Friday, February 22, 2008
Re-evaluating
Today I slept in. Well not really, but I laid in bed and just contemplated for a while. I considered how I felt about a variety of things. I paced about and packed for my day then sat and meditated with my agenda.
Today:
- laundry
- curves
- prepare Handmaiden lecture
- plan buddhism paper for class (pick a bloody topic dammit)
Tomorrow:
- clean out the car
- clean house
- prepare navel chakra workshop
- prepare coven materials
- plan what to make to sell at the TPC
Sunday:
- coven (nevel chakra, lesson exploring, ritual planning)
- cross reference paper ideas and materials
- take a break for a few hours to just rp or write fanfic
Monday:
- work 10-6
- make stuff for vending at TPC
- complete Handmaiden Lecture preperations
Tuesday:
- work 10-2
- finish making stuff to vend at TPC
- prepare posters and anything else for TPC
- plan rough draft of Paper Proposal
Wednesday:
- work 10-6
- work on Paper Proposal
- review Presentation for Buddhism
- pack the car for TPC
Thursday:
- write final Paper Proposal
- final review of Presentation
- take car to garage for repares and prepping for drive to TPC
- Buddhism class (do Presentation and hand in Paper Proposal)
- sleep over at Roo's
Friday:
- last minute check of supplies for TPC
- drive to Toronto
After reviewing all this, I concluded that there is no way I can squeeze in subbing on Thursday and remain sane. I sighed and packed the car to go to Mom's. So very frustrated to lose yet another school from the subbing lists. I yelled alot in my car to get it out of my system before I got there. Called the school and cancelled subbing with them before they could count on me. ARGH! There are weeks where I feel like I just shot myself in the foot with the subbing. This is one of them. *sigh* Off to Curves with Mom now...
**later**
Back. I must be doing something right because I feel less run over by a truck today after working out than I usually do. Busy busy week ahead of me. Off to change laundry and work on my Handmaiden presentation for the TPC.
Today:
- laundry
- curves
- prepare Handmaiden lecture
- plan buddhism paper for class (pick a bloody topic dammit)
Tomorrow:
- clean out the car
- clean house
- prepare navel chakra workshop
- prepare coven materials
- plan what to make to sell at the TPC
Sunday:
- coven (nevel chakra, lesson exploring, ritual planning)
- cross reference paper ideas and materials
- take a break for a few hours to just rp or write fanfic
Monday:
- work 10-6
- make stuff for vending at TPC
- complete Handmaiden Lecture preperations
Tuesday:
- work 10-2
- finish making stuff to vend at TPC
- prepare posters and anything else for TPC
- plan rough draft of Paper Proposal
Wednesday:
- work 10-6
- work on Paper Proposal
- review Presentation for Buddhism
- pack the car for TPC
Thursday:
- write final Paper Proposal
- final review of Presentation
- take car to garage for repares and prepping for drive to TPC
- Buddhism class (do Presentation and hand in Paper Proposal)
- sleep over at Roo's
Friday:
- last minute check of supplies for TPC
- drive to Toronto
After reviewing all this, I concluded that there is no way I can squeeze in subbing on Thursday and remain sane. I sighed and packed the car to go to Mom's. So very frustrated to lose yet another school from the subbing lists. I yelled alot in my car to get it out of my system before I got there. Called the school and cancelled subbing with them before they could count on me. ARGH! There are weeks where I feel like I just shot myself in the foot with the subbing. This is one of them. *sigh* Off to Curves with Mom now...
**later**
Back. I must be doing something right because I feel less run over by a truck today after working out than I usually do. Busy busy week ahead of me. Off to change laundry and work on my Handmaiden presentation for the TPC.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Hurts and Smiles
I am not sure how to describe this day. I was like a little rollercoaster.
The morning was AWESOME! Was only missing some cuddling to have made it PERFECT!
Then the day went in a bad little spiral. My feelings were hurt quite sharply. I am not usually one to ramble on about the things I give up to ensure other things go smoothly. I hate when people guilt you with their martyr complexes and I try hard not to express myself that way. I keep my "sacrifices" fairly quiet and like the quiet random acts of kindness even if no one notices or sees or acknowledges them. What do I usually sacrifice, since I bet you are now wondering? I give up at least a day per week of working at an elementary school because they call me on the morning just before i leave for work at the store. Those are HARD because I am giving up a pay of 3.5 times more so I can be at the store and not leave folks stranded. This week, I gave up 3 of those days (Monday, Tuesday AND Wednesday). I do however want to still be on the sub list and so have to take SOMETHING or risk being booted off the lists and never called again. I have been booked thankfully in advance in March. I love the secretaries with forethought. I was hurt by people being upset that I don't give up enough to be at work and that they felt they were always replacing people and sacrificing themselves to be at work. It really hurt, really really hurt. I had to leave and think it through. I understand that it was because people were stressed and panicking over some dates where we are short replacements. I can accept that. I called later with some suggestions of other people to help fill the gaps since I was already obliged elsewhere on my usual days off. Things always work out. And these will too. Thank you for the apology.
The day improved some from there. I dashed home to get pictures I wanted laminated or framed. Then hurried to my banking appointment. I got my RRSP going again, made some changes to my bank profile and managed to qualify for a student line of credit! OMFGs!!! I qualified for something!!! It is not huge, but is a security cushion. I can now breathe easier and get a few necessary things done in time for going to Toronto. The advisor at the bank also walked me through understanding pre-approved morgages as she thinks i can qualify with my hubby! We will have to call her back with a date that we can meet her and discuss it. I am feeling suddenly grown up. It was a shock. My credit has usually been too horrible from one bad situation that no one would consider me for a loan or line of credit. Shocked. I was just... shocked. When and why did something click right for me? What did I do to deserve that? Thank you GODS! Thank you.
Now if only my dentist would find some little place to squeeze me in to fix the tooth I chipped so it can stop hurting.
*sigh*
I went over to get the laminations and framing organized. *SQUEE* I am framing the beautiful Bushido Laws that Roo did in Japanese calligraphy for me for Yule. I am also getting a bunch of other things laminated that I have procrastinated on. The sad news... the old couple I see exclusively because they know what they are doing, do the very best job for the very best price... well... they are retiring in April. OH NOES! Now I have to be sure that anything I want framed or laminated gets to them and done before they are gone!! I will have to go thru my home and find the other things I want done.
After that, I wanted to celebrate as the shock of the line of credit approval settled and was just excited joy. I promptly walked into the Montreal West Antique Dealer and scoured the place for something special to cheer both me up and bring a smile to dear friend's face. I searched high and low in this place and the old man there was so very kind and showed me all kinds of things in the genres I was seeking. I bought three items. I would tell you what they are here, but that would spoil the surprise. I will have to describe them later. He shop keeper is going to look for a couple other items for me and I will go visit him next week to see if he found them. He only is open on Thursdays and Fridays. And we was really sweet. I will have to explore his shop more carefully when I am not looking for something so very specific.
I called my hubby to inform him we were doing dinner to celebrate and headed out to try to find a pair of pants at Walmart. I need a new pair. Mine are coming to the end of their lives. SAD SAD SAD! Even sadder, Walmart had nothing. Usually Walmart has something that fits me. But today I was apparently between sizes and nothing was going to fit comfortably. I hated me. I hated everything about me. I am fat and ugly and nothing will ever look good on me. *cries* I gave up with much frustration and was convinced I will never find clothing for myself. I hate shopping for clothes for myself. It is the most demoralizing thing.
I picked up hubby from work trying not to be a stupid emotional wreck over my body and not finding a simple pair of basic pants. Hubby and i had dinner at the mall and wandered there for a bit. We managed to walk into a very posh private fashion designer's store that I usually avoid because $100 per clothing item is well... out of the budget. But we went in because they had a sale. I got 3 items of clothing for $20 each instead of $100 each!! And they look good on me! A skirt, pants, and a shirt. I might go back for the matching jacket tomorrow. Pretty clothing that actually fit me! That made me feel alot better from hating my body and hating shopping for that which I considered necessary (a pair of pants to fit and not be full of fraying and holes). I will have to get the pants hemmed... as usual. But that is OK.
I came home to another call from a secretary with forethought! I will call her tomorrow and confirm that I will be available next Thursday. Or maybe I am not. Shit. I have my presentation and paper proposal for clas due that day. Bugger. I will have to see what the time is. On the message it said morning half-day. I wonder what the actual hours are. It is in Dorval, so I have to time my driving carefully. And OY! It is Kindergarten. Deep breath! I can do this. I can do this. It is only a half day. $35/hr. I will make a good chunk of money and be on the sub list in another school. This is good PR. I can do this. Please gods help me do this.
Rollercoatser. That was the day. A rollercoaster of hurts and smiles.
Tomorrow... I will pack to spend the day with my mom. I visit with her every Friday now and we go to Curves together. Sometimes I work on worshop presentations, or schoolwork, or fanfic writing. She works on art and we chatter all day. Tomorrow I will bring all my laundry with me. She has big machines.
Ooooooo.....ooooooo... OH!
I can get a washer and dryer with that line of credit. OMG!
Must think.
No... no .... not yet. Must handle the "fix now" stuff before getting anything outsite the "fix now" list. *sigh* Back onto the wishlist you go Mr. washer and dryer, you.
"fix me now" list:
- dentistry
- car
- lingering bills
- research books for school and school fees that are outstanding
- some clothing to replace that which is not really decent for public wearing anymore.
- glasses (scratched lenses... I looked at new frames and hated the little square style that is dominant now, so I will just replace my lenses in these ones)
- Toronto Pagan Conference fees
- queen sized bedding (comforter)
Wish List:
- livingroom furniture from Ikea
- washer and dryer
- sofa
- TV & DVD
- blue tongued skink (but hubby says no... *pout*)
- F2 Savannah cat (but hubby says no to this too *pout*
Ok... so that is a long blog. I am done pouring out my day to everyone. No... nothing else exciting is happening in my life..... Or... did I say that my first Buddhism presentation went well? If I hadn't... last week it went really well!
The morning was AWESOME! Was only missing some cuddling to have made it PERFECT!
Then the day went in a bad little spiral. My feelings were hurt quite sharply. I am not usually one to ramble on about the things I give up to ensure other things go smoothly. I hate when people guilt you with their martyr complexes and I try hard not to express myself that way. I keep my "sacrifices" fairly quiet and like the quiet random acts of kindness even if no one notices or sees or acknowledges them. What do I usually sacrifice, since I bet you are now wondering? I give up at least a day per week of working at an elementary school because they call me on the morning just before i leave for work at the store. Those are HARD because I am giving up a pay of 3.5 times more so I can be at the store and not leave folks stranded. This week, I gave up 3 of those days (Monday, Tuesday AND Wednesday). I do however want to still be on the sub list and so have to take SOMETHING or risk being booted off the lists and never called again. I have been booked thankfully in advance in March. I love the secretaries with forethought. I was hurt by people being upset that I don't give up enough to be at work and that they felt they were always replacing people and sacrificing themselves to be at work. It really hurt, really really hurt. I had to leave and think it through. I understand that it was because people were stressed and panicking over some dates where we are short replacements. I can accept that. I called later with some suggestions of other people to help fill the gaps since I was already obliged elsewhere on my usual days off. Things always work out. And these will too. Thank you for the apology.
The day improved some from there. I dashed home to get pictures I wanted laminated or framed. Then hurried to my banking appointment. I got my RRSP going again, made some changes to my bank profile and managed to qualify for a student line of credit! OMFGs!!! I qualified for something!!! It is not huge, but is a security cushion. I can now breathe easier and get a few necessary things done in time for going to Toronto. The advisor at the bank also walked me through understanding pre-approved morgages as she thinks i can qualify with my hubby! We will have to call her back with a date that we can meet her and discuss it. I am feeling suddenly grown up. It was a shock. My credit has usually been too horrible from one bad situation that no one would consider me for a loan or line of credit. Shocked. I was just... shocked. When and why did something click right for me? What did I do to deserve that? Thank you GODS! Thank you.
Now if only my dentist would find some little place to squeeze me in to fix the tooth I chipped so it can stop hurting.
*sigh*
I went over to get the laminations and framing organized. *SQUEE* I am framing the beautiful Bushido Laws that Roo did in Japanese calligraphy for me for Yule. I am also getting a bunch of other things laminated that I have procrastinated on. The sad news... the old couple I see exclusively because they know what they are doing, do the very best job for the very best price... well... they are retiring in April. OH NOES! Now I have to be sure that anything I want framed or laminated gets to them and done before they are gone!! I will have to go thru my home and find the other things I want done.
After that, I wanted to celebrate as the shock of the line of credit approval settled and was just excited joy. I promptly walked into the Montreal West Antique Dealer and scoured the place for something special to cheer both me up and bring a smile to dear friend's face. I searched high and low in this place and the old man there was so very kind and showed me all kinds of things in the genres I was seeking. I bought three items. I would tell you what they are here, but that would spoil the surprise. I will have to describe them later. He shop keeper is going to look for a couple other items for me and I will go visit him next week to see if he found them. He only is open on Thursdays and Fridays. And we was really sweet. I will have to explore his shop more carefully when I am not looking for something so very specific.
I called my hubby to inform him we were doing dinner to celebrate and headed out to try to find a pair of pants at Walmart. I need a new pair. Mine are coming to the end of their lives. SAD SAD SAD! Even sadder, Walmart had nothing. Usually Walmart has something that fits me. But today I was apparently between sizes and nothing was going to fit comfortably. I hated me. I hated everything about me. I am fat and ugly and nothing will ever look good on me. *cries* I gave up with much frustration and was convinced I will never find clothing for myself. I hate shopping for clothes for myself. It is the most demoralizing thing.
I picked up hubby from work trying not to be a stupid emotional wreck over my body and not finding a simple pair of basic pants. Hubby and i had dinner at the mall and wandered there for a bit. We managed to walk into a very posh private fashion designer's store that I usually avoid because $100 per clothing item is well... out of the budget. But we went in because they had a sale. I got 3 items of clothing for $20 each instead of $100 each!! And they look good on me! A skirt, pants, and a shirt. I might go back for the matching jacket tomorrow. Pretty clothing that actually fit me! That made me feel alot better from hating my body and hating shopping for that which I considered necessary (a pair of pants to fit and not be full of fraying and holes). I will have to get the pants hemmed... as usual. But that is OK.
I came home to another call from a secretary with forethought! I will call her tomorrow and confirm that I will be available next Thursday. Or maybe I am not. Shit. I have my presentation and paper proposal for clas due that day. Bugger. I will have to see what the time is. On the message it said morning half-day. I wonder what the actual hours are. It is in Dorval, so I have to time my driving carefully. And OY! It is Kindergarten. Deep breath! I can do this. I can do this. It is only a half day. $35/hr. I will make a good chunk of money and be on the sub list in another school. This is good PR. I can do this. Please gods help me do this.
Rollercoatser. That was the day. A rollercoaster of hurts and smiles.
Tomorrow... I will pack to spend the day with my mom. I visit with her every Friday now and we go to Curves together. Sometimes I work on worshop presentations, or schoolwork, or fanfic writing. She works on art and we chatter all day. Tomorrow I will bring all my laundry with me. She has big machines.
Ooooooo.....ooooooo... OH!
I can get a washer and dryer with that line of credit. OMG!
Must think.
No... no .... not yet. Must handle the "fix now" stuff before getting anything outsite the "fix now" list. *sigh* Back onto the wishlist you go Mr. washer and dryer, you.
"fix me now" list:
- dentistry
- car
- lingering bills
- research books for school and school fees that are outstanding
- some clothing to replace that which is not really decent for public wearing anymore.
- glasses (scratched lenses... I looked at new frames and hated the little square style that is dominant now, so I will just replace my lenses in these ones)
- Toronto Pagan Conference fees
- queen sized bedding (comforter)
Wish List:
- livingroom furniture from Ikea
- washer and dryer
- sofa
- TV & DVD
- blue tongued skink (but hubby says no... *pout*)
- F2 Savannah cat (but hubby says no to this too *pout*
Ok... so that is a long blog. I am done pouring out my day to everyone. No... nothing else exciting is happening in my life..... Or... did I say that my first Buddhism presentation went well? If I hadn't... last week it went really well!
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Credited!
Well! To my surprise! My teacher accepted my suggestion for the grade breakdown and dates and such. As i looked closer at the announcement sent out to all students, he actually DID credit and thank me. YAY! I can take back my angst. I am much happier.
Now, if only I knew what was actually expected of me for my presentation tomorrow. I am thinking that I will read the text chapter one stanza at a time with small notations and interpretations. It will be like we do in class. I hope that is what he expects. If he wants something more... oh well.
Back to reading the second chapter assigned to me for this short notice presentation. I hope I can finish tonight. I would like tomorrow to think about my paper proposal.
Side note...
I chipped a tooth, dammit. Mom was nice enough to let this month's car payment slide so I can go get it fixed.
Now, if only I knew what was actually expected of me for my presentation tomorrow. I am thinking that I will read the text chapter one stanza at a time with small notations and interpretations. It will be like we do in class. I hope that is what he expects. If he wants something more... oh well.
Back to reading the second chapter assigned to me for this short notice presentation. I hope I can finish tonight. I would like tomorrow to think about my paper proposal.
Side note...
I chipped a tooth, dammit. Mom was nice enough to let this month's car payment slide so I can go get it fixed.
Sunday, February 10, 2008
The Weekend
Well the weekend has been amazing. Just... amazing.
Friday I slept in and went to mom's where I finished a chapter I was writing for an online writing guide for teens. Then went to Curves with mom. I came home to a relaxed evening. I looked over my Buddhism as I have a presentation due next week on two experts from the original text by Nagarjuna. I was in a much better headspace from the day before.
Saturday I slept well. I slept in. Then met up with Roo for brunch. We stopped at Nature Pet Centre to explore. She bought the set-up for a baby corn snake. We hung out at my place while I cleaned and planned for the Sunday coven stuff till dinner when I dropped her off at her gaming session. M-SB retruned home from his grandmother's (where he went for her birthday). He came home with polish food! MmmmmmmmMmmmm.... We ate and watched anime for a bit. Then I worked on the first of the two exerpts for my presentation.
I didn't get to sleep till 3am, but I slept great till 9am. Sunday was full of morning character fixings in my rp game, fanfic writing and cooking before people came over. Despite root chakra grounding stuff going on my altar, people were very hyper! OY! It was still a great afternoon of food and learning and fun. Once everyone left, M-SB and i grabbed a cuddly 30min nap together.
I am now back at the presentation stuff... sigh...
Friday I slept in and went to mom's where I finished a chapter I was writing for an online writing guide for teens. Then went to Curves with mom. I came home to a relaxed evening. I looked over my Buddhism as I have a presentation due next week on two experts from the original text by Nagarjuna. I was in a much better headspace from the day before.
Saturday I slept well. I slept in. Then met up with Roo for brunch. We stopped at Nature Pet Centre to explore. She bought the set-up for a baby corn snake. We hung out at my place while I cleaned and planned for the Sunday coven stuff till dinner when I dropped her off at her gaming session. M-SB retruned home from his grandmother's (where he went for her birthday). He came home with polish food! MmmmmmmmMmmmm.... We ate and watched anime for a bit. Then I worked on the first of the two exerpts for my presentation.
I didn't get to sleep till 3am, but I slept great till 9am. Sunday was full of morning character fixings in my rp game, fanfic writing and cooking before people came over. Despite root chakra grounding stuff going on my altar, people were very hyper! OY! It was still a great afternoon of food and learning and fun. Once everyone left, M-SB and i grabbed a cuddly 30min nap together.
I am now back at the presentation stuff... sigh...
Thursday, February 07, 2008
Embarrased
Today I was made to feel embarrased in class. I almost walked out.
I was reading part of a text out loud as asked. In the commentary of the text, there was a word I had never seen before. I read it an inferred that it was the name of someone. I asked who that person was as the name was italicised indicating it was more important that other names. The teacher playfull wapped me with a paper, how dare I not know this. However, I genuinely didn't know this. Other students were shocked I did not know this. I told them forget I asked. I felt humiliated.
Today has not been a good day.
I slept about 30minutes... maybe an hour... It was all broken by discomfort. I made several small errors today and managed to upset a variety of people by them. By my corrections of said errors, I managed to upset more people (different people this time). It was all VERY frustrating. The annoying hydro bill situation also cannot be resolved as I am not the name on the bill so they won't speak to me. Means my landlord will likely be upset because I didn't do something he said was easy and expected done ASAP. It felt like everyone was upset with me for something. The cleaning girl was late and thus I was late getting out to meet my friend.
I did have a very good dinner with a friend. That has been the only "up" today.
World... you can now go to fucking hell for a while. Leave me alone.
I was reading part of a text out loud as asked. In the commentary of the text, there was a word I had never seen before. I read it an inferred that it was the name of someone. I asked who that person was as the name was italicised indicating it was more important that other names. The teacher playfull wapped me with a paper, how dare I not know this. However, I genuinely didn't know this. Other students were shocked I did not know this. I told them forget I asked. I felt humiliated.
Today has not been a good day.
I slept about 30minutes... maybe an hour... It was all broken by discomfort. I made several small errors today and managed to upset a variety of people by them. By my corrections of said errors, I managed to upset more people (different people this time). It was all VERY frustrating. The annoying hydro bill situation also cannot be resolved as I am not the name on the bill so they won't speak to me. Means my landlord will likely be upset because I didn't do something he said was easy and expected done ASAP. It felt like everyone was upset with me for something. The cleaning girl was late and thus I was late getting out to meet my friend.
I did have a very good dinner with a friend. That has been the only "up" today.
World... you can now go to fucking hell for a while. Leave me alone.
Serenity Now!!!
Firefly Season 2... you have got to check this out!
Sunday, February 03, 2008
A Little Update for Imbolc
Happy Imbolc everyone.
This weeks has bee a busy one ending with great relaxation.
My root chakra work is still dealing with material world issues and survival. The finances took a hard bad impact this week that need correction ASAP. Learning to trust that needs will be met is a hard thing. meditation with a jet stone and the earhty scent of oakmoss and styrax has helped keep me grounded and focused.
My teacher still has little in the way of guiding us. I think I have an idea for a paper. And I seem to be doing alright with the class discussions. I have no idea what to prepare for next class. Guess that is on par for this teacher. *sigh* I am trying to be zen about it and not freak out. This coming week, I will try to write up a paper proposal.
Friday went really well! I slept in a bit, got laundry going and trecked thru a storm in the car to my parents' place. My dad is still working on his plans for my Pai Sho board. *squee* My mom and I discussed all kinds of things. She worked on art and then helped me look up Erikson's stages of development and Maslow's hierarchy of needs. We discussed psych development and chakras, then historical impact on modern society of the role of Handmaiden. It was AWESOME! We love talking academia. We went to curves together. And I watched some movies while I planned stuff for my Navel Chakra workshop for Monday. The drive thru the storm home went fine too. I had no problems. Many other did. I am thankful for my driving skills and my snow tires.
Saturday was full of roleplaying and fanfic writing. As was today.
I am hooked on a new music group: Angels and Airwaves. I must own their CD's. MUST MUST MUST.
Tomorrow, I need to call and book a hotel room for Toronto Pagan Conference, since no one answered the phone or email all weekend. Work and teaching is on the agenda for tomorrow too. So is collecting last CMS level 1 moneys and printing material for them. Tuesday I finish work early. I will take books back to the library and see about getting some books from my Spring Research Project. I need to get back to thinking about that.
I am trying to take each day a bit slower. Trying to be more grounded and simplify the demands upon me. I lit my Imbolc candle over the weekend and enjoyed the writing inspiratiosn that flowed from it.
This Thursday is Losar, Tobetan New Year. I want to do something for it for my crazy teacher when I go to class. Dunno what yet. There is very little helpful information on the internet about it.
Valentine's day is coming up the following Thursday... I expect it will suck as usual. It would be nice to have a surprise and have it be good. I had once received a sword for Valentine's day. That was very cool. And once a flower. Otherwise it is just another day and that pisses me off. I would like to be spoiled for once. Pampered and spoiled. Massaged and loved. Fed peeled grapes by handsome naked men. Ok... maybe not that. I am not fond of peeled grapes.
This weeks has bee a busy one ending with great relaxation.
My root chakra work is still dealing with material world issues and survival. The finances took a hard bad impact this week that need correction ASAP. Learning to trust that needs will be met is a hard thing. meditation with a jet stone and the earhty scent of oakmoss and styrax has helped keep me grounded and focused.
My teacher still has little in the way of guiding us. I think I have an idea for a paper. And I seem to be doing alright with the class discussions. I have no idea what to prepare for next class. Guess that is on par for this teacher. *sigh* I am trying to be zen about it and not freak out. This coming week, I will try to write up a paper proposal.
Friday went really well! I slept in a bit, got laundry going and trecked thru a storm in the car to my parents' place. My dad is still working on his plans for my Pai Sho board. *squee* My mom and I discussed all kinds of things. She worked on art and then helped me look up Erikson's stages of development and Maslow's hierarchy of needs. We discussed psych development and chakras, then historical impact on modern society of the role of Handmaiden. It was AWESOME! We love talking academia. We went to curves together. And I watched some movies while I planned stuff for my Navel Chakra workshop for Monday. The drive thru the storm home went fine too. I had no problems. Many other did. I am thankful for my driving skills and my snow tires.
Saturday was full of roleplaying and fanfic writing. As was today.
I am hooked on a new music group: Angels and Airwaves. I must own their CD's. MUST MUST MUST.
Tomorrow, I need to call and book a hotel room for Toronto Pagan Conference, since no one answered the phone or email all weekend. Work and teaching is on the agenda for tomorrow too. So is collecting last CMS level 1 moneys and printing material for them. Tuesday I finish work early. I will take books back to the library and see about getting some books from my Spring Research Project. I need to get back to thinking about that.
I am trying to take each day a bit slower. Trying to be more grounded and simplify the demands upon me. I lit my Imbolc candle over the weekend and enjoyed the writing inspiratiosn that flowed from it.
This Thursday is Losar, Tobetan New Year. I want to do something for it for my crazy teacher when I go to class. Dunno what yet. There is very little helpful information on the internet about it.
Valentine's day is coming up the following Thursday... I expect it will suck as usual. It would be nice to have a surprise and have it be good. I had once received a sword for Valentine's day. That was very cool. And once a flower. Otherwise it is just another day and that pisses me off. I would like to be spoiled for once. Pampered and spoiled. Massaged and loved. Fed peeled grapes by handsome naked men. Ok... maybe not that. I am not fond of peeled grapes.
