Saturday, November 24, 2007
Throat Chakra
Well, it has been a few days since I last wrote... um... ok... alot of days. It was only a few days ago that I left the heart chakra and moved into the throat chakra work. TRUTH. This is the chakra that is all about my early vows:
BE TRUE TO YOUR WORD, TO YOUR PATH & TO YOURSELF
One truth I have realized is that I want/need to go back through the chakras as there is stuff in them I have wanted to do and just plain didn't get to. The heart chakra was easy for me. And I do not expect this one to give me any trouble. One of the interesting exercises for this chakra is to take a vow of silence. I am considering it. I can't do it at work as my co-workers would be royally pissed off with me. However, I am not sure when I could where it would actually challenge me. If I am not at work, I am usually home and not talking to anyone because, well... no one is here. Although... today might actually have been a good day for it as there are lots of people here. Oh well.
I have had an extremely productive couple days as I dig up true facts about handmaidens and prepare coven materials for the coming Yule Fair. I learned that nurses and ids in the scientific and medical fields used to be called handmaidens (whether they were male or female) and that this term is still in use and currently in heavy debate as to whether to keep it or do away with it. What a fascinating find!
This has been a big couple days! Yesterday I had teeth filled at the dentist and am was not allowed to chew for 24hours. Thank gods that is over. I am SOO HUNGRY for real food. It was followed by research and writing and figuring out how to express my ideas of what we are as a coven offering people in the public. This has continued throughout today. My only break was to add some more books to my www.amazon.ca wishlist and review the items I have won on ebay. Alas, some things I have not won. Other things I am merely waiting for them to arrive. A skirt ofr Roo. A book for me. Two Japanese e-book collections on CD for me and for Roo. A Polish tea cup for my own collection. I should ask if Mark's grandmother would be willing to part with one of her original tea cups from Poland. The Yule gifts I was bidding on fell through. Alas. They were so cool, but I was seriously outbid.
I have the cleaning woman here again. She tackled the kitchen, bedroom, geckos, and bathroom today. She has one more hour. We are going to tackle my library together now.
BE TRUE TO YOUR WORD, TO YOUR PATH & TO YOURSELF
One truth I have realized is that I want/need to go back through the chakras as there is stuff in them I have wanted to do and just plain didn't get to. The heart chakra was easy for me. And I do not expect this one to give me any trouble. One of the interesting exercises for this chakra is to take a vow of silence. I am considering it. I can't do it at work as my co-workers would be royally pissed off with me. However, I am not sure when I could where it would actually challenge me. If I am not at work, I am usually home and not talking to anyone because, well... no one is here. Although... today might actually have been a good day for it as there are lots of people here. Oh well.
I have had an extremely productive couple days as I dig up true facts about handmaidens and prepare coven materials for the coming Yule Fair. I learned that nurses and ids in the scientific and medical fields used to be called handmaidens (whether they were male or female) and that this term is still in use and currently in heavy debate as to whether to keep it or do away with it. What a fascinating find!
This has been a big couple days! Yesterday I had teeth filled at the dentist and am was not allowed to chew for 24hours. Thank gods that is over. I am SOO HUNGRY for real food. It was followed by research and writing and figuring out how to express my ideas of what we are as a coven offering people in the public. This has continued throughout today. My only break was to add some more books to my www.amazon.ca wishlist and review the items I have won on ebay. Alas, some things I have not won. Other things I am merely waiting for them to arrive. A skirt ofr Roo. A book for me. Two Japanese e-book collections on CD for me and for Roo. A Polish tea cup for my own collection. I should ask if Mark's grandmother would be willing to part with one of her original tea cups from Poland. The Yule gifts I was bidding on fell through. Alas. They were so cool, but I was seriously outbid.
I have the cleaning woman here again. She tackled the kitchen, bedroom, geckos, and bathroom today. She has one more hour. We are going to tackle my library together now.
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Heart Chakra
Now that I have intyernet and email... oh AND A NEW CELL PHONE (ya... finally managed to bust my other one)... I am back on for stuff. I am still so busy it is STUPID.
Did the Heart Chakra class and will be repeating it on Monday.
Loss, Grief, Loneliness, Love, Commpassion, Devotion, the heart, AIR... just... breathe...
This is remarkably so far not a difficult chakra. Maybe because I feel no grief for my previous losses. I can let them go and move forward. I have always seemed good at letting go of things like that. Accepting that they are gone and over and not allowing them to weigh me down. The dead have moved on, so can I. I have a great amount of love and compassion for those around me. Sometimes they don't see it, but that is ok. I still care. I am devoted to my path, to my self-dicovery, to learning and sharing. Sometimes I feel lonely when things I really wish would happen don't and I am tired of being the one to start/invoke them. I try not to let that weigh too heavily. I know I am also loved greatly by those around me... even if they don't show it or make me feel very wanted. I will be patient till they actually ask for my time and love.
For now, I am working on meditation and breathing. A long long time ago during a very very stressful time in my life at an Ostara ritual, I selected a message egg in the ritual. The message simply said BREATHE. It is like a mantra to me. When things get hard, I remember that message from the goddess and just breathe.
Today I am spoiling M-SB a bit. Since I have been so absorbed with my roleplaying and he has been so good about me being gone so much, I have decided to spoil him some today. I am baking a swiss chocolate cake. There is actually very little coco in it and that coco is processed too. SO... I can actually have some. I will make whipping cream to go on it later this evening. I made dinner too on the fancy Asian plates: lemon crab and ginger pepper rice with sliced almonds.
Warm and loving hugs to all.
Did the Heart Chakra class and will be repeating it on Monday.
Loss, Grief, Loneliness, Love, Commpassion, Devotion, the heart, AIR... just... breathe...
This is remarkably so far not a difficult chakra. Maybe because I feel no grief for my previous losses. I can let them go and move forward. I have always seemed good at letting go of things like that. Accepting that they are gone and over and not allowing them to weigh me down. The dead have moved on, so can I. I have a great amount of love and compassion for those around me. Sometimes they don't see it, but that is ok. I still care. I am devoted to my path, to my self-dicovery, to learning and sharing. Sometimes I feel lonely when things I really wish would happen don't and I am tired of being the one to start/invoke them. I try not to let that weigh too heavily. I know I am also loved greatly by those around me... even if they don't show it or make me feel very wanted. I will be patient till they actually ask for my time and love.
For now, I am working on meditation and breathing. A long long time ago during a very very stressful time in my life at an Ostara ritual, I selected a message egg in the ritual. The message simply said BREATHE. It is like a mantra to me. When things get hard, I remember that message from the goddess and just breathe.
Today I am spoiling M-SB a bit. Since I have been so absorbed with my roleplaying and he has been so good about me being gone so much, I have decided to spoil him some today. I am baking a swiss chocolate cake. There is actually very little coco in it and that coco is processed too. SO... I can actually have some. I will make whipping cream to go on it later this evening. I made dinner too on the fancy Asian plates: lemon crab and ginger pepper rice with sliced almonds.
Warm and loving hugs to all.
Saturday, November 10, 2007
Sorry...
All you who may have been waiting for something from me by email or have sent me something.... I have not had email access for over a week. I will have it fixed tonight.
Thursday, November 01, 2007
Solar Plexus
Well, I have been too busy and away from a computer to talk. Today is the first day I am home. Solar Plexus Chakra is about action, courage and blocked by shame. I have wondered much and concluded that I am not really ashamed of anything I have done in my life, nor am I ashamed of who I am. I am kind of a person of action. Roo suggested an exercise where we focus on choice and keeping the power in our hands by avoiding using such words as could, would, should, ought... implying regret of not doing whatever. This is more complicated. It is amazing how easily ingrained it is to use these words and not realize it. A challenge.
You have the right of action and choice. You never HAVE TO DO whatever. You CHOOSE TO DO whatever.
I got a cute ring pierced into my ear and my kanji tatts touched up.
I am home for whatever today... first day in a long while. I was supposed to have my cleaning lady in. But I don't know where she is. I emailed the company and am waiting for a response. Sigh... called the girl who was supposed to come. The compnay didn't pass her the confirmation. I am waiting for the company to get back to me... and her. It is a shame. Because she was ready, but didn't get her schedule. We will have to reschedule. Guess I will do some cleaning in between class planning.
Health Services called me back today. They got the results of my annual blood tests. This is the first time I have been called to come in for a followup and to talk about them. Can you say WORRIED! It can't be too serious if they were ok to wait a bit, but they did give me the very first available appointment with my doctor, November 15th. I will try not to stress over this. *ya... right*
You have the right of action and choice. You never HAVE TO DO whatever. You CHOOSE TO DO whatever.
I got a cute ring pierced into my ear and my kanji tatts touched up.
I am home for whatever today... first day in a long while. I was supposed to have my cleaning lady in. But I don't know where she is. I emailed the company and am waiting for a response. Sigh... called the girl who was supposed to come. The compnay didn't pass her the confirmation. I am waiting for the company to get back to me... and her. It is a shame. Because she was ready, but didn't get her schedule. We will have to reschedule. Guess I will do some cleaning in between class planning.
Health Services called me back today. They got the results of my annual blood tests. This is the first time I have been called to come in for a followup and to talk about them. Can you say WORRIED! It can't be too serious if they were ok to wait a bit, but they did give me the very first available appointment with my doctor, November 15th. I will try not to stress over this. *ya... right*
