Monday, June 30, 2008
OMG busy!
I come into the store today and was yelled at by a client who had a special arrangement for a reading at 10am. She yelled at me because I didn't know what it was about. Then again because I was not open early for her, then again because I was apparentlyu rude to her, who wouldn't be! Then again because I was late opening. She made me late because she was busy yelling at me.
That really soured most of my day.
It was BUSY BUSY BUSY! SOOOOOOOO many people in the store today. That was GREAT! And two new employees. The slightly older (by a few days) employee showed marked improvement, but still has a long way to go. The newest one who started today successfully impressed me and the boss. YAY! His super cheery attitude was a blessing and really made the day.
The day was so busy that i was finished by the end. Not having a break or eating anything along with the heat and air pressure spelled disaster for me. The ensuing migraine hit at 7pm and I just wanted to DIE! I got home to discover that I was out of migraine meds. I took some excedrin... it is helping some. Dinner is cooking.
Now to try to take things easy. Eat and relax and plan for tomorrow. Tomorrow is Canada Day!
I have to beat traffic and chaos to work before the parade. I will be working 11am - 2pm in production. The day's staff will be there for training and production, but our store is officially closed. Afterwords, I will look over wedding planning stuff for myself and come up with a to do list as I get married real soon! I also have to think up what I am teaching Wednesday night: Asian Deities, African Religions, and Adinkra Cloth art.
This is the last Wednesday for CMS Level 1... WOW! Congrats to those in it! I look forward to graduating them and others come August. I am proud of all the students and can't wait to see them at the ceremony in August and in the next levels in September.
That really soured most of my day.
It was BUSY BUSY BUSY! SOOOOOOOO many people in the store today. That was GREAT! And two new employees. The slightly older (by a few days) employee showed marked improvement, but still has a long way to go. The newest one who started today successfully impressed me and the boss. YAY! His super cheery attitude was a blessing and really made the day.
The day was so busy that i was finished by the end. Not having a break or eating anything along with the heat and air pressure spelled disaster for me. The ensuing migraine hit at 7pm and I just wanted to DIE! I got home to discover that I was out of migraine meds. I took some excedrin... it is helping some. Dinner is cooking.
Now to try to take things easy. Eat and relax and plan for tomorrow. Tomorrow is Canada Day!
I have to beat traffic and chaos to work before the parade. I will be working 11am - 2pm in production. The day's staff will be there for training and production, but our store is officially closed. Afterwords, I will look over wedding planning stuff for myself and come up with a to do list as I get married real soon! I also have to think up what I am teaching Wednesday night: Asian Deities, African Religions, and Adinkra Cloth art.
This is the last Wednesday for CMS Level 1... WOW! Congrats to those in it! I look forward to graduating them and others come August. I am proud of all the students and can't wait to see them at the ceremony in August and in the next levels in September.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
YAY!
I went out to get my dress. It is PRETTY! and fits nice and can also be used in other places not just for fancy occasions.Gary, the designer, is so amazing! He is going to get me a TON of ribbon for the jars and stuff that we are making. Sorry can't explain much more than that. AND he will take me about Chinatown on Thursday to help me find some other pretty decor for the wedding.
I stopped in at my mom's to show her my dress. She thought it was gorgeous. She took me about her garden as she likes the idea my sister had of my wedding bouquet being made up party of things from my mother's garden. I love that idea too! Although, my mom isn't sure which flowers will actually be open and ready by the 10th. I can use some of the pretty greenery she has to augment my bouquet. I think I will do just that. Maybe even snag little bits to decorate the tables. Ooooooo.... ya....
I met up with my sister. WOW she has the plan for the wedding all organized in a series of folder with ideas and timelines and practicality stuff, even logistical things to consider. I was really impressed! I showed her the seed bag. She will work on them over the week. there will be 48 baggies. Tomorrow she will call Sud-Ouest which is the borough and do whatever the arrangements are to get permission for me to have my wedding there. Then she is going to put together a list of the things I need to consider: song list, things to go into the program, reminders. Things to think about... the ceremony, and decor. We have decided on the table decor: red table cloths with white/creal ribbon bos on the corners with maybe some flowers here and there, flower & leaf centerpieces, cream plates and bowls and stuffs, gold and silver marker to draw Celtic knots on the corners and here and there on the tables, ribbons and bows and flowers on chairs and around the altar, picnic blankets, candy dishes with mints and candies almonds... mmmm... candied almonds.... mmmm.... There will be a table with little pouches for each ground of people coming and a program and stuff for keepsakes. My niece is being the DJ. COOL! Oh ya... just got off track with the excitement. So... my sister will make baggies and call Sud-Ouest. M-SB and I will review the ceremony for needs and prep the program, M-SB is making jar thingies. This week, I will scout out our location with my sister and maybe get a couple photos taken to go on the programs.
This evening... relaxing. I have a crazy busy week ahead of me.
Thank the gods! My teacher is being [atient with me and I can work on my paper after my wedding.
I stopped in at my mom's to show her my dress. She thought it was gorgeous. She took me about her garden as she likes the idea my sister had of my wedding bouquet being made up party of things from my mother's garden. I love that idea too! Although, my mom isn't sure which flowers will actually be open and ready by the 10th. I can use some of the pretty greenery she has to augment my bouquet. I think I will do just that. Maybe even snag little bits to decorate the tables. Ooooooo.... ya....
I met up with my sister. WOW she has the plan for the wedding all organized in a series of folder with ideas and timelines and practicality stuff, even logistical things to consider. I was really impressed! I showed her the seed bag. She will work on them over the week. there will be 48 baggies. Tomorrow she will call Sud-Ouest which is the borough and do whatever the arrangements are to get permission for me to have my wedding there. Then she is going to put together a list of the things I need to consider: song list, things to go into the program, reminders. Things to think about... the ceremony, and decor. We have decided on the table decor: red table cloths with white/creal ribbon bos on the corners with maybe some flowers here and there, flower & leaf centerpieces, cream plates and bowls and stuffs, gold and silver marker to draw Celtic knots on the corners and here and there on the tables, ribbons and bows and flowers on chairs and around the altar, picnic blankets, candy dishes with mints and candies almonds... mmmm... candied almonds.... mmmm.... There will be a table with little pouches for each ground of people coming and a program and stuff for keepsakes. My niece is being the DJ. COOL! Oh ya... just got off track with the excitement. So... my sister will make baggies and call Sud-Ouest. M-SB and I will review the ceremony for needs and prep the program, M-SB is making jar thingies. This week, I will scout out our location with my sister and maybe get a couple photos taken to go on the programs.
This evening... relaxing. I have a crazy busy week ahead of me.
Thank the gods! My teacher is being [atient with me and I can work on my paper after my wedding.
Easy Weekend
I think it will be my last so I am sucking up the opportunity. Saturday, I slept and lounged in bed till something like 1pm. M-SB and I then shopped and had brunch out. It was a nice slow no stress day. In the evening I went out to Derby. THAT was really lonely. No one of my usual freinds were there and those I thought I saw there didn't remotely come to say hi or anything. Says alot, huhn? Well, I still had fun scoring and the girls on the teams were great. I love supporting and helping them out. The refs are amazing people too! I look forward to the July practices being in the new location in Montreal where they hold the games. It is way closer. So my training day has moved from Tuesday to Thursday.
Today, I slept in and lounged in bed till almost noon. M-SB made breakfast. I am about to go do a final dress fitting, then need to arrange for the under dress to get cleaned. I also have to get ribbon for a project that I am doing with my sister. Her and I will be putting that together this afternoon. Then I intend to relax at home and roleplay and just do very little. Well, I will review my paper again and maybe pack some of it to take to work with me. I hope to put together a little bit of an action plan for that section of my paper.
It is amazing how bloody exhausted one gets doing double duty at work, planning a wedding, caring for an injured friend, juggling family, teaching, writing a thesis paper, and trying to have some time with the home and those in it. Today is wedding, family and paper. Tomorrow is work and friend. Tursday is work, paper, planning teaching and home. Wednesaday is work and teaching. I dare not think farther for I am sure the first few days will get fucked out of my plan as is. It never goes smooth. *sigh*
Well, off to shop and get fitted. Here's praying the dress look good.
AND here's praying things go well with family.
Today, I slept in and lounged in bed till almost noon. M-SB made breakfast. I am about to go do a final dress fitting, then need to arrange for the under dress to get cleaned. I also have to get ribbon for a project that I am doing with my sister. Her and I will be putting that together this afternoon. Then I intend to relax at home and roleplay and just do very little. Well, I will review my paper again and maybe pack some of it to take to work with me. I hope to put together a little bit of an action plan for that section of my paper.
It is amazing how bloody exhausted one gets doing double duty at work, planning a wedding, caring for an injured friend, juggling family, teaching, writing a thesis paper, and trying to have some time with the home and those in it. Today is wedding, family and paper. Tomorrow is work and friend. Tursday is work, paper, planning teaching and home. Wednesaday is work and teaching. I dare not think farther for I am sure the first few days will get fucked out of my plan as is. It never goes smooth. *sigh*
Well, off to shop and get fitted. Here's praying the dress look good.
AND here's praying things go well with family.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
The Rollercoaster & Girlificatrion
Today was a rollercoaster of evernts. I spent time on the phone this morning with hospitals and clinics. So far I have an appointment officially with the Queen Elizabeth Medical Clinic for the abdominal ultrasound on July 18th. That is WAY better than November or 2009. It will, however, cost me $125.
I worked 11 - 4 today. I was in better spirits knowing I have an appopintments. I know Roo is doing ok and has a surgery tomorrow so not too much is in the air now. More news on that after the weekend. And other people who have been hospitalized are doing better too. It is a huge relief. The day ended up a blur. Mail was done, packaging was done, stuff was done. New employees are hanging in there. Old enployees are trying to stay alive under the chaos of work and their lives. It was a mad mad dash across downtown to meet up with Karyn after work.
And thus ensued girlification!!
We tried to get more beading wire for Roo at Omer deSerres. They didn't have the right stuff and we were good and left right away before spending any money in there! I was then exposed to a huge La Vie en Rose. It was... an experience. Not too horrific. Found a bra that was... ok-ish. Then went to La Senza where I wanted to kill the clients and burn down the shockingly AWEFUL clash of bright colours. I didn't kill anyone... just wanted to. Came away with not one, but TWO bras and cute panies. I know... TMI. Anyways, discovered a place that made yummy smoothies and another place that made avacado sushi. AND... AND... found a ring for me that is similar in style to M-SB's that I actually like! AND... got a cute set of boxes to put BOTH our rings in. Lastly, found the baggies and stuff from the dollarstore for a wedding project. I still need some more things that I will get tomorrow.
Ended the day by visiting Roo and coming home to M-SB doing origami. I showed off my stuff. He liked. He even said "pretty" to the ring! That is a big deal for me.
Now I am tired. My feet hurt and my knees hurt more. I haven't complained about them because they were on and off ok and not and in the face of stuff, who cares. Well, today they hurt. ALOT. The really fucking annoying thing. I can't take the meds that would make the hurt stop. In case I get bregnant, the meds will end that. At least I can walk for the most part. Not at this very moment, but rest I hope will make it ease up before I have to work tomorrow. I did soooooo much walking. It was great, but painful. The experience was not as bad as it usually is or could have been. THANK YOU KARYN!
Now to try to relax and refocus the pain.
I worked 11 - 4 today. I was in better spirits knowing I have an appopintments. I know Roo is doing ok and has a surgery tomorrow so not too much is in the air now. More news on that after the weekend. And other people who have been hospitalized are doing better too. It is a huge relief. The day ended up a blur. Mail was done, packaging was done, stuff was done. New employees are hanging in there. Old enployees are trying to stay alive under the chaos of work and their lives. It was a mad mad dash across downtown to meet up with Karyn after work.
And thus ensued girlification!!
We tried to get more beading wire for Roo at Omer deSerres. They didn't have the right stuff and we were good and left right away before spending any money in there! I was then exposed to a huge La Vie en Rose. It was... an experience. Not too horrific. Found a bra that was... ok-ish. Then went to La Senza where I wanted to kill the clients and burn down the shockingly AWEFUL clash of bright colours. I didn't kill anyone... just wanted to. Came away with not one, but TWO bras and cute panies. I know... TMI. Anyways, discovered a place that made yummy smoothies and another place that made avacado sushi. AND... AND... found a ring for me that is similar in style to M-SB's that I actually like! AND... got a cute set of boxes to put BOTH our rings in. Lastly, found the baggies and stuff from the dollarstore for a wedding project. I still need some more things that I will get tomorrow.
Ended the day by visiting Roo and coming home to M-SB doing origami. I showed off my stuff. He liked. He even said "pretty" to the ring! That is a big deal for me.
Now I am tired. My feet hurt and my knees hurt more. I haven't complained about them because they were on and off ok and not and in the face of stuff, who cares. Well, today they hurt. ALOT. The really fucking annoying thing. I can't take the meds that would make the hurt stop. In case I get bregnant, the meds will end that. At least I can walk for the most part. Not at this very moment, but rest I hope will make it ease up before I have to work tomorrow. I did soooooo much walking. It was great, but painful. The experience was not as bad as it usually is or could have been. THANK YOU KARYN!
Now to try to relax and refocus the pain.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Bad Idea?
You know how I wondered if something was good or bad... well the crazy showed itself. It was a bad idea. I am left both embarrassed and angry... and regretful. I wish it would have worked out. It was a bad I dea. What was I thinking ... that maybe normal had returned some. I was wrong. Now I will go upset people today about my wedding.
It is MY wedding and I HAVE someone I trust COMPLETELY coordinating it.
Ideas are great.
Crazy behavior is not.
Stress or pushing is also not.
Trying to dominate or control even more so not.
Some days... I hate my family.
Today (more last night) is one of those times.
EDIT:
With all good things there is some bad. With all bad things there is some good.
While my sister does drive me absolutely crazy and is overzealous and nutty, she has had some amazing ideas and has been a great advocate for me to my family to get them to my wedding to to not say anything bad against my "different" wedding. I am sorry she freaks some people out, including me. She will calm down once the excitement has lost its novelty. We just have to keep reminding her that there is not money for her to do "thing" she has in her crazy mind and thus to stop trying to push them. We want a small and simple wedding with a family picknick.
Tasks to remind myself for my sister:
- if i get the stuff to make the cute bird seed things, can she make them
- music... get me a list of criteria and i will get a list of songs so we can put togetyher some mixes
- Saturday is a derby game, can Erika come to help me
- ideas for the maid of honor and best man, and for the bride's maids
- no no no second cake
- style is celtic/asian
I will take a deep breath. I ask those helping with this wedding to also take a deep breath. My sister is like an excited child. Please endure. While she can be REALLY stressing in her excitement and crazy notions, she does mean well and does have some really great ideas. I am just more used to ignoring the nutty stuff than others.
It is MY wedding and I HAVE someone I trust COMPLETELY coordinating it.
Ideas are great.
Crazy behavior is not.
Stress or pushing is also not.
Trying to dominate or control even more so not.
Some days... I hate my family.
Today (more last night) is one of those times.
EDIT:
With all good things there is some bad. With all bad things there is some good.
While my sister does drive me absolutely crazy and is overzealous and nutty, she has had some amazing ideas and has been a great advocate for me to my family to get them to my wedding to to not say anything bad against my "different" wedding. I am sorry she freaks some people out, including me. She will calm down once the excitement has lost its novelty. We just have to keep reminding her that there is not money for her to do "thing" she has in her crazy mind and thus to stop trying to push them. We want a small and simple wedding with a family picknick.
Tasks to remind myself for my sister:
- if i get the stuff to make the cute bird seed things, can she make them
- music... get me a list of criteria and i will get a list of songs so we can put togetyher some mixes
- Saturday is a derby game, can Erika come to help me
- ideas for the maid of honor and best man, and for the bride's maids
- no no no second cake
- style is celtic/asian
I will take a deep breath. I ask those helping with this wedding to also take a deep breath. My sister is like an excited child. Please endure. While she can be REALLY stressing in her excitement and crazy notions, she does mean well and does have some really great ideas. I am just more used to ignoring the nutty stuff than others.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Why must so many things die this month?
WTF!?!
Anyways today was full of ups and down. The rollercoaster of my life. I was tired in waves yesterday and didn't get nearly as manyt hings done as I needed to. the livingroon got cleaned and laundry is in progress. Hand washing didn't happen. The floors got swept and mopped.
I couldn't sleep last night. I was wired awake then dead, then cramped, then woken by Claok chasing shadflies at 5am. I had a hard morning. Was feeling absolutely horrible when people showed up at 1pm. So much of what i had planned for people didn't happen. I just couldn't. I am so so so sorry. The ritual was wonderful and short and sweet and brought out the sun! Thanks.
The cleaning woman didn't come over as I had thought she would. Maybe I was mistaken about the day. I will call her soon to find out.
I went out to do a dress fitting. It is pretty. I wish I didn't feel so FAT! *sigh*
My sister is very very gung-ho about helping with my wedding planning. She asked me a bunch of things that I could not remember. I will have to talk with Robyn. My sister wants to come out and visit Robyn and conspire together about the wedding planning. I am not sure if I should be thrilled that the two best minds for planning things like this might put their heads together, or whether I ought to be very very scared.
As for the death in my title... my last snake, Dias, died today. She was ancient. 8 years old is ancient for her breed. I thought they lived longer. I was advised that living 5 years is a good live for them. Oh. It is sad. I have no more snakes. My giant livingroom tank is empty. M-SB suggested getting another snake. I don't know. He asked me why I am so bummed about her death when I am normally so good about deaths and have a very different view about them than most people. I am that way about people's deaths. Animal deaths effect me harder. They cannot communicate hwat is wrong with them, if anything. So I end up wondering if I missed something or if I could have done something better for them. Maybe I will move the big tank to the basement and get Mark a little box turtle or something. Free up space here and have a living thing in the basement. Maybe I will put in a rodent or something. I don't know. It is a HUGE tank. I am open to ideas. Although, budget-wise, I won't get another pet until after the wedding.
Supposedly geckos live about the same 5-ish years. Spot, my niece's gecko that i have, is now 8 years old. I worry that she will suddenly die too, but she seems to be indestructable.
I am feeling horrible again. Stupid monthly annoyance. Stupid cramps... *bitch bitch bitch*
Going to lie down for a while...
Anyways today was full of ups and down. The rollercoaster of my life. I was tired in waves yesterday and didn't get nearly as manyt hings done as I needed to. the livingroon got cleaned and laundry is in progress. Hand washing didn't happen. The floors got swept and mopped.
I couldn't sleep last night. I was wired awake then dead, then cramped, then woken by Claok chasing shadflies at 5am. I had a hard morning. Was feeling absolutely horrible when people showed up at 1pm. So much of what i had planned for people didn't happen. I just couldn't. I am so so so sorry. The ritual was wonderful and short and sweet and brought out the sun! Thanks.
The cleaning woman didn't come over as I had thought she would. Maybe I was mistaken about the day. I will call her soon to find out.
I went out to do a dress fitting. It is pretty. I wish I didn't feel so FAT! *sigh*
My sister is very very gung-ho about helping with my wedding planning. She asked me a bunch of things that I could not remember. I will have to talk with Robyn. My sister wants to come out and visit Robyn and conspire together about the wedding planning. I am not sure if I should be thrilled that the two best minds for planning things like this might put their heads together, or whether I ought to be very very scared.
As for the death in my title... my last snake, Dias, died today. She was ancient. 8 years old is ancient for her breed. I thought they lived longer. I was advised that living 5 years is a good live for them. Oh. It is sad. I have no more snakes. My giant livingroom tank is empty. M-SB suggested getting another snake. I don't know. He asked me why I am so bummed about her death when I am normally so good about deaths and have a very different view about them than most people. I am that way about people's deaths. Animal deaths effect me harder. They cannot communicate hwat is wrong with them, if anything. So I end up wondering if I missed something or if I could have done something better for them. Maybe I will move the big tank to the basement and get Mark a little box turtle or something. Free up space here and have a living thing in the basement. Maybe I will put in a rodent or something. I don't know. It is a HUGE tank. I am open to ideas. Although, budget-wise, I won't get another pet until after the wedding.
Supposedly geckos live about the same 5-ish years. Spot, my niece's gecko that i have, is now 8 years old. I worry that she will suddenly die too, but she seems to be indestructable.
I am feeling horrible again. Stupid monthly annoyance. Stupid cramps... *bitch bitch bitch*
Going to lie down for a while...
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Wierd... so wierd... should I be worried?
So... I got the livingroom cleaned. Then spent a good long time talking with my sister.
And then had DELICIOUS chicken ceasar salad with M-SB while watching SG1.
The wierd... the family that was being all drama crazy... just contacted me to say that they will be attending so long as the day is not overly hot.... all of the family... wierd.
I am suspicious and concerned and wondering if I should be worried.
Well, I hope this is a good introduction to how beautiful my non-traditional wedding is and how not so wierd I am.
And then had DELICIOUS chicken ceasar salad with M-SB while watching SG1.
The wierd... the family that was being all drama crazy... just contacted me to say that they will be attending so long as the day is not overly hot.... all of the family... wierd.
I am suspicious and concerned and wondering if I should be worried.
Well, I hope this is a good introduction to how beautiful my non-traditional wedding is and how not so wierd I am.
Wierd up and down day...
So I slept in. Fantastic!
We then headed out to run errands, like get little thingies (not telling) for the wedding. Then I stopped into work for a bit to catch up on a few things, do some internet stuff, see that things are going smooth, fix the scheduling and leave messages and such. Just a couple quick hours and then we were off yet again to get BBQ-ables for tomorrow's solsitice celebration.
I have a ton of stuff to do now: cleaning up the house for tomorrow, preparing a lecture, writing some paper, doing some online writing for my fanfic, working on a volunteer Avatar project for the forum.
I had some exciting news! I found a new cleaning woman who fits both budget and my limited available time. She came referred to me and sounds mature, professional and SUPER SWEET on the phone. I adore her already. She is dropping by very quickly tomorrow to meet me and see the house and get a feel for where it is and how she will need to work. I am already impressed. She will have her first official work day next Saturday... since I cancelled going to Echoes Fest.
That was the up, the downh... I just spent the last 30min calling hospitals and confirming telephone numbers for the ultrasound I need to have. All say I have to call on Monday very early in the morning. Monday is looking like it will be a LONG CRAZY DAY! *taking a deep breath now*
I have had a wonderful Buzz Green Tea energy drink and feel normal... hyped and energized... as opposed to the drained to hardly functional I have been since Wednesday morning.
Project list:
- clean the livingroom
- clean the kitchen
- clean the bathroom
- tidy the bedroom
- do the collossal amount of laundry
- do the hand laundry before the weather gets jinxed and rains on me again
- review my paper and start to rework the history section
- plan tomorrow's lecture
Here is a reminder to people thinking of stuff foir us for our wedding.
We especially want the 46" tv on Mark's wishlist at Best Buy. I know it is expensive, i doubt anyone will just buy it outright. Gift cards we can contribute to that purchase would be a godsend. So would gift certificates from Electrolux as we need a new good vacuum badly and I am finicky. My mom is giving me $500 from for my birthday/wedding that I can contribute to an appliance. We were thinking a dishwasher or washer/dryer, but a vacuum i like is higher on the needs scale. If you are looking at Sears at our wedding registry, we haven't put up a washer/dryer yet as we are trying to decide which ones we actually want.
Bottom line though... I just want people there at the handfasting to celebrate with us. It looks like a bunch of my family will not come because they are being stupid and dramatic because it is not a traditional wedding. I am trying hard to not let it get me down. Mark's family will be there and many of our friends. For that I am both grateful and excited. If you have not RSVP'ed, please do so. Everyone should have their invites by now unless we fucked up on an address. If you were not invited and are usually part of our invite list to things, email me ASAP (scarletcougar@gmail.com). If I have not invited you, it is because we are limited to the number of people who can come. As people decline coming, I will send out my second wave of invites. Love you all for your patience and returned love.
We then headed out to run errands, like get little thingies (not telling) for the wedding. Then I stopped into work for a bit to catch up on a few things, do some internet stuff, see that things are going smooth, fix the scheduling and leave messages and such. Just a couple quick hours and then we were off yet again to get BBQ-ables for tomorrow's solsitice celebration.
I have a ton of stuff to do now: cleaning up the house for tomorrow, preparing a lecture, writing some paper, doing some online writing for my fanfic, working on a volunteer Avatar project for the forum.
I had some exciting news! I found a new cleaning woman who fits both budget and my limited available time. She came referred to me and sounds mature, professional and SUPER SWEET on the phone. I adore her already. She is dropping by very quickly tomorrow to meet me and see the house and get a feel for where it is and how she will need to work. I am already impressed. She will have her first official work day next Saturday... since I cancelled going to Echoes Fest.
That was the up, the downh... I just spent the last 30min calling hospitals and confirming telephone numbers for the ultrasound I need to have. All say I have to call on Monday very early in the morning. Monday is looking like it will be a LONG CRAZY DAY! *taking a deep breath now*
I have had a wonderful Buzz Green Tea energy drink and feel normal... hyped and energized... as opposed to the drained to hardly functional I have been since Wednesday morning.
Project list:
- clean the livingroom
- clean the kitchen
- clean the bathroom
- tidy the bedroom
- do the collossal amount of laundry
- do the hand laundry before the weather gets jinxed and rains on me again
- review my paper and start to rework the history section
- plan tomorrow's lecture
Here is a reminder to people thinking of stuff foir us for our wedding.
We especially want the 46" tv on Mark's wishlist at Best Buy. I know it is expensive, i doubt anyone will just buy it outright. Gift cards we can contribute to that purchase would be a godsend. So would gift certificates from Electrolux as we need a new good vacuum badly and I am finicky. My mom is giving me $500 from for my birthday/wedding that I can contribute to an appliance. We were thinking a dishwasher or washer/dryer, but a vacuum i like is higher on the needs scale. If you are looking at Sears at our wedding registry, we haven't put up a washer/dryer yet as we are trying to decide which ones we actually want.
Bottom line though... I just want people there at the handfasting to celebrate with us. It looks like a bunch of my family will not come because they are being stupid and dramatic because it is not a traditional wedding. I am trying hard to not let it get me down. Mark's family will be there and many of our friends. For that I am both grateful and excited. If you have not RSVP'ed, please do so. Everyone should have their invites by now unless we fucked up on an address. If you were not invited and are usually part of our invite list to things, email me ASAP (scarletcougar@gmail.com). If I have not invited you, it is because we are limited to the number of people who can come. As people decline coming, I will send out my second wave of invites. Love you all for your patience and returned love.
Happy Summer Solstice
Did anyone hear me on CBC Radio this morning? Around 8am? How was it!?!
Today is a beautiful day for a midsummer. I wish everyone an amazing day!
Today is a beautiful day for a midsummer. I wish everyone an amazing day!
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Change of tone...
Several things have taken on a change of tone this week.
Roo broke her leg at derby. You can read about it on her blog. This means stuff at work changed and is hectic and rushed and a bit more chaotic. I never got lunch or a break the past two days. We have a TON of orders in especially for the coming fest ECHOES. Not sure if we are going to go now. I need to find someone to come with me so I can occasionally take a break from the vending take to do such important things as pee and have food. We will manage at the store for a bit. It just means some changes in routines. I miss having her at the store. *pouts* Our current staff have been absolutely wonderful. Troopers coming in for extra hours and flowing with the chaos really well. I congrat them for this and HUG them ALL lots!!! I miss online roleplaying with Roo too. She has to be laying down with her leg up for like a week or more. Our roleplayinh takes a serious decrease in activity. I'll go over and roleplay with her. OOOoooo... And I have a plan. Must contact someone to assist with said plan. *oh Karyn?!* Derby next week... I plan on going still. I don't know if Roo will come to watch or not.
I have started feeling more positive about this wedding. I don't know what happened to change that. Maybe it was seeing that people are starting to RSVP. Now if only the family drama would settle. I hopefully go for a dress fitting this weekend. CRAP! I have to get the underdress cleaned. *sigh* I wonder if I can run it carefully through the washer and hang it to dry. Maybe I will just wash it my hand tomorrow afternoon instead.
Last night I hosted a public Esbat in the name of BFC. It was a learning/experiencing circle. It was AMAZING! I had a much better feeling about it than previous rituals and the feedback was great. Everyone had a great time. I think we will do this monthly.
I am TIRED!!! So so so very tired. I don't know why. Maybe it is because of all the stresses on me that I have trying to balance as smoothly as I can. I still haven't called any hospitals or anything for that untrasound. Haven't had time. I still haven't spoken to the Religion department about the ethics forms. I haven't had time. I still haven't reworked my 10 pages of history section of my thesis. I haven't had time. *AAARRRGGGHHH*
Today I had a radio interview at CBC Radio about MidSummer and neo-Paganism. It was fun and amazing. I hope to hear it somehow. It was for "All in a Weekend" which I think airs Saturday morning sometime around 7 or 8 am.
I am home. I am waiting for stupid sympatico to go through my bank account so I know what funds I have. I tidied the kitchen a bit. I need some time for a better cleaning job. I wonder when I will get to meet the new cleaning woman. A date and time has yet to be set. I could use the help. I am off to make supper for the husband... who is wonderful by the way. In case you don't hear me say it enough. He is always wonderful. Patient, usually cooks, does cleaning now and then himself without prompting, puts up with my ever so chaotic life, and just plain loves me.
Roo broke her leg at derby. You can read about it on her blog. This means stuff at work changed and is hectic and rushed and a bit more chaotic. I never got lunch or a break the past two days. We have a TON of orders in especially for the coming fest ECHOES. Not sure if we are going to go now. I need to find someone to come with me so I can occasionally take a break from the vending take to do such important things as pee and have food. We will manage at the store for a bit. It just means some changes in routines. I miss having her at the store. *pouts* Our current staff have been absolutely wonderful. Troopers coming in for extra hours and flowing with the chaos really well. I congrat them for this and HUG them ALL lots!!! I miss online roleplaying with Roo too. She has to be laying down with her leg up for like a week or more. Our roleplayinh takes a serious decrease in activity. I'll go over and roleplay with her. OOOoooo... And I have a plan. Must contact someone to assist with said plan. *oh Karyn?!* Derby next week... I plan on going still. I don't know if Roo will come to watch or not.
I have started feeling more positive about this wedding. I don't know what happened to change that. Maybe it was seeing that people are starting to RSVP. Now if only the family drama would settle. I hopefully go for a dress fitting this weekend. CRAP! I have to get the underdress cleaned. *sigh* I wonder if I can run it carefully through the washer and hang it to dry. Maybe I will just wash it my hand tomorrow afternoon instead.
Last night I hosted a public Esbat in the name of BFC. It was a learning/experiencing circle. It was AMAZING! I had a much better feeling about it than previous rituals and the feedback was great. Everyone had a great time. I think we will do this monthly.
I am TIRED!!! So so so very tired. I don't know why. Maybe it is because of all the stresses on me that I have trying to balance as smoothly as I can. I still haven't called any hospitals or anything for that untrasound. Haven't had time. I still haven't spoken to the Religion department about the ethics forms. I haven't had time. I still haven't reworked my 10 pages of history section of my thesis. I haven't had time. *AAARRRGGGHHH*
Today I had a radio interview at CBC Radio about MidSummer and neo-Paganism. It was fun and amazing. I hope to hear it somehow. It was for "All in a Weekend" which I think airs Saturday morning sometime around 7 or 8 am.
I am home. I am waiting for stupid sympatico to go through my bank account so I know what funds I have. I tidied the kitchen a bit. I need some time for a better cleaning job. I wonder when I will get to meet the new cleaning woman. A date and time has yet to be set. I could use the help. I am off to make supper for the husband... who is wonderful by the way. In case you don't hear me say it enough. He is always wonderful. Patient, usually cooks, does cleaning now and then himself without prompting, puts up with my ever so chaotic life, and just plain loves me.
Friday, June 13, 2008
I am a horrible mom...
In an effort to get the squirrels used to the outside, I left them out today when I went to teach at 7:15am this morning. I only got hom at 8pm. They had knocked over the water I put in their cage and died in the heat today.
All I can thing of is that I should have brought them inside before I left in the morning.
My thanks to everyone who did what they could to help me save them.
EDIT:
After further inspection, they have been vomiting up bits of that green plastic. They likely died from that.
I ask myself a 100 things i could have done better/sooner...
sooner enclosure, removed the plastic landings, new water bottle instead of a water dish... and so on...
I still feel like I was a horrible mom to the squirrels...
*cries*
All I can thing of is that I should have brought them inside before I left in the morning.
My thanks to everyone who did what they could to help me save them.
EDIT:
After further inspection, they have been vomiting up bits of that green plastic. They likely died from that.
I ask myself a 100 things i could have done better/sooner...
sooner enclosure, removed the plastic landings, new water bottle instead of a water dish... and so on...
I still feel like I was a horrible mom to the squirrels...
*cries*
Monday, June 09, 2008
Registry
M-SB and I spent the evening setting up a wedding registry.
We did it with SEARS. We tried to do one with Best Buy as that have the TV we want, but they only do wish lists. So M-SB has one there. We are looking into the big things: washer/dryer, dishwasher, TV & sound system, sofa, mattress. Many of these things are not on our wishlists/registry as we need to actually LOOK at them or FLOP on them for feel. *snicker*
Ok... Karen and Robyn and Jess... you are all right. This was kinda fun!
Now I have one problem. Ring. We got a ring for MSB that he liked. I have yet to find one that I like.
We did it with SEARS. We tried to do one with Best Buy as that have the TV we want, but they only do wish lists. So M-SB has one there. We are looking into the big things: washer/dryer, dishwasher, TV & sound system, sofa, mattress. Many of these things are not on our wishlists/registry as we need to actually LOOK at them or FLOP on them for feel. *snicker*
Ok... Karen and Robyn and Jess... you are all right. This was kinda fun!
Now I have one problem. Ring. We got a ring for MSB that he liked. I have yet to find one that I like.
Sunday, June 08, 2008
Snakes
My Dias is not well. She has grown thin and is not interested in food or much water and even hisses at me. She has turned up her second meal. I went to get her live pinkies to see if that intices her to eat. The news from the specialist there... my snake is not sick... she is bloody old.
Sigh... I hate just watching her grow old and die like this.
Sigh... I hate just watching her grow old and die like this.
Nervous and kinda excited...
M-SB and I went to see the guy, Gary Mak, about the Chinese overdress. I think it will be beautiful. It is red Chainese silk brocade with goldish dragons and phoenixes. They have a hint of blue/turquoise in the the animals. That color will be the inside of the overdress, so it will peak through from under the hanging panels. It is going to be so beautiful.
Apparently the brushed silk dress I have is not silk at all. Very sad. It is a rouch brushed cotton blend. Still soft and pretty though. It needs to be cleaned. I don't think it is as fancy as Gary expected. I wanted simple.
we gave him our budget, hoping we could do both the over dress and a simple shirt for M-SB. Unfortunately not. He is quite expensive. My overdress will be $400. I left there having some panic attacks. Still am. On the way home I was seriously considering calling him and thanking him and decididing not to do this, deciding to go with the back-up dress that just needs some taking in. M-SB asked me if I wanted the red over dress. I do. I would like it, but it is so expensive. I want to cry. M-SB said that we will get it anyways. I love him. And I still want to cry.
As for shoes, I have pretty strappy sandal shoes that will be just fine. I can wear a lovely blue and turquoise anklet with hints of red to balance the overdress. Maybe turquoise and cinnebar stones with some gold and silver and some jinglies if I can find some. I have time to look.
I still need to get a nice comfy bra. Maybe I can suck it up and use something I already have that won't really be noticed underneath anyways.
I have no idea how I am going to pay my bills this month and next.
DEPTS:
- $200 to mom for car payment
- $120 to Sympatico
- $400 to Hydro
- $80 to Bell
And gas prices went up...
And I still need roller gear... protective gear for my knees and head.
*panic attack*
Apparently the brushed silk dress I have is not silk at all. Very sad. It is a rouch brushed cotton blend. Still soft and pretty though. It needs to be cleaned. I don't think it is as fancy as Gary expected. I wanted simple.
we gave him our budget, hoping we could do both the over dress and a simple shirt for M-SB. Unfortunately not. He is quite expensive. My overdress will be $400. I left there having some panic attacks. Still am. On the way home I was seriously considering calling him and thanking him and decididing not to do this, deciding to go with the back-up dress that just needs some taking in. M-SB asked me if I wanted the red over dress. I do. I would like it, but it is so expensive. I want to cry. M-SB said that we will get it anyways. I love him. And I still want to cry.
As for shoes, I have pretty strappy sandal shoes that will be just fine. I can wear a lovely blue and turquoise anklet with hints of red to balance the overdress. Maybe turquoise and cinnebar stones with some gold and silver and some jinglies if I can find some. I have time to look.
I still need to get a nice comfy bra. Maybe I can suck it up and use something I already have that won't really be noticed underneath anyways.
I have no idea how I am going to pay my bills this month and next.
DEPTS:
- $200 to mom for car payment
- $120 to Sympatico
- $400 to Hydro
- $80 to Bell
And gas prices went up...
And I still need roller gear... protective gear for my knees and head.
*panic attack*
Saturday, June 07, 2008
Handfasting
OMG... I am getting Handfasted... in a month...
I will be seeing someone about designed stuff to wear tomorrow. If it is not within budget, I have a backup dress. We have a ring for M-SB that he loves. and Roo seems to have everything under control.
Part of me is so very excited that I am getting handfasted. Actually and finally.
Part of me can't believe it and is waiting for it to just fall through like it has every single other time for whatever reason.
Part of me is just so tired from everything else I am doing that I feel kinda numb about this.
I want to be excited... i do... as opposed to feeling like I want to cry becasue it is so soon and something will steal it or deny me it again.
I feel so unprepared.
I feel too poor to afford it.
I feel like... I don't know.
Maybe once people get the invitations... I will feel more happy and excited as people get happy and excited around me. Oh... if you do not get invited, please do not be upset. I have to stay under a certain amount of people and have had to narrow off a bunch. We are keeping it small and focused on closed freinds and family.
I will be seeing someone about designed stuff to wear tomorrow. If it is not within budget, I have a backup dress. We have a ring for M-SB that he loves. and Roo seems to have everything under control.
Part of me is so very excited that I am getting handfasted. Actually and finally.
Part of me can't believe it and is waiting for it to just fall through like it has every single other time for whatever reason.
Part of me is just so tired from everything else I am doing that I feel kinda numb about this.
I want to be excited... i do... as opposed to feeling like I want to cry becasue it is so soon and something will steal it or deny me it again.
I feel so unprepared.
I feel too poor to afford it.
I feel like... I don't know.
Maybe once people get the invitations... I will feel more happy and excited as people get happy and excited around me. Oh... if you do not get invited, please do not be upset. I have to stay under a certain amount of people and have had to narrow off a bunch. We are keeping it small and focused on closed freinds and family.
Thursday, June 05, 2008
And then there was Crazy...
Ya... stupid people in their stupid cars pretending the regular roads are race tracks...
and now... my cats are crazy...
and now... my cats are crazy...
Results
Well, Ash is bringing wood and making the frame for the new squirrel cage. I only need to get the chicken wire.
After my slow and achy start this morning, I had to endure far too much time crawling thru the formula 1 tourists and construction around Concordia to get to my doctor's appointment... late by 45min.
Results:
My knee has no permanent damage. It is fine save for deep bruising and swelling. It will just take a long time to slowly heal. I am to keep it bandaged for supprot when it feel unstable and I am not kno kneel. You never think about how often you kneel and figure that you hardly ever do this until you hurt when you do... then you realize just how often you ACTUALLY kneel and how often you NEED to. *rawr*
Bloodtests did not come out with as much good news. I was retested for 3 things that showed up high last test. The most recent showed one of those three still abnormal. My GGT was higher. Normal reading is 35. October's was 41. May's was 48. It is not high enough to panic, but high enough for my doctor to be concerned and want me to get an ultrasound. What is GGT I had asked? GGT is the acronym for an enzyme that the liver produces. It is usually high in people who drink alcohol. Anyone who knowsd me would find this funny. I almost never drink alcohol. And when I do, it is likely 1/2 a glass that last me ALL NIGHT. There are dozens of other reasons why this result is high, thus the need for an ultrasound. I have a blood retest scheduled for early August and the ultrasound couldn't be scheduled at the Mtl General till November 26th. Tomorrow I have to try to see if I can get one sooner at a different hospital or clinic, ideally free. My doctor said that it is likely nothing to worry about since I seem healthy otherwise and am not in any pain. I told her worrying is a waste of energy. I will worry when I ACTUALLY have something to worry about. This doesn't mean I am not concerned. I am.
My house looks like world war 5... I am off to try to save it a little.
After my slow and achy start this morning, I had to endure far too much time crawling thru the formula 1 tourists and construction around Concordia to get to my doctor's appointment... late by 45min.
Results:
My knee has no permanent damage. It is fine save for deep bruising and swelling. It will just take a long time to slowly heal. I am to keep it bandaged for supprot when it feel unstable and I am not kno kneel. You never think about how often you kneel and figure that you hardly ever do this until you hurt when you do... then you realize just how often you ACTUALLY kneel and how often you NEED to. *rawr*
Bloodtests did not come out with as much good news. I was retested for 3 things that showed up high last test. The most recent showed one of those three still abnormal. My GGT was higher. Normal reading is 35. October's was 41. May's was 48. It is not high enough to panic, but high enough for my doctor to be concerned and want me to get an ultrasound. What is GGT I had asked? GGT is the acronym for an enzyme that the liver produces. It is usually high in people who drink alcohol. Anyone who knowsd me would find this funny. I almost never drink alcohol. And when I do, it is likely 1/2 a glass that last me ALL NIGHT. There are dozens of other reasons why this result is high, thus the need for an ultrasound. I have a blood retest scheduled for early August and the ultrasound couldn't be scheduled at the Mtl General till November 26th. Tomorrow I have to try to see if I can get one sooner at a different hospital or clinic, ideally free. My doctor said that it is likely nothing to worry about since I seem healthy otherwise and am not in any pain. I told her worrying is a waste of energy. I will worry when I ACTUALLY have something to worry about. This doesn't mean I am not concerned. I am.
My house looks like world war 5... I am off to try to save it a little.
Thursday... feels like Monday...
I couldn't sleep last night. I tried and failed. I woke early to noisy cats and locked them from the bedroom. I barely reguistered my husband leaving for work. I did register every joint aching and hurting from about 9am onward. It seems to have eased now and only aching in one hand. Stupid damp chill weather.
Today feels slow and like a Monday. Bleh...
I have to go to a doctor's appointment today. I had those x-rays and had to redo a bloodtest due to a wierdness that showed up on the first bloodtests. Today I go to find out the results. All I do know is there is no actual damage to the bones in my knee.
Then I have to stop by a bank, deposit my pay and go to pay my fee on a car debt. *sigh*
When I get home, I will attempt to clean the squirrels. And need to clean some of the house. There is a party tonight for the staff that are leaving. Hurley's it is at 9pm. Mmmmm... baked brie... and an After Eight...
OH OH ... handfasting fun... need to remember to bring Roo some stickers.
Today feels slow and like a Monday. Bleh...
I have to go to a doctor's appointment today. I had those x-rays and had to redo a bloodtest due to a wierdness that showed up on the first bloodtests. Today I go to find out the results. All I do know is there is no actual damage to the bones in my knee.
Then I have to stop by a bank, deposit my pay and go to pay my fee on a car debt. *sigh*
When I get home, I will attempt to clean the squirrels. And need to clean some of the house. There is a party tonight for the staff that are leaving. Hurley's it is at 9pm. Mmmmm... baked brie... and an After Eight...
OH OH ... handfasting fun... need to remember to bring Roo some stickers.
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Magic and Mayhem
Well... let's get thru this as quickly as I can... because it is emotional and rediculous.
Derby:
That was so F-ing AMAZING! I can't wait to be there again. It was the first time I got to see the game played beyond the rulebook I was reading. Hard and scary and challenging and amazing! I greatly enjoyed keeping score and will do it again until I am better with my skates. Watching the out of town refs was ... i have no words for it. The Baltimore ref JUSTICE was the most amazing skater I had ever seen. Three girls collided with a ref and fell inward of the track and he turns and JUMPED the ENTIRE group! He jumped individual girls to keep watch of what he had to and was just so amazing to watch skate. The girls played hard games. They hit hard and were hit hard in turn. Unfortunately they suffered being called for so many penalties. It was clear the girls have NOT read the rules. They are skating but hardly know what the rules are or how to avoid problem. That was frustrating. They had better read the new rules which will get implemented soon and are tougher with the penalties, also clearer what is a penalty and how to recognize one. The magic of the game was being part of the very understaffed reffing crew and pulling off handling the jobs even though some of us were doing double-duty! I congrat those with the tougher ref jobs and those who had to be on their skates and constantly moving for over 2 and a half hours!! The mayhem... the end of game.... and some of the beginning of it. News for the announcers, please do NOT encourage the audience to boo or disrespect the refs. That can sometimes lead to other things. Like tonight the fans threw empty beer cans INTO the rink. Worse and DANGEROUS... they even threw full ones... and many people had no helmets and had backs to the audience (crunching numbers for scores and such). It was tupid and riotous and DANGEROUS and not cool. It also made a horrible impression to the out of towners who were in Montreal for the first time. Some will never come back. These teams will likely not recommend coming to Montreal... for safety reasons. The other downer was a Montreal girl tearing apart a ref. It was unprofessional. She did it and it sounded way more personal than necessary and gave the impression we were hot tempered, disrespectful, out of control and immature as players. We are trying to impress the teams that are IN the league association so we can get league recognition. Those that witnessed the unprofessional misconduct will likely not recommend us for league approval. OUCH. Soured the night and the game. I hope to get to talk to some of the players, coaches and refs on Tuesday. Dunno yet what I want to say or how. But ... SOMETHING needs to be said.
Day After:
Some plum wine, good roleplaying, and shopping... bought a pretty skirt I think I will wear later in the week when it is not raining.
This Evening:
Derby Team "La Racaille" sent a message that was so badly needed. They thanked us for the hard work we put in. It meant alot girls! Thank you!
EXCITING:
OMG... so exciting! I got an A- for my evil Buddhism class! an A- !!! OMG!!! EEEEEEEEEE!!! SQUEEEEEEE!!! *bounces around and dances about the office* SQUEEEE!!!!
Derby:
That was so F-ing AMAZING! I can't wait to be there again. It was the first time I got to see the game played beyond the rulebook I was reading. Hard and scary and challenging and amazing! I greatly enjoyed keeping score and will do it again until I am better with my skates. Watching the out of town refs was ... i have no words for it. The Baltimore ref JUSTICE was the most amazing skater I had ever seen. Three girls collided with a ref and fell inward of the track and he turns and JUMPED the ENTIRE group! He jumped individual girls to keep watch of what he had to and was just so amazing to watch skate. The girls played hard games. They hit hard and were hit hard in turn. Unfortunately they suffered being called for so many penalties. It was clear the girls have NOT read the rules. They are skating but hardly know what the rules are or how to avoid problem. That was frustrating. They had better read the new rules which will get implemented soon and are tougher with the penalties, also clearer what is a penalty and how to recognize one. The magic of the game was being part of the very understaffed reffing crew and pulling off handling the jobs even though some of us were doing double-duty! I congrat those with the tougher ref jobs and those who had to be on their skates and constantly moving for over 2 and a half hours!! The mayhem... the end of game.... and some of the beginning of it. News for the announcers, please do NOT encourage the audience to boo or disrespect the refs. That can sometimes lead to other things. Like tonight the fans threw empty beer cans INTO the rink. Worse and DANGEROUS... they even threw full ones... and many people had no helmets and had backs to the audience (crunching numbers for scores and such). It was tupid and riotous and DANGEROUS and not cool. It also made a horrible impression to the out of towners who were in Montreal for the first time. Some will never come back. These teams will likely not recommend coming to Montreal... for safety reasons. The other downer was a Montreal girl tearing apart a ref. It was unprofessional. She did it and it sounded way more personal than necessary and gave the impression we were hot tempered, disrespectful, out of control and immature as players. We are trying to impress the teams that are IN the league association so we can get league recognition. Those that witnessed the unprofessional misconduct will likely not recommend us for league approval. OUCH. Soured the night and the game. I hope to get to talk to some of the players, coaches and refs on Tuesday. Dunno yet what I want to say or how. But ... SOMETHING needs to be said.
Day After:
Some plum wine, good roleplaying, and shopping... bought a pretty skirt I think I will wear later in the week when it is not raining.
This Evening:
Derby Team "La Racaille" sent a message that was so badly needed. They thanked us for the hard work we put in. It meant alot girls! Thank you!
EXCITING:
OMG... so exciting! I got an A- for my evil Buddhism class! an A- !!! OMG!!! EEEEEEEEEE!!! SQUEEEEEEE!!! *bounces around and dances about the office* SQUEEEE!!!!
