I was cranky and frustrated withing 15minutes of feeling helpless. I don't do helpless very well. It upsets me. It scares me. I called in help. When help arrived, they were wonderful! They carried stuff to my car and finished up in the classroom. They eventually kicked me out before I hurt myself again. Driving home gave me a whole new sense of pain.
I got home... alive. Took advil. Advil is my friend! M-SB made dinner for me. Now I have been at this hard chair at my desk working on the signs for the CMS Open House tomorrow. I work the 11 hour shift tomorrow. Gods help me. I hope I am recovered by tomorrow.
Also, Orialis memorial for Kirk is at Hurley's tomorrow night. I hope to get there for a short bit. Kirk was a friend and teacher.... and inspiration. My interest in gems and their magic come from him. My interest in Celtic folk music also comes from him. Before him, all knew of Celtic music was the stuff I Irish danced to in competitions. He brought voice and culture and tradition to the music... he brought it to life. He passed away this week of a heart attack. I will miss him. On my break from work, I will go to Hurley's and buy a CD or 2 from the new CD's he has done.
Now back to griping! ARRRGH!!! I hate being sick or hurt or incapacitated in any way!
Afterwards, I was scrubbing and cleaning the classroom. I sorted out all the non-essentials. Packed them up and rearranged the furniture. I moved the TV to scrub the floor behind it and POP! I felt like I was stabbed in the lowerback and the back of my left hip. Fire and Lightening. I tried to continue, but just couldn't get much more done. I could not bend. I could hardly walk. It hurt to sit. And gods help me if I tried to carry something. I was cranky and frustrated withing 15minutes of feeling helpless. I don't do helpless very well. It upsets me. It scares me. I called in help. When help arrived, they were wonderful! They carried stuff to my car and finished up in the classroom. They eventually kicked me out before I hurt myself again. Driving home gave me a whole new sense of pain.
I got home... alive. Took advil. Advil is my friend! M-SB made dinner for me. Now I have been at this hard chair at my desk working on the signs for the CMS Open House tomorrow. I work the 11 hour shift tomorrow. Gods help me. I hope I am recovered by tomorrow.
Also, Orialis memorial for Kirk is at Hurley's tomorrow night. I hope to get there for a short bit. Kirk was a friend and teacher.... and inspiration. My interest in gems and their magic come from him. My interest in Celtic folk music also comes from him. Before him, all knew of Celtic music was the stuff I Irish danced to in competitions. He brought voice and culture and tradition to the music... he brought it to life. He passed away this week of a heart attack. I will miss him. On my break from work, I will go to Hurley's and buy a CD or 2 from the new CD's he has done.
Now back to griping! ARRRGH!!! I hate being sick or hurt or incapacitated in any way!
Tsuki & School
He is being SOOOOOOO luvvy. So much so it is kinda annoying. I did not take him to the vet today to neutered. I forgot to fast him overnight. So I called and rescheduled for next Wednesday.
Today I registered for the Zen class at McGill. I pray this does not kill me. I am prepared to reduce what I eat and lose a day of work to better manage class and homework... but I hope not to.
Also today I clean up and prepare the CMS classroom and upstairs space for the Open House. I also need to lock down the schedule. Without a solid schedule I can't get registrants. This is driving me crazy! This year I did not get the summer break I wanted to get things into order. I need to find the complaints depart for thing thing I have called LIFE. It just is not working out the way I need it to. It got broken along the way somewhere, I am sure it is a manufacturing flaw. If it is my fault, I would like a user's guide and troubleshooting guide so I can fix it myself and not die doing so.
Today I registered for the Zen class at McGill. I pray this does not kill me. I am prepared to reduce what I eat and lose a day of work to better manage class and homework... but I hope not to.
Also today I clean up and prepare the CMS classroom and upstairs space for the Open House. I also need to lock down the schedule. Without a solid schedule I can't get registrants. This is driving me crazy! This year I did not get the summer break I wanted to get things into order. I need to find the complaints depart for thing thing I have called LIFE. It just is not working out the way I need it to. It got broken along the way somewhere, I am sure it is a manufacturing flaw. If it is my fault, I would like a user's guide and troubleshooting guide so I can fix it myself and not die doing so.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
the short and the long
Yesterday... it happened? Ya... I think so. I was in such a tired haze as I had not slept Monday night. Rotten cats. Had my academic advising appointment. This was one of the most comfortable and helpful appointments I have ever had! And with luck, I might get a couple Zen and Japanese religion classes at McGill. We shall see. It does mean, however... as STRICT schedule. I can also do Wicca as part of my comprehensive exams. I just need to work with Norma Joseph on this. YAY! I saw the financial aid advisor too. She showed me how to do the spouse thingy I have to do and explained that I am no longer qualified for bursaries. That means tight for money this year. Work was ... fuzzy. We hired someone new. Thanks the Goddess! She will be in for her first training day today.
Today... well, I locked the cats out of the bedroom last night. While I terribly missed the cuddling, the quiet during their nightly play was a blessing. I got some sleep. I managed a bowl of cereal this morning for breakfast and got my hair cut. It is not as short as I wanted it, but is still nice, similar to what I had done in the Spring. She did thin it so it is not so puffy.
Today is a relax day and a house/CMS work day. I will clean the house, run some errands, call someone to go get clay for a ritual, and prepare the CMS Open House.
EDIT::1:30pm::
kitchen tidied
Fridge and freezer sorted
me fed lunch
Monday, August 21, 2006
Success!
I have attacked the office yet again! I moved the new desk into a different corner, the corner where the altar was. and the altar is now near the door with the shrine. and the now vacant corner is just big enough for an eisel. There are still boxes and boxes of stuff to figure out where to put. and 2 shelves from the livingroom I want to move into the office. I am thinking of getting some good quality file boxes that can stack and then get rid of the clunky file cabinet that is being used more as a gecko tank stand than a file cabinet. One thing at a time. At the moment... I am happy with my office. I am even more happy that I made a space for art. Now I need to get an eisel and new paints and brushes and stuff so I can get back into painting.
Change
This afternoon and evening was full of changes. Friends come and go, so do students. Today I helped graduate several students. I am so very proud of them. I also got to sit and share time with a friend I do not see nearly enough of. And I missed seeing some friends who just could not make it out. There are other changes in the air, challenging ones. I cannot speak further on this. Save... good luck to all with the challenges to come. With each change in state, we come full circle on some lessons. I hope we learn from these lessons. Everything in life is part of a learning experience, the good things and the bad. This being a waning moon, Linda had it right. We come on the close of many things this month, this esbat... and thus make way for new things to come. I wish my students the best of luck in their future endevours and hope to see some of them next session in some way.
Open House this Friday, August 25th
at Le Melange Magique
1928 St-Catherine West, Montreal
514-938-1458
starting at 7pm
Open House this Friday, August 25th
at Le Melange Magique
1928 St-Catherine West, Montreal
514-938-1458
starting at 7pm
Sunday, August 20, 2006
So Cool!
We had a great time at M-SB's mom's place for a family BBQ. There place is so amazing as a country cottage on the lake. We chased frogs. We ate lots of food. I got to hold baby Emily some. We then drove home in torrential rain. The weather migraine was unbarable, so we stopped in St-Eustache for advil. And fun fun fun, I got to roleplay a smidgeon with MAx before bed.
Today was very hard getting up. I had woken several times in the night for no reason. So I was so very tired. I managed to drag myself up after M-SB showered. I cleaned the floors while he prepared breakfast for the household (including our great downstairs neighbors). I watched the pending rain with annoyance. Tonight is supposed to be a ritual... out in the park. We rushed out to M-SB's sister's place because he was picking up a giant computer monitor. While there, I somehow managed to inherit a new laptop... YAY! ...and an imported painting. This laptop is small and light like my other one out of its cradle... but this one has no cradle! It also has wireless internet and a DVD player. COOLNESS!
Now I have just finished informing as many CMS folks as I can about moving the ritual to the non-rainy indoor space at the store and just finished preparing the graduation certificates. I need to redesign the specialty certificates.
My coming weeks are not going to be the nice relaxed weeks before school that I had hoped for. We lost an employee. She got a different job for more pay. I can't fault her for that... that is the life working in retail. But it means... I fill in the missing hours. SUCKS! If I can manage tp get out of some for the last week before September, I will. I need to prepare my office space and be relaxed and recharged for school. This summer has flown by so fast. I am still trying to catch up with... JUNE!
Today was very hard getting up. I had woken several times in the night for no reason. So I was so very tired. I managed to drag myself up after M-SB showered. I cleaned the floors while he prepared breakfast for the household (including our great downstairs neighbors). I watched the pending rain with annoyance. Tonight is supposed to be a ritual... out in the park. We rushed out to M-SB's sister's place because he was picking up a giant computer monitor. While there, I somehow managed to inherit a new laptop... YAY! ...and an imported painting. This laptop is small and light like my other one out of its cradle... but this one has no cradle! It also has wireless internet and a DVD player. COOLNESS!
Now I have just finished informing as many CMS folks as I can about moving the ritual to the non-rainy indoor space at the store and just finished preparing the graduation certificates. I need to redesign the specialty certificates.
My coming weeks are not going to be the nice relaxed weeks before school that I had hoped for. We lost an employee. She got a different job for more pay. I can't fault her for that... that is the life working in retail. But it means... I fill in the missing hours. SUCKS! If I can manage tp get out of some for the last week before September, I will. I need to prepare my office space and be relaxed and recharged for school. This summer has flown by so fast. I am still trying to catch up with... JUNE!
Saturday, August 19, 2006
incoherent
wow... last night I should not have bothered to blog. I am amazed it is not completely incoherent gibberish. This morning I am having a blueberry banana milkshake. Mmmmmm. So I am not unfed this morning. The milkshakes I make are filling. One or two eggs, honey, sometimes vanilla, fruit (banana usually with strawberry or blueberry... i have blueberries from the farm), and milk. So now I can think.
Yesterday was a bad day. I can't go missing meals like that. I was so out of sorts that I didn't remember that I had pasta supper for me that needed only to be microwaved. I was in a bad state when I got home till I had the soup. Then I was fine.
I got to roleplay online via MSN with Max for a bit. I started a new story with him. It was lots of fun. I went to be around 1:00am. My migraine was back in force when I went to bed. It was an air pressure headache. I hate when the weather does that. I didn't want to turn off the a/c because the mugginess was suffocating. And I wanted to turn it off because the migraine was so bad. M-SB came in sometime past that. The migraine eased sometime past that. Advil is my friend.
Today we have a BBQ to go to. It is one of those family things. I better bring something to read/do. I have tons of Taoist stuff to read for school. I want to be ahead in my reading. Well, at the moment I am rereading the Tao Te Ching and then some notes from my Religions of China and Japan course. Then I will tackle the textbooks for this class. I bought them this week... on Mom's Visa. I am severely short on cash this week. I paid my mom for the car and am waiting for sympatico to hurry up and take their money out of my account. But I doubt that will even leave me with enough for a strip of bus tickets to get to work next week. *sigh*
Well, off to finish breakfast... milkshake.
Yesterday was a bad day. I can't go missing meals like that. I was so out of sorts that I didn't remember that I had pasta supper for me that needed only to be microwaved. I was in a bad state when I got home till I had the soup. Then I was fine.
I got to roleplay online via MSN with Max for a bit. I started a new story with him. It was lots of fun. I went to be around 1:00am. My migraine was back in force when I went to bed. It was an air pressure headache. I hate when the weather does that. I didn't want to turn off the a/c because the mugginess was suffocating. And I wanted to turn it off because the migraine was so bad. M-SB came in sometime past that. The migraine eased sometime past that. Advil is my friend.
Today we have a BBQ to go to. It is one of those family things. I better bring something to read/do. I have tons of Taoist stuff to read for school. I want to be ahead in my reading. Well, at the moment I am rereading the Tao Te Ching and then some notes from my Religions of China and Japan course. Then I will tackle the textbooks for this class. I bought them this week... on Mom's Visa. I am severely short on cash this week. I paid my mom for the car and am waiting for sympatico to hurry up and take their money out of my account. But I doubt that will even leave me with enough for a strip of bus tickets to get to work next week. *sigh*
Well, off to finish breakfast... milkshake.
Friday, August 18, 2006
unwell
Today was crabby.
As i was getting ready for work with the plan to have a sandwich for lunch and a danish for breakfast at work and the pasta for dinner... I discovered the buns for my sandwich to be moldy. No time to develop an alternative. Left. At work I intended to have the danish... but it was moldy too. Stupid humidity. And the pasta was no longer interesting as I was fast getting into a bad mood and very woozy. Thankfully Yan shared some rice with me. Rice is safe food when I am unwell. But I needed dinner and didn't eat any dinner. Now I am home and hot and ill and migrainy and want safe food and too sick to make any. Normally when this happens, M-SB is here to get bread or make rice and ensure I don't pass out or get ill. But he is out tonight.
I know I have to eat something. I do not want him coming home and finding I need to be at a hospital. I just feel so ucky. I can't take meds for the migraine either till i have food or i will just throw up.
As i was getting ready for work with the plan to have a sandwich for lunch and a danish for breakfast at work and the pasta for dinner... I discovered the buns for my sandwich to be moldy. No time to develop an alternative. Left. At work I intended to have the danish... but it was moldy too. Stupid humidity. And the pasta was no longer interesting as I was fast getting into a bad mood and very woozy. Thankfully Yan shared some rice with me. Rice is safe food when I am unwell. But I needed dinner and didn't eat any dinner. Now I am home and hot and ill and migrainy and want safe food and too sick to make any. Normally when this happens, M-SB is here to get bread or make rice and ensure I don't pass out or get ill. But he is out tonight.
I know I have to eat something. I do not want him coming home and finding I need to be at a hospital. I just feel so ucky. I can't take meds for the migraine either till i have food or i will just throw up.
Thursday, August 17, 2006
discovery
The new desk has given me a new discovery. PAIN. Yup. back pain.... My keyboard is on a little tray which is lower than the rest of my desk. I am a bad typist. I need to look at my keyboard. Looking dowk more and the fact that the position forces me to sit funny (my legs don't really fit under the tray now) is causingh pain all down my back. There just is no winning with this office.
And I am thirsty with nothing to drink making me more cranky. I want to go get drink at the dep, but I am not comfortable waliing in the area around the corner. 90th Avenue has not been the safest place for people. My street is like night and day compared to the dump around the corner. I guess I will make M-SB walk with me when he gets out of the bath.
And I am thirsty with nothing to drink making me more cranky. I want to go get drink at the dep, but I am not comfortable waliing in the area around the corner. 90th Avenue has not been the safest place for people. My street is like night and day compared to the dump around the corner. I guess I will make M-SB walk with me when he gets out of the bath.
NEW DESK
At last. It is set up. The rest of the office is not set up, and the livingroom is a stacked mess... but I will get there. The new desk actually has more surface space. It is very deceptive in the store. It looked much smaller in the store.
I got everything set up (with M-SB's help). AND got to talk to my nephew by webcam and mic. Hunter, my nephew, can read and write... I am so impressed. He is only 3!!! He sounds out the letters slowly then pop! says the word as a whole almost always correctly. I was shocked!
I was going to head out to Dorval... but I was too hot and cranky and tired.
Now... confused...
Due to some conversion thing... the goverment is taking back $438 and then paying $3709 to my bank against my loan. HUNH? But it looks like I am not getting any bursary this year. That money is for the 2005/6 year not the 2006/7 year. I am way confused. And now I need a "declaration" form thingy for my husband. OY! I guess on Monday I will be stopping into the Financial Aid office as well as the academic advisor's office.
I got everything set up (with M-SB's help). AND got to talk to my nephew by webcam and mic. Hunter, my nephew, can read and write... I am so impressed. He is only 3!!! He sounds out the letters slowly then pop! says the word as a whole almost always correctly. I was shocked!
I was going to head out to Dorval... but I was too hot and cranky and tired.
Now... confused...
Due to some conversion thing... the goverment is taking back $438 and then paying $3709 to my bank against my loan. HUNH? But it looks like I am not getting any bursary this year. That money is for the 2005/6 year not the 2006/7 year. I am way confused. And now I need a "declaration" form thingy for my husband. OY! I guess on Monday I will be stopping into the Financial Aid office as well as the academic advisor's office.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
How's it going?
UGH!
That is how...
I sorted through 4 bags/boxes in the office proper (excluding anything behind the sofa). Progress right? HA! It sure does not look like it. I feel so daunted and demoralized by this. I wanted it done before M-SB came home. I didn't even get to eat today because I was so busy cleaning and sorting. *pout*
He should be home soon. We will do dinner. Then I will empty the desk so he can take it apart. Just so you all know, that means I will likely be offline for a couple of days.
That is how...
I sorted through 4 bags/boxes in the office proper (excluding anything behind the sofa). Progress right? HA! It sure does not look like it. I feel so daunted and demoralized by this. I wanted it done before M-SB came home. I didn't even get to eat today because I was so busy cleaning and sorting. *pout*
He should be home soon. We will do dinner. Then I will empty the desk so he can take it apart. Just so you all know, that means I will likely be offline for a couple of days.
Late Start
I intended to be up early today. I just could not make it. It is past noon now and I am having my first cup of tea. I did make the bed, get dressed and check email. I also have done a general cleaning in the kitchen. Once the tea is sipped some, I will wash dishes and fold laundry. And take down another load. I have to go out to get cat litter and deposit my paycheck, too.
Then comes the brutality!
There are boxes behind the sofa. Some are just storage extras (2 space cat carriers, the a/c box, and some storage bins that may or may not be empty). I will sort them and purge and put some in the basement. Thanks Autumn & Ash for letting us use some space there for this. Then I purge the closet and force M-SB to sort the tools into a more usable and organized way. Some livingroom storage things can go into the closet. Or even be used for the tools. Then water the balcony and house plants (oh... and repot the money trees). And THEN... then move stuff our of the office, sorting it as I do so... purging more like. I hope to have it emptied by tonight so M-SB can dismantle the desk for Hobbes. Thursday... new office. That is the goal. I am determined!
Ok... tea is done... time to get to work!
Then comes the brutality!
There are boxes behind the sofa. Some are just storage extras (2 space cat carriers, the a/c box, and some storage bins that may or may not be empty). I will sort them and purge and put some in the basement. Thanks Autumn & Ash for letting us use some space there for this. Then I purge the closet and force M-SB to sort the tools into a more usable and organized way. Some livingroom storage things can go into the closet. Or even be used for the tools. Then water the balcony and house plants (oh... and repot the money trees). And THEN... then move stuff our of the office, sorting it as I do so... purging more like. I hope to have it emptied by tonight so M-SB can dismantle the desk for Hobbes. Thursday... new office. That is the goal. I am determined!
Ok... tea is done... time to get to work!
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
lazy
Today I kinda took a day off from life. I longed in bed till M-SB called at noon. Then I snuggled with Tsuki till about 1:30pm. Ahhhh... wonderful. He is so rarely in a snuggly mood. Usually he is all energy. I chatted to online friends a bit and started laundry.
Then off for tea with Hobbes. Half way there I realized I was in short pants and had not shaved my legs so I made a quick stop into the pharmacy to get a few things including some razors. I shocked an old Jewish woman getting into her car next to me by quickly dry shaving my legs in the car. She tapped on my window, "Missy, I have seen a great many things done in a car, but this is a first!" We both laughed. Why was I so stressed about my potentially indecent hairy legs? Well, M-SB and I were supposed to go grocery shopping. I felt the legs were too indecent to really be in public with. Tea at Hobbes' was great. We chatted about the nesk I am giving him and the new sewing area he will build for Sarah, the MPRC gripe (don't ask), the fest experiences this year, CMS... and a potential CMS retreat for next summer.
Off to get M-SB from work. We got groceries and our weekly organic basket. We are finding that much of our organic produce goes to waste with us as we are not big lettuce eaters. Although this week we got some corn and potatoes. Autumn will make Leek and Potato soup this week for us all. Mourelatos had bananas for 15-cents per LB. So now I will have banana and blueberry milkshakes for breakfast this week. We will see how the organic produce goes for late summer and fall. If we get more of the same we might reconsider the weekly basket thing or arrange to be with a different farm next year.
Now we are home having dinner and doing more laundry. I avoided all the MUST DO things today and now must do them tomorrow. The means contacting school for an academic advising appointment, pay bills, justify the discrepancy in my taxes VS the claim I made for my loans & bursaries last year. Oh... and I am SO brutalizing the office tomorrow. I will get up when M-SB leaves for work and make room in the livingroom (including sorting the boxes hiding behind the sofa). Then I will start moving stuff out of the office, sort it and place it into the livingroom. M-SB will take apart my computer and my big oak desk, then build the new one and re-set up my computer (this might happen Thursday). Thursday night, I will rearrange the office furniture. Then on the weekend, I begin moving stuff back into the office from the livingroom (including 2 livingroom shelving units). Next week, I rearrange the livingroom furniture. This means... please be advised that our home will no longer be baby safe for a couple weeks.
Now for some dessert... hmmm... left over dairy queen blizzard. Yup. And some play time of Neverwinder Nights. No, I am not playing it online. No, I am not a huge fan. I am just trying it out to have something different to do. Currently I find it slow and very frustrating because I have stupid amounts of reading just to talk to people. Text-based games that are slow like this drive me NUTS. But I intend to give it a good try, because I like D&D... and I don't get to roleplay any these days.
Then off for tea with Hobbes. Half way there I realized I was in short pants and had not shaved my legs so I made a quick stop into the pharmacy to get a few things including some razors. I shocked an old Jewish woman getting into her car next to me by quickly dry shaving my legs in the car. She tapped on my window, "Missy, I have seen a great many things done in a car, but this is a first!" We both laughed. Why was I so stressed about my potentially indecent hairy legs? Well, M-SB and I were supposed to go grocery shopping. I felt the legs were too indecent to really be in public with. Tea at Hobbes' was great. We chatted about the nesk I am giving him and the new sewing area he will build for Sarah, the MPRC gripe (don't ask), the fest experiences this year, CMS... and a potential CMS retreat for next summer.
Off to get M-SB from work. We got groceries and our weekly organic basket. We are finding that much of our organic produce goes to waste with us as we are not big lettuce eaters. Although this week we got some corn and potatoes. Autumn will make Leek and Potato soup this week for us all. Mourelatos had bananas for 15-cents per LB. So now I will have banana and blueberry milkshakes for breakfast this week. We will see how the organic produce goes for late summer and fall. If we get more of the same we might reconsider the weekly basket thing or arrange to be with a different farm next year.
Now we are home having dinner and doing more laundry. I avoided all the MUST DO things today and now must do them tomorrow. The means contacting school for an academic advising appointment, pay bills, justify the discrepancy in my taxes VS the claim I made for my loans & bursaries last year. Oh... and I am SO brutalizing the office tomorrow. I will get up when M-SB leaves for work and make room in the livingroom (including sorting the boxes hiding behind the sofa). Then I will start moving stuff out of the office, sort it and place it into the livingroom. M-SB will take apart my computer and my big oak desk, then build the new one and re-set up my computer (this might happen Thursday). Thursday night, I will rearrange the office furniture. Then on the weekend, I begin moving stuff back into the office from the livingroom (including 2 livingroom shelving units). Next week, I rearrange the livingroom furniture. This means... please be advised that our home will no longer be baby safe for a couple weeks.
Now for some dessert... hmmm... left over dairy queen blizzard. Yup. And some play time of Neverwinder Nights. No, I am not playing it online. No, I am not a huge fan. I am just trying it out to have something different to do. Currently I find it slow and very frustrating because I have stupid amounts of reading just to talk to people. Text-based games that are slow like this drive me NUTS. But I intend to give it a good try, because I like D&D... and I don't get to roleplay any these days.
Monday, August 14, 2006
OY... it is finally over
The crazy week from hell... working and working and home-working and stuff working... is finally over!!! YAY!!! I have 2 days off. I am so burnt. I could hardly see straight today. And the bus made me completely ill on the way home, tho perhaps the pervert in the metro showing his old wrinkly penis to me whenever he thought I was looking might have had something to do with the nausea. I reported him. The metro police took over from there. Shame I didn't have my knife on me. Men who cannot use such a sacred bodily part do not deserve to keep it. And yes, I WOULD have cut it. Like I said, shame I had no knife on me.
Well, I am home... unfed... the nausea is easing. I might eat something soon.
Thanks to everyone for the energy I pumped into the Dark candle for the Kitten torturer. On the dark moon, I will renew the spell... unless he is dealt with by then.
Well, I am home... unfed... the nausea is easing. I might eat something soon.
Thanks to everyone for the energy I pumped into the Dark candle for the Kitten torturer. On the dark moon, I will renew the spell... unless he is dealt with by then.
Saturday, August 12, 2006
In One Word
*stolen from Aurora Rising who stole it from Rajura *
In one word:
Yourself: Tired
Your significant other: M-SB
Your hair: Red
Your mother: Inspiring
Your father: Stability
Your dream last night: Sekhmet
Your dream home: woodland get-away (oops... more than one word)
The room you are in: office
Your favorite colour: red
Your fear: exhausting
Your favorite food: soy ice-cream (Rajura's fault)
Your car: Nissan
Your eyes: blue-grey
Where you want to be in ten years: content
Who you hung out with last night: cats
What you're not: cruel
Your best friend: busy
Your worst enemy: self-doubt
One of your wish list items: USB key (for school)
Your gender: female
The last thing you did: blog
What you are wearing: Serenity T-Shirt
Your favorite weather: warm/cool/dry
The last thing you ate: hummis
The music you're listening to: CPU hum
Your life: busy
Your mood: TIRED
Who are you: ME *grin*
In one word:
Yourself: Tired
Your significant other: M-SB
Your hair: Red
Your mother: Inspiring
Your father: Stability
Your dream last night: Sekhmet
Your dream home: woodland get-away (oops... more than one word)
The room you are in: office
Your favorite colour: red
Your fear: exhausting
Your favorite food: soy ice-cream (Rajura's fault)
Your car: Nissan
Your eyes: blue-grey
Where you want to be in ten years: content
Who you hung out with last night: cats
What you're not: cruel
Your best friend: busy
Your worst enemy: self-doubt
One of your wish list items: USB key (for school)
Your gender: female
The last thing you did: blog
What you are wearing: Serenity T-Shirt
Your favorite weather: warm/cool/dry
The last thing you ate: hummis
The music you're listening to: CPU hum
Your life: busy
Your mood: TIRED
Who are you: ME *grin*
workmania
OY!
I am working again today. Working the 11hrs yesterday was ok. At one point, I felt like a caged animal and took a break outside. Otherwise, working the 11hr shift was fine. I have worked several days this week, twice as much as usual. I did not realize how much it took out of me till I went to bed. I was exhausted. I still am. Getting up this morning was hard. And all I want to do is go back to bed. But I can't. We have an author event today. The Hugger Busker is coming in. Also, I cannot leave an employee completely alone for the day. But I so want sleep. I will sleep tonight.
OH!
Yesterday when I went for a walk due to the caged animal feeling, I happened upon a place liquidating its stock of bags, wallets, luggage, backpacks, etc (designer labels and all). They had stuff like backpack for $2, the nice ones that carry laptops. They had Italian Leather imported handbags ($100-150) selling at like $10. This was a great moment! I wanted a new carry bag since my sachel was no longer servicing me well. I also wanted a new smaller wallet. I found both. The shoulder bag ($50) was marked down to $29 then down to $17. The wallet that actually happened to match ($20) was marked down to $7. When I got yo the cash ready to pay, the salesperson asked for $5.70. WOW!!! The shoulder bag can also hold my notebooks for school. BONUS!
Tomorrow is a BUSY ritual day! The neighbors do breakfast for us this week, so we are up early for that. Then we have morning coven, practicing ritual for our retreat. Then we have another ritual with the facilitators. Then later at night I am doing a ritual against someone very cruel. Here, I invite anyone to help and lend their energies. An man in the area (wanted by SPCA and Police) had been "adopting" and buying cats and kittens and torturing them. The Nature Pet Centre here in LaSalle has pictures and further information about him. It is horrific! He comes across as a nice friendly "caring" guy who will take in your pet that you cannot keep. *shiver* Well, at 9pm EST Sunday night, I am invoking Sekhmet to deal with him as she sees fit. We did this once before for a guy who "roasted" a kitten on his BBQ alive for the fun of it. This new guy will get same treatment. I welcome to extra help wherever you are to call Sekhmet Sunday night at 9pm.
So you see, I have a busy weekend. Then I work again Monday. I get Tuesday and Wednesday off. I will so crash those days!
I am working again today. Working the 11hrs yesterday was ok. At one point, I felt like a caged animal and took a break outside. Otherwise, working the 11hr shift was fine. I have worked several days this week, twice as much as usual. I did not realize how much it took out of me till I went to bed. I was exhausted. I still am. Getting up this morning was hard. And all I want to do is go back to bed. But I can't. We have an author event today. The Hugger Busker is coming in. Also, I cannot leave an employee completely alone for the day. But I so want sleep. I will sleep tonight.
OH!
Yesterday when I went for a walk due to the caged animal feeling, I happened upon a place liquidating its stock of bags, wallets, luggage, backpacks, etc (designer labels and all). They had stuff like backpack for $2, the nice ones that carry laptops. They had Italian Leather imported handbags ($100-150) selling at like $10. This was a great moment! I wanted a new carry bag since my sachel was no longer servicing me well. I also wanted a new smaller wallet. I found both. The shoulder bag ($50) was marked down to $29 then down to $17. The wallet that actually happened to match ($20) was marked down to $7. When I got yo the cash ready to pay, the salesperson asked for $5.70. WOW!!! The shoulder bag can also hold my notebooks for school. BONUS!
Tomorrow is a BUSY ritual day! The neighbors do breakfast for us this week, so we are up early for that. Then we have morning coven, practicing ritual for our retreat. Then we have another ritual with the facilitators. Then later at night I am doing a ritual against someone very cruel. Here, I invite anyone to help and lend their energies. An man in the area (wanted by SPCA and Police) had been "adopting" and buying cats and kittens and torturing them. The Nature Pet Centre here in LaSalle has pictures and further information about him. It is horrific! He comes across as a nice friendly "caring" guy who will take in your pet that you cannot keep. *shiver* Well, at 9pm EST Sunday night, I am invoking Sekhmet to deal with him as she sees fit. We did this once before for a guy who "roasted" a kitten on his BBQ alive for the fun of it. This new guy will get same treatment. I welcome to extra help wherever you are to call Sekhmet Sunday night at 9pm.
So you see, I have a busy weekend. Then I work again Monday. I get Tuesday and Wednesday off. I will so crash those days!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Home early
Ugh... being a woman is really aweful sometime. I am home sick and cramping.
On the way home, I picked up some buns to nibble. I also got a tank container to separate the beta as he is killing off my fishies... and got a few replacement fish. Crickets were also on the menu. The sickly looking female marbled gecko ate a few days ago. YAY! And she shed. YAY!!! So now I have more food I hope she eats.
I will deal with animals then lie down.
Today I pick up M-SB from work, stop at the vet for cat food, stop at Reno to get my desk, stop at Bureau en Gros to get ink and paper... After dinner we go for Dairy Queen. I REALLY REALLY hope I feel better by then.
*EDIT* Muwahahahaha
my beta... the great shadfly hunter... is now in an isolation tank inside the big tank. Now I hope the female swordfish heals from his bad bites.
On the way home, I picked up some buns to nibble. I also got a tank container to separate the beta as he is killing off my fishies... and got a few replacement fish. Crickets were also on the menu. The sickly looking female marbled gecko ate a few days ago. YAY! And she shed. YAY!!! So now I have more food I hope she eats.
I will deal with animals then lie down.
Today I pick up M-SB from work, stop at the vet for cat food, stop at Reno to get my desk, stop at Bureau en Gros to get ink and paper... After dinner we go for Dairy Queen. I REALLY REALLY hope I feel better by then.
*EDIT* Muwahahahaha
my beta... the great shadfly hunter... is now in an isolation tank inside the big tank. Now I hope the female swordfish heals from his bad bites.
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Update
I refused to go to bed till the minutes to the CMS Teachers meeting were done. Now they are done. I can take advil and go to bed.
Back on Blogging Track
Ahhh... I seem to be blogging regularly again. That is partly due to my office NOT being a suana.
It is still chaos, but I intend to get to changing some of that... tomorrow. Today I am busy.
I have been busing to work. It has been good. A smooth straight ride there and back with reading time on the bus. I could do that regularly till the weather gets unpleasant. Then I will likely get a parking pass from school and drive to Loyola and park there and grab the free shuttle. I have had the hectic working many more days than usual set-up for the week.
Last night was a CMS Teachers meeting. This is why I am busy tonight. I have to type up the minutes, right after this blog.
Just some random thoughts and stuffs...
I have mini carnations with a lovely scent from my front balcony clipped and in water by my computer. The first batch did not survive Tsuki's oral fixation. Everything that looks and smells new must go into his mouth. Thus went the first couple mini carnations. These new ones are being carefully guarded. I love their delicate scent.
I got to peruse Avon catalogs. Weehee... I think I will make a purchase.
I spent too much money on groceries this evening, but now I have lunches for the week and weekend, right through Monday I hope.
I have decided to NOT go check on my Parents' home till next week. This week is just too crazy.
Tomorrow after work and getting food at the vet for KnickKnack, I go to Reno and get a new desk. Then to Bureau En Gros and get paper and ink for the printer. Then after dinner everyone in this combined household (excluding the werd woman in the basement who stinks up our stairway as though she has flooded her place with mothball water) go to Dairy Queen for Blizzards. This is a special day. Money from the purchase of every Blizzard will go to the Children's Wish Foundation. Good cause... great reason to get a yummy crispy-crunch blizzard.
My back has begun to hurt again. Back and hip. Very VERY annoying.
I want BADLY to get back to working out at curves. I am thinking of budgeting that in and pushing some other expenses/debts/bills in preference for my personal sanity. We will see after to deal with the Sympatico expense. It should be doable. I forgot I had worked an extra day and thus got a slightly bigger paycheck than expected. YAY!
I slept real badly last night... waking like every hour.
I started reading Lao Tzu: Tao Te Ching in preparation for school.
Hmmm... back is hurting too much now to continue typing. I guess I will squeeze in the CMS Teacher Meeting minutes into tomorrow's schedule. Time for advil and bed. *sigh*
It is still chaos, but I intend to get to changing some of that... tomorrow. Today I am busy.
I have been busing to work. It has been good. A smooth straight ride there and back with reading time on the bus. I could do that regularly till the weather gets unpleasant. Then I will likely get a parking pass from school and drive to Loyola and park there and grab the free shuttle. I have had the hectic working many more days than usual set-up for the week.
Last night was a CMS Teachers meeting. This is why I am busy tonight. I have to type up the minutes, right after this blog.
Just some random thoughts and stuffs...
I have mini carnations with a lovely scent from my front balcony clipped and in water by my computer. The first batch did not survive Tsuki's oral fixation. Everything that looks and smells new must go into his mouth. Thus went the first couple mini carnations. These new ones are being carefully guarded. I love their delicate scent.
I got to peruse Avon catalogs. Weehee... I think I will make a purchase.
I spent too much money on groceries this evening, but now I have lunches for the week and weekend, right through Monday I hope.
I have decided to NOT go check on my Parents' home till next week. This week is just too crazy.
Tomorrow after work and getting food at the vet for KnickKnack, I go to Reno and get a new desk. Then to Bureau En Gros and get paper and ink for the printer. Then after dinner everyone in this combined household (excluding the werd woman in the basement who stinks up our stairway as though she has flooded her place with mothball water) go to Dairy Queen for Blizzards. This is a special day. Money from the purchase of every Blizzard will go to the Children's Wish Foundation. Good cause... great reason to get a yummy crispy-crunch blizzard.
My back has begun to hurt again. Back and hip. Very VERY annoying.
I want BADLY to get back to working out at curves. I am thinking of budgeting that in and pushing some other expenses/debts/bills in preference for my personal sanity. We will see after to deal with the Sympatico expense. It should be doable. I forgot I had worked an extra day and thus got a slightly bigger paycheck than expected. YAY!
I slept real badly last night... waking like every hour.
I started reading Lao Tzu: Tao Te Ching in preparation for school.
Hmmm... back is hurting too much now to continue typing. I guess I will squeeze in the CMS Teacher Meeting minutes into tomorrow's schedule. Time for advil and bed. *sigh*
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
The Day So Far...
I woke late-ish... I felt like I was run over by a truck. I had to practically force myself out of bed and dressed. I felt better afterwards though. I made a quick "get" list, hauled out the recycle, and finally returned all the cans and bottles for a refund. I got a bit of groceries and came home. Damn, cat litter is heavy, even if it is a small bag, when you have other groceries in the carry box with it!
After unpacking it, I attempted to call my sister to arrange to go out and take care of the lawn. That was... um... I am not sure how to describe the lack of coherence and the defencive "you are trying to spy on me" attitude I got. I hope that was good enough. Well, needless to say, I am not welcome over and this attempt at leaving my sister in charge is so far a moderate failure. I say moderate because my niece has not called asking for food, so something is going ok. I relayed the incident to my mom and got permission from her to just go over Thursday. So I will. I need to get my blanket and check that everything is ok. My parents plan to get home sometime around the 20th maybe. They are having a great time where they are visiting my Brother in BC. My sister apparently has a part-time job! She is working part-time at the videostore near my parents' place. That is excellent! She has worked 2 days now. I hope this helps her get back onto her feet. I have tried so hard for my mom this time round to consider the poltergeist in my parents' house to actually be a living sister... but sometimes... I just can't. When she behaves human again... maybe. So she has a job. Maybe it is a step to being human. But the phone call... I will continue to consider her dead to me. Once in a blue moon, she is good... most of the time... well... you get the idea. So now I leave her be... I will get my blankets on Thursday and leave. Maybe I will be lucky and she will be at her new job. Maybe I will be even luckier and her new job will boost her to human again.
Anyways, I was just getting ready to start cleaning when Autumn and Liam came up to visit. YAY! I love having company when I am doing stuffs. We shared tea. She loves tha Cream Earl Grey tea. *grin* So does Liam apparently! Liam was all over the house exploring cats and fish and snakes. He played with the yellow-eyed panther cub stuffy and all the tupperware. He splashed in the cats' water dish and tasted a piece of cat food. Nope... that was NOT a cheerio... ew. I made the bed, washed dishes and relaxed with tea. Company is SO so SOOOO good for my sanity... so is the tea. Cream Earl Grey is like Scarlet Sanity in a mug. Ahhhhhhhhh. Liam tried to stick his hands in the fishtank. That is when I noticed the casualties. The beta and attacking my fishies. *pout* I am uncertain what to do. If I take him out, the kitten tries to overturn his bowl. Maybe I can get one of those containers for in the tanks to separate him. Hmmm... I don't want him killing off $40 worth of fish because he is ornary and cranky and nippy. *sigh* Liam and Autumn have gone downstairs for a nap.
I am now going to finish the cleaning I started. Fold laundry, wipe down bathroom, find CMS meeting book. I might try to sort the Livignroom stuff hiding behind the sofa. Then start to brutalize the office a bit.
After unpacking it, I attempted to call my sister to arrange to go out and take care of the lawn. That was... um... I am not sure how to describe the lack of coherence and the defencive "you are trying to spy on me" attitude I got. I hope that was good enough. Well, needless to say, I am not welcome over and this attempt at leaving my sister in charge is so far a moderate failure. I say moderate because my niece has not called asking for food, so something is going ok. I relayed the incident to my mom and got permission from her to just go over Thursday. So I will. I need to get my blanket and check that everything is ok. My parents plan to get home sometime around the 20th maybe. They are having a great time where they are visiting my Brother in BC. My sister apparently has a part-time job! She is working part-time at the videostore near my parents' place. That is excellent! She has worked 2 days now. I hope this helps her get back onto her feet. I have tried so hard for my mom this time round to consider the poltergeist in my parents' house to actually be a living sister... but sometimes... I just can't. When she behaves human again... maybe. So she has a job. Maybe it is a step to being human. But the phone call... I will continue to consider her dead to me. Once in a blue moon, she is good... most of the time... well... you get the idea. So now I leave her be... I will get my blankets on Thursday and leave. Maybe I will be lucky and she will be at her new job. Maybe I will be even luckier and her new job will boost her to human again.
Anyways, I was just getting ready to start cleaning when Autumn and Liam came up to visit. YAY! I love having company when I am doing stuffs. We shared tea. She loves tha Cream Earl Grey tea. *grin* So does Liam apparently! Liam was all over the house exploring cats and fish and snakes. He played with the yellow-eyed panther cub stuffy and all the tupperware. He splashed in the cats' water dish and tasted a piece of cat food. Nope... that was NOT a cheerio... ew. I made the bed, washed dishes and relaxed with tea. Company is SO so SOOOO good for my sanity... so is the tea. Cream Earl Grey is like Scarlet Sanity in a mug. Ahhhhhhhhh. Liam tried to stick his hands in the fishtank. That is when I noticed the casualties. The beta and attacking my fishies. *pout* I am uncertain what to do. If I take him out, the kitten tries to overturn his bowl. Maybe I can get one of those containers for in the tanks to separate him. Hmmm... I don't want him killing off $40 worth of fish because he is ornary and cranky and nippy. *sigh* Liam and Autumn have gone downstairs for a nap.
I am now going to finish the cleaning I started. Fold laundry, wipe down bathroom, find CMS meeting book. I might try to sort the Livignroom stuff hiding behind the sofa. Then start to brutalize the office a bit.
Monday, August 07, 2006
New Interesting Books: "Scarlet Picks"
New books arrived at the store over the past weekish. I meant to announce it, but just was so well, doing other things. I will post this list to the e-lists tonight, but wanted to get it here before I forgot about it.
For those into Ceremonial/Kabbalah:
Astral Journeys by J.H. Brennan (Thoth Publications) isbn: 1870450213
For those new to the Craft and want to explore their connection with Elements:
Elemental Witch by Tammy Sullivan isbn: 0738708917
For those who do Reike/Refloxology/Healing:
Gemstone Reflexology by Nora Kircher isbn: 1594771219
For those working on meditation and prayers:
Real Steps to Enlightenment by Amy Elizabeth Garcia isbn: 0738708968
Inner Journeys (Meditations & Visualization) by Gloria Chadwick isbn: 0738708984
Miracle Prayer: Nine Steps to Creating Prayers... by Susan Shumsky isbn: 1587612569
For those into Ceremonial/Kabbalah:
Astral Journeys by J.H. Brennan (Thoth Publications) isbn: 1870450213
For those new to the Craft and want to explore their connection with Elements:
Elemental Witch by Tammy Sullivan isbn: 0738708917
For those who do Reike/Refloxology/Healing:
Gemstone Reflexology by Nora Kircher isbn: 1594771219
For those working on meditation and prayers:
Real Steps to Enlightenment by Amy Elizabeth Garcia isbn: 0738708968
Inner Journeys (Meditations & Visualization) by Gloria Chadwick isbn: 0738708984
Miracle Prayer: Nine Steps to Creating Prayers... by Susan Shumsky isbn: 1587612569
Burnt
In more ways than one. I am tired. So tired. I want to sleep. energetically I am burnt. If only sleep would come. *sigh* But... I can't sleep. I am tired. But can't sleep. Wait... I said that already. I can't sleep because I am too hot or too cold. Or rather... I am both. My face is burnt. It is not red, just lightly pink with my nose swollen from the sunburn. My arms are burnt, the right more than the left... red and angry burns that hurt. The top of my head hurts cuz it is burnt too. Hell, my hair hurts. I tried to put cool water on it but it evaporates so fast and leaves my skin parched and hurting more. I rubbed some lotion in before. That helpd the tightness but not the burning at all. I thought I had solercaine or aloe lotion. But nope. All expired and tossed. Funny. I was not so burnt this morning. It is like it took my skin 6 hours to realize it was burnt. Now I am being punished for my time in the sun. I would sleep if I could levitate and not be touched by anything.
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Accomplishments
Today we got lots done. I picked up my Cream Earl Grey tea. I am now much appeased as it is my soothing night meditation tea and the tea to use if I am all freaky and need to be appeased. (When I am stressed out and cranky, M-SB makes me a tea and just puts it in front of me and the world is all right again.)
We came back with chainmail stuffs and he eagerly began making his coils and rings. It is so exciting to see in happy with something so crafty. I am hoping for some very nifty things in the end. So is he. He wants a black and purple chainmail wristband. It will look very cool on him. I have other ideas. Hmmm... I see a coven workshop in the making! Hehe.
We tackled cleaning out the car today. YAY! All the camping gear is now stowed away in the outdoor storage bin we got for it. All the crap and garbage is gone. next step will be to actually vacuum the car with my dad's shopvac... maybe Thursday after dealing with the lawn out there.
The roast... Mmmmmmm... we did a roast. A fair sized roast too! It came out delicious! I have lunch and we have dinner tomorrow and M-SB will have either a lunch or two out of it too.
All in all, this has been a wonderful and relaxing day. I think I will go make a tea and continue reading. Brutalizing the office will have to be later. The CMS Teachers Meeting has been planned. So that is off my To Do list. And I bought a one-week bus pass for this week as it is too expensive to drive and park at work all week. I might start some of the brutalizing of the office tomorrow evening.
I found the desk I want. I want it VERY VERY badly. It is at Reno Depot on speacial for their clearance for $120. and I am budgetless now. *pout* It would be perfect for a working office desk. It is smaller, works with the heater and not clunky. I can team it up with my table and have a perfect workspace. *sigh* I will watch it and see if they sell fast. *prays to afford one before they are ALL gone*
We came back with chainmail stuffs and he eagerly began making his coils and rings. It is so exciting to see in happy with something so crafty. I am hoping for some very nifty things in the end. So is he. He wants a black and purple chainmail wristband. It will look very cool on him. I have other ideas. Hmmm... I see a coven workshop in the making! Hehe.
We tackled cleaning out the car today. YAY! All the camping gear is now stowed away in the outdoor storage bin we got for it. All the crap and garbage is gone. next step will be to actually vacuum the car with my dad's shopvac... maybe Thursday after dealing with the lawn out there.
The roast... Mmmmmmm... we did a roast. A fair sized roast too! It came out delicious! I have lunch and we have dinner tomorrow and M-SB will have either a lunch or two out of it too.
All in all, this has been a wonderful and relaxing day. I think I will go make a tea and continue reading. Brutalizing the office will have to be later. The CMS Teachers Meeting has been planned. So that is off my To Do list. And I bought a one-week bus pass for this week as it is too expensive to drive and park at work all week. I might start some of the brutalizing of the office tomorrow evening.
I found the desk I want. I want it VERY VERY badly. It is at Reno Depot on speacial for their clearance for $120. and I am budgetless now. *pout* It would be perfect for a working office desk. It is smaller, works with the heater and not clunky. I can team it up with my table and have a perfect workspace. *sigh* I will watch it and see if they sell fast. *prays to afford one before they are ALL gone*
Baking
Yestrday was good. The drive was lovely, if a bit overly scenic. We kinda took the scenic route to the scenic route to KG. I mildly baked my left arm as we drove. It was sunny and lost and LOTS of tents at KG. I met up with folks and got in my hugs and kisses as well as took part in a handfasting. Blessings to Kyle and Kim L. Karen did a wonderful job facilitating their simple handfasting. See... that was EASY! HINT HINT!! Anyways, we met a bow maker and a chainmail specialist and someone who keeps beehives and exotic herbs. I wanted a bow, but 1- I had no spare funds for one and 2- he did not have one immediately on hand that called to me. But I liked his energy and enjoyed watching him work. His workmanship was most impressive. The chainmail guy was incredible. All his work from mail shirts to padded patches to bracelets and chokers were infused with a soft warm energy that made you feel like you were wearing silk not metal. M-SB bought a huge chunk of honeycomb and I got a large bag of American Saffron. Oh... and I baked a little on the beach talking to Ottawa Rick. I have a sunburn on the back of my shoulders.
American Saffron (Safflower) Link #1
Ammerican Saffron Link #2
American Saffron Link #3
Americal Saffron Alternative Medicine Link
After getting home and cleaning up, I got to bed early-ish. Not that is helped much. I was away for no reason at 3am. Then again with the alarm at 7am. Then i screwed up the clock and woke at what I thought was 9am in a panic. We bolted out of bed to get ready for breakfast as we were hosting breakfast this week. While M-SB was in the shower, I noted that all the other clocks in the house sported time that said 7:46am. DOH! Well we were up. We made French toast and sausage patties for breakfast which we shared with the neighbors.
They headed out to the Highland Games. I want to one day go. But this weekedn, we already spent our budgets. We will try to go next year. Instead, I sat and and read in the garden for 2+ hours. It was WONDERFUL! I do this at my mom's. Sit in the garden with juice and a good book. Read in peace and quiet, listen to the bugs and animals and breeze. Watch bees and butterflies. Note tha 4 different kinds of clover in our yard. And feel the sun bake off the cool morning dew and it crept across the lawn. I maked the other arm, then both and probably my face while engrossed in my book. Ow well, at least all the sunburnt places will match now.
The Hugger Busker will be at Melange Magique next weekend. I have to work the weekend, otherwise I would love to be in the events activities. I can't get a replacement either since 2 employees are away. Anyways, you should check it out. He will be doing a workshop lecture (interactive), reading from his book, meditation, sharing tea, and book signing. The day will cost $40 (and includes a copy of his book) or $25 (if you have a copy of the book). When? Saturday, August 12th staring at 12noon. I got this info emailed out to all the public lists this morning. I had meant to do it Thursday or Friday at work, but I was too busy. It is done now. I hope to see folks there, it will be very interesting, especially if you are into anything buddhist, you will see the influences.
M-SB was so fascinated by the chainmail guy at KG that he spent part of the morning looking up info and researching. Now I am being dragged out to Home Depot so he can get wire and try it out. When we get back, I will clean out the car and begin the brutalizing on my office. Oh yeah, and send out the agenda for the CMS Teachers Meeting.
American Saffron (Safflower) Link #1
Ammerican Saffron Link #2
American Saffron Link #3
Americal Saffron Alternative Medicine Link
After getting home and cleaning up, I got to bed early-ish. Not that is helped much. I was away for no reason at 3am. Then again with the alarm at 7am. Then i screwed up the clock and woke at what I thought was 9am in a panic. We bolted out of bed to get ready for breakfast as we were hosting breakfast this week. While M-SB was in the shower, I noted that all the other clocks in the house sported time that said 7:46am. DOH! Well we were up. We made French toast and sausage patties for breakfast which we shared with the neighbors.
They headed out to the Highland Games. I want to one day go. But this weekedn, we already spent our budgets. We will try to go next year. Instead, I sat and and read in the garden for 2+ hours. It was WONDERFUL! I do this at my mom's. Sit in the garden with juice and a good book. Read in peace and quiet, listen to the bugs and animals and breeze. Watch bees and butterflies. Note tha 4 different kinds of clover in our yard. And feel the sun bake off the cool morning dew and it crept across the lawn. I maked the other arm, then both and probably my face while engrossed in my book. Ow well, at least all the sunburnt places will match now.
The Hugger Busker will be at Melange Magique next weekend. I have to work the weekend, otherwise I would love to be in the events activities. I can't get a replacement either since 2 employees are away. Anyways, you should check it out. He will be doing a workshop lecture (interactive), reading from his book, meditation, sharing tea, and book signing. The day will cost $40 (and includes a copy of his book) or $25 (if you have a copy of the book). When? Saturday, August 12th staring at 12noon. I got this info emailed out to all the public lists this morning. I had meant to do it Thursday or Friday at work, but I was too busy. It is done now. I hope to see folks there, it will be very interesting, especially if you are into anything buddhist, you will see the influences.
M-SB was so fascinated by the chainmail guy at KG that he spent part of the morning looking up info and researching. Now I am being dragged out to Home Depot so he can get wire and try it out. When we get back, I will clean out the car and begin the brutalizing on my office. Oh yeah, and send out the agenda for the CMS Teachers Meeting.
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Relax
Folks seem to be concerned about my moodiness.
No, I am not feeling worthless.
No, M-SB and I did not have a fight.
No, nothing went horribly wrong to upset me.
There was no incident or anything.
I was just looking at my life and thinking that all those things I want, I wanted before I was 30. Now I am 34 and they are STILL on my wishlist. I am just frustrated with life... and feel pulled and divided too many ways. I am stressing over things that are not even here yet, like my MA class(es) this fall. I am not in need of encouragement.
Thanks...
I just kinda am feeling antisocial and pissed off with the universe.
I had 4 days off of work and they were wonderful. I got a bunch of things done, got rest, and recouped some. But I want more... I want like... I don't know.
Except for next week's psychotic work schedule for me, I have reduced my work hours in preperation for a tough semester at school. I have reduced my CMS to one class of teaching. I would like to get a temperary teaching position at a school, especially since it pays like $30/hr. Or maybe I am just getting to the end of all my personal energy and wits and need like a month of solitary confinement... or a year. *sigh* It would be nice to relax. Not just barely reach the state of relaxed to be thrown again into the frey of high tension.
Today, M-SB and I will go out to meet friends and look around KG (Kaleidascope Gathering). He has not met some of my friends out in the Ottawa area... or rather, he has forgotten who they are. He is not keen to go. He does not like these big busy social things.... in the way a 10-yr-old with caveties does not want to go to a dentist. *sigh* At least he is coming. We will have a day OUTSIDE the f-ing house for a change. I wish my stupid camera worked.
No, I am not feeling worthless.
No, M-SB and I did not have a fight.
No, nothing went horribly wrong to upset me.
There was no incident or anything.
I was just looking at my life and thinking that all those things I want, I wanted before I was 30. Now I am 34 and they are STILL on my wishlist. I am just frustrated with life... and feel pulled and divided too many ways. I am stressing over things that are not even here yet, like my MA class(es) this fall. I am not in need of encouragement.
Thanks...
I just kinda am feeling antisocial and pissed off with the universe.
I had 4 days off of work and they were wonderful. I got a bunch of things done, got rest, and recouped some. But I want more... I want like... I don't know.
Except for next week's psychotic work schedule for me, I have reduced my work hours in preperation for a tough semester at school. I have reduced my CMS to one class of teaching. I would like to get a temperary teaching position at a school, especially since it pays like $30/hr. Or maybe I am just getting to the end of all my personal energy and wits and need like a month of solitary confinement... or a year. *sigh* It would be nice to relax. Not just barely reach the state of relaxed to be thrown again into the frey of high tension.
Today, M-SB and I will go out to meet friends and look around KG (Kaleidascope Gathering). He has not met some of my friends out in the Ottawa area... or rather, he has forgotten who they are. He is not keen to go. He does not like these big busy social things.... in the way a 10-yr-old with caveties does not want to go to a dentist. *sigh* At least he is coming. We will have a day OUTSIDE the f-ing house for a change. I wish my stupid camera worked.
Friday, August 04, 2006
Moodiness Continues
I slept for a few hours on the sofa and went to bed around 3:30am. Getting up this morning was very hard, even though M-SB was wonderful and made breakfast for me. I was barely coherent all morning. Work was a struggle with a gazillion things to do and not a moment to sit and settly my head into the notion of work.
I get out and to the little postal office around the corner to pick up M-SB's parcel and they were not willing to give it to me as I have no ID (mail does not count) with my address on it. Why would I? We just moved! Also, my last name and his are not the same thanks to f-ing Quebec policy that does not consider marriage a good enough reason to take on your spouses last name. After some fussing, They let me take it.
I get home and I am much cranky and tired. And now I have NO ACESS to my email. I am on the phone now with Sympatico... 30min so far and they can't tell me what's wrong except that they know SOMETHING is wrong. I want to scream... but I know it is useless. Apparently someone changed my password. Apparently, I am not the only one experiencing this. I can hear the other operators in the background. They now after 42min. acknowledge that the problem is on their side and i will be without email this weekend. AAAAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!
AAAAAAAARRRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!
Do not email me anything important this weekend. I can be reached on MSN or Yahoo messenger... but not email.
I get out and to the little postal office around the corner to pick up M-SB's parcel and they were not willing to give it to me as I have no ID (mail does not count) with my address on it. Why would I? We just moved! Also, my last name and his are not the same thanks to f-ing Quebec policy that does not consider marriage a good enough reason to take on your spouses last name. After some fussing, They let me take it.
I get home and I am much cranky and tired. And now I have NO ACESS to my email. I am on the phone now with Sympatico... 30min so far and they can't tell me what's wrong except that they know SOMETHING is wrong. I want to scream... but I know it is useless. Apparently someone changed my password. Apparently, I am not the only one experiencing this. I can hear the other operators in the background. They now after 42min. acknowledge that the problem is on their side and i will be without email this weekend. AAAAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!
AAAAAAAARRRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!
Do not email me anything important this weekend. I can be reached on MSN or Yahoo messenger... but not email.
Feeling Moody
This evening I had an hourish of total brutal moodiness and self-negativity. I spent a good deal of my time screaming in the astral... in my astral sacred space. I think the mountains there are still reverberating from it. I was having a defeated moment where I felt that the things I really have wanted in life will just never happen.
- my MA
- teaching that I can live off of
- a ceremony (wedding/handfasting type thing involving family)
- a family (child before I am too fucking old to have one safely... my body aches more with every year)
- an art sanctuary (one of my secret desires to have a mostly empty space with a big window and just an altar and art supplies)
So... I screamed into my astral space ALOT. I am almost 35 and no where NEAR any of these goals... and sometimes feel like I am the only one who wants them. Breaks my heart a thousand-fold.
1:00am... going to bed. This is getting me nowhere....
- my MA
- teaching that I can live off of
- a ceremony (wedding/handfasting type thing involving family)
- a family (child before I am too fucking old to have one safely... my body aches more with every year)
- an art sanctuary (one of my secret desires to have a mostly empty space with a big window and just an altar and art supplies)
So... I screamed into my astral space ALOT. I am almost 35 and no where NEAR any of these goals... and sometimes feel like I am the only one who wants them. Breaks my heart a thousand-fold.
1:00am... going to bed. This is getting me nowhere....
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Mighty Hunter
Tsuki had yet another successful hunt today. He found one of those LARGE and leggy garden spiders... in the house. He thought I would get mad at him for having it and trying to hide it under his paw or in his mouth. When I figured out what he had, I praised him MUCHLY and he proceded to chomp on it and gobble it up. It was a new experience. YAY Tsuki!
I think he is in an oral phase. He has to put EVERYTHING in his mouth. He has tried cooked pasta and cheese. Result... learned to ask for more and sit for another piece. He tried hibiscus pollen. Result... sneezes and much shaking of the head trying to expell it from his face. He has tried cheese and LOVES it. He tried apple and found it very sweet to lick but otherwise uninteresting. He attempted trying lemon iced tea but the citrus was so strong it hurt his nose. He tried coke and was very shocked by the fizzing in his nose. Now he is spooked my bottled beverages. He tried water chestnut... very boring. The spider was his best new find today and it even came with lots of praise from Mommy.
The last new experience was with the hungry corn snakes. They were at the same time fascinating and terrifying. And they were trying to be fed and thus much cranky about a cat interfering.
Thus ends the current adventures of Tsuki the Mighty Hunter.
I think he is in an oral phase. He has to put EVERYTHING in his mouth. He has tried cooked pasta and cheese. Result... learned to ask for more and sit for another piece. He tried hibiscus pollen. Result... sneezes and much shaking of the head trying to expell it from his face. He has tried cheese and LOVES it. He tried apple and found it very sweet to lick but otherwise uninteresting. He attempted trying lemon iced tea but the citrus was so strong it hurt his nose. He tried coke and was very shocked by the fizzing in his nose. Now he is spooked my bottled beverages. He tried water chestnut... very boring. The spider was his best new find today and it even came with lots of praise from Mommy.
The last new experience was with the hungry corn snakes. They were at the same time fascinating and terrifying. And they were trying to be fed and thus much cranky about a cat interfering.
Thus ends the current adventures of Tsuki the Mighty Hunter.
Fun Stuff with a little grrrrr
Spectacular storm! We helped engage it before we had a pretty cyclone. The light show was amazing. The wind was violent and destructive. I am still looking for my recycle and refundable box contents. My balcony plants survived, especially since I brought the new Hibiscus into the bathroom. The yummy floats we made made me very ill again. Now I am CERTAIN that I cannot ingest cream soda and ice cream.
Today Autumn and I explored the new art store whose name I can't remember. And again I wanted to have an art space and draw and paint in it so badly it hurt. I was actually glad to leave. Later today I will start tearing apart the office. Do some more purging. Move some stuff.
I went to Reno Depot to get plany pots and tub and sink plugs and paint for the kitchen. I have ZERO idea if I got an ok paint. The drain plugs were the wrong type and the bathtub is not quite 1.5 inches diameter but slightly smaller which fucks things up entirely. The plug at Reno are too big or too small. PISS OFF! *sigh*
I am going to go eat late lunch and clean things a bit. Then repot the plants before the next storm hits tonight. Hmmm... cleaning later, potting nowish. I hear thunder. Oh and guess what we will be getting in a day or two? Check what Ontarion is getting. That is what we will get in a day or two.
K... potting time, then baking... then cleaning... then wreck havock in the office... the dinner for M-SB (STIRFRY with the strnge viggies we got in our basket yesterday). I hope everyone has candles. Hmmm... I better bring in my boxes so they don't blow away again.
Today Autumn and I explored the new art store whose name I can't remember. And again I wanted to have an art space and draw and paint in it so badly it hurt. I was actually glad to leave. Later today I will start tearing apart the office. Do some more purging. Move some stuff.
I went to Reno Depot to get plany pots and tub and sink plugs and paint for the kitchen. I have ZERO idea if I got an ok paint. The drain plugs were the wrong type and the bathtub is not quite 1.5 inches diameter but slightly smaller which fucks things up entirely. The plug at Reno are too big or too small. PISS OFF! *sigh*
I am going to go eat late lunch and clean things a bit. Then repot the plants before the next storm hits tonight. Hmmm... cleaning later, potting nowish. I hear thunder. Oh and guess what we will be getting in a day or two? Check what Ontarion is getting. That is what we will get in a day or two.
K... potting time, then baking... then cleaning... then wreck havock in the office... the dinner for M-SB (STIRFRY with the strnge viggies we got in our basket yesterday). I hope everyone has candles. Hmmm... I better bring in my boxes so they don't blow away again.
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Melting!!!
My gods it is HOT and HUMID today. My car a/c struggled and barely kept the car comfortable. The bedroom a/c is fighting to cool the bedroom. My office... is a SAUNA! This would be wonderful... if that is what I wanted. There was much work I needed to do on the computer today with regard to coven management. OY! I am so melting.
Thanks gods for a few reprieves. I enjoyed a small break visiting downstairs on my way to get laundry. Then Liam and Autumn came up to see my new fishies... hehe... I spent too much money and bought new fishies to surprise M-SB with in his tank. Liam terrorized the cats and made SSSSSSssss noises at my snakes. The geckos all got crickets. I have to go back Thursday and get more food for them. The snakes all got food, but as predicted, Timid is not interested in the solid dark brown mouse. He only like white, beige or spotted mice. *sigh* I will leave it in ther a few days. The marbles geckos got fresh new bedding appropriate for their jungle habitat needs. My little sickly looking female marbled gecko... I THOT was too low on energy to be feisty... Well! I was wrong. She bit me and took a chunk of skin and made cranky noises at me. They are not babies anymore. They have adult SHARP teeth! Liam had no interest in the geckos. The snakes were so-so. His favorites were the cats and the fish. He even said a NEW word in our home "LOOK". Surprized Mama and me!
Later I went down to entertain him a little and share bread that Autumn made. It is Lammas. Happy Lammas. This is bread and baking time. I am going to make apple crisps with crumble topping... tomorrow.
Ok... sweltering and sweating in the office. I am off to get this week's veggie basket and then to help make tacos for supper. Mmmmm... been craving those for a bit! And M-SB got ice cream, frozen raspberries and cream soda... guess what is for dessert!?
All in all, A good rest. I so needed a couple of solid days off together. I was getting burnt out.
I got sleep, and recoup time. I even felt up to pre-reading Tao stuff for my September University course as I listened to the new Asian CD I got. AND... I planned some ideas for rearranging the office and livingroom. I will start on that tomorrow. Laters all!
Thanks gods for a few reprieves. I enjoyed a small break visiting downstairs on my way to get laundry. Then Liam and Autumn came up to see my new fishies... hehe... I spent too much money and bought new fishies to surprise M-SB with in his tank. Liam terrorized the cats and made SSSSSSssss noises at my snakes. The geckos all got crickets. I have to go back Thursday and get more food for them. The snakes all got food, but as predicted, Timid is not interested in the solid dark brown mouse. He only like white, beige or spotted mice. *sigh* I will leave it in ther a few days. The marbles geckos got fresh new bedding appropriate for their jungle habitat needs. My little sickly looking female marbled gecko... I THOT was too low on energy to be feisty... Well! I was wrong. She bit me and took a chunk of skin and made cranky noises at me. They are not babies anymore. They have adult SHARP teeth! Liam had no interest in the geckos. The snakes were so-so. His favorites were the cats and the fish. He even said a NEW word in our home "LOOK". Surprized Mama and me!
Later I went down to entertain him a little and share bread that Autumn made. It is Lammas. Happy Lammas. This is bread and baking time. I am going to make apple crisps with crumble topping... tomorrow.
Ok... sweltering and sweating in the office. I am off to get this week's veggie basket and then to help make tacos for supper. Mmmmm... been craving those for a bit! And M-SB got ice cream, frozen raspberries and cream soda... guess what is for dessert!?
All in all, A good rest. I so needed a couple of solid days off together. I was getting burnt out.
I got sleep, and recoup time. I even felt up to pre-reading Tao stuff for my September University course as I listened to the new Asian CD I got. AND... I planned some ideas for rearranging the office and livingroom. I will start on that tomorrow. Laters all!
